OMG! today is 29th feb. LOLx.
a special day yeah.
bcoz its 29! n not oni dat.
it happens oni once every 4 yrs.
LOLx. pple. cherish tis precious 29th feb yeah.
haha. today went for squash trial.
die la. tis time is worse than the 1st time i went lo.
no hope oredi. hav to say bye to squash.
but i believe if im in squash i will enjoy my jc life.
the passion for it is dere.
but the opportunity is not dere for mi. HAHA.
i dunno. squash is fun! LOLx.
mayb i will stay in CO?? i dunno.

monday gonna wear jc uniform le. LOLx.
v not used to it. coz i hav to tuck in!
i hav nvr tuck in uniform in my life. HAHA.
quite excited but oso quite sad.
bcoz tis means today is the last day wearing zh uniform.
i certainly miss zhss. but life moves on.
im leaving zhss n i may or may not visit it again.
oh no. getting emo. haha.
i realli do miss zhss. or issit him dat i miss.
haha. i dunno. betta not noe.

im gonan stay at home n study tis weekend!
yeah. im hardworking. i noe. haha.
i tink monday we will noe our new classes le.
a bit sian. coz i realli hope we stay as a class.
the feeling of making frens again is super sian.
hope wat the seniors say r true.
hope we will stay tgt n new pple will join in.
we will not left them out. definitely.
we r nice pple! HAHA.
i will try to get photos of 29/08.
currently dun hav it wif mi. LOLx.
but seniors oso say le.
we may stay tgt but we wun in 29.
sian! i can nvr b in 29 le.
tis juz shows dat its not meant to b yeah.
LOLx. in the beginning its like mine.
in the end realise it doesnt belong to mi.
sound emo?? haha. ok. i shall not continue.

oh ya. pple. forgive mi for being dao.
LOLx. i realise recently i dun like to tok alot.
on msn my replies r damn dao.
sms halfway i will stop. LOLx.
i dunno y ok. but i tink i hav nth to say ba.
scare phone bill burst oso.
sometimes didnt even reply pple. my god!
when did i bcome so bad. LOLx.
im surprise dat now i can spend hours to reply pple de msg.
dats a change in mi man.

my frens reminded mi of u.
i realise u r still the perfect one in my mind.
but mayb its juz not meant to b.
we r so far frm each other now.
wat hav u been doing. i dunno.
mayb everything will juz end ba.

ahhh!! i dun realli noe how i feel rit now.
i juz realli dun feel good.
but i dunno how to phrase it oso.
so i oso dunno who i shld tok to.
LOLx. coz eventually i wun say anithing.
but i noe im not quite happy.
i dunno y. haha.
mayb bcoz i hav nvr had so many wants b4.
i dunno whether its wants or needs.
somehow i find it a need.
but. hmm. i wun get it.
its not like i will get watever i wan yeah.
im juz not like some pple.
who juz get wat they wan.
n its oni tis yr dat i suddenly realise i nd help.
all the while i hav no prob of saving money.
n now i seriously wan to save money.
but how. when deres always class lunch n everything.
wat if i choose not to b dere??
dats v bad actually. but i dunno.
n now i realli dunno how.
whether to spend money. how to save money.
im gonna work during march holiday.
not everyday but some days.
in nd of money. n moreover its holiday.
dere shld b enough time for mi to spare yeah.
LOLx. i dun realli hav a choice though.
my dog is back home oredi!!
but its juz the beginning of his training.
at some point of time i feel kinda sad.
coz he doesnt seem to do wat hes supposed to do.
i cant blame him coz he dun do dat last time.
mayb we started to late.
n now we r struggling.
hoping one day he will get it.
i realli hope dat day will come.
hes getting it oredi.
at least hes more obedient now oredi. haha.

i realli tink deres no point in liking someone.
i mean if he dun feel anithing for u at all.
or i shld say mayb he dun like u at all.
mayb its gd dat sometimes we do feel something for some pple.
but. hmm. wats the point realli. LOLx.
will anithing happen?? mayb. but who knows.
its best not to feel anithing.
in case u r hurt when he like someone else.
in case he totally dun care abt how u feel.
wont dat make our life happier??
i tink so n i hope so.
so im trying to b neutral.
to feel nth for everyone. LOLx.
coz eventually dat doesnt belong to mi.
it belong to somewhere n someone else.
n the ending is. we r nth.
im still alone on my own. wif frens n family of coz.
LOLx. so wats the point.
hmm. its time to change my tinking!

n i come to point of cca oredi.
everytime tink of tis i dunno wat to do.
wat shld i join.
try out for sports? or juz go CO.
which i tink is quite boring =x
dats how i feel for 1st intake la.
coz everyday go dere n stare.
didnt realli learn anithing lei.
so mayb i shld juz go do something i like??
hmm. tink tink tink.
i realli dunno.
but i hope the ans will b out soon.

deres probs everyday. esp recently.
no wonder sometimes i juz feel like slping.
coz i dun wan to tink of anithing.
i am. realli am tinkin abt alot of things.
worrying abt tis n dat.
i hope i dun hav to tink anymore =)

today is 2nd day of orientation!
LOLx. damn high tis time round can.
dunno y la. juz wanna get high lo.
n the games tis time round realli more fun.
keep cheering n shouting! wahaha.
my og is my class!
though got 2nd intaker la.
but actually we still play like we noe each other.
dun realli hav the barrier dere la.
like they r the 2nd intaker. LOLx.
but im not here to tok abt orientation actually.

juz wan to type out some stuff i tot thru last few days.
since im in aj. i tell myself im gonna start a new life.
forget abt someone whom i rmb for more than 2 yrs le.
i tot of going back zhss mayb for sports day.
but i oso realise its meaningless.
coz i noe the reason im dere. juz bcoz of him.
not bcoz of the skol or the teachers.
its him. always him. i feel bad to say dat.
but teachers in zhss r leaving. so wats the point.
if i go back is to c him run. realli.
i juz keep telling myself. its time to forget him.
i was telling my fren coz he jio someone for 1 yr.
i told him. 1 yr is enough to show everything.
if the gal like him she will accept yeah.
obviously she dun realli care abt him la.
then i suddenly realise.
i waited for 2 yrs. OMG.
isnt dat stupid of mi. waiting for nth.
like as if something will happen.
now we r drifting apart. wats the point.
if anithing will happen it wun b aft 2 yrs yeah.
hard to say. mayb hes now jio-ing gals.
the gal he like la.
i noe he will completely forget mi.
its oni one-sided dat im tinkin of him.
so mayb its time to go. though i wish i could wait.

n i tink i shld juz stay neutral abt everything now.
coz i realise jealousy is killing mi.
i cant deny dat sometimes jealousy is taking over mi.
i cant let dat happen.
i dislike pple. even hate some pple. bcome critical.
all bcoz of jealousy. or mayb deres something else.
but i dunno wats dat.
i dun hav to noe wats dat.
i oni noe i hav to lead my life happily.
n the oni way is to feel neutral for everything.
no likes. no dislikes. dat makes my life alot easier.

miss ANYTHING. =)

not bad lei. now post once a week.
but its ok la. i still rmb =)

i was quite emo in the beginning of the week.
haha. but the reason is weird.
its bcoz i spend too much on V day.
my god. my aj frens shld feel fortunate yeah.
first time i spend 65+ bucks on V day.
though not all on them la. for 20 pple.
but i tink its too much la.
so i was v sad. LOLx.
sad for a weird reason.
n tis yr is the first time i realli wrote cards.
my god. i got a shock.
when did i start treating frens so gd.
haha. prob in sec 4 ba.
coz all i hav now is frens! n of coz family.
n they do make my life happier =)
thanks to all my frens dat i still can smile now.

ok. so wat happens on V day.
LOLx. gift exchange as usual.
the gals in my class agree on giving everybody something.
standardise like its a class thingy.
w/o the guys though.
coz the gals n the guys r realli not close.
LOLx. ok. i dunno y. its juz liddat.
n i bought handphone pouch for everyone!
aint i nice? i noe i am =x
wahaha. but others give nice things as well.
im gd enough to give the guys chocolate rit.
LOLx. bought some extras. sound bad.
but at least i give hor. LOLx.
n i release damn early on dat day. 12.15pm.
isnt dat cool?? LOLx.
n my class took tons of pics.
but they didnt send mi!!!
still hav to ask them for pics.
v tired lei =x haha.
a bit random here. 29/08 rocks! esp the gals.
sad thing is dat pple r leaving.
n we r reshuffling classes.
ok. i dunno wat will happen in 02.
but realli feel kinda sian.
monday is like the 'last' day. WTH.
ok. so on V day i met cass soph val n ger aft skol!
haha. of coz we give everyone present rit.
i gave them flowers! fake one though.
LOLx. i tink fake one betta lei.
coz it wun die n it last.
n our friendship will last! =x haha.
soph gave us brownie.
cass gave cookies. n val choco.
ger gave. haha. some random stuff.
shld say cookies or biscuit lei.
watever la. cass soph n mi wrote cards!
haha. see. we r nice pple =)
we went marina square n ate cafe cartel.
sorie ok. coz i dun feel like watching movie.
haha. but i wan to read the book. p.s. i love you =)
some say movie nice some say not.
but the book is definitely nice! haha.
cass. im waiting for u. =p
dats the end of V day.
coz nxt day i got cross-country n bio test. *faint*

as usual. i failed my bio test.
tis time is realli dat bad.
but the ans is not even in the notes.
we hav to DSA. n i didnt hav the time.
so actually many pple failed.
juz not as bad as mi =x haha.
then come the exciting part! cross-country.
LOLx. pple sure tink im mad.
esp sec skol pple yeah.
coz i dun like running.
but no la. ever since im in aj.
i tell myself run run n run.
n im glad. during PE i dun stop running.
n tis is the first time cross-country i ran!
cool rit. LOLx. i continue running.
but i stop bcoz i was feel damn queasy in my stomach.
tink i drink too much b4 dat.
so i walk a bit. didnt realise the finishing point is in front.
until my fren tap mi frm the back n tell mi dat.
so i juz faster chiong back lo. haha.
its stupid of mi dat im tinkin of someone while running.
telling myself i hav to run coz of him.
not a new guy in aj though. LOLx.

entering aj make mi even more stupid abt him.
y do i still tink of him.
y do i still hope dat something will happen.
i did tink of him on V day.
but who knows. prob hes wif some other gals.
am i not stupid to tink of someone who dun even care abt mi.
of coz i am. im reflecting.
i hope one day i will no longer tink of him.
i hope one day he will b out of my mind.

went pasir ris in the morning yesterday.
train my dog as usual.
i tink hes gonna b back nxt week! yay!
but im worried. he dun seem to listen to mi.
coz im not firm enough =(
training him is difficult. but i hav to do it.
i juz dunno wat will happen when hes back.
i cant deny when hes not at home.
the hse is clean n everything.
but dat doesnt mean i shld let him go.
actually. i dun realli noe.
aft dat went to collect my phone.
meet jy. gave her V day present.
n she gave mi wat she bought in thai.
then aft dat meet ger to study at my hse! LOLx.
n go her hse eat dinner =x
obviously we didnt realli study.
we were tokin all along. haha.
go her hse eat dinner n help her wash dishes ok.
im nice =) if not v paiseh. haha.

ok la. i shall end here!

photos! LOLx.

tis one taken at huimin's workplace.
aft my skol. wearing her clothing.
no choice. its a pool place at katong.
she trying to act guai.
n mi. the usual guai gal =x wahaha.


tis one taken by ger.
LOLx. we were playing.
one. two. three!


the day aft we get our results.
LOLx. we took neos but nvr scan.
we went bugis n took some pics.






ok. last but not least.
my first day of new yr! LOLx.
juz 2 pics of mi >.<



the end.

ok! i shall post today.
LOLx. since im at home.
hmm. start frm new yr eve ba.
went back to zh wif aj de ah pple.
LOLx. sound confusing.
coz deres realli alot of us =p
but many r leaving. pple r coming in too la.
i was quite disappointed wif aj de performance.
shall not say too much abt y. LOLx.
went back zh n tis yr they end at ard 11.
i tink so if i nvr rmb wrongly.
tink its quite early.
coz normally we r ltr.
n heard dat they canot get any holiday for our gd results.
LOLx. coz the principal says they r not the ones who got it.
true. moreover tis batch realli nd to work hard.
gd luck to them anyway.
aft dat is 4e4 gathering!
dats the reason i went back zh actually.
coz im lazy to go home change.
so decided to juz follow them. haha.
we went to watch kungfu dunk.
not much comments actually.
coz i dun tink its realli nice.
but its ok oso.
i will say. if u like jay chou juz go watch.
dunno whether i wanna watch ah long pte ltd.
coz heard dat its quite lame.
the show starts at 3.50pm.
b4 dat the guys went pool.
mi n cass cant go coz we wearing skol u.
so the gals went shopping!
im still tinkin whether i shld get another piercing. LOLx.
a bit no point la. but quite nice oso.
aft the movie val show us her workpiece.
LOLx. not realli workpiece la.
she juz compile her memories in sec skol.
frm sec 1 to sec 4.
wow. its realli nice of her.
n she ask us to sign on it. LOLx.
i dun tink i will b able to make one though.
ok. n aft dat everyone rush home for reunion dinner!

nxt. the first day of new yr. LOLx.
new yr is realli nth special for mi lo.
juz go grandma hse. chat n get angbao.
chat wif my aunt. LOLx.
shes realli damn funny la.
but she oso teach mi alot of things la.
remembering her son is now in RJC.
ok. hes smart la. her son is my cousin duh.
juz a few months older than mi.
not v impt though.
somehow i didnt go anywhere else.
firstly my parents dun visit their frens.
secondly my father side no longer gather.
aft the death of my grandpa a few yrs ago.
yeah. so i didnt do much visiting.
2nd day almost rot at home oredi. LOLx.
n as expected. angbao money not much la.
but its ok. im not gonna take a single cent!
i want save money ok. LOLx.
2nd day my da jie came home.
they start drinking wine.
drank a bit.
but i realli wonder y they like drinking.
then she oso brought home casino card game.
LOLx. she learn how to play casino game at her workplace.
fun rit. i tink dats y she wanan work dere lo.
LOLx. shes working for the ministry.
a civil servant la. haha.
then she got the chips n everything.
tink shes gonna bcome a gambler soon. LOLx.
n tis new yr nvr go ktv. nvr play mahjong.
wats tis!?! dats y its damn sian la.
i wan go ktv!! v long nvr go le.

yesterday morning i went mutts n mittens of coz.
LOLx. went to train snowy.
damn sad la. coz he dun listen to mi =(
but aft the boss come he listen to mi.
im the closest to him but i cant train him.
bcoz he treat mi as his playmate.
sian. im working hard ok.
boss say canot give up.
if i give up on him he will give up on mi.
but hes realli betta than last time le.
my da jie going hokkaido le.
so tis coming week im going alone.
haha. the feeling is weird.
coz the place is realli far.
but i juz hav to go. LOLx.
then nxt week bringing him back le!
c how he behave first then decide.
i hav to train him everyday.
bring him to walk everyday.
my mum ask. do u hav the time.
i say. even if i dun hav i muz hav.
do i hav a choice?? LOLx.
hope everything will b ok.
though i noe its realli difficult.
aft dat went to meet soph.
go paragon metro. LOLx.
coz i got $10 voucher.
then i go find my wallet!
haha. finally got one le.
i tink i like it?? i shld la. LOLx.
its renoma wallet. actually i quite like piere cardin oso.
braun buffel oso not bad. LOLx.
eventually bough renoma one. happy can le la =)
aft dat went starbuck n the vivo!
LOLx. she like the night view la.
a place i tink couples shld go.
n i tell her. dun tink of coming here on V day.
LOLx. full of couples la.
aft dat went to play arcade. quite lame la.
but hav fun =p

ok. i guess dats all??
LOLx. today im staying at home again.
nd to do homework. seriously.
8 articles for GP!?!
*faint* haha.
oh ya. i stop working le.
may or may not find a new one.
i nd time for V day present! my god.

OMG. OMG. OMG.
ok. i shall tok abt the unlucky things dat happen yesterday.
its my first day of work at bishan BHG.
early in the morning i went to mutts n mittens.
for the dog training.
the boss says the v first thing we hav to do.
is to control the dog.
he says the dog has been pampered at home.
hes allow to do anithing.
so we spend like one n a half hour getting him in control.
i start to understand more abt snowy.
when i get him back i hav to bring him out for a walk.
to keep him occupied n of coz to pee.
haha. ok la. all tis not v impt though.
but i will go twice a week to train him.
its realli not easy man.
ok. so aft the training i rush to work.
HAHA. i was late by half an hour.
so i work frm 1.30 to 9.30 instead.
i was helping other brand to serve customer.
so damn busy n finally. its 9.50pm.
rushing home coz i hav to buy some bread.
rushiing thru everything n finally i reach the mrt station.
get on the train n wanted to drink some water.
HAHA. guess wat!?! i realise i forget abt my water bottle.
ok. so i took the train back frm amk to bishan. LOLx.
finally reach the staff entrance i realise the door is oredi locked!?!
my god. its oredi 10plus by then.
so i enter BHG thru the main entrance n manage to get back my bottle.
im so unlucky! WTH WTH WTH.
n now i tink i sprain my neck. cant realli turn.
sian. selling shoes realli not easy man.
esp when u hav to go to the storeroom n climb ladder.
anytime u may juz fall.
but i hav to say working at BHG is fun.
though its realli small.
but at least in tis 2 days i made frens!
i dun tink im gonna b dere nxt week.
but i realli hope i can.
watever it is. im happy =)

jy went to thailand le. LOLx.
b4 she go she give mi some honey cornflakes she made.
THANK LOTS!
now im waiting for her to buy something for mi frm dere =x
WAHAHA. sounds greedy yeah.
im oredi tinkin wat i shld give for valentines' day le.
for my frens. no more lovers. haha.
doesnt realli matter la.
i wanna go buy wallet oredi.
dunno y suddenly wan change wallet.
my purse going to spoil soon anyway. LOLx.
n b4 CNY dere will b sales! wahaha.
dats it. dats wat i wan =p

ok. i hav to go do homework soon.





i still picture our wonderful future.
how i wish u r still here.
but u r no longer here.