ok. i shall post.
since i got a little bit more time to use comp.
wahaha. now got time limit de lei.
last time was like 24/7 online.
dat was last time.

juz say a few things ba.
i tink i will fail the v first maths test in my life today.
LOLx. coz i totally didnt noe dere will b a test.
its juz a short test.
end up i did it correctly.
BUT. i hav careless.
in the sense dat i forget to write a constant.
my method is totally right.
wasted. so i may fail.
n its realli bcoz of carelessness.
we will c how the teacher mark. LOLx.

GP lesson was interesting.
coz we watch a national geographic video.
its abt honours killing in pakistan.
its scary. its terrible.
mayb u all shld go search abt it.
i wan to noe more abt it as well.
i find it realli interesting.
i mean the movie n not the killing part.
im not a sadist.
its actually quite sad. yeah.
n i realise i didnt read newspaper for so long =x
watever the tutor say i dunno.
sian. my GP will fail terribly.
i will jiayou de! LOLx.

today went CO. finally!
i manage to learn dat instrument.
start blowing n playing wif it.
quite fun lei.
but its realli new to mi lo.
i hope i will b doing fine. LOLx.
aft entering jc i find myself so guai. OMG.
LOLx. its a gd thing.
n i tink tml im going home immediately aft skol.
my god. its been long since i go home early.
coz always got cca or some stuff on.
i dunno wat. but deres juz something.
n i tink tml can go home early??
haha. i dunno. but it doesnt realli matter.
ok. time's out. i shld offline le.

oh ya. heard dat my dog is able to go for a walk everyday.
i mean at the boarding place.
which im quite glad.
i hope hes happy dere.
im going to look for him on sat!
having a training session.
aft dat go work.
at first is go tampines giant de.
which is nearer to pasir ris.
but now its like at bishan BHG. LOLx.
i dunno lei. hav to arrange le.
ok. watever. dats it =)
i miss snowy!!

i hav so much to say.
but im lazy to post =x LOLx.
actually not intending to post today de.
supposed to do homework.
but end up i realise i got no mood at all.
partly bcoz of the afternoon PE today.
i feel kinda lethargic to do anithing.
somehow makes mi feel like crying.
coz i realli do wanna finish my homework.
instead of rushing it tml. LOLx.
deres no skol tml!
juz feel great having a break. haha.

i wasnt v happy actually.
coz im missing my dog.
which is currently at mutts n mittens.
boarding over dere.
on the v first day i realli cried.
when i was playing wif him at the place.
sound sad rit.
n i didnt realli wan to go.
but i hav got work so no choice.
but when we go he started whining.
dats so sad. hais.
i sound realli emo tokin abt tis.
but dogs do hav feelings like human yeah.
imagine u r the one dere instead.
sure got the feeling of being abandoned yeah.
hais. dats realli sad.
i realli dun mean to let him go.
n i will b sure to bring him back aft a few weeks.
i wun put him dere for more than a month de.
i will try to visit him when im free.
anyway im going dere every sat for training.
as in dog training session wif him.
muz b dere to wait for mi yeah!
wait for mi to visit u n bring u back home.


heres a song i tink its nice. haha.
Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
Cause he's the reason

im not going to depend on u anymore.
im gonna depend on myself!
my life is not oni abt u.
n i dun nd u anymore. =)

time to post! LOLx.
actually supposed to post yesterday.
but reach home super tired le.
lazy to post =x
get back results yesterday.
its not like my results arent gd.
juz dat i tink i shld do betta.
many pple in my skol did well.
i dun tink i shld get wat i hav got.
i tink it shld b betta.
dun mind sharing.
i got L1B4 8. L1R5 10.
many will say its gd enough.
i noe its oredi not v bad.
but its quite a disappointment.
10 sounds not bad.
but its my expectation dat i didnt reach.
so im unhappy bcoz of my expectation.
so pple. dun bother understand.
coz not all pple will understand.
its over. rit. so i wun brood over it.
do i hav to tell my grades for my subject?
im too lazy to. HAHA. so nvm la.
juz disappointed dat i didnt get 4A1s.
i oni got 3. its my chem dat got A2 instead.
sad. but nvm. =)
everybody seems to do well.
i mean not all my frens. but most ba.
congrats to those who did well.
for those who didnt get wat they wan.
treat it as a lesson n move on.

we have OG outing on sunday.
n we took photos as well.
celebrated lawson, junda n changlok's birthday.
we went pool then thai express for dinner. =)

2 gay pose. yongjie n charlie =x




the cake ziyan bought for them.


january babies! junda lawson changlok


group photo. though not everyone is present.


the guys. wif angeline at the back. Lolx.


the girls!


OGLs of OG 22. ziyan charlie zhenhong.


last but not least. dinner at thai express!


sending my dog to boarding tml.
tis realli makes mi feel like crying.
i dunno. i feel quite lost.
i tink i will miss him.
its boarding now. its temp.
but im afraid one day it will bcome forever.
i hope i will b able to get him back.
tml i got work too.
start working tml.
dats the reason i didnt go for OG dinner today.
not many pple went i guess.
but its at 9.30pm. dats late.

if anybody wonders how my mum n my newphew look like.

on my mum birthday last yr.
i bought the cake! =p

wow. a few days nvr post liao wor. LOLx.
yes! its finally friday. can rest le.
i tink deres alot i wan to say??
HAHA. actually i was feeling emo a few days back.
wanted to post de. but end up lazy =x
plus i spend whole days tokin to frens.
not doing homework n everything.
the result of being emo. LOLx.
no mood to do anithing.
but as wat pple always say.
tml will b a betta day.
n indeed. the nxt day was betta.
n im happy now =)

we got a new timetable.
n my release time was not too late.
except for mon n tue.
wif practical n afternoon PE. LOLx.
something everyone dread =x
having lessons as a class.
i find my class pple quite ok de.
13 gals n 7 guys. all the same combi.
everybody oso slack slack one.
i tink quite fun de lo. LOLx.

n im gonna start working! =x
sound a bit weird coz skol starts.
LOLx. but i wun overwork myself la.
coz dat day i went to shop wif huimin.
my god! spend alot as usual.
almost a 100dollars.
i realli dun mean to spend so much.
so i hav decided to earn some money.
though may b a bit xin ku.
but i dun wan my money to go out n not come in.
yup. so im going to work.
oni during the weekends i guess =)
hardworking rit.
anyway now my life is nth much. LOLx.
juz frens. n frens!
rather spend my time earning money.
instead of going out to spend money.

tml im meeting ger! LOLx.
v long nvr meet le.
though we still tok on phone at times.
but ever since skol starts we nvr meet le.
go shopping! but im not spending money.
im juz gonna c bags n accessories.
then sunday got OG outing.
finally got OG outing le.
but i dun tink we will b taking photos.
its ok. at least we went out. HAHA.
but paragon staff oso meeting.
i cant meet =(
everytime they meet i oso canot de. sian.

ok. enough of all the crap.
lets come to something a bit emo n serious.
LOLx. mayb some of u wun tink so ba.
hmm. ok. i went to SGH yesterday.
to visit my mum's fren.
i feel v sad for him.
lets tok abt his life b4 the reason he was in hospital.
he actually got a wife n a son.
but he divorced due to some character clash.
his wife n son totally dun care abt him anymore.
the oni time he c his son is when his son nd money.
dats bad isnt it.
hes working as a sales promoter.
n the salary is like 1100++.
juz ard dere. n hes a malaysian.
he got no other kin in spore.
every month he has pay for his rent.
n give his wife 500.
so can imagine how much money he has for living.
n now hes in hospital bcoz he get beaten up by his other fren.
why. bcoz they went drinking.
as wat his frens say. hes a v nice guy.
so when his fren beat him he didnt even defend himself.
he went for stitches at CGH dat day.
but nobody knows where he go for the nxt 4 days.
he didnt go to work. he didnt go home.
until dat day he went to work.
wif blue black all over his face.
nobody can imagine how bad is his face.
its not juz blue black like those we get when we fall.
its one big patch of blue black.
realli like a panda.
n dat day he didnt even noe where is he.
his fren brought him to SGH.
n realise his head was swollen.
n one of his ribcage bone broke if im not wrong.
its dat bad. n he lost part of his memory.
when i acc my mum to visit him.
he cant recognise my mum.
he dunno where he was n wat actually happen.
a 'fren' beat him up. wat kinda fren. i dunno.
its a police case now.
but he was realli worried abt his medical fee.
n he got no kin in spore.
his wife n son doesnt noe n we cant find them.
bcoz he dun even rmb their contact number.
its dat bad. realli.
hes unable to leave his bed coz he was tied onto it.
the reason is he wander ard one morning.
not knowing where he is. hes lost.
n the nurse has to bring him back to his ward.
isnt dat sad. im emo la ok.
LOLx. i almsot cried when i c the way he is now.
though i dun realli noe him =x
but hes not safe at all.
he may bcome a vegetable one day.

when u r feeling sad.
or tink dat u hav the worst life ever.
tink abt all tis pple.
who has difficulty in living.
no family. no money.
n now. unable to work.
at least we r not alone.
we hav family. we hav frens.
we r not alone.
we r so much more fortunate than them.

ok. back to the skol thingy.
it seems like many r happy wif their JC.
its gd. n i dunno whether im happy anot.
most of the seniors say until like they r not happy at all.
but a skol to study n make frens.
dats all i nd i guess.
dats y im contented.
aj is not a skol to play.
but depends on ur frens.
its not totally a mugging skol.
coz my frens dun mug. LOLx.
n the pple dere r still fun.
everybody say their skol is fun.
i realli dunno their definition of fun.
how do one define fun. LOLx.
its still own preference ba.
how one c things lo.
i hav to clarify tis.
many pple say aj is a mugging skol.
but i dun tink deres anithing wif dat??
i wun say dat it is. i wun say its not.
bcoz dere r pple who keep studying.
but dats bcoz we r not born smart.
n to do well in JC is not easy. realli.
everybody has to work v hard.
n some hav CCA until 8 or even 9.
its understandable dat they hav to study during their free time.
whether they r in skol or at home.
coz in JC we do hav to work dat hard.
so wat if its a mugging skol.
as long as it produce quality students.
its a skol we can study in.

ok. clarify things le.
i hav to tidy up wardrobe n do homework le.
LOLx. deres alot to do. =)

finally got time to post le.
LOLx. im keeping myself busy.
not trying to escape frm anithing.
juz trying to stop myself frm using phone.
HAHA. huang xinyi learnt ok.
anyway. went to nyp for lunch yesterday.
b4 wushu n squash.
juz nice its the open hse.
ya. so many pple were dere.
LOLx. we spend out time walking ard the skol.
n it realli takes quite some time.
so aft dat went to wushu.
ok. not much comment for wushu.
but i hav to say the seniors r frenly.
then aft dat went for squash!
haha. see. end up my fren all like squash.
i ask them pei mi go n hav fun.
end up they all like squash. wahaha.
u see. i intro de lei.
squash is fun ok. realli fun.
during the trial we juz play squash.
but we actually dun feel like stopping.
its the first time we play.
but mayb the last time? hope its not. LOLx.
its quite easy though.
i mean. everybody play like quite pro lei.
though not super pro la.
but it doesnt look like they play for the first time.
ya. not sure whether we got in.
but hope we do. *pray* LOLx.
but dun dare to hope for too much.

ok. then today went for netball.
it was ok. but of coz im out. haha.
n i realise im still betta at defending.
but its ok. juz tinkin whether to join recreational team.
LOLx. play play for fun ma.
betta than cca-less rit.
but bcoz of netball nvr pei my dog to vet.
nth happen. juz go for jab. haha.
tink going to bake cake ltr. LOLx.
but deres alot of things to do.
nvm. keep myself busy =)

oh ya. got my class oredi. 29/08
i hav frens inside =p
HAHA. not bad la. can make more frens oso.
i juz realise my class is a nice number.

O level results is gonna b out soon! =x







keep in contact? i dun even noe y i still contact u when u dun even care. mayb i shld juz learn dat u r oredi gone n having ur own life.

LOLx. ok. i shall post today.
though im actually not v free.
haven finish my maths n read econs.
my god!! LOLx. im hardworking yeah.
but anyway wed was CCA carnival.
n i sign up for tennis squash netball.
tennis is over. n i didnt get in.
squash is tml!! netball is sat!!
if everything i dun get in then i go wushu.
haha. but tml oso going wushu.
so fun! LOLx.
hope tis sat got OG outing.
then whole OG muz take pic wif mi!!
LOLx. coz im not in the OG photo =(
nvm. i will take wif them one day.
alot of things to do yeah.
nd to arrange arrange n arrange.
tis few days no longer feel v sad.
coz i hav my OG pple.
fun n friendly pple!!
i hav to say it now since i realise.
haha. hav fun making frens n tokin crap =p
juz finish mss convo wif OG pple.
today is a happy day =)

another post for today!!
im still sick yeah.
but anyway. today went mutts n mittens.
sending my dog for boarding ba.
soon. but not yet.
i insist on not giving it away.
i mean i nvr find any gd owner.
n everybody shld b able to understand.
how one will feel when ur family is giving u away.
definitely not gd at all.
so i realli dun wan give him away.
but it doesnt seem like i hav a choice.
im still trying.
mayb i can nvr hav a dog again.
i hav to choose b/w my mum n the dog.
i cant say i wan the dog n not my mum yeah.
hais. but i cant say i dun wan the dog. =(

aft going mutts n mittens.
at first tot of meeting huimin.
but she wan go shopping. go play.
n im still sick. not realli in the mood yeah.
i hav to say sorie coz i realli feel bad.
she wan to make mi feel bad as well. LOLx.
coz i owe her birthday n christmas present =x
my god. i realli dun mean to.
i will give de.
so end up i didnt meet huimin. SORIE!!
tot of going home coz realli feeling sian.
but end up i went jaslin's hse.
played guzheng n mahjong. yeah.
go home at ard 9.
coz my cough is realli getting terrible.

tml paragon promoters r meeting again.
but i dunno.
i feel like meeting them.
BUT. dun feel like watching movie =x
dun feel like going out.
juz feel like resting.
dats my life now. seriously.
staying at home everyday.
if not go my fren's hse.
im still tinkin.
but im still sick anyway. hmm.
im indecisive. n i hate it.
it makes my mind tink too much.

i hope to b a betta fren.
but i tink i failed.
sorie pple if i make u feel pangseh.
coz sometimes i realli dunno where to go.
n wat to do.

OMG. i was sick since the 3rd.
but i went to skol on the 3rd.
didnt attend skol on the 4th.
which is the last day of orientation.
n its the most fun day of all.
i missed it.
my OG took OG photo but im in it.
went for OG dinner but im not dere.
ok. i dun hav a choice.
who ask mi to b sick. sian.
everything feel so sian.
coz i missed out all the fun.
i bet the last day is realli the day everybody bonds tgt.
but im unable to do dat.
i can c dat everybody enjoyed the last day.
but so sorie. i didnt go.
i feel so weird.
watever. i dun feel like saying anymore.
life is getting boring.

HARLOW to 2008!
BYE to 2007...
LOLx. its the start of a new yr.
but i dun tink anybody feel anithing abt it??
it doesnt even seem like its 2008 now.
went count down yesterday.
first n perhaps the last time.
LOLx. its not super fun.
but the most enjoyable part is still being wif frens.
n of coz watching the fireworks.
somehow im reluctant to say bye to 2007.
coz i love 07 not 08 =x
nth special realli happen in 07.
or mayb im juz lazy to tink abt it.
but tml is the start of the skol.
going to JC le. my god!
n dun ask mi.
coz i got no group!!!
they didnt call mi =(
we will c wats gonna happen tml. LOLx.
yesterday at esplanade dere.
singapore bands r performing.
somehow reminds mi of someone.
who prehaps has oredi forgotten abt mi.
who will nvr b reminded of mi.
so bo xim dat i nvr even receive a msg.
but i realli would like to c him perform.
realli would like to c him succeeding.
mayb i realli cant.
he nvr give mi the chance to.
he prob wun even c tis blog.
i dunno how i feel abt him.
all i noe is he dun even tink of mi.
he dun even care abt mi.
seriously. y do i care.
dats wat i hav been tinkin. realli.
watever it is. doesnt realli matter ba.

yesterday was kinda boring ba.
i mean. hardly anyone can get high.
LOLx. let mi name the pple who went.
for gals. mi cassandra sophia cinny
wanzhen carine wanyi.
for guys. clement ian jonT onzen
dingy aslam yuenchi weisheng jianxiang
liming chengwei(i tink dats his name?)
i tink dats all?? shld b la. LOLx.
but mayb shldnt use the word boring.
deres nth much to do b4 11.55pm.
juz looking at performance.
we waited for so long. LOLx.
played bridge while waiting.
b4 dat met jeryl pm kellie n junyang.
aft the count down jeryl pm n kellie went home.
so junyang was wif us.
nth much.
reach home at ard 3.15am.
huimin ltr coming my hse le. LOLx.

ok. HAPPY NEW YEAR to everybody =)