arghh. im sick =( when one is having fever. the whole body feel numb. yes. 2 days nvr go to work le. nvr go work yet cant do my homework. sick how to do homework. =( sianz. gonna chiong le la.
anyway. tink abt somethings as well. i wanna thank him. even though watever he is doing now seem so sucky. like an asshole. i still wanna thank him. i dunno the reason of him doing tis. too irritating or watsoever. i dun care. bcoz i still believe dat i hav no wrong. making him stress or watsoever. i dun tink its rit for him to do dat to mi either. im not gonna push all the blames to him. so dun do dat to mi as well. anyway. its over. juz like wat he say dat day. the game is over. rit. i dun understand y he nd to lie to mi. i dun hav to understand. but he did lie to mi. dats a fact. promises r meant to b broken. dats wat he told mi dat day as well. watever hurting words came out frm his mouth. i wun forget. i tink i rmb every single word dat he say. rit. i shld let go n forget everything juz like wat he did. dun worry. i will.
but i nd to thank him. bcoz i noe the reason i like him. last time. all the happy times. r wat he gave to mi. i noe the reason i cried aft everything is over. bcoz of the happy times as well. yes. he can make everybody happy. although when everything is over its like shit. i still thank him for giving mi those happy times. n bcoz of him as well. i understand alot of things. abt guys. dat change my tinkin. almost everything. im no longer last time de mi. not the same anymore. i dunno whether its a gd thing. but somehow it makes my life miserable too. i rather im someone who is so stupid to believe watever a guy said. dats wat im used to b. but now im no longer liddat. i dun like now de mi.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Monday, December 25, 2006
MERRY CHRISTMAS! everybody. LOLx.
today muz post. bcoz muz say merry christmas to everybody.
though kinda boring tis yr.
actually almost every christmas is kinda boring to mi.
but doesnt matter.
i made frens tis yr.
at robinsons raffles city.
pple of all ages. LOLx.
but bcoz of work oso miss quite alot of fun.
no worries. i still got a long life.
nxt yr. im gonna play aft O levels. =p
today robinsons close at 8pm.
i work until 8pm.
BUT. hav extra work.
setting up for tml's sales.
12.30am then reach home.
pple counting down. i on the way home.
tml 9am muz reach. continue to set up.
but i tink ard 12pm im coming home oredi.
i wanna chiong my holiday homework.
then the rest of the week im working oso.
u see. work until no life sia.
but nvm la. betta than staying at home n do nth.
hey pple. visit robinsons raffles city.
hav alot of sales nehz. LOLx.
advertising here =p
ok la. muz slp le.
one day will upload all the holida photos.
sometimes i hope someone is dere.
sometimes i hope im all alone.
today muz post. bcoz muz say merry christmas to everybody.
though kinda boring tis yr.
actually almost every christmas is kinda boring to mi.
but doesnt matter.
i made frens tis yr.
at robinsons raffles city.
pple of all ages. LOLx.
but bcoz of work oso miss quite alot of fun.
no worries. i still got a long life.
nxt yr. im gonna play aft O levels. =p
today robinsons close at 8pm.
i work until 8pm.
BUT. hav extra work.
setting up for tml's sales.
12.30am then reach home.
pple counting down. i on the way home.
tml 9am muz reach. continue to set up.
but i tink ard 12pm im coming home oredi.
i wanna chiong my holiday homework.
then the rest of the week im working oso.
u see. work until no life sia.
but nvm la. betta than staying at home n do nth.
hey pple. visit robinsons raffles city.
hav alot of sales nehz. LOLx.
advertising here =p
ok la. muz slp le.
one day will upload all the holida photos.
sometimes i hope someone is dere.
sometimes i hope im all alone.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
... *faint*
seriously tired out man.
i guess i tink.
im realli sick tis time round.
but cant slp.
juz reach home not long ago frm work.
tml robinsons open oni until 8pm.
but im dere until 1030pm.
yeah. help out wif the setting up.
seriously learn alot tis few months.
kinda fun. but haven had enough.
deres alot more things to noe n learn.
everyday my mind is working.
everyday im tinkin.
so somehow i hav tot thru.
everyone is worth forgiving.
as long as he or she learn their mistakes.
but dat is they realli learn.
i feel like being by myself.
seriously all by myself.
tired le. muz finish chem project by today.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)
seriously tired out man.
i guess i tink.
im realli sick tis time round.
but cant slp.
juz reach home not long ago frm work.
tml robinsons open oni until 8pm.
but im dere until 1030pm.
yeah. help out wif the setting up.
seriously learn alot tis few months.
kinda fun. but haven had enough.
deres alot more things to noe n learn.
everyday my mind is working.
everyday im tinkin.
so somehow i hav tot thru.
everyone is worth forgiving.
as long as he or she learn their mistakes.
but dat is they realli learn.
i feel like being by myself.
seriously all by myself.
tired le. muz finish chem project by today.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)
Friday, December 22, 2006
tis few days de mood no gd. alot of unlucky things happen. seriously. when one thing goes wrong. the rest of the things will juz follow.
lets tok abt the day daredevils went out. we exchange present. took neos. then mi n clar go cut hair. ok. abt my hair. nth much. juz a diff in my finge ba. it doesnt matter anyway. pple say i look more awake rit now. aft dat i went home. get everything ready n rush to my sis de hse. bcoz the nxt day nd to go goat farm. rushing to her hse. my shoe spoilt. its somehow new. but it juz spoil. yeah. so i drag it to my sis hse. imagine. frm yishun to redhill. taking mrt. fine. it isnt dat bad. bcoz its not realli obvious. then when im reaching redhill. i realise i didnt bring my punch card out. the nxt day aft the visit to the goat farm. i nd to go work directly. so no choice. call my mum to bring it to her work place the nxt day. n i will collect frm her. moreovermy shoe spoilt. nd to take frm ehr another shoe if not i cant go work. sianzz.
then ok. nvm. the nxt day went to goat farm. b4 dat went to MCYS (govt buliding). which is situated at thomson rd. ard dere. the place dat flood the day b4. the visit was ok. looked aft a boy 6 yrs old. v cute. sharudin. wif another RGS gal. lydia. yes. he was quite playful at first. kinda emo. he can laugh when he is playing. but when we leaving to goat farm he was so reluctant to go. aft a while he was ok. on the bus journey hes damn quiet. but when we reach the goat farm. he started to make noise again. yet when we r leaving the farm he bcome quiet again. reach mac he bcome noisy. going back to MCYS he bcame quiet again. the visit was not bad. i wanna go again. LOLx. but i dun like the goat milk =( not nice de.
yesterday was damn unlucky. actually got guzheng BBQ. but end up i nvr go. so on my home i was so tired i fell aslp. wake up oni when i reach the interchange. luckily it terminates at yishun. LOLx. then blur blur i feel like going home to slp. so eager to go home. when i reach my hse. i cant go in. guess wat. i realise i didnt bring my key. tot of going to some frens hse. but everybody not at home. sianz. hungry le. go eat my favourite myself. then tinkin wat i shld do nxt. so went to bugis find my mum AGAIN. to get the key. shopping ard. wearing my skol uniform. alone. at bugis. kinda weird ya. but my mood was like so down dat i cant feel any other thing. but when i reach home i nvr do my homework or anithing. juz slack ard. seriously no mood to do anithing lo.
yeah. today i didnt go for guzheng. dun ask mi y. no reason. was feeling rather down today. again. no reason. tink of alot of things. tink tink tink. mayb i cant forget. but so wat if i dun forget. i means nth. its juz the memories dat is holding mi back. i dun wanna go back. i juz wanna b happy again. how i feel. nobody will ever noe. towards guys towards relationship. wo fang qi le. lose hope. lose trust. aft the last one. i realise wo zhang da le. i change le. my tinkin esp. yet i dun like tis change. its supposed to b gd. it allows mi to c the world more clearly. but as i c more i feel more scary. i dun wan to fear tis world. i dun wan to believe wat i shld believe in rit now. yet i hav to face it.
i dun hate u.
but i dun like u.
bcoz u lied.
in my heart - no love, no hatred, no nth. only hurts.
lets tok abt the day daredevils went out. we exchange present. took neos. then mi n clar go cut hair. ok. abt my hair. nth much. juz a diff in my finge ba. it doesnt matter anyway. pple say i look more awake rit now. aft dat i went home. get everything ready n rush to my sis de hse. bcoz the nxt day nd to go goat farm. rushing to her hse. my shoe spoilt. its somehow new. but it juz spoil. yeah. so i drag it to my sis hse. imagine. frm yishun to redhill. taking mrt. fine. it isnt dat bad. bcoz its not realli obvious. then when im reaching redhill. i realise i didnt bring my punch card out. the nxt day aft the visit to the goat farm. i nd to go work directly. so no choice. call my mum to bring it to her work place the nxt day. n i will collect frm her. moreovermy shoe spoilt. nd to take frm ehr another shoe if not i cant go work. sianzz.
then ok. nvm. the nxt day went to goat farm. b4 dat went to MCYS (govt buliding). which is situated at thomson rd. ard dere. the place dat flood the day b4. the visit was ok. looked aft a boy 6 yrs old. v cute. sharudin. wif another RGS gal. lydia. yes. he was quite playful at first. kinda emo. he can laugh when he is playing. but when we leaving to goat farm he was so reluctant to go. aft a while he was ok. on the bus journey hes damn quiet. but when we reach the goat farm. he started to make noise again. yet when we r leaving the farm he bcome quiet again. reach mac he bcome noisy. going back to MCYS he bcame quiet again. the visit was not bad. i wanna go again. LOLx. but i dun like the goat milk =( not nice de.
yesterday was damn unlucky. actually got guzheng BBQ. but end up i nvr go. so on my home i was so tired i fell aslp. wake up oni when i reach the interchange. luckily it terminates at yishun. LOLx. then blur blur i feel like going home to slp. so eager to go home. when i reach my hse. i cant go in. guess wat. i realise i didnt bring my key. tot of going to some frens hse. but everybody not at home. sianz. hungry le. go eat my favourite myself. then tinkin wat i shld do nxt. so went to bugis find my mum AGAIN. to get the key. shopping ard. wearing my skol uniform. alone. at bugis. kinda weird ya. but my mood was like so down dat i cant feel any other thing. but when i reach home i nvr do my homework or anithing. juz slack ard. seriously no mood to do anithing lo.
yeah. today i didnt go for guzheng. dun ask mi y. no reason. was feeling rather down today. again. no reason. tink of alot of things. tink tink tink. mayb i cant forget. but so wat if i dun forget. i means nth. its juz the memories dat is holding mi back. i dun wanna go back. i juz wanna b happy again. how i feel. nobody will ever noe. towards guys towards relationship. wo fang qi le. lose hope. lose trust. aft the last one. i realise wo zhang da le. i change le. my tinkin esp. yet i dun like tis change. its supposed to b gd. it allows mi to c the world more clearly. but as i c more i feel more scary. i dun wan to fear tis world. i dun wan to believe wat i shld believe in rit now. yet i hav to face it.
i dun hate u.
but i dun like u.
bcoz u lied.
in my heart - no love, no hatred, no nth. only hurts.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
WAHAHA. finally a new blogskin. its RED!! n its BLOOD!! so i love it. =p
went to gym aft guzheng today. LOLx. finally. so fun. so fun. i wanan go every week!! met some guys dere. n bcame frens. frens?? canot say frens la. juz help us lo. seems kind?? LOLx. yeah. anyway. learn new things today. frm now onwards muz drink more milk. hehe.
i dunno wat happen to mi. i shld juz forget forget n forget. whoever it is. juz forget. no point keeping in my heart n brain.
the very first one. the last time he ask mi is ard april. n then aft dat we hardly n c each other as usual. perhaps now he oredi got a new start?? i dunno. i dun wanna tink. sometime i juz feel like totally not tinkin abt him anymore. yeah. its oredi like 1 yr plus?? since sec 2. sometime i juz tink dat i tink too much lo. nvm. its alwaz liddat.
the second one. hmm. i dunno wat to say abt him. juz went out wif him dat day. kind of complicated la. but then i realli dunno lo.
the third one. wat else is dere to say?? LOLx. nth to say la.
watever it is. i juz wanna b happy. yeah. dats rit. reaching my goal n targets. dats the happiest thing dat can happen to mi now le. nth else. last time de mi. alwaz hoping for some miracle to appear. alwaz wan a wonderful complete love story of my own. mayb dats naive?? it isnt dat easy. mayb even up till the day i die i wun get it. so dun hav to tink anymore. my v own future is more impt. =p
wo wang le ni.
went to gym aft guzheng today. LOLx. finally. so fun. so fun. i wanan go every week!! met some guys dere. n bcame frens. frens?? canot say frens la. juz help us lo. seems kind?? LOLx. yeah. anyway. learn new things today. frm now onwards muz drink more milk. hehe.
i dunno wat happen to mi. i shld juz forget forget n forget. whoever it is. juz forget. no point keeping in my heart n brain.
the very first one. the last time he ask mi is ard april. n then aft dat we hardly n c each other as usual. perhaps now he oredi got a new start?? i dunno. i dun wanna tink. sometime i juz feel like totally not tinkin abt him anymore. yeah. its oredi like 1 yr plus?? since sec 2. sometime i juz tink dat i tink too much lo. nvm. its alwaz liddat.
the second one. hmm. i dunno wat to say abt him. juz went out wif him dat day. kind of complicated la. but then i realli dunno lo.
the third one. wat else is dere to say?? LOLx. nth to say la.
watever it is. i juz wanna b happy. yeah. dats rit. reaching my goal n targets. dats the happiest thing dat can happen to mi now le. nth else. last time de mi. alwaz hoping for some miracle to appear. alwaz wan a wonderful complete love story of my own. mayb dats naive?? it isnt dat easy. mayb even up till the day i die i wun get it. so dun hav to tink anymore. my v own future is more impt. =p
wo wang le ni.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
girl. dun ask mi relax. dun regret when u lose the one u shld realli hold on to. dats ur life. i shall not interfere. u regret telling mi. im fine wif it. i dun hav to b ur listener. i cant even b ur adviser. bcoz u dun listen to wat i say. so if u tink wat u r doing is rit. then go shead. dun blame mi for scolding u. if scolding u will make u wake up i will do it. if scolding cant help at all. i shall nto waste my breath. ok. fine. forget abt it.
wong. heres ur request. HAHA. LOLx. no la. actually wanna post for a long time le. no time oni =x plus lazy. not work then go out. busy. i haven started my holiday homework. oops. HAHA. ok la. canot say haven started. start le. but do v slow. one homework takes a few days. i cant juz sit down n do my homework lo. nvm. i will de. still got guzheng.
19th dec daredevils will hav christmas gift exchange. LOLx. kind of early?? bo bian. i weekends work lei. everyday not free. dats the oni day b4 christmas dat i will b free. actually supposed to cut hair on dat day de. sianz. now hav to find another day liao. hmm. oso dunno wat hairstyle to cut. anyway. i bought the present for the exchange liao. HAHA. fast rit. as i said. no time liao. tis whole week. but then v sianz la. dunno wat to buy. alwaz the same old thing. wan buy gd one will over the limit. yeah. anyway buy le. dunno nd to wrap anot. gonna buy for other fren oso?? mayb.
20th dec. HAHA. dat day will b fun n meaningful. going to goat farm wif orphans. WAHAHA. first time visiting goat farm. moreover going wif orphans. isnt dat meaningful n fun?? dats cool. dats cool. oni doing tis kinda thingy can make mi happy. =p
life is liddat la. got sad things. got happy things. nowadays still got cry la. but then no big deal la. is oredi a habit?? LOLx. cry oni ma. who nvr cry b4?? but i will remain strong. i hav to say i realli different frm last time de lo. now come to tink of it. watever i do last time seem so foolish. i shall learn frm it. nxt time dun do it le. anyway. aft crying im still the happy mi. dun c mi siao siao hor. actually inside i feel like crying. can even cry for frens wor. tis one im not bluffing. i realli did cry for frens. not say quarrel or wat.
i wan to save money. buy alot of things nehz. i still tinkin. driving licence first?? or jap cert first?? LOLx. i dun tink i hav the time to take both at the same time lo. so i nd to choose which one first. which one more impt. hmm. anyway. i tink when i grow up le i nd to hav precious moments collection. HAHA. =p jiayou jiayou. i can do it de.
im finding blogskin lo. sianz,. actually found it le. aiya. oso dunno wats the prob la.
i shall b kind. i dun hate u. yet deres no reason for mi to like or love u.
wong. heres ur request. HAHA. LOLx. no la. actually wanna post for a long time le. no time oni =x plus lazy. not work then go out. busy. i haven started my holiday homework. oops. HAHA. ok la. canot say haven started. start le. but do v slow. one homework takes a few days. i cant juz sit down n do my homework lo. nvm. i will de. still got guzheng.
19th dec daredevils will hav christmas gift exchange. LOLx. kind of early?? bo bian. i weekends work lei. everyday not free. dats the oni day b4 christmas dat i will b free. actually supposed to cut hair on dat day de. sianz. now hav to find another day liao. hmm. oso dunno wat hairstyle to cut. anyway. i bought the present for the exchange liao. HAHA. fast rit. as i said. no time liao. tis whole week. but then v sianz la. dunno wat to buy. alwaz the same old thing. wan buy gd one will over the limit. yeah. anyway buy le. dunno nd to wrap anot. gonna buy for other fren oso?? mayb.
20th dec. HAHA. dat day will b fun n meaningful. going to goat farm wif orphans. WAHAHA. first time visiting goat farm. moreover going wif orphans. isnt dat meaningful n fun?? dats cool. dats cool. oni doing tis kinda thingy can make mi happy. =p
life is liddat la. got sad things. got happy things. nowadays still got cry la. but then no big deal la. is oredi a habit?? LOLx. cry oni ma. who nvr cry b4?? but i will remain strong. i hav to say i realli different frm last time de lo. now come to tink of it. watever i do last time seem so foolish. i shall learn frm it. nxt time dun do it le. anyway. aft crying im still the happy mi. dun c mi siao siao hor. actually inside i feel like crying. can even cry for frens wor. tis one im not bluffing. i realli did cry for frens. not say quarrel or wat.
i wan to save money. buy alot of things nehz. i still tinkin. driving licence first?? or jap cert first?? LOLx. i dun tink i hav the time to take both at the same time lo. so i nd to choose which one first. which one more impt. hmm. anyway. i tink when i grow up le i nd to hav precious moments collection. HAHA. =p jiayou jiayou. i can do it de.
im finding blogskin lo. sianz,. actually found it le. aiya. oso dunno wats the prob la.
i shall b kind. i dun hate u. yet deres no reason for mi to like or love u.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
HAHA. my blog reach 200 posts le. =p anyway. now im studying. hehe. tml re-exam liao lo. can say no confident la. but how can i let bio defeat mi?? nono. not right. i can do it de. =)
yesterday chat wif my kor a while. feeling great. HAHA. he alwaz help mi alot de. make mi understand alot of things. he oso say he tink i different le. grow up liao. YAY. HAHA. aft 8 relationships?? finally i understand le. hehe. thanks to dat bastard?? he make mi realise how the world is realli like lo. isnt dat gd n perfect like wat we tink. yeah. i realli change le. somehow to another person. but its gd la. =p
something struck mi yesterday. all along its juz a bet. all along its juz a bet. i keep tinkin. was kinda sad. but its oredi over le. whether its juz a bet whether its true. does it matter now. no longer matters ba. watever dat has happen doesnt seem to show dat its juz a bet. but mayb i juz hav to accept it?? i juz got a feeling dat im a fool. last time de mi rather being dumb. now de mi lei?? not v sure oso. now even if im sad. its not bcoz i lose him. its ok to lose him. bcoz hes oredi such a bastard le. LOLx. im sad bcoz im a fool?? for the past few months. i dunno whether the bet is realli true. mayb yes mayb no. i juz seem like a fool. dats all.
tis week n nxt week will b working alot. tis few days alot of lobang sia. HAHA. tis week work frm thurs to sunday. then nxt week work frm wed to saturday?? sunday got dog show. at sembawang. no matter wat. wun forget to study n do homework de. LOLx.
dat day while working. i tink its sunday. i saw Ms Yam. LOLx. but i didnt call her. i doubt she rmb mi anyway. she bought some clothes. im juz so near to her lo. she give mi a feeling dat she rmb the class but not the pple. mayb juz a few. those experts in chem lo. got alot of things to say lei. but other day la. gonna study.
PRINCESS HOUR is so nice =)
dun treat mi like a fool. a flirt will regret wat he did in future de.
hoping to b wif the one i love in future...
yesterday chat wif my kor a while. feeling great. HAHA. he alwaz help mi alot de. make mi understand alot of things. he oso say he tink i different le. grow up liao. YAY. HAHA. aft 8 relationships?? finally i understand le. hehe. thanks to dat bastard?? he make mi realise how the world is realli like lo. isnt dat gd n perfect like wat we tink. yeah. i realli change le. somehow to another person. but its gd la. =p
something struck mi yesterday. all along its juz a bet. all along its juz a bet. i keep tinkin. was kinda sad. but its oredi over le. whether its juz a bet whether its true. does it matter now. no longer matters ba. watever dat has happen doesnt seem to show dat its juz a bet. but mayb i juz hav to accept it?? i juz got a feeling dat im a fool. last time de mi rather being dumb. now de mi lei?? not v sure oso. now even if im sad. its not bcoz i lose him. its ok to lose him. bcoz hes oredi such a bastard le. LOLx. im sad bcoz im a fool?? for the past few months. i dunno whether the bet is realli true. mayb yes mayb no. i juz seem like a fool. dats all.
tis week n nxt week will b working alot. tis few days alot of lobang sia. HAHA. tis week work frm thurs to sunday. then nxt week work frm wed to saturday?? sunday got dog show. at sembawang. no matter wat. wun forget to study n do homework de. LOLx.
dat day while working. i tink its sunday. i saw Ms Yam. LOLx. but i didnt call her. i doubt she rmb mi anyway. she bought some clothes. im juz so near to her lo. she give mi a feeling dat she rmb the class but not the pple. mayb juz a few. those experts in chem lo. got alot of things to say lei. but other day la. gonna study.
PRINCESS HOUR is so nice =)
dun treat mi like a fool. a flirt will regret wat he did in future de.
hoping to b wif the one i love in future...
Saturday, November 25, 2006
i love my mummy!!! HAHA. seems a bit weird ya. but i realli tink so nehz. dats y now my attitude towards her is different le. =p she oso say i bcome guai liao. buy things for her. wash my clothes. iron my clothes. LOLx. not too free. juz doing something i tink i shld. but not alwaz la. sometimes oni. at least got improvement rit. mayb bcoz now i got work le ba. dats y mum try to understand mi. yeah. her birthday reaching le. hehe. celebrate celebrate celebrate.
anyway. i oso love my sisters. my real siblings. although they all get married le. they hav hubby liao. not living wif us anymore. i still miss them alot alot. they still treat mi v gd oso. HAHA. dats y im happy. pple will envy mi for having 3 sis. but i wun envy them for having bros, i dunno y. mayb i realli prefer to hav all sisters?? liddat then closer ba?? different pple different tinkin la. LOLx.
i like my sistas too. HAHA. tis time is frens ba. alwaz dere for mi de. alwaz hav fun tgt. crazy tgt. yeah. alot ba. huimin,sophia,rueylin,meijun,germaine,wanchun... so on la. do i hav to name all out?? LOLx. all my frens. I LOVE THEM. hehe. gals or boys la. all my frens. my jies oso. =p
tis paragraph is for my bro de la. LOLx. kor or di. ok la. thank them all. esp di lo. HAHA. help mi alot. alwaz pei mi n buy things for mi. waste money =x anyway. yeah. THANKS =)
yesterday was M&M. terrible. but nvm. its over. i love ELDDS de acting. OMG. its so funny n nice. the pple in front of mi keep laughing n commenting at the same time. LOLx. i oni manage to watch EL =( but then ok la. i rather watch EL i tink. LOLx. then took pictures again. sec 4s n sec 3s. we r united man. not wif the juniors though. dun ask y. all the seniors so gd. all come back buy sweets n chocs. LOLx. shiok nehz. they r the best. HAHA.
yeah man. dats the right attitude. hes juz an asshole. LOLx.
anyway. i oso love my sisters. my real siblings. although they all get married le. they hav hubby liao. not living wif us anymore. i still miss them alot alot. they still treat mi v gd oso. HAHA. dats y im happy. pple will envy mi for having 3 sis. but i wun envy them for having bros, i dunno y. mayb i realli prefer to hav all sisters?? liddat then closer ba?? different pple different tinkin la. LOLx.
i like my sistas too. HAHA. tis time is frens ba. alwaz dere for mi de. alwaz hav fun tgt. crazy tgt. yeah. alot ba. huimin,sophia,rueylin,meijun,germaine,wanchun... so on la. do i hav to name all out?? LOLx. all my frens. I LOVE THEM. hehe. gals or boys la. all my frens. my jies oso. =p
tis paragraph is for my bro de la. LOLx. kor or di. ok la. thank them all. esp di lo. HAHA. help mi alot. alwaz pei mi n buy things for mi. waste money =x anyway. yeah. THANKS =)
yesterday was M&M. terrible. but nvm. its over. i love ELDDS de acting. OMG. its so funny n nice. the pple in front of mi keep laughing n commenting at the same time. LOLx. i oni manage to watch EL =( but then ok la. i rather watch EL i tink. LOLx. then took pictures again. sec 4s n sec 3s. we r united man. not wif the juniors though. dun ask y. all the seniors so gd. all come back buy sweets n chocs. LOLx. shiok nehz. they r the best. HAHA.
yeah man. dats the right attitude. hes juz an asshole. LOLx.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
altogether 8. i love tis 3 the most. yet i get the most hurt frm them as well. deres wrong in treating someone too gd?? deres wrong in loving someone too much?? somehow. watever i hav done for them r not being appreciated. i did get back in return. happy times. but i tink most of it is hurt. u all will regret mahx?? im dumb. rit. believe in pple too easily. loving tis 3 so much who ended up hurting mi.
history repeating itself. for 3 times. bcoz of tis 3 guys. issit realli bcoz deres something wrong wif mi?? issit my fault?? or the guys simply r not devoted enough. when the very 3rd time happen once again. it change my tinkin totally. i was once so damn believe in love. in watever the guys say. now no longer anymore. watever they say. i will start askin myself. is dat the truth?? will couples nowadays realli last?? i will start telling myself. watever they say r untrue. its all lies. promises r nth to them. they alwaz break it in the end. when they dun wan u anymore. when they start to lose interest in u. they juz throw u to one corner. in the dark corner. all by urself. arrow shooting towards u. so hurting. i once trusted them so much. pple tink im stupid. yet now. i lose trust in them.
the very first one. i hav to say. i miss him up till now. realli. he will nvr noe. bcoz its alwaz in my heart. he wun b able to come to tis blog. he will nvr noe wat im tinkin. he will nvr c wat i hav written. he broke my heart. but aint dat bad. juz for a short while?? at least aft dat he realise everything. but i doubt i can ever c him again.
the second one lei. i hav to say. when break i cry like hell. as if im dying. mayb bcoz of tis. 50-70% of the love is gone ba. dats y now i oni hav a little bit of feelings left. i hav to say sorie. bcoz hes realli gd. yeah. but i dun tink i can hav him. i oni hope he can b happy ba.
the last one. i dunno wat to say. i dunno how i feel at all. sometimes i feel nth. sometimes i feel a bit of pain. but i noe v well. among the 3 i treat him the best. i realli hav to say dat. dats y when break. i keep tinkin. my fault?? i seriously tink i treat him v gd le. if the way i treat him isnt gd enough. he can find a betta one. i hav nth to say. realli. if its realli a betta one i dun mind then. i noe i hav done my best. not as if im the one unfaithful. but the weird thing is he will nvr regret. i treat him the best. yet he feel nth rit now.
imagine. he sick i pei him go c doc. i buy lunch for him. i help him wif his work. i buy a notebook for him so dat he can organise his time well. i help him copy lyrics when he say he wan it. i waited for him when he got extra lesson. i dunno got wat else. still not gd??
mayb realli not gd ba. im not saying dat he dun treat mi gd la. yes. he treat mi gd too. not the best though. but contented le. i dunno wats wrong. but its juz liddat. i dunno bcoz of wat. i dun wanna noe either. it will oni make mi feel even worse. mayb he shld juz say he dun love mi enough or mayb not at all. yeah. then mayb im stupid to tink so far in the first place. if he tink got more suitable de, betta ones, he realli love one. then go ahead lo. gd luck to him then. hope he realli noe wats love lo.
history repeating itself. for 3 times. bcoz of tis 3 guys. issit realli bcoz deres something wrong wif mi?? issit my fault?? or the guys simply r not devoted enough. when the very 3rd time happen once again. it change my tinkin totally. i was once so damn believe in love. in watever the guys say. now no longer anymore. watever they say. i will start askin myself. is dat the truth?? will couples nowadays realli last?? i will start telling myself. watever they say r untrue. its all lies. promises r nth to them. they alwaz break it in the end. when they dun wan u anymore. when they start to lose interest in u. they juz throw u to one corner. in the dark corner. all by urself. arrow shooting towards u. so hurting. i once trusted them so much. pple tink im stupid. yet now. i lose trust in them.
the very first one. i hav to say. i miss him up till now. realli. he will nvr noe. bcoz its alwaz in my heart. he wun b able to come to tis blog. he will nvr noe wat im tinkin. he will nvr c wat i hav written. he broke my heart. but aint dat bad. juz for a short while?? at least aft dat he realise everything. but i doubt i can ever c him again.
the second one lei. i hav to say. when break i cry like hell. as if im dying. mayb bcoz of tis. 50-70% of the love is gone ba. dats y now i oni hav a little bit of feelings left. i hav to say sorie. bcoz hes realli gd. yeah. but i dun tink i can hav him. i oni hope he can b happy ba.
the last one. i dunno wat to say. i dunno how i feel at all. sometimes i feel nth. sometimes i feel a bit of pain. but i noe v well. among the 3 i treat him the best. i realli hav to say dat. dats y when break. i keep tinkin. my fault?? i seriously tink i treat him v gd le. if the way i treat him isnt gd enough. he can find a betta one. i hav nth to say. realli. if its realli a betta one i dun mind then. i noe i hav done my best. not as if im the one unfaithful. but the weird thing is he will nvr regret. i treat him the best. yet he feel nth rit now.
imagine. he sick i pei him go c doc. i buy lunch for him. i help him wif his work. i buy a notebook for him so dat he can organise his time well. i help him copy lyrics when he say he wan it. i waited for him when he got extra lesson. i dunno got wat else. still not gd??
mayb realli not gd ba. im not saying dat he dun treat mi gd la. yes. he treat mi gd too. not the best though. but contented le. i dunno wats wrong. but its juz liddat. i dunno bcoz of wat. i dun wanna noe either. it will oni make mi feel even worse. mayb he shld juz say he dun love mi enough or mayb not at all. yeah. then mayb im stupid to tink so far in the first place. if he tink got more suitable de, betta ones, he realli love one. then go ahead lo. gd luck to him then. hope he realli noe wats love lo.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
HAHA. i realise i will post when i hav nobody to tok to. as in say all the things i wan la. sometimes its juz like some sharing lo. juz like the previous post. the MV. OMG. LOLx.
anyway. today got M&M rehearsal. i was tinkin. i rather commit myself to my fren n guzheng. watsoever. even my job. betta than BASTARDS rit. LOLx. duh. today aft the rehearsal is actually 3plus. then some of us stay back. to discuss abt how to organise the guzheng n how to b strict to the sec 2s. i dunno how to describe them. seriously got some prob wif their attitude towards guzheng. yeah. was kinda sad. but we decided to continue learning guzheng aft we graduate. =p frm our beloved chen lao shi. arghh. we miss her. LOLx.
forget to mention in my previous post. i wanna buy a charles n keith de shoe. HAHA. im lovin it. c how la. muz try first rit. hehe.
anyway. was quite sad juz now. dun fele like tokin abt it anymore. i will juz forget abt it. LOLx. its ok. im ok. my frens say im more cheerful rit now =p im so happy. dunno y lei. i juz feel happy when they say im happier rit now. or mayb they juz dunno when im sad?? LOLx. ok la. but im sure life is betta rit now. full of hope n dreams. HAHA. full of music too. tokin abt music. OMG. how i wish i hav all the songs in tis world. not missing out any of them. seems a bit impossible. i wan a music paradise. WAHAHA =x
i realise deres so many things i hav to do in my life. i shall not waste my time tinkin of stupid bastards. tinkin of worthless n useless guys. yeah. im gonna earn n save money. for my very own future. LOLx.
i dunno. i realli dunno. wat i shld do. i dunno wats the best thing for mi. for him. for everybody. somehow when i feel sad i wanna c him2. but hes alwaz nowhere to b found. a few times a yr. OMG. dats long. how long m i gonna wait for the nxt time. mayb dere no more nxt time le. i dunno. wats the point la. its been almost 2 yrs le. mayb juz c him i will b happier?? LOLx. sometimes juz hope he can b dere when i realli nd someone lo. dats all. i dunno. somehow im lost n confuse.
i cried when i noe everything. bcoz im sad dat u r so happy. LOLx. (seems a bit evil ya. bo bian.)
anyway. today got M&M rehearsal. i was tinkin. i rather commit myself to my fren n guzheng. watsoever. even my job. betta than BASTARDS rit. LOLx. duh. today aft the rehearsal is actually 3plus. then some of us stay back. to discuss abt how to organise the guzheng n how to b strict to the sec 2s. i dunno how to describe them. seriously got some prob wif their attitude towards guzheng. yeah. was kinda sad. but we decided to continue learning guzheng aft we graduate. =p frm our beloved chen lao shi. arghh. we miss her. LOLx.
forget to mention in my previous post. i wanna buy a charles n keith de shoe. HAHA. im lovin it. c how la. muz try first rit. hehe.
anyway. was quite sad juz now. dun fele like tokin abt it anymore. i will juz forget abt it. LOLx. its ok. im ok. my frens say im more cheerful rit now =p im so happy. dunno y lei. i juz feel happy when they say im happier rit now. or mayb they juz dunno when im sad?? LOLx. ok la. but im sure life is betta rit now. full of hope n dreams. HAHA. full of music too. tokin abt music. OMG. how i wish i hav all the songs in tis world. not missing out any of them. seems a bit impossible. i wan a music paradise. WAHAHA =x
i realise deres so many things i hav to do in my life. i shall not waste my time tinkin of stupid bastards. tinkin of worthless n useless guys. yeah. im gonna earn n save money. for my very own future. LOLx.
i dunno. i realli dunno. wat i shld do. i dunno wats the best thing for mi. for him. for everybody. somehow when i feel sad i wanna c him2. but hes alwaz nowhere to b found. a few times a yr. OMG. dats long. how long m i gonna wait for the nxt time. mayb dere no more nxt time le. i dunno. wats the point la. its been almost 2 yrs le. mayb juz c him i will b happier?? LOLx. sometimes juz hope he can b dere when i realli nd someone lo. dats all. i dunno. somehow im lost n confuse.
i cried when i noe everything. bcoz im sad dat u r so happy. LOLx. (seems a bit evil ya. bo bian.)
Monday, November 20, 2006
oh no. im going bankrupt liao. LOLx. nvm. work work work. but nvr forget my bio re exam. on 29th nov. JIAYOU. seems a bit ridiculous ya. class position 10. level position 52. yet. nd to take re exam. LOLx. but its ok. i canot fail la. im not gonna drop it. yeah. aft my bio re exam. im gonna start my homework =p
anyway. went to sentosa n vivo city today. LOLx. finally i went dere. although vivo keep reminding of the someone who i miss alot. dat day i miss the chance of going wif him to vivo. yeah. n sentosa reminds mi of dat bastard. yeah. anyway. of coz i did enjoy myself. it actually can b more fun. if it didnt rain. so sianz lo. but of coz we took pictures. WAHAHA. dats mi rit. n dats us. went wif DAREDEVILS. without jy though. everytime she juz cant go out wif us. i dunno bcoz of wat. yet we tried so hard to meet up everytime. we r gonna go dere again. LOLx. its so fun.
let mi back track. dat day went kster. then keep singing for more than 3 hours. then looking at the MV. one of it make mi cry. OMG. but i tried to hide my tears la. im so emo. LOLx. anyway. the MV is acted out by selina n another guy. selina wanted to b a singer. so the guy being her bf. support her. encourage her n treat her damn gd. so one day. the guy go buy herbal tea for selina so dat she can sing betta. on the way to meet selina. he get knock down by a car. n dats the end of his life. he died. selina dun even noe wat happen. tried to look for him. wondering y he MIA all a sudden. end up she realise he died. but she continue to b singer. then she told the reporter she wanted to dedicate the song to dat guy. bcoz without him she wun bcome a singer. n she started singing. as she sing she cried. OMG. so sad. the song actually somehow describe how lonely she was losing the one she love. so nice. i feel like composing my own song. writing my own lyrics roo. LOLx. dat will b so cool.
we realli cant live without music lo. so nice. i wan to collect lots of songs lei =p LOLx. anyway. im gonna b busy again. wif M&M. tis week.
anyway. went to sentosa n vivo city today. LOLx. finally i went dere. although vivo keep reminding of the someone who i miss alot. dat day i miss the chance of going wif him to vivo. yeah. n sentosa reminds mi of dat bastard. yeah. anyway. of coz i did enjoy myself. it actually can b more fun. if it didnt rain. so sianz lo. but of coz we took pictures. WAHAHA. dats mi rit. n dats us. went wif DAREDEVILS. without jy though. everytime she juz cant go out wif us. i dunno bcoz of wat. yet we tried so hard to meet up everytime. we r gonna go dere again. LOLx. its so fun.
let mi back track. dat day went kster. then keep singing for more than 3 hours. then looking at the MV. one of it make mi cry. OMG. but i tried to hide my tears la. im so emo. LOLx. anyway. the MV is acted out by selina n another guy. selina wanted to b a singer. so the guy being her bf. support her. encourage her n treat her damn gd. so one day. the guy go buy herbal tea for selina so dat she can sing betta. on the way to meet selina. he get knock down by a car. n dats the end of his life. he died. selina dun even noe wat happen. tried to look for him. wondering y he MIA all a sudden. end up she realise he died. but she continue to b singer. then she told the reporter she wanted to dedicate the song to dat guy. bcoz without him she wun bcome a singer. n she started singing. as she sing she cried. OMG. so sad. the song actually somehow describe how lonely she was losing the one she love. so nice. i feel like composing my own song. writing my own lyrics roo. LOLx. dat will b so cool.
we realli cant live without music lo. so nice. i wan to collect lots of songs lei =p LOLx. anyway. im gonna b busy again. wif M&M. tis week.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
WAHAHA. juz come back frm chalet =p yesterday. dat was yesterday. LOLx. hav been busy tis few days. yes. took pictures. but lazy to upload =x HAHA. one day i will. now not at home. at sis hse.
i realise the change in mi. which is gd. but some things confuse mi. some things make mi wanted to change my mind. i dunno. LOLx. let mi tink abt it.
anyway. i bought my jacket. quite some time ago. juz dat i didnt mention here. HAHA. deres alot of things i wan. i nd to buy. money is the prob. so i promise myself. i hav to study n earn alot of money for my v own future. everything belongs to mi n nobody else. not selfish la. LOLx.
i came to love the word 'retribution'. i came to love purple =p but i wun forget my favourite pink. HAHA. n i came to love singing even more. visiting KBOX, KSTER n PARTY WORLD. i came to love pubs too. i nvr realli been dere. juz once. not for drinking of coz. im not allow to b inside though. LOLx. ya. shld i say i love them when im sad?? somehow ba. but when im happy i will wan to go dere too. HAHA. but when one is sad definitely wan to go somewhere he or she loves rit. of coz b wif someone he or she love la. but no. i didnt go wif the one i love. LOLx. oni family n frens. i dunno who i love rit now though. not tokin abt family n frens la. i love them of coz. =p
i can nvr imagine one forget a past relationship juz liddat. mayb if i got a guy rit here bside mi i will forget too. LOLx. somehow im forgetting la. without another guy of coz. alone wif frens n bros. HAHA. but its ok. happy jiu hao le. even if i cry its not bcoz of anithing. juz the memories itself. which i will nvr get back. so juz cry n forget abt it. i mean put it aside. yeah. i realli learn alot tis time. thanks. u make mi understand n double confirm wat i hav been tinkin. u make mi c the world n guys more clearly. its sad dat the world n guys r liddat. but deres no way anybody can change it. so juz accept it.
juz come back for KBOX. yeah. kind of tired. but in the mood of typing. HAHA. bcoz aft singing i will hav lotsa tots in my mind. muz let out. if not burst. tml still gonna work. LOLx. JIAYOU!!
i realise the change in mi. which is gd. but some things confuse mi. some things make mi wanted to change my mind. i dunno. LOLx. let mi tink abt it.
anyway. i bought my jacket. quite some time ago. juz dat i didnt mention here. HAHA. deres alot of things i wan. i nd to buy. money is the prob. so i promise myself. i hav to study n earn alot of money for my v own future. everything belongs to mi n nobody else. not selfish la. LOLx.
i came to love the word 'retribution'. i came to love purple =p but i wun forget my favourite pink. HAHA. n i came to love singing even more. visiting KBOX, KSTER n PARTY WORLD. i came to love pubs too. i nvr realli been dere. juz once. not for drinking of coz. im not allow to b inside though. LOLx. ya. shld i say i love them when im sad?? somehow ba. but when im happy i will wan to go dere too. HAHA. but when one is sad definitely wan to go somewhere he or she loves rit. of coz b wif someone he or she love la. but no. i didnt go wif the one i love. LOLx. oni family n frens. i dunno who i love rit now though. not tokin abt family n frens la. i love them of coz. =p
i can nvr imagine one forget a past relationship juz liddat. mayb if i got a guy rit here bside mi i will forget too. LOLx. somehow im forgetting la. without another guy of coz. alone wif frens n bros. HAHA. but its ok. happy jiu hao le. even if i cry its not bcoz of anithing. juz the memories itself. which i will nvr get back. so juz cry n forget abt it. i mean put it aside. yeah. i realli learn alot tis time. thanks. u make mi understand n double confirm wat i hav been tinkin. u make mi c the world n guys more clearly. its sad dat the world n guys r liddat. but deres no way anybody can change it. so juz accept it.
juz come back for KBOX. yeah. kind of tired. but in the mood of typing. HAHA. bcoz aft singing i will hav lotsa tots in my mind. muz let out. if not burst. tml still gonna work. LOLx. JIAYOU!!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Sunday, November 12, 2006
HAHA. today is the 2nd day of my work. =p dun ask mi how was it. alot of pple ask le. i dunno how to ans. bcoz its was juz liddat ah. LOLx. yeah. then i made frens of coz. but then not my age de. mostly 20++ n get married liao. most of them got children le. but tokin to mature pple oso gd ah. HAHA. learn alot of things.
then they ask mi abt my bf. nth much to tok abt. then she ask how many ex i hav. i told her. so she ended up askin issit deres a prob wif mi. yeah. i was tinkin too. everytime aft a break up i ask myself the same old questions. i tink mayb n most prob. deres a prob wif mi. i dunno wat. LOLx. anyway. yeah. i agree deres a prob wif mi. gonna stay single forever?? i dun mind. as long as i can survive in tis world myself. =p
tml is bio SPA. HAHA. gonna b dead. wish mi luck. JIAYOU.
hmm. wat else. im enjoying my life rit now. nobody can affect mi =)
i guess dats all?? LOLx.
then they ask mi abt my bf. nth much to tok abt. then she ask how many ex i hav. i told her. so she ended up askin issit deres a prob wif mi. yeah. i was tinkin too. everytime aft a break up i ask myself the same old questions. i tink mayb n most prob. deres a prob wif mi. i dunno wat. LOLx. anyway. yeah. i agree deres a prob wif mi. gonna stay single forever?? i dun mind. as long as i can survive in tis world myself. =p
tml is bio SPA. HAHA. gonna b dead. wish mi luck. JIAYOU.
hmm. wat else. im enjoying my life rit now. nobody can affect mi =)
i guess dats all?? LOLx.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
i admit i miss u. i admit i cant forget u. i admit my love for u is still dere. but no matter how sad i m. how hurtful everything is. i will let u go. i hav to face the fact n the reality. no matter how cruel it is. no matter whether i wan to. bcoz i hav no other choice.
now i hav made up my mind. i wan to depend on myself. nvr depend on guys. i may hav a stead. but dat someone has to respect watever im doing. nvr ever stop mi frm doing wat i wan to. dat someone has to b dere when i nd him. dat someone has to love mi wif all his heart.
dere r some things which i muz hav n do in my future.
1) learn jap language
2) hav a driving licence
3) get a car
4) hav my own dog
5) go for make-up courses
all tis r juz interest ba. its time to start saving money rit now. for my v own future. deres still a shopping list waiting for mi.
1) I.P. zone purple jacket
2) slipper
3) bag
4) mascara
5) lip balm n gloss
i guess dats all for now?? LOLx. cant tink of anithing else rit now. im finding jobs. im gonna work =p
now i hav made up my mind. i wan to depend on myself. nvr depend on guys. i may hav a stead. but dat someone has to respect watever im doing. nvr ever stop mi frm doing wat i wan to. dat someone has to b dere when i nd him. dat someone has to love mi wif all his heart.
dere r some things which i muz hav n do in my future.
1) learn jap language
2) hav a driving licence
3) get a car
4) hav my own dog
5) go for make-up courses
all tis r juz interest ba. its time to start saving money rit now. for my v own future. deres still a shopping list waiting for mi.
1) I.P. zone purple jacket
2) slipper
3) bag
4) mascara
5) lip balm n gloss
i guess dats all for now?? LOLx. cant tink of anithing else rit now. im finding jobs. im gonna work =p
Thursday, November 02, 2006
i wanted to b dere for u. but unfortunately. u dun nd mi anymore. u ignore mi. u r happy rit now. its retirbution. mayb its all my fault. but doesnt matter. i wan to b happy. with u without u i hav to b happy. i hav my goals. i hav my dreams. without u i hav to carry on. but i believe my conscience is clear. i nvr let myself down. i love u wif all my heart. im serious in all relationships. i didnt treat u unkind as well. u chose tis way. since u r happy without mi i hav nth to say.
i hav a miss call yesterday. private number. 130am. LOLx. seriously dunno who issit la. anyway. if its something impt. i noe dat person will call mi again de.
i waited today. i miss the chance to go out wif him dat day. but it seems like we hav no fate. i noe he did online juz now. but i didnt manage to tok to him. sianz. wait wait wait n wait. oso dunno waiting for wat sia. but then its ok la. it doesnt make a diff to mi oso. LOLx. dat day may come. dats day may not. it all depends.
anyway. i tink i realli nd to thank my di. alwaz b my listener. treat mi oso v gd. LOLx. is till owe him his birthday card. i wun forget de.
tis few days hav been busy actually. ,meet up customers. hav workshops. peer tutor n bio. tml actually having flag day. but im not going. bcoz of the bio workshop. luckily i oredi hav 100 hours. so i guess i dun hav to do anymore?? but flag day is fun. i miss the chance. but its ok.
y m i typing so much?? LOLx. still nd to study lo. finding jobs. jiayou jiayou JIAYOU. i can do it one. =p actually still got alot of things to say la. but kind of lazy. n i dun tink i hav to type everything here ba?? HAHA.
i hav a miss call yesterday. private number. 130am. LOLx. seriously dunno who issit la. anyway. if its something impt. i noe dat person will call mi again de.
i waited today. i miss the chance to go out wif him dat day. but it seems like we hav no fate. i noe he did online juz now. but i didnt manage to tok to him. sianz. wait wait wait n wait. oso dunno waiting for wat sia. but then its ok la. it doesnt make a diff to mi oso. LOLx. dat day may come. dats day may not. it all depends.
anyway. i tink i realli nd to thank my di. alwaz b my listener. treat mi oso v gd. LOLx. is till owe him his birthday card. i wun forget de.
tis few days hav been busy actually. ,meet up customers. hav workshops. peer tutor n bio. tml actually having flag day. but im not going. bcoz of the bio workshop. luckily i oredi hav 100 hours. so i guess i dun hav to do anymore?? but flag day is fun. i miss the chance. but its ok.
y m i typing so much?? LOLx. still nd to study lo. finding jobs. jiayou jiayou JIAYOU. i can do it one. =p actually still got alot of things to say la. but kind of lazy. n i dun tink i hav to type everything here ba?? HAHA.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
loving relationships are about working together for mutual respect and support over a long period - not just about falling in love, sex and romance, which are relatively superficial ends.
true love in all its intensity does not actually last a lifetime ans it is unreasonable to sentence oneself to a lifetime of enforced fidelity to soeone with whom the spark is gone. we should not make unkeepable promises but instead acknowledge that even long-term relationships can end when the love is lost or one partner falls in love with somebody else.
sounds contradicting. but somehow i agree to tis 2. LOLx.
i hav alot of thoughts in my mind. but i dun feel like typing anymore. hais. nobody knows anithing. oni 2 pple. my sis n my di. mayb dats more than enough. all tis r juz retribution ba. i once treated someone like tis. now i get the same treatment. im sorie. i noe how u feel rit now. but its too late to realise. although it seem like a retribution. but i tink during dat period of time. somehow im doing the right thing.
i hav nightmare again. tis time abt somebody else. but when i wake up i feel like crying. end up i didnt. all the things juz run thru my mind lo. mayb bcoz i hav more than 1 person in my mind. dats y ba. hais. i cant contact u. y arent u here when i nd u. sianz. deres no way i can find u.
true love in all its intensity does not actually last a lifetime ans it is unreasonable to sentence oneself to a lifetime of enforced fidelity to soeone with whom the spark is gone. we should not make unkeepable promises but instead acknowledge that even long-term relationships can end when the love is lost or one partner falls in love with somebody else.
sounds contradicting. but somehow i agree to tis 2. LOLx.
i hav alot of thoughts in my mind. but i dun feel like typing anymore. hais. nobody knows anithing. oni 2 pple. my sis n my di. mayb dats more than enough. all tis r juz retribution ba. i once treated someone like tis. now i get the same treatment. im sorie. i noe how u feel rit now. but its too late to realise. although it seem like a retribution. but i tink during dat period of time. somehow im doing the right thing.
i hav nightmare again. tis time abt somebody else. but when i wake up i feel like crying. end up i didnt. all the things juz run thru my mind lo. mayb bcoz i hav more than 1 person in my mind. dats y ba. hais. i cant contact u. y arent u here when i nd u. sianz. deres no way i can find u.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
how i wish i can get you out of my mind. i believe what i hav been tinkin is not wat actually happen. wat actually happen is more than dat. u ignore mi. bcoz u r happier rit now. bcoz u hav someone else.
thanks. i cried once again. aft so long. i finally cry le. thanks. mayb i will feel betta aft dat.
mayb im juz too free to tink abt all tis. who ask myself to stay at home today. kns.
thanks. i cried once again. aft so long. i finally cry le. thanks. mayb i will feel betta aft dat.
mayb im juz too free to tink abt all tis. who ask myself to stay at home today. kns.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
arghh. why r u so stupid. brb then nvr come back. are u an idiot. LOLx. qi si wo le. tml im gonna stay at home. at first is got go out de lo. at first i can choose whether to go out wif sophia germaine or him. but now. nobody at all. LOLx. mayb i will find my other fren to go out ba. i dunno. anyway. since dunno when. he tok to mi again. im so happy. bcoz i realli canot contact him lo. but then again. its juz a short while. tok tok tok. he say brb. n hes nvr back again. mayb a few more months? nxt yr?? sianz. when can i b dat happy again. i kind of miss u lo. =(
idiot. we miss one chance of going out lo. in fact more than one liao. are u an idiot. arghh. qi si wo le. LOLx. bo bian. if hes realli dat idiot. then i can oni wait wait wait n wait. dunno until when. mayb nvr again. OMG. u r seriously an idiot sia. idiot idiot idiot idiot. arghh. u alwaz drive mi crazy.
idiot. we miss one chance of going out lo. in fact more than one liao. are u an idiot. arghh. qi si wo le. LOLx. bo bian. if hes realli dat idiot. then i can oni wait wait wait n wait. dunno until when. mayb nvr again. OMG. u r seriously an idiot sia. idiot idiot idiot idiot. arghh. u alwaz drive mi crazy.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
i tot i wun post for a period of time.
but i had a dream. a nightmare last nite.
its still in my mind. so clearly.
mayb its all true.
a dream which can somehow make mi cry.
a dream which i nvr wan it to happen.
i dunno y im so sad.
its juz a dream. its juz a dream.
even if its true. i shldnt cry.
arghh. if its true juz accept it.
i ask for improvement in mi.
i tell myself. i will prove to the guys.
im not wat they tink i m.
dats the reason i somehow change le ba.
im stronger now. unlike last time.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!
but i had a dream. a nightmare last nite.
its still in my mind. so clearly.
mayb its all true.
a dream which can somehow make mi cry.
a dream which i nvr wan it to happen.
i dunno y im so sad.
its juz a dream. its juz a dream.
even if its true. i shldnt cry.
arghh. if its true juz accept it.
i ask for improvement in mi.
i tell myself. i will prove to the guys.
im not wat they tink i m.
dats the reason i somehow change le ba.
im stronger now. unlike last time.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!
Sunday, October 22, 2006
i feel the pain in my heart all of a sudden.
i dun dare to tink. i dun wanna noe.
something bad has happen. i noe.
hais. i tried to b happy. i did.
i let u go. so dat u could b happier.
i tot if u realli love mi.
i tot if u realli noe n understand mi.
u will noe how i feel.
u will noe the reason im doing all tis.
all tis will nvr happen.
my heart has broken into pieces.
i guess now oni u dont noe.
but i noe wat i wan.
TO BE HAPPY.
i dun dare to tink. i dun wanna noe.
something bad has happen. i noe.
hais. i tried to b happy. i did.
i let u go. so dat u could b happier.
i tot if u realli love mi.
i tot if u realli noe n understand mi.
u will noe how i feel.
u will noe the reason im doing all tis.
all tis will nvr happen.
my heart has broken into pieces.
i guess now oni u dont noe.
but i noe wat i wan.
TO BE HAPPY.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Sunday, October 15, 2006
arghh. who is dere to save mi frm all tis.
i lose everything. u means everything.
wats the point rit.
a guy who can live without u.
a guy who dun even care abt u rit now.
y r u crying. y r u sad.
y cant u let go of him. sobx.
m i dat weak.
arghh. y muz u do tis to mi.
u noe its terrible. u noe its terrible.
im not like u.
u hav all ur frens who can go crazy n happy wif u.
i hav frens. but i depend too much on u.
i feel weird calling them out.
i feel weird not to tok on phone everyday b4 i slp.
i go out wif frens. staring into blank space.
im sorie dat i feel tis way.
im sorie dat i didnt let u go juz liddat.
im sorie dat makes u feel irritated.
dat juz not wat i wan.
who wan to b sad. i wan my happiness.
hais. i dunno. i dunno. i dunno.
can u give it back to mi??
y take them away frm mi. WHY.
i lose everything. u means everything.
wats the point rit.
a guy who can live without u.
a guy who dun even care abt u rit now.
y r u crying. y r u sad.
y cant u let go of him. sobx.
m i dat weak.
arghh. y muz u do tis to mi.
u noe its terrible. u noe its terrible.
im not like u.
u hav all ur frens who can go crazy n happy wif u.
i hav frens. but i depend too much on u.
i feel weird calling them out.
i feel weird not to tok on phone everyday b4 i slp.
i go out wif frens. staring into blank space.
im sorie dat i feel tis way.
im sorie dat i didnt let u go juz liddat.
im sorie dat makes u feel irritated.
dat juz not wat i wan.
who wan to b sad. i wan my happiness.
hais. i dunno. i dunno. i dunno.
can u give it back to mi??
y take them away frm mi. WHY.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
everything comes to an end.
history repeating.
im sad sad n sad.
i cry cry cry n cry.
LOLx. but oso dunno wats the use la.
dun worry. i will recover de.
but whenever i tink of him i will cry.
the fish. the duck. my acrylic heart.
y did u take it away frm mi. hais.
but c le oso cry. i dunno la.
adrian. im sorie.
i miss u alot alot alot.
realli.
history repeating.
im sad sad n sad.
i cry cry cry n cry.
LOLx. but oso dunno wats the use la.
dun worry. i will recover de.
but whenever i tink of him i will cry.
the fish. the duck. my acrylic heart.
y did u take it away frm mi. hais.
but c le oso cry. i dunno la.
adrian. im sorie.
i miss u alot alot alot.
realli.
all i wan is to b happy.
all i wan is to hav someone who truly love mi.
accepting who i m. treating mi gd.
issit dat difficult??
bcoz of all the guys.
i lose my worth.
i lose my happiness which i wan to get all along.
i lose every opportunity to b happy again.
wats love. if deres love.
will u still leave mi??
will u still treat mi the way u do??
will u laugh without mi??
will u enjoy without mi??
will u make mi suffer alone??
hais. sometimes love just aint enough.
all i wan is to hav someone who truly love mi.
accepting who i m. treating mi gd.
issit dat difficult??
bcoz of all the guys.
i lose my worth.
i lose my happiness which i wan to get all along.
i lose every opportunity to b happy again.
wats love. if deres love.
will u still leave mi??
will u still treat mi the way u do??
will u laugh without mi??
will u enjoy without mi??
will u make mi suffer alone??
hais. sometimes love just aint enough.
Friday, October 13, 2006
i will not regret in watever i do.
i will nvr regret in making any decision.
tis include being wif u.
i hav no regret.
no matter wat will happen in the nxt few days.
in the nxt few weeks.
in the nxt few months. years n forever.
i dun wan to say anithing else here.
all i wan to say is wat we everyday say to each other.
gdnitez. love you. muackz.
since i cant say it to u anymore.
if im realli dat irritating jiu suan le.
mayb by leaving u will b happier??
i dunno. i dun wanna tink.
all tis things happen again n again.
in my life. its repeating.
im trying to find something.
which can empower mi.
to b stronger.
n to survive without u.
but it seem like deres nth.
my first time experiencing sleepless nite.
i will nvr regret in making any decision.
tis include being wif u.
i hav no regret.
no matter wat will happen in the nxt few days.
in the nxt few weeks.
in the nxt few months. years n forever.
i dun wan to say anithing else here.
all i wan to say is wat we everyday say to each other.
gdnitez. love you. muackz.
since i cant say it to u anymore.
if im realli dat irritating jiu suan le.
mayb by leaving u will b happier??
i dunno. i dun wanna tink.
all tis things happen again n again.
in my life. its repeating.
im trying to find something.
which can empower mi.
to b stronger.
n to survive without u.
but it seem like deres nth.
my first time experiencing sleepless nite.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
OMG. i study so hard for amaths. but i believe i do badly. i change the answer of one of the question n realise its wrong. arghh. sobx sobx. got one careless oso. hais. i shall go bang the wall. i cry over it lo. mr poh u lie to mi. sobx sobx. =( its not realli difficult la. the mistakes i made is stupid la. im so far away frm my a1 liao. anyway. im gonna make sure i wun make the same mistake again. not for o level. i will cry until i die. sobx sobx. i will continue to study hard de. LOLx. anyway. i find tis quote quite interesting.
" fate is half by expection, half by inattention. but somehow when one lose something you love, faith takes over. you have to pay attention to what you lost. you have to undo the expectation. "
" fate is half by expection, half by inattention. but somehow when one lose something you love, faith takes over. you have to pay attention to what you lost. you have to undo the expectation. "
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
study. study. STUDY.
jiayou. jiayou. JIAYOU.
LOLx. exams period now. =(
anyway. tots run thru my mind.
but i still tink its betta to keep it.
u may not noe wat im tinkin.
but i find dat i hav to b contented wif wat i hav.
things will get betta.
nth will get worse.
juz hope the feelings wun fade.
can anyone tell mi how one shld treat his or her love one??
jiayou. jiayou. JIAYOU.
LOLx. exams period now. =(
anyway. tots run thru my mind.
but i still tink its betta to keep it.
u may not noe wat im tinkin.
but i find dat i hav to b contented wif wat i hav.
things will get betta.
nth will get worse.
juz hope the feelings wun fade.
can anyone tell mi how one shld treat his or her love one??
Friday, September 29, 2006
25th september 2006.
yeah. dats was the day when everything started.
i hav no feelings n thoughts.
bcoz nth changed.
its juz the status n the date.
n our PROMISE.
im waiting for dat day.
when u realise everything.
wat i hav been keeping in my heart.
i dun feel like saying anithing at all.
i juz hope its not too late.
to cherish someone b4 they r gone.
yeah. dats was the day when everything started.
i hav no feelings n thoughts.
bcoz nth changed.
its juz the status n the date.
n our PROMISE.
im waiting for dat day.
when u realise everything.
wat i hav been keeping in my heart.
i dun feel like saying anithing at all.
i juz hope its not too late.
to cherish someone b4 they r gone.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
GUYS DUN WORTH MY TEARS.
i will try realli hard not to cry for guys anymore.
those who hurt mi arent any gd guys.
i was waiting for a good ans.
in fact many gd ans.
to my disappointment.
i get none of it.
but nvm.
i keep reminding myself.
guys dun worth my tears.
still. i cry. LOLx.
im trying to. alrite.
y do guys hurt gals anyway??
most of the time. i dunno y.
sometimes they do it for gd reasons.
dats wat they say everytime.
but mayb to the gals.
it isnt gd at all.
guys. pls dun make any decision which u tink may make the gals happy.
it may not. pls ask the gals b4 making any decision.
u may not noe wat they r tinkin.
u may not noe how they realli feel.
by leaving the gals.
its definitely making them sad oni.
IF. u love the gal.
give her the happiness dat u wan her to hav.
n not give up n allow others to give her.
dats not the rite way.
if u love her. n she love u.
hold on to it. nvr let go.
if she doesnt love u at all.
let her go.
but make sure.
U REALLI LOVE THE GAL.
i will try realli hard not to cry for guys anymore.
those who hurt mi arent any gd guys.
i was waiting for a good ans.
in fact many gd ans.
to my disappointment.
i get none of it.
but nvm.
i keep reminding myself.
guys dun worth my tears.
still. i cry. LOLx.
im trying to. alrite.
y do guys hurt gals anyway??
most of the time. i dunno y.
sometimes they do it for gd reasons.
dats wat they say everytime.
but mayb to the gals.
it isnt gd at all.
guys. pls dun make any decision which u tink may make the gals happy.
it may not. pls ask the gals b4 making any decision.
u may not noe wat they r tinkin.
u may not noe how they realli feel.
by leaving the gals.
its definitely making them sad oni.
IF. u love the gal.
give her the happiness dat u wan her to hav.
n not give up n allow others to give her.
dats not the rite way.
if u love her. n she love u.
hold on to it. nvr let go.
if she doesnt love u at all.
let her go.
but make sure.
U REALLI LOVE THE GAL.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
arghh. im stressed out!!!
sobx. sobx.
have been crying not the whole afternoon.
juz a few times lo.
feel stressed or irritated then cry lo.
like got depression hor??
i dunno la.
have been studying.
then suddenly got headache. body ache.
oso dunno y.
lazy to go buy things to eat.
so end up eat maggi mee.
guess this is why im so thin ba.
but seriously. oredi eat more than last time lo.
now. i tink canot le ba.
i muz save money.
for my hp bill. for my expenses.
SAVE MONEY!!!
sobx. sobx.
i guess this is why im stressed out too.
money money money.
can i dun trouble abt wat i wan to buy.
can i dun trouble abt my hp bill.
can i dun trouble abt money. hais.
juz saw a meaningful nick.
love is when u shed a tear n u still love him. its when he loves another girl. u smile n say im happy for u. when all u do is cry.
sobx. sobx.
have been crying not the whole afternoon.
juz a few times lo.
feel stressed or irritated then cry lo.
like got depression hor??
i dunno la.
have been studying.
then suddenly got headache. body ache.
oso dunno y.
lazy to go buy things to eat.
so end up eat maggi mee.
guess this is why im so thin ba.
but seriously. oredi eat more than last time lo.
now. i tink canot le ba.
i muz save money.
for my hp bill. for my expenses.
SAVE MONEY!!!
sobx. sobx.
i guess this is why im stressed out too.
money money money.
can i dun trouble abt wat i wan to buy.
can i dun trouble abt my hp bill.
can i dun trouble abt money. hais.
juz saw a meaningful nick.
love is when u shed a tear n u still love him. its when he loves another girl. u smile n say im happy for u. when all u do is cry.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
seriously. now nobody knows wat im tinkin.
i dunno who to tell. i dunno who will understand.
i dun even noe how i shld say.
or even how i shld type of the blog.
so i can do nth abt it.
keep it wif mi. tink n tink n tink.
last but not least. cry.
dats mi. dats juz mi.
i guess one day when im ready to open up.
to tell everybody how i feel.
i will juz say out ba.
but not now. i dunno how to.
feeling quite xin ku rit now.
but come to tink of it.
im oredi fortunate enough.
at least i hav boyfriends who treat mi gd.
but dats when they truly love mi.
mayb dats gd enough??
but i tink i still hav to thank them.
mayb bcoz i juz dun treat them gd enough.
in some ways or the other.
it may b my fault.
dat cause an ending to the relationship.
IM SORIE.
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ANYTHING.
i dunno who to tell. i dunno who will understand.
i dun even noe how i shld say.
or even how i shld type of the blog.
so i can do nth abt it.
keep it wif mi. tink n tink n tink.
last but not least. cry.
dats mi. dats juz mi.
i guess one day when im ready to open up.
to tell everybody how i feel.
i will juz say out ba.
but not now. i dunno how to.
feeling quite xin ku rit now.
but come to tink of it.
im oredi fortunate enough.
at least i hav boyfriends who treat mi gd.
but dats when they truly love mi.
mayb dats gd enough??
but i tink i still hav to thank them.
mayb bcoz i juz dun treat them gd enough.
in some ways or the other.
it may b my fault.
dat cause an ending to the relationship.
IM SORIE.
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ANYTHING.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
HAHA. surprise!!! im gonna post today. n im gonna say something more surprising.
I LOVE MY FAMILY.
my dad. my mum. my sisters!!! i miss them so much. =(
sobx.
HAHA. anyway. tis holiday do nth much.
juz gonna highlight a few days.
tuesday. mi, zengying n sophia went kushinbo. LOLx. ok la. its a jap buffet. we stay dere for ard 2 hours. then we went shopping. we went marina square. sophia finding the groove nations. end up we found the arena. n we saw ryan. took a picture wif him.
nah. dats the pic. LOLx. somehow i like tis hair of mine. im gonna let it grow!!! =p
ok. nxt will b thursday. i bought the bag i saw at jurong point. HAHA. its not damn nice. its not damn ex. its juz wat i like. =) happy happy. damn happy. a gift frm adrian. THANK YOU. hehe. friday we went to eat sakae sushi. hmm. spend quite alot during tis holiday. im gonna save back. dun worry. HAHA.
saturday is an irritating day. a v sad day. i cry for 4hours until 4am. my eyes swell. =( all bcoz of who??? adrian chew. hais. its not totally bcoz of him oso. its juz dat im sad + wat he say = cry 4 hours lo. HAHA. we quarrel. n i hate the things he say. wow. its like the end of my life. but nvm. its over. everything is ok now. hehe.
oh ya. i went to c the taka lion dance competition on wed. im sad la. terry they all lose. =( everytime i go watch they lose one. sobx. im like a jinx. they muz win. they hav to win. hope they will win the nxt time =)
hmm. i guess dats all? though deres like alot of things to say. but lazy to type. lazy to tink. LOLx. ok la. end here. bye.
I LOVE MY FAMILY.
my dad. my mum. my sisters!!! i miss them so much. =(
sobx.
HAHA. anyway. tis holiday do nth much.
juz gonna highlight a few days.
tuesday. mi, zengying n sophia went kushinbo. LOLx. ok la. its a jap buffet. we stay dere for ard 2 hours. then we went shopping. we went marina square. sophia finding the groove nations. end up we found the arena. n we saw ryan. took a picture wif him.
nah. dats the pic. LOLx. somehow i like tis hair of mine. im gonna let it grow!!! =p
ok. nxt will b thursday. i bought the bag i saw at jurong point. HAHA. its not damn nice. its not damn ex. its juz wat i like. =) happy happy. damn happy. a gift frm adrian. THANK YOU. hehe. friday we went to eat sakae sushi. hmm. spend quite alot during tis holiday. im gonna save back. dun worry. HAHA.
saturday is an irritating day. a v sad day. i cry for 4hours until 4am. my eyes swell. =( all bcoz of who??? adrian chew. hais. its not totally bcoz of him oso. its juz dat im sad + wat he say = cry 4 hours lo. HAHA. we quarrel. n i hate the things he say. wow. its like the end of my life. but nvm. its over. everything is ok now. hehe.
oh ya. i went to c the taka lion dance competition on wed. im sad la. terry they all lose. =( everytime i go watch they lose one. sobx. im like a jinx. they muz win. they hav to win. hope they will win the nxt time =)
hmm. i guess dats all? though deres like alot of things to say. but lazy to type. lazy to tink. LOLx. ok la. end here. bye.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
haha. i said i will post means i will post. today was fun. how can i not post. =p
u see. now is the beginning of holiday. TEACHERS' DAY. LOLx. n i went to the bird park! so long nvr go le. HAHA. its not childish or wat ok. its FUN. u noe. FUN. LOLx.
anyway. wish all the teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY. i doubt any teacher will c too. beginning of holiday oso equals to the beginning of doing all the homework n revision. HAHA. but im still going out ok. i will. =p how can i not enjoy during a holiday. LOLx.
today i went to the BIRD PARK!!! ok la. i will try not to b so excited. it was fun. if deres a camera. it will b more fun. LOLx. still took some pictures today. but not at bird park. i guess i can upload some of them?? LOLx.
hmm. wat else. i shall not say the sad things here. although dere is. its not oni abt one person. more than one thing wif more than one person. yeah. but i have to say something to some pple.
put urself into other pple's shoe.
wat happen to others esp. the one u hate may happen to u as well.
wat if u r the one who is the victim??
tink abt it.
its all up to u.
u wanna hate mi.
u wanna ignore mi.
u wanna get out of my life.
u choose wat u wan.
n if u chose to b liddat.
so be it.
i will nvr let anyone affects mi.
its not i dun care or wat.
its juz dat i tink tis is wat i realli shldnt care.
LOLx. crap.
ok la. will upload the pics soon! =)
u see. now is the beginning of holiday. TEACHERS' DAY. LOLx. n i went to the bird park! so long nvr go le. HAHA. its not childish or wat ok. its FUN. u noe. FUN. LOLx.
anyway. wish all the teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY. i doubt any teacher will c too. beginning of holiday oso equals to the beginning of doing all the homework n revision. HAHA. but im still going out ok. i will. =p how can i not enjoy during a holiday. LOLx.
today i went to the BIRD PARK!!! ok la. i will try not to b so excited. it was fun. if deres a camera. it will b more fun. LOLx. still took some pictures today. but not at bird park. i guess i can upload some of them?? LOLx.
hmm. wat else. i shall not say the sad things here. although dere is. its not oni abt one person. more than one thing wif more than one person. yeah. but i have to say something to some pple.
put urself into other pple's shoe.
wat happen to others esp. the one u hate may happen to u as well.
wat if u r the one who is the victim??
tink abt it.
its all up to u.
u wanna hate mi.
u wanna ignore mi.
u wanna get out of my life.
u choose wat u wan.
n if u chose to b liddat.
so be it.
i will nvr let anyone affects mi.
its not i dun care or wat.
its juz dat i tink tis is wat i realli shldnt care.
LOLx. crap.
ok la. will upload the pics soon! =)
Friday, August 11, 2006
HAHA. pictures again =p
monkey stick. so cute. HAHA. see tis n u will smile. dats wat im doing. =)
hmm. stupid?? LOLx.
alrite. tis is an ugly one. nvm.
ok. tis is from my lao di. HAHA. i owe u the card. im sorie. thanks anyway.
my bubble tea straw heart n the lighter. hehe. so cute. =p
tis is mi n adrian. =)
monkey stick. so cute. HAHA. see tis n u will smile. dats wat im doing. =)
hmm. stupid?? LOLx.
alrite. tis is an ugly one. nvm.
ok. tis is from my lao di. HAHA. i owe u the card. im sorie. thanks anyway.
my bubble tea straw heart n the lighter. hehe. so cute. =p
tis is mi n adrian. =)
HAHA. i think many pple sure think i pon skol one lo. no hor. realli sick. having fever. just dat getting betta le. hehe. but still under medication ok. im still going to ms lam farewell party. muz go. hav to go. last day lei. how can dun go.
miracle happen??? i update blog lei. HAHA. I UPDATE BLOG LEI. aft so long. hmm. gonna write some thoughts here???
wat shld i say. ms lam last day in zhss today lei. sad sia. i dun wan mr poh. i dun wan male form teacher. except mr lee. HAHA. die die oso muz go the farewell party lo. no matter how much i tink i will miss her?? i guess i wun show it on my face lo. dats mi. care for pple oso dun wan to show de. LOLx. who cares. hope can keep in touch wif her?? then ask her out for gathering sometimes. issit possible??
ok. nxt. abt something which i hav tot for v long. still. im tinkin. LOLx. quite fan la. but i just wanna b happy. i just wanna c them happy too. i realli tink im v xing fu le. no matter how sad n hurtful the endings of every relationship are. within the period whereby the guy realli love mi. i guess im the most xing fu de. at least i realli tink so. so i shld b happy?? though the endings r sad. LOLx. zhen de. it hurts during the breakup. but the memories r realli unforgettable ones. dats the best part of every relationship?? yes. aft every relationship i tot of going back again. the happy times. in the beginning i tot it was possible. bcoz at dat time i realli love him alot alot alot. until i feel like dying when he leave mi. the funny part is. at dat time he tot dat it is impossible to go back. yet now. when i tink dat it is impossible. he tot it is possible. i dunno y issit impossible. i dun wanna tink. i just wanna c them happy. i dunno how i feel now. i oni noe i dun wan c him sad. do i love him? do i still wanna go back? i dunno. i seriously dunno. so pls. dun ask mi anymore. all u hav to do is to b happy. zhen de. i dun blame u for wat u did last time. i dun even wan to rmb dat. JUST BE HAPPY =)
BGR sometimes realli sucks. yeah. but its gd to hav someone by ur side when u realli nd one. dat time ms rozianna tok abt BGR. n she started saying. if u alwaz get hurt in a relationship n get affected by it. ask urself. are you ready for a relationship?? seriously i tink age doesnt matter at all. who say at our age we cant hav a life partner?? mayb we cant. but u will nvr noe. but if u cant even b sure dat u all wanna b forever. n u all can b forever. y b together?? to get hurt??? for the thrill of it?? or to get more experience?? dats y pple alwaz say im to into the relationship le. but dats mi. n i tink deres nth wrong wif it. yeah. get hurt until feel like dying. but my conscience r clear. bcoz i noe i didnt do anithing wrong. i love n care for him wif all my heart. so hurt is still betta than regret??? aft a relationship. dun regret dat u nvr treat him gd. dun regret dat u nvr love him wif all ur heart. dun let him to hav a chance to push all the blames to u.
WOW. i guess dats all?? everybody. pls b HAPPY. =)
miracle happen??? i update blog lei. HAHA. I UPDATE BLOG LEI. aft so long. hmm. gonna write some thoughts here???
wat shld i say. ms lam last day in zhss today lei. sad sia. i dun wan mr poh. i dun wan male form teacher. except mr lee. HAHA. die die oso muz go the farewell party lo. no matter how much i tink i will miss her?? i guess i wun show it on my face lo. dats mi. care for pple oso dun wan to show de. LOLx. who cares. hope can keep in touch wif her?? then ask her out for gathering sometimes. issit possible??
ok. nxt. abt something which i hav tot for v long. still. im tinkin. LOLx. quite fan la. but i just wanna b happy. i just wanna c them happy too. i realli tink im v xing fu le. no matter how sad n hurtful the endings of every relationship are. within the period whereby the guy realli love mi. i guess im the most xing fu de. at least i realli tink so. so i shld b happy?? though the endings r sad. LOLx. zhen de. it hurts during the breakup. but the memories r realli unforgettable ones. dats the best part of every relationship?? yes. aft every relationship i tot of going back again. the happy times. in the beginning i tot it was possible. bcoz at dat time i realli love him alot alot alot. until i feel like dying when he leave mi. the funny part is. at dat time he tot dat it is impossible to go back. yet now. when i tink dat it is impossible. he tot it is possible. i dunno y issit impossible. i dun wanna tink. i just wanna c them happy. i dunno how i feel now. i oni noe i dun wan c him sad. do i love him? do i still wanna go back? i dunno. i seriously dunno. so pls. dun ask mi anymore. all u hav to do is to b happy. zhen de. i dun blame u for wat u did last time. i dun even wan to rmb dat. JUST BE HAPPY =)
BGR sometimes realli sucks. yeah. but its gd to hav someone by ur side when u realli nd one. dat time ms rozianna tok abt BGR. n she started saying. if u alwaz get hurt in a relationship n get affected by it. ask urself. are you ready for a relationship?? seriously i tink age doesnt matter at all. who say at our age we cant hav a life partner?? mayb we cant. but u will nvr noe. but if u cant even b sure dat u all wanna b forever. n u all can b forever. y b together?? to get hurt??? for the thrill of it?? or to get more experience?? dats y pple alwaz say im to into the relationship le. but dats mi. n i tink deres nth wrong wif it. yeah. get hurt until feel like dying. but my conscience r clear. bcoz i noe i didnt do anithing wrong. i love n care for him wif all my heart. so hurt is still betta than regret??? aft a relationship. dun regret dat u nvr treat him gd. dun regret dat u nvr love him wif all ur heart. dun let him to hav a chance to push all the blames to u.
WOW. i guess dats all?? everybody. pls b HAPPY. =)
Saturday, July 08, 2006
update pic again... haha... sorie la... i tink a few more weeks will do... a few more weeks i can post again le... =p tired sia... actually deres alot to say... but dun wan nia...
recently de mi... hehe...
ZHGZ... on youth day...
dere will b more neoprints coming up??? for youth day... 3b girls... mi germaine n wanchun... haha... take care everybody...
recently de mi... hehe...
ZHGZ... on youth day...
dere will b more neoprints coming up??? for youth day... 3b girls... mi germaine n wanchun... haha... take care everybody...
Friday, June 16, 2006
mi n huimin...
tis few days will b so sianz... he go oversea fishing... but i decided to msg him everyday... though dere wun b any reply... but still... msg him is betta ba... hen xiang ta... at the same time... i will start tinkin... who is he tinkin abt now... i tink i nd to spend some time tinkin wat kind of person i m... n wat i realli wan ba... now i noe i wanna c him happy jiu hao le... but i can no longer b the one who make him happy anymore... hmm... not longer make tis post sad... but whenever i listen to the songs he sent mi recently... i cried... bcoz mayb its all my fault... is i make him xin ku de... if oni i nvr hurt him in the first place... he wun lose trust in mi... n he wun b liddat now le... sobx... dui bu qi...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
nowadays dun feel like posting... lolx... in bad mood??? mayb... juz upload some photo ba... will post when i feel betta??? aft 6 months ba... lolx...
my favourite schnauzer... a soft toy... lolx... birthday present frm my third sis tis yr... i hug him when i miss him... he c mi cry... he c mi smile... lolx...
third sis de wedding... look a bit weird... so ugly... =( lolx...
the latest pic... wif my third sis... at my grandma hse... lolx...
my favourite schnauzer... a soft toy... lolx... birthday present frm my third sis tis yr... i hug him when i miss him... he c mi cry... he c mi smile... lolx...
third sis de wedding... look a bit weird... so ugly... =( lolx...
the latest pic... wif my third sis... at my grandma hse... lolx...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
hmm... not gonna say much... updating some pic... but i hav to say something... if not someone c le will kill mi... lolx... thanks to meijun for scanning the neoprints for mi... =p
firstly is guzheng de...
kk... dere is mingli, zhehan, sophia, kiangpin, constance, vanessa,cherlynn n MI! lolx...
nxt will b mi n darmeo de...
tis is the 4th monthsary de... lolx... things r happening b/w us... i realli hope all the things will stop here... then we cao go abck to loving de us... =( so sad nehz... last few weeks... but now i truly hope dat we will stay liddat forever... or even betta... i cherish darmeo... i cherish my every moment wif him... i wun let him go de... i muz treat him v gd... hehe... dats more coming!
firstly is guzheng de...
kk... dere is mingli, zhehan, sophia, kiangpin, constance, vanessa,cherlynn n MI! lolx...
nxt will b mi n darmeo de...
tis is the 4th monthsary de... lolx... things r happening b/w us... i realli hope all the things will stop here... then we cao go abck to loving de us... =( so sad nehz... last few weeks... but now i truly hope dat we will stay liddat forever... or even betta... i cherish darmeo... i cherish my every moment wif him... i wun let him go de... i muz treat him v gd... hehe... dats more coming!
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