im sorry friends, for not posting for such a long time.
it's like. hmm. more than a month. LOL.
ok. i was just feeling very tired and many things went through my mind.
so i decided to post on the blog?
the reason i dont post is because i have so many things to update about.
and i may not have the time to post everything that i want.
hmm. so let's just see what i post today ba.
hopefully as much as i can.

i didn't go to skol for more than a week le.
have been having slight fever since 7th april.
but seriously, it is only slight fever.
i felt ok in the morning and only had fever by the time i reach home.
that's why i didn't go for CCA on the 8th. yup.
so on the 10th is good friday. was supposed to go for overnight cycling with sports club.
but in the end i was at home lying on my bed. i can't go =(
and on saturday (11 april) i had kinda high fever. like 38.6? about there.
despite that, i went to buy contact lenses and make a new spectacle.
weird huh. but i realise my face was red when i was at the shop.
but nevermind, everything was ok.
after that my fever was back to slight fever again.
and i have no idea why it's not recovering.
so finally, i went to the doctor on monday thinking of getting MC and take a break.
i never expect a long break though. just expect a one-day break.
but in the end, i did blood test and have low platelets count.
was suspected to have dengue fever. though i have fever and nothing else.
ok. i have no idea. it's very complicated.
someone from NEA came to 'interview' me on tuesday. *faint*
i had my blood test on monday, tuesday, yesterday and today.
platelets count drop on tuesday but increase greatly yesterday.
i was so happy. thinking that i can soon go back to school and for my CCA.
but. my platelets count drop again today. hais. not again.
so i can't go school on monday and have to take another blood test.
hopefully the last blood test *praying*
i'm out of blood already. the nurse tried to squeeze some blood out of me today.
i guess i really didn't drink enough water ba.
but i don't feel feverish anymore. just tired. a little stress. a little sad.
and of course a little dizzy today 'cause i think i'm really out of blood.
the doctor whom i consult is the same for yesterday and today.
he just keep telling me. you are still not out of the wood.
even when he measure my temperature and it's 37.3.
he said " it's not considered fever but it's borderline ".
he just never make me feel that i will be okay.
everytime he just sound like 'don't be too happy yet'.
and i just keep asking him when i can do physical activities.
the main reason is because of my CCA. i shall elaborate on this later or next time.

during this period of time, friends and family are the most important.
thanks joyce, fiona and victor for visiting that day and pass me all my homework.
though i really feel stress after that. but i don't think i should slack during this period.
there's so many things i have to catch up on.
thanks nat for updating me on what's going on in class and in school, and of course homework.
haha. thanks for lending me your notes to copy and all.
thanks siowyun for helping to scan and everything.
thanks germaine for helping me to pass notes and homework.
thanks everyone for your concern.
i will go back to school real real real soon. most probably and hopefully tuesday.
though i know i will feel really stress after that. but it's better than staying at home everyday.
thanks to my family and MOMO for everything.
hope it will really be over soon.
i want to go back to school.
i want to have fun with my friends.
i want to go for CCA and train for tchoukball.
but all this still depend on the blood test on monday.

when i see pak during the family day carnival i was so so happy.
suddenly just have the cheerleading feel.
whenever i see/hear fiona talking about cheerleading i think it's so fun.
but looking at my schedule and everything i don't think i can join this year.
as far as i really want to join, i don't think i can.
it's like. i can't always get whatever i want.
sometimes i need to sacrifice some stuff for others.
well. looking at the fact that i didn't go school for a week and i can't do physical activities.
i'm kind of glad that i'm not in cheerleading.
'cause eventually i won't be able to join in the performance.
eventually i will miss all the practice and it doesn't make a difference from not joining at all.
JIAYOU everyone! for all the SYFs and tournaments.