haiz... realli feel like crying le... down on my luck!!! 3 things... first thing... go fren's hse play mj... wa... i lose lei... T.T juz dun like the feeling ba... nxt... walkin on the way home... slipper spoil!?! omg... gonna drag my way home... luckily i can take 'cow ride'... figure out urself... lolx... last thing... LCB... get home kanna scolded by the LCB... T.T qi si wo le... realli wanna cry le la... i oredi cried in the cinema tis afternoon... lolx... when i was watching NARNIA... wow... it was nice... v nice... hate to c anybody or anithing dying... then cry lo... but luckily it has a happy ending... lolx... if not i will cry again le... everybody is alive!!! hehe... not gonna gamble again... waste $$$...

**my promise to my darling... not to gamble again... unless it is a small bet...

skol reopening... everybody jiayou wor!!!

wahaha.. today is 2nd month de monthsary nehz... darling make lotsa hearts using paper... i teach him de.. lolx... then go walk walk... take neoprint... then watch alot like love... man... find v long de nehz... shitty friendster... i cant write testimonial for my darling... n oso other pple... i dunno y... anyway... bought a hp... hehe... z520i... sony ericsson.. got a new number oso... but nvr give lotsa pple... nw oni 2 of my frens noe nia... c how ba.. i oso dunno...

man... lazy to type lei... not free oso... c when free then update ba...

blehz... forgot to write yesterday... i chose a new specs... T.T.. which i dun like... no choice... if i realli dun like then i will make again ba... go other shop... black n white... i actually wan find pink then cant... haiz... i dunno lei... wear dat a bit ugly de... bu zhi dao... a bit regret.. suan le ba... nvm...

then... once again... HAPPY MERRY X'MAS to everybody!!! so sianz... i stay at home nehz... T.T

then... one more thing... gonna buy hp... hehe... hehe... hehe... dotx... motorola v3 betta... or nec n411i betta... or z520i betta... or nokia 6101 betta??? dunno... dunno... wo bu zhu dao... mayb end up nvr buy... oso dunno... lolx... then i may b using another number... shld i inform everybody??? v sianz de nehz... liddat... send sms is a waste... call oso no time... dunno lei... of coz my darling will b the first to noe... aiya... bu zhi dao la... tired liao... go do my knitting n holiday homework liao... blehz... cant finish le... lolx...

2nd post of the day... lolx... not v happy... back frm last day of work... hehe... get pay $400... wa... like so much... but overall minus hp bill n everything... i left 100... T.T so ke lian... without my hp bill i will left wif 300 nehz... haiz... crying le... xin tong nehz... but bo bian... mum actually still owe mi 90... but i doubt she can return mi lo... nvm... forget it then... skol reopening... can save money le... hehe... nxt week go cut hair i oso hav to pay myself... mum alwaz say my hair no nd to cut... so i dun get frm her... so bad lo... haiz...

christmas eve stay at home alone nehz... tml oso... so sad... cant go out wif my darling... bcoz of the same prob lo... haiz... but nvm... tis is juz an obstacle... we can go thru it de... stay at home oso nvm... nvm... nvm... nvm... lotsa nvm sia... lolx...

k la... wish everybody... HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

back frm east coast... hehe... dat was yesterday... come back then slp liao =x my eyes still can open wide lo... juz dat feel like slping ma... i finally finally ton overnite le... meaning i nvr slp more than one hour... at east coast no... oni on the way home... lolx... a while nia lo... ok... the BBQ was in a mess... i tink the gals can start the fire betta than the guys... u noe how lousy they r... =x i dun like them... not gentleman at all... use finish de skewer then ask mi bring home... fine... ask mi help them wash... oso nvr help lo... we gals go wash then the guys juz stand dere tok... IDIOTS!!! dun like them... luckily tis is the last time i organise for them lo... but the weather was bad... raining n raining... sianz... darling canot go wif mi bcoz of NCC camp... man... for at least 2 days... cant tok... at least still can sms la... but i scare of my bill le lo... haiz... no choice la... miss my darling so much nehz... yesterday was a sad day as well... his mum tok lotsa craps... then of coz dun wan us to b together la... we wun leave each other de... but i c him everytime like so xin ku liddat... i dunno wat i can do... i m holding on ah... but sometimes i will tink mayb let go he will feel betta... of coz he will say no he cant live without mi... but at least his mum wun come fan him regarding tis matter ma... i dunno lei... we oredi promise not to leave each other le.. but how lei... i realli dun wan c him sad...

darmeo.. i realli love u de... i m worried... i dunno wat to do... i dun wan c u fan... i dun wan c u sad.. zhe me ban... T.T

yesterday was guzheng de BBQ... v little pple... ard 10 nia... but fun... BBQ then got lucky draw... due to so little pple... each can draw twice... i actually got 1 starter n another 2nd price... both photo albums... dotx... then enerjas got one of hers a clock... n i exchange wif her... the clock is nice... n she get my pink minnie album... a bit regret bcoz it is pink... but still ok la... dat was fun... real fun... we took pictures... but dunno using whose camera... i noe it will b v ugly... bcoz the wind was like blowing dunno until like wat... nite time ma... then at ard 9... we went to play pool... nice nice... i love it man... lolx... but cant play much lei... a bad news indeed... haiz... 16 teachers leaving skol nxt yr... T.T wat a skol... wif all the good teachers leaving... wif some of the teachers i like leaving... haiz... wat will zhonghua become... wat will i bcome...

k.. back to today... sad sad... i got my hp bill... o my... $130... T.T man... crying le la... bankrupt liao... sometimes i hope i dun hav a hp... yes... i wanna hav new hp as well... but i noe i will nvr get it... my hp bill liddat... wat else can i say... i realli dun wan use hp... mayb i will lose contact wif my fren... but somehow i tink is alrite... but... how abt my darling... haiz... i muz try v hard to save le... dun blame mi...

i feel bad actually... pple ask mi out but i cant... realli cant ma... not i dun wan... nxt week will b the last week of holiday le... o man... it sucks... i haven finish homework... dats the prob... gonna chiong liao... tml will stay at home... hehe... pray god... i muz finish my homework on time... thursday got another BBQ... hope everything will b fine ba... sad to hear pple say they r not going... haiz... everything seems so sad actually...

today morning receive one letter... i get the gd progress award... but... i dunno whether to go collect on 27 dec... or wait for skol to present it in jan... dunno lei... c how ba... today get my specs... ok oni la... dunno y... juz find it ok nia... it is black lo.. my bag is oso black... now i got 3 favourite colour le... white, pink n black... my darling oso like black... lolx... nvm la... pink or black oso can... dat day go buy skol u... o my... no size... sianz... then i hav to go back again liao...

nxt week will b busy le... sunday go dog show... monday got guzheng BBQ... tuesday hav to collect money frm some of my primary skol frens... wed go buy BBQ thingy for thursday de BBQ... thursday will b primary skol de BBQ... friday then go home... wow... everyday book le... lolx... cant go anywhere liao...

anyway... now back to myself le... i m happy again... hehe... darmeo... wo ai si ni le =)

alrite... tok abt yesterday nite de thingy ba... i cried... not bcoz of wat... juz bcoz i heard dat someone say i m flirt... yup... he may b jokin... but it realli hurts la... o my... my conscience is clear man... how can i flirt when i dun even like pple to flirt... i can say n admit dat i like to b wif guys... i can say n admit dat somehow i like my guy fren more than my gal fren... i can say n admit dat i can go out wif all guys n one gal myself alone... i dun mind... not bcoz i m flirting... who cares whether they like mi... i mean love... i dun even wan them to like mi... i treat all guys fren as my v gd de fren... my buddy... n my brother... mayb to some pple gals wun tink tis way... watever it is... i m who i m lo... those who misunderstand mi r those who dun understand mi at all... i juz find dat whenever i hav prob it concern guys... mayb to some pple i shld hate them... but somehow whenever i hav prob my guy fren help mi more then my gal fren... bcoz they understand guys... telling guys abt my prob n listening to them is listening to another point of view... n somehow i feel betta aft dat... is anithing wrong wif dat??? haiz... guy fren do create prob sometimes... but i hav to say dat i realli treat them as my fren...

nvm... back to today... went to make my specs... hehe... now then i realise my degree is so low... rite -150 left -175... lolx... not bad ah... nvr increase nvr decrease n nehz... i die die oso wan dat specs i chose... n i realise my skol is so fussy even over specs.. canot thick frame blah blah blah... i make one... the side frame r thick... but can b taken out... so is like i can take out the thick frame when i m in skol... put it back when i m out of skol... lolx... not bad ah... i choose v long nehz... bcoz cant find suitable lens de shape ma... finally found one... hehe... but the colour of coz not my fav colour... is ok la... then no more frameless... aft dat go buy skol shoe... i like dat one... can say i m v happy... bcoz yesterday juz bought my fav bag... of coz not my fav colour again... mi de pink edition gonna change le... nvm la... the bag is black... my darling like it ma... then the specs a bit black a bit green la... haiz... somehow i feel like crying... WHERE IS MY PINK?!?! i m still a pink lover k... dun c mi liddat hor...

then my primary skol gathering is set on 22 dec... at east coast... BBQ + ton lo... i gonna book the pit... call everybody n tell them... haiz... like v diff to find everybody lo... gd thing is i can tell them... i wun b organising again... so tis may b the last time... other pple wun organise de... every end of yr pple will find mi... say 'hey holiday liao... rmb to organise gethering hor'... even if they liddat say... whenever i hav a gathering... they will say c first mayb got something on... wats tis... yup... they noe dat it is stress to b an organiser... n somehow wif no one helping... dats y nobdy else ever wanna do anithing abt it... mayb they realli hav to noe how it feels to b like mi...

aft 1 week 2 days... lolx... finally meet my darling... hehe... today aft 3 hours of guzheng... went to bugis... find mi bag... darling buy for mi de christmas present... v early hor... dun say i not good nehz... i oso got buy him things de... nvr say nia ma... lolx... then aft dat go orchard wheelock... buy his bag... v ex de bag... at least to mi... aft dat go shaw house... watch chicken little... at first nearly cry... but then is still ok la... not much comment... dunno lei... nth much to say actually... juz wanna thank my darling ba... lolx...

guzheng was tiring... practice for 3 hours nehz... non-stop... then learn chinese new yr song...

zzzz...

wahaha... so long nvr update liao... lolx... internet got some prob la... anyway... WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE!!! tis is for my didi... heya... sorie ah... u msg mi i nvr reply... nvr use dat phone ma... lolx... i noe i m lame la... anyway... today is one of my ex de birthday... aiyo... thing i hav to say to the guys... pls cherish wat u hav b4 it is gone...

anyway... i dunno how long i nvr update le la... but i oredi 1 week 1 day nvr meet my darling le... T.T went to pet movers today... man... heavy rain nehz... anyway 2 days ltr... hehe... can meet my darling le... =p i dreamt abt him tis afternoon aft i came home frm pet movers... i dreamt dat he went out n nvr tell mi... then i cant find him... call him nvr ans... man... cry nehz... lolx... dunno y liddat... anyway it is damn scary... so long nvr update... but i dun hav much thing to say lei...

ANYWAY PPLE... I HAV A REQUEST - HELP MI TAG MY BOARD... lolx... no matter who u r la...

i m not the happy naoko anymore... dun ask mi y... i dun even noe y.. haiz... i cried... bcoz i realise my heart consist of hatred.. n is someone i shldnt hate... i realli dunno... realli damn fan... i m sorie... getting depress again.. omg... can anybody help mi??? i dunno... tml is jerry de birthday le... i tink le... i wun sms him... i will write him testimonial ba... mayb it is fated... yup... i do believe in ate... mayb now liddat is he best ba... if one day he realli forget him i will b glad... suan le... dun wanna tok abt him anymore... sometimes i juz wish someone will scold mi.. so dat i can bcome awake... my mind is not clear now... haiz... aft some tinkin... i realise i dun like pple who treat mi as godsis or fren for sometime n forget mi le... i shld say get lost to those pple... bcoz i can get hurt by fren juz bcoz of tis... i take frenship too seriously... like i say... once my fren forever my fren... once my godbro forever my godbro... once my godsis forever my godsis... i wun forget them... neither do i wanna them to forget mi... i wun look for u again if i tink dat u dun treat mi as one anymore... i realli do hav such feeling... haiz...

if you're not the one lyrics

if you're not the one-daniel bedingfield


If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms

wa piang... i dunno whether i shld say lucky or unlucky lo... yesterday mi n my darling went to orchard... o my... guess who we met... MS LONG... dotx... i dunno whether she got c mi la... she juz say 'smile somemore'... omg... then aft saw her bf lei... taller than her... but size is a bit smaller ba... wear specs... then dunno how to describe le...

then at nite we went to east point mall for mr quek de performance... o my... i tot i can run away frm his eyes... but aft the performance... i sit near the MRT station while my darling went to buy something... mr quek go to the nearby coffee shop... i tot he cant recognise mi... but he keep looking at mi... then say 'o... so u r here... i keep looking ard but didnt c u..'... lolx... then of coz thank mi for going... give mi his email n ask mi add him... it was close...

sad thing again... jerry de fren... a gal add mi in msn... but not in friendster... weird... haiz... she brought up my past... though she is good by saying 'since u got bf u shld concentrate on him'... but she still ask mi those question wat... wats the diff... i hate my past... i dun like to tink of my past... i dun like 'her'... i dunno y... she is ok... i realli dunno y... but i say b4 lo... i cant hate anyone... bcoz i will end up crying... dats y i m upset... haizzzzz..... fan si ren le... somehow i oso dun like pple who noe her n like her... more fan nehz.... jerry de fren say 'forgive n forget'... yup... i forgave jerry... but not her... haiz.... dunno y... but i will alwaz say a scar will forever b a scar... dats y i nvr patch wif him... his birthday is reaching... wat i will do is to wish him happy birthday lo... wo bu zhi dao... zhen de hen fan... i dun like myself to b full of hatred...

wa... lotsa things to say... but the v v first thing... is HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to yj... lolx... yesterday his birthday nehz... went to ps... duh... still got other place meh... then watch zathura... man... super nice... i'm loving it... lolx... somemore tis is the first birthday... we rush to buy a present... it was fun n memorable... at dere i saw denise... lolx... my primary skol fren... v happy to c her... yesterday my starting mood is happy la... aft the movie... nvr take neoprint nehz... but go jy hse... scan neoprint... mi n my darling de... lolx... finally got pple help mi scan liao... then tok tok tok... 7+ then go home...

then v happy... bcoz my long lost fren add mi in msn... hehe... is my primary skol fren... p6 then nvr tok much liao... yesterday keep tokin abt last time... so happy... lolx...
i realise something oso... i dun like full of hatred de mi... i dun wanna hate pple... but somehow i dislike pple... haiz... i dunno la... tink abt tis then fan...

sorie to my darling bcoz i m not able to go mr quek concert... v tired... tis few days alwaz go out... then alwaz reach home late... simei is realli too far le... then sorie abt yesterday oso... tok halfway then i in great pain... wow... pain until i cry... in the middle of the nite when everybody is slping... pain for more than one hour... finally i scream... then walk ard the hse... i was feeling betta le b4 my mum bring mi to the doctor... haiz...

o... ya... i m learning knitting now... hehe... wish mi good luck wor... i dun wanna do wrongly nehz... lolx...

1-month monthsary

yay... finally... today is our 1-month monthsary... hehe... he gave mi a pink rose... i gave him a simple card... then we went to marina square... wow... the youth zone... v shiok... many things to buy... but we didnt buy... save money ma... but targetted lots of things... b4 we leave dere we bought a couple cup... romeo n juliet... lolx... somehow he like it... anyway we bought it... i used it to out the rose he gave mi... of coz i take the juliet one... then we went to plaza sing... juz for 2 reasons... one is to look at ring which he has been tokin abt... but unable to buy now... targetting nia... second reason is to TAKE NEOPRINT!!! lolx... so sad... cant scan... anyway i like it =) today was a happy day... i realli enjoy it... i dun hav to write my word of appreciation here ba... lolx... will write it somewhere...

i juz hope i wun neglect any of my frens... =)

hmm... today oni got one thing to say... abt my darling le... thing happen... i dun hav to say wat la... he tot i m angry... hav been msging mi more than 20 times perhaps... but i was actually slping... n my hp low batt... so off automatically... i feel so bad... i m sorie... darling... i m not angry... i was juz kidding n u tot i m angry... now i noe how much u love mi le...

aft tis thing then i keep tinkin... i m afraid dat i cant love him as much... sorie again... bcoz while i was tinkin i put jerry in my mind... i was tinkin whether i still like him... n whether i love him more than i love my darling... i noe i shldnt tink of tis at tis time... but the reason is dat i noe my darling love mi alot... i m afraid dat my heart still hav another person... then i was like tinkin... whether i shld choose the one i love most or the one who love mi most... seriously ev en if i choose jerry i wun b wif him... bcoz i dun tink mi n him is possible... shld juz stay as fren ba... at least for now... tis is wat i tink... i realli realli dunno whether i still love him... a little bit of the feeling is still dere ba... i like him for so long le... canot say forget then forget de ma... halfway forgotten... the oni reason is he hurts mi... nth else... is bcoz of tis dat i decided to let go... i noe my darling will c tis la... but i shldnt hide anithing frm him... tis is wat i hav been tinkin today... i realli dunno y i will tink of tis... mayb juz bcoz he love mi too much... i juz dun wanna hurt him... tink le oso feel like crying...

o... yay... i came back frm yishun ITE... i went to watch the competition le... v sad... bcoz they lost... nvm la... i hope i can say something to console them... but i tink i cant??? lolx... dunno lei... i m happy dat i m able to c them performing again... i still tink dat they r good la... i support wei yong all the way... hehe... muz thanks my darling for accompanying mi... i m oso happy dat now mi n jerry can at least b fren le... juz now i saw him... but he didnt c mi... nvm la... i m glad dat at least i hav pple who care abt mi... fortunate enough... =)

o... ya... amendment to my earlier post... my di today went oversea le... but is europe not malaysia... oso dunno y i tink is malaysia... lolx...

dats all for today...

** 2 days to 29

haiz.. i m realli sad tis time... i dunno how to describe my feelings... i juz feel like crying...

i can actually reach home late tonight... but tink le oso suan liao... actually wanna go yishun ITE dere watch jerry they all de competition... i juz cant find my way dere... though my darling say he can acc mi go... but he oso not sure abt the route... haiz... wat for... end up i hav decided not to go le... one thing is i dunno the way... another thing is i dun tink i shld go... another thing is i dun tink my darling shld go... he shld b tired.. he shld stay at home... tis thingy will end late... somemore they r the last team... he will reach home late... haiz... i feel like going bcoz i v long nvr c them performing lion dance... tis time is at yishun... not too far away frm my hse... i m able to go too... if i noe the way i will go dere by myself le... haiz... i dunno... realli dunno... sorie dat i cant b dere... haiz... T.T oredi try v hard to find my way dere le... i dunno it is so difficult...

now i will b alone at home le... spend my time crying???? dotx...

back frm chalet

weeeeee...............

harlow... i m back frm chalet =x lolx... lame...

k... let mi tok abt the chalet... first day is of coz BBQ... no teachers came... haiz... so sad... the guys keep playing PS which justin brought... at nite then watch ghost train... man... not v scary... in fact quite boring... n u all noe wat... lolx... i saw my v first ex... he didnt change too much... but somehow a little ba... anyway he find mi in the middle of the nite... tok a while then go le... so bo liao... but i m still happy to c him lo...

second day is outing liao... we went to escape... play until siao... a bit scare... but still like to play... down on luck dat we r unable to play flipper... haiz... i oni play revolution, inverter, viking, haunted hse n so on... didnt play wet n wild... didnt play go kart oso... v ps... like to say sorie to my darling... i play wat he will oso acc mi... but he play go kart... he wanna mi play but i say no... i m not sure abt myself... nvr play b4... dats y... then at nite play PS... watch tv lo... ard 11 everybody went slping le... v tired... some of them went swimming... but not mi... too bad... lolx... but yesterday something happen... jerry called mi... omg... he called n said dat number is his... liddat lo... then 1+ he call mi... i slp liao... aft dat when i saw missed call... then i msg him lo... then he tell mi abt saturday dat competition... at yishun... he oso going lei... tink compete against terry... he ask mi wan go anot... but is like i m alone... then somemore i hav to go my aunt dere... so i tell him lo... then he call mi but i dunno coz put silent mode... then he juz msg n say nvm... feel bad??? mayb ba... but i m realli shocked... anyway wish him good luck ba... his birthday reaching... if he ask mi go i will go de... as a fren i shld...

dat idiot guy who say wanna wait for mi end up oni 2 days... his birthday same as jerry nehz... kaoz... anyway dun care abt him la...

juz came back not long ago... v tired lo... wa... tink ltr gonna slp whole day le... lolx... gonna tok to didi oso... he going malaysia soon le...

** 4 more days to 29

wow... 3 hours liao wor... nvr msg wif my darling... miss him... but nvm... i wait... lolx... tml he going to our class chalet nehz... i hope 2e5 pple wun tink he v extra or wat la... he not going for BBQ... he juz going dere to stay wif until friday morning... i hope... i realli hope... i wan him pei mi... but i dun wanna u pple to tink he v wat or wat lo... i not gonna left u all out oso... he go got pay money one... so... hmm... i dunno wat to say liao...

tml going for chalet... until friday morning... gonna wear class tee... lolx... i hope no one forgets??? i dunno... i m quite afraid dat i will forget to bring something... haiz... i dunno wats troubling mi...

didi going malaysia on the 26 issit... shld b rit... i can rmb clearly... anyway take care wor... lolx... meanwhile tink abt ur problem lo... relax... come back then msg mi lo... kk...

hey everybody... i change my blogskin today... n it wasnt dat successful... the linkies option box cant b seen... i dunno y... but if u all realli wanna c the links... juz put the mouse at the linkies area... the mouse will change frm a plus to a normal mouse pointer... click on it n dat will b the link option box... i hope u all understand... sorie for the inconvenience...

nth much to tok abt today... oni dat the stupid skol... canot say i not attentive or wat ma... i didnt noe we hav to wear skol uniform to skol when BUYING BOOKS... i realli dunno abt dat... juz buying books... i not going to c any teachers or wat... oso canot... end up my mum has to go in alone... n i hav to wait at the stairs... qi si wo le... nxt yr got zhonghua socks... but i dun tink it is out lei... i gonna buy new uniform oso... bankrupt liao... lolx...

happy la.. today online then chat wif pple... finally... lolx... long time nvr chat le... gonna hav a contact time soon... wif my primary skol mates... wait for mi to organise the gathering!!!

last thing... i dunno whether i shld go for 2 nites or wat lei... the chalet... i m ablt to go... but now is realli different le ma... then wat to do... i feel like going oni 1 nite lei... ??? still in a blank...

** 8 more days to 29... lolx

9 more days to 29 nov... i was like having a count down... lolx...

hmm... felt like changing blogskin... but super lazy... not say change then change de... hav to do alot of editting de... so i muz wait till i m free... last time did a blog for mi n my darling... but too lazy... so nvr update... oso nvr tell him... oredi dun care liao...

yesterday v sad... i felt v sorie bcoz everytime go out is darling pay de... then now he sort of bankrupt... i realli tink he spend too much on mi... he say nvm... but i dun tink is nvm... quarrel for a while... sad for a while... aft dat solve the problem liao...

on the 29 he will wear the pink shirt... then i will oso wear pink lo... go n take neoprints!!! lolx... my favourite la... but he sort of being forced by mi... no choice... anyway the most is once a month... then i started an album... for putting not oni neoprints... but oso alot of memories inside... wow... i did so much for him...

dun blame mi hor... alwaz tokin abt my darling... bcoz today hav nth else to say ma... last thing... not abt darling liao... is abt the chalet de... finally i confirm dat i going... got money... dad oso allow... but... 2 nites or 1 nite lei... most pple r staying for 1 nite oni lei... dunno lei... tis time is diff frm last time le... i feel like going for oni 1 nite... dunno how to go dere oso... fan nehz...

=)

wahaha... dat guy didnt msg mi again... blehz... tink he is not happy wif mi??? bcoz i keep saying my darling is good... n betta than him... he juz say wait till my darling cheat mi then i noe... anyway i insist dat my darling is betta.. who cares abt him... is he say he wanna wait de... juz 2 days... lolx...

hmm... o ya.. yesterday's performance... music n movement concert... not bad la... actually i didnt make much mistakes... one thing i m happy wif myself is dat i noe how to act =x dats my secret oso... lolx... play wrong or forgot then juz act lo.. at least my fingers r moving.. so not dat obvious... n i finally stop shaking my head when i play the wrong note... so pple doent noe abt anithing... i m glad... anyway it was sort of a success yesterday... we took lots of picture using my senior cherlynn de cam... lolx...

i tink i gonna hav a dictionary... my v own one.. writing down watever my darling teaches mi each day... dats wat i learn frm him.. he learn frm mi chinese... i learn frm him eng... thoguh we r quite diff... he likes eng... n i like chi... but we learn something frm each other... which is good... dun u pple tink so??? lolx... enerjas hor... keep telling pple he teach u 'hong gan'... stop askin ard le la... dats not something to learn...

n... ya... thursday... went to watch just like heaven wif germaine... well... it is a comedy rit... i laugh in the beginning.. n mayb bcoz i was too tired... i almost fell aslp =x it was nice... i dunno the reason too... lolx... it was almost ok... i nvr fell aslp... my sis mag mi n i bcame awake... but near to the end i felt like crying... it was sad... but the ending was a good one... yeah... happy ending... lolx... b4 the movie we took neoprints!!! my favourite... it wasnt dat nice... i wearing skol u... n tying up my hair... i cant scan it... nobody can help mi as well... nvm then... mayb some other day ba...

o my... i cant meet my darling for 10 days... 10 days ltr is our monthsary... of coz we muz meet lo... lolx... cant meet bcoz i gonna work... then he got tuition... then i got chalet... then he got chalet too... o my... dats y... anyway it is alrit... if we wanna forever... juz 10 days... shld b alrit...

last thing... today aft work... i saw a gal... look mature.. obvious dat she is older than mi... but she was shorter than mi... not saying anithing la... i juz felt weird dat she was holding a primary skol ez-link card... cant b... she cant b a primary skol student... one of the possibilty is dat she was using her sis de card... another possibilty is dat she is a foreigner... another possibilty is dat she retained or something liddat... anyway i juz cant stop tinkin... lolx...

dats all for today... =)

ny

wahaha... funny... he say he gonna wait for mi... the guy i mention in the previous post... i dun like such guy... he tink my darling not good... trying to convince mi dat he is betta... omg... my darling is the best... at least for now...

haiz... i m not happy... i feel like crying... dunno y... e4 nxt yr... not i dun like the pple in the class... juz dat i still feel sad abt splitting... juz dun feel happy... i realli dunno y... haiz... my darling in N3 nxt yr... he is happy... but i m not... dun feel like saying the reason... it is not good to tink dat way... but i m worrying... dunno for wat... T.T

o... man... i hate dat kind of guy... those who wanna b ur fren thru ur looks... end up dun tok to u bcoz they noe u got bf... o my... such guys arent guys... it is oredi not v good to jio someone thru looks... make frens is ok... who dun start wif appearance when making frens... even if got bf i find it ok to b frens ma... dun ask for stead still can b fren de wat... dat guy ask my number frm my fren... when he noe i got stead... he blame my fren for not telling him... n say he dun wanna noe mi liao... since i got bf... o my... fine... who wanna noe him... i dun even noe him in the first place... n he juz stop replying mi aft he noe i got stead... nvm... nvm... my darling the most important... lolx... tis kind of fren dun make oso can...
so damn ke lian... v ke lian... darling seem to b grounded... his mum noe abt it... his dad sure will noe de ma... go out got restriction... v early muz go home... then many days cant go out... mi n him one week canot meet liao... all bcoz i m busy wif skol n help my aunt... nxt week got chalet... v jialat jiu dui le...
wow... terry got lion dance competition on 261105 in yishun lei... how i wish i can go... but go wif jerry they all??? not v good ba... i doubt they will ask mi go oso... c how ba... wish him good luck lo... i realli wanna go... bcoz i v long nvr c lion dance le... but how to go... hmm... nvm... nvm... now i realise something... I LOVE LION DANCE!!!

thursday we can noe the streaming results le... quite obvious dat surely go into first choice de... anyway v sianz... tml, thurs n fri still hav to go skol bcoz of the music n movement thingy... tink performing... or shld i say confirm performing... anyway... today aft guzheng... mi n darling went to junction 8 to buy his pink shirt.. he insist on pink... n is v obvious dat he dun hav many shirts... then aftr going to the different shops... he bought a shirt frm 'slurpingape'... i hope i didnt spell wrongly??? mi choose for him de lei... lolx... then go eat mos burger... hav lots of fun... everytime go where oso play... can say we childish... but we like it jiu hao... then his mum noe liao... he said she didnt say anithing... but i tink somehow his mum will do something... like today she restrict him to reach home by 5... but end up he leave my hse at 5... lolx... anyway dats all for today...

today is a v tiring day... went to aunt de shop work... first day... of coz dunno alot of things... somehow i tink i go dere is for nth... not dat i nvr do anithing... juz dat dere is enough pple to help... i try to serve... do cashier... n spend a few hours arranging all their receipts... dats the most tiring de... though i was juz sitting dere... my whole body aches... my working hour is 12 to 8... hmm... v flexible... free then go... not free then dun go lo...
jerry msg mi thru friendster today... congrats mi for finding a stead... n say dat he will b waiting... anyway i juz hope he can realli do something abt his future... he didnt even complete N level... haiz... v sad for him... how i wish i can b the one who motivates him in workin hard for his future... i m the one who stop him frm quitting skol in the beginning of 2005... aft everything happen... he quit... i hav nth to say la... by dat time... i was oredi a nobody to him... now... wat can i say...
wa... now i miss my darling v much.. lolx... gonna spend my time wif him for the rest of the day... work cant sms de wor...
my sale of music n movement de tickets... 4... one frm my darling... one frm tahjian... 2 frm my didi joel... lolx... everybody b my witness hor... i gonna pay for tahjian forst... he gonna pay mi back when he see mi... dats wat he say...

dats all for today...

wow... today was a close day... i mean... my mum almost saw us together... bcoz we r outside of my hse at abt 10... which is the time my mum reach home... we took some pic using his hp... but i ask him dun put in friendster... bcoz it is so damn ugly... then he say no choice we hav to take neoprint... he hates neoprint... dats y he say no choice... he gonna buy a pink shirt on tue... n dunno when go take neoprint... he say he shld wear pink when takin neoprint... bcoz i like pink... lolx... everytime go out is he pay de... sooner or ltr he will go bankrupt de... haiz... but wat can i do... he will nvr let mi pay... i realli shld cherish him... he realli treat mi good... dats all i nd ba... hmm... we go cineleisure watch the exorcism of emily rose... wee e weet... v nice... realli... so far... we oredi watch 4 movies... like every week watch once liddat... though today is juz the 2nd week nia... lolx... i dunno lei...

i m back frm orchard again... pei enerjas lo... my darling today cant find mi ma... haiz... somehow today is not a happy day.. sianz... nxt week tue to fri will b in skol... for guzheng... n rehearsal... i tink n quite confirm dat i wun b performing... but teacher say muz go then go lo... anyway i got nth to do at home... actually wanna go aunt de shop work de... guess hav to wait till nxt nxt week le... so long... i oredi bankrupt liao... dun wanna tok abt money... i m sick of dat... on the way home i was tinkin wat i believe in... actually wanna put in friendster de... but lazy... so put in blog jiu hao lo...

1) no one is ugly in tis world... even if pple did say dat u r ugly(which is quite impossible),u oso canot tink dat u r ugly... u muz believe in urself more than pple believe in u...

2) no one is perfect in tis world... b who u r n nvr tink of changing... u r who u r... nvr change... not even for love.. coz is not worth it.. pple shld love u for who u r...

3) go for wat u wan... when u hav got wat u wanted... cherish wat u hav... nvr regret... use ur mind b4 takin any action...

4) believe in urself is most important... nvr look down on urself n tink dat pple look down on u... those pple who look down on u r no betta than u... they may look down on u if u urself look down on urself...

i tink dats for all... liddat c nehz... wat i believe in got common thingy de... BELIEVE IN URSELF IS MOST IMPORTANT =)

back frm orchard... went to bugis wif enerjas... she bought a shoe... i bought a pants... which i realli wanna buy... but... i still wanna buy a slipper... saving up money... but tink of my hp bill i dun tink i shld anymore things lo... haiz... another unbelievable thingy... one person frm UAN de company tok to us... say dat they wan new pple to join their company... they will train them... dance... acting... or watever... to give pple the opportunity of becoming an actor,singer or watever... it seems so unbelievable... i realli like the idea... but the prob is whether i can believe... they make us believe... by giving lots of example... n even meet out parents to make them believe... bcoz she noe it is v difficult for our parents to believe in tis... it seem so real... but it seem fake too... telling pple abt tis is like telling pple abt my dream... can anybody believe in tis... but i realli hope i can do it... shld i believe??? shld i go for it??? nd money for sure de ma... haiz...

omg... i realli cant believe it... issit realli her... i noe one of the star idol... alicia yong... i realli dunno it is her until today... omg... if u all wonder who i tokin u all can go to search for star idol... if not go to my friendster... she is one of my friend... alicia... yup... i noe her when i went to orchard wif my primary skol fren... i dun tink she rmb mi la... she juz doing her job by introducing the zodiac ladies to us... i was oredi a member at dat time... bcoz pple dere r friendly... but i hav nvr been to any of the event... yup... but i m not the member now le... i was v surprised... but she is good in speakin... hav big eye... i m realli shock... ok... anyway yesterday went to woodlands wif my mum... bought a pair of earrings... pink nail polish... n a pink jacket... yay... pink... dotx... hmm... nth much to say la... i m juz realli scare of my hp bill... haiz... wat can i do lei...

yay... the opening ceremony of he buy for mi de necklace is over... lolx... its yesterday... friday he was reluctant to go... but no choice... n dat day is the 2nd time he take cab home frm mi hse... haiz... waste money... yesterday more reluctant... reaching 10 still dun wanna go home... tis time nvr take taxi... take bus... but tink reach home quite late le... yesterday was a happy day... meet mi at yishun aft his flag day then go his hse (first time n finally) change le then go plaza sing watch movie... plaza sing again... anyway we watched cello... horror movie again... aft dat went to bishan... then went back yishun... eat long john... aft dat juz walk ard yishun lo... simple... lolx... today we went to the dog show at expo... it is not a show la... juz sell alot of dogs de thingy then got some competition liddat lo... wif my second sis n some dog forum de fren... my sis comment abt him... nice guy... gentleman... betta looking than the previous one... n quite man.. lolx... anyway it is good la... at least they got tok... one more thing... i m angry wif SOMEONE... dun hav to mention who... HE is so damn super bad lo... mi as his fren wanna cheer him up n he said... it is NONE OF UR BUSINESS... wa kaoz... suan le... i dun wanna care abt him le... hmm... dat day hav a good tok wif 7hao n hanliang... wahaha... make new frens =) n i m going bankrupt soon... dun ask mi y...

yay... finally cut my hair... thinner... then fringe shorter... slight change nia ba... but to some pple is big change??? the barber shop is clar intro de... lolx... finally went dere... waited for 2 hours nehz... so many pple waiting... anyway $8 nia... quite worth it la... feel like straightening lei... the guy make my hair until so straight... forever liddat jiu hao le... haiz... but too bad la... cant even settle my hp bill... so sianz... hmm... then aft dat went to heartland mall... we 5 pple.. ger xh zl ml n mi... then take neoprint... bcoz almost all wif new hairstyle... got time upload neoprint ba... but cant c any difference frm dere lei... dunno la... anyway i oso dun tink dere is much different... wa... v sianz... tml got guzheng... will rmb to bring my spectacles de... hehe...

wahaha... enerjas... paiseh ah... u ask mi dun say de... but i still hav to say... today i went out wif my darling n enerjas... a bit lame la huh... ask mi dun say... hmm... anyway juz normal day ba... go guzheng... learn new song... hehe... then aft dat go c Ms See... not bad ah... our total profit is $472.70... got improve la... actually is $300++ de ma... then forgot to add something... man... so happy... shahila not leaving... how i wish the other 5 oso not leaving... but seems so impossible... haiz... hmm... anyway... let mi continue... aft dat pei enerjas go orchard... she going to work ma... aft she went workin he send mi home... he gave mi a necklace... =) v happy... i dunno how to thank him la... but i realli like it... last thing of the day... my second sis is back frm cruise... yay... lolx...

finally it was proven dat nth was wrong... yay!! =)

haiz... so late haven msg mi... surely haven reach home de... i dun mind u reaching home late... but i tink u all went... suan le... i cant confirm rite now... pls dun hurt mi... i juz noe i nd u rite now... but i cant find u... i realli realli dunno wat will happen... u say 8+... but till now u haven msg mi... sobx... i m realli afraid dat i cant forgive u if wat i m tinkin now is rite... wat shld i do... wat shld i do... i cant find u... zhe me ban... sobx...

yay... we hav finally started... hehe... 291005... yup... dats the date... =) wat i wan to say to fa is dat... indeed a few yrs of relationship cant possibly win a few months de relationship... but he wins... coz i believe in him... u didnt cherish mi in the first place... wats dere to say anymore... hmm... a bit regret in choosing bio... yes i m interested... but base on the cause n considering the future plan phy is a betta choice... bio is getting less n less important le... suan le ba... oredi choose le ma... n i believe will get in lo... sad sad sad... i cry wor... haiz... e5 splitting... not oni dat... tink 6 pple leaving... jeremy kristy simeon xinhui daniel... i tink shahila oso... sad sad sad... dunno wat will my nxt yr class b like... where r all the fun n craps??? crappy pple like azlan yongjie junting saravanan simeon... haiz... realli cant imagine... n is not juz abt leaving tis skol... daniel n simeon r going to australia... we will nvr get to meet... haiz... the chalet may b the last gathering for us ba... sobx...

yesterday was his birthday... yet till today he still get his bash... haiz... i cried nehz... today i juz keep staring at them... actually feel like shouting de... but then suan le ba... i suddenly feel v sianz... n dat question has bcome a problem between us... haiz... not happy... not happy... not happy at all... qi si wo le... getting crazy... hmm... tml last day of skol liao wor... dunno is sad or happy lei... today get report book back liao... but tml gonna hand in... sianz... n normally we will make cards or watever for teachers bcoz it is the last day... but tis yr dun hav wor... mayb busy ba... anyway i dunno wat to give frens oso... zhe me ban...

omg... omg... i m sick... i m sick... lolx... v tired... super tired... happy dat i dun hav to go skol... sad dat i dun feel good... haiz... tml still hav to go skol... realli dun feel good wor... but anyway tml is his birthday... =) happy nehz... now is not when i accepting him.. but when he gonna ask mi dat question... dats wat he said too... lolx... he is a weird guy i shld say... has his own tinkin... but treat mi good jiu hao le ba... n my third sis went back to her bf le... finally hav peace le =x hehe...

suppose to meet fa on sunday... but end up dun hav la... suan le... anyway i realli dun feel like meeting him... somemore i now oredi got him liao... =) hmm... feel v bad today... he gonna wait in skol until 6+... i cant pei him... i find dat i m not a v good gal la... he will alwaz pei mi... but dunno y he dun hav the trouble of frens... or shld i say he can dun care abt his fren bcoz of mi... dats y... but i cant lei... by rite i can de... juz dat i dun wanna my fren to say mi nia... then my second sis make mi v luan... keep tinkin abt the future n oso present la... came to no conclusion... last thing... dunno is bad or good la... my third sis is back... will b in chaos man... she got bad habit... n v inconsiderate... somemore she is materialistic... meaning she will play wif pple's feelings de... ask them pay money for her... then end up not truly love them... i dun like lei... tink my sis gonna quarrel again liao... no peace... =(

'why he ask u for patch then u reject him... he v sad lei... he smoke de whole day u noe... haiz... y u two canot b together lei... mei..' tis is wat my kor send mi... wat happen is tis... yesterday fa call mi... but i nvr ans... coz i was slping... when i wake up i saw miss call... he used my kor de hp n call mi... so i ask who call mi... tis msg oredi tell u all alot le ba... my kor keep askin mi to tink properly... coz he tink i still love him de.. n hope i wun regret... he say he can c dat he realli love mi n wan mi back... but if he realli love mi he wun hurt mi... if he realli love mi he wun break wif mi n stead wif another gal... if he realli love mi he no nd wait until now then ask for patch... he say he nvr love her b4... but th fact is he break wif mi n stead wif her... he dare to say he dun love her... if he dun love her means he oso dun love mi too... m i rite... i juz dun wanna accept... coz i noe de guy now will not hurt mi... n will love him as much as he do.. i may regret someday for choosing him... but i noe i will certainly regret if i choose fa instead of him... one will get hurt no matter who i choose... so pls dun do tis to urself anymore... dere will certainly b betta gals outside de ma...

** hmm... anyway... today is my di joel de birthday... ps ah... cant give u present... muz understand wor... lolx... k la... happy birthday n good luck to u...

i rejected him... i dun wanna say who... but not bcoz i no feelings for him at all... is bcoz he hurts mi again n again n if he realli nvr change his love for mi b4 he will ask for patch a long time ago... dats rit... mi n him noe abt 5 yrs liao... but then so wat lei... he is the one who hurt mi first de... not once... but many times... he is the one who break wif mi n stead wif another gal de nxt day de... he is oso de one who ask mi out n end up hurt mi again... wats dat for... i wun let myself get hurt again le... u will protect mi... u will nvr let anyone to hurt mi... dats wat u say... but end up u will b the one hurting mi... thanks for helping mi anyway... u say u will wait for mi... lets c how long u will wait ba... hmm... anyway tis thing i chose not to tell now de him... coz i noe he will not b happy... so might as well dun say... the most important thing i nd is true love... n i hope i nvr make the wrong decision... o.. ya... my sis came back frm canada le... hehe... she bought a bag for mi... pink nehz... however it is handbag la... but oredi v good le ba... she nvr buy anithing for anybody else nehz... lolx... hmm... one sad thing is dat my hp bill reaching 100 le... =( so ke lian... my mum nag mi since last nite... watever i do is wrong... wat she say is not wat i hav been doing... but i chose not to argue wif her... end up oso i wrong de la... anyway i hav to try to pay lo... dats all i can say...

today went to watch the skeleton key... a disappointed day la actually... hmm.. anyway it is quite a good movie... as usual we went to plaza sing... a bit sianz wif dat liao... n i was unable to take neoprint wif them... shld i say is bcoz of him or juz bcoz i dun wanna leave him alone... watever the reason is... anyway is oredi over le... hmm... he nvr send mi home... but i dun mind la..

wa... mi so damn sianz... his birthday reaching lei... but dunno wat to buy... lolx... some pple may tink i treat him badly... or take him for granted... but muz noe lei... dat is not true... i juz dun wan him to take mi for granted nia... last time i alwaz tahan my ex... end up they oso leave mi... so now muz change a little... hmm... anyway... sort of a good news... my level position has changed... frm 90 to 84... i oso dunno y... lolx... i wasnt chosen for the peer support leader thingy... dun ask mi how i feel... dun ask mi y... everybody tink it is weird... coz they alwaz tink my maths is good dats y i will get chosen... but they r wrong tis time... nvm la.. can say save trouble ba... kaoz... tok abt today... suppose to go mos burger de interview de... then the manager will oni reach aft 4... so mi n jy go shopping first lo... aft dat we went back... n the manager say he will call us again to confirm... man... cant he juz say no... nd tink so long de meh... anyway suan le ba... v sianz liao wor... v lazy... dun wanna find liao...

fine lo... dun wanna c the blog... u hav nth to say... i oso hav nth to say... wan tok then tok face to face lo... the most i cry nia ma... u tink i like to quarrel ar... c tis blog sad... i no nd c tis blog oso cry la... bcoz of wat... i admit... i put my bf b4 anybody else... got wrong mahx... if u as a fren cant understand then forget it lo... it is oredi guo fen enough lo... u say u dun wan to noe anithing abt him... then dun say lo... dats wat u wan ba... is u dun wan mi say de lo... abt the organise the thingy i dun wanna care... say until like my fault again... i wun say sorie... i will nvr say... the most is i dun go the chalet la... suan le... i hav nth to say... i dun wan to solve tis... i dun hav to solve tis... leave mi alone n get lost...

hmm... i may hav some frenship de prob... but... one thing i hav to highlight is dat... i m not going to say sorie when i m not in the wrong... last time i may b in the wrong... but not now... now bcome like tis dun tell mi she is blaming mi... we didnt quarrel... we juz get distant nia... everybody shld noe... it is so damn obvious... i may not b happy wif her sometimes... but i nvr tink of stop tokin to her... she is the one who alwaz do all tis... i gonna heck tis time... coz i canot tahan anymore... tis time i realli tink i dun hav to say sorie... she may tink... we nvr get distant ah... but wat u all tink??? pple... so damn obvious de thingy... though i nvr mention who... u all shld noe who ba... i tink i hav oredi tried my best le... she wan liddat then not my prob la... even our choice is so much different... i nvr ask her... she nvr ask mi... n if she tink she can hav another good fren n not mi then let it b... i oso can get alot of good fren... not oni her... if we r back again i dun wanna hear her complain anymore... is not dat i wan to say... i did so much for the class n no one appreciate... watever i do i nvr tink of getting anithing in return... zhen de... yup... she can say is the main organiser... can say she do most the things... but wat abt mi??? i did nth??? tis time i wun help in the chalet... i may not even go... pple may tink is bcoz of my results... let mi tell u all... NO... mi n her hav been planning all along... n now she dun treat mi as one of the organiser... fine then... i dun wanna help... i m not gonna help... though others say lets b the organisers together... pls tink man... even if we say we r the organisers hav she realli ask us wat we wan... decide le n tell us... dats all... no one is perfect... i can say she is my good fren... in fact best fren... but i dun tink she is perfect... being best fren doesnt mean u will like her everything... juz the feeling ba... if she c tis i dun mind... i speak out my mind nia... she may b angry... but tis is wat actually happen... if i were the one who see tis i will juz b sad... even if tis is a misunderstanding i still tink she shld juz make things clear... n not angry wif mi bcoz she tink tis is not the way... anyway i dun tink she gonna c tis... she nvr pay much attention to my blog...

spoil my mood man...

haiz... y let mi saw u lo... i nvr seen u since 22 may lo... y muz u appear again... gold hair wif red at the bottom back... quite cool... grow tall le oso... i dun wan to ask myself how i feel... i juz noe i m not happy to c u... hmm... i tink i hav made my choices...

1) B5
2) B2
3) A1
4) D2
5) E2
6) B6

OMG!!! i 'deprove'!!!

man... man.. 'deprove' liao... 'deprove' liao... everybody tink i m sad ba... for my maths... the v first time in Zhonghua i get 70+... lolx... sad la... v sad... but then over liao ma... wat can i do lei... i used to b a person who v bo chup in results de... but tis time i chup a little... coz i work v hard... which i dunno y too... can say dat pple who noe how hard i hav been studying for tis time will b shocked... coz i nvr study dat hard b4... yet i did not manage to improve or get wat u wan... i 'deprove'!!! omg... omg... class position drop frm 7 to 21... level position frm 38 to 90!!! omg... omg... so damn sad... but then ok la... still top 100... my class is too wat liao la... 21 in class can get 90 in skol... lolx... first in class get first in skol nehz... buey tahan... still quite sad de... n i v fan abt which course n subject to choose... for humanities... i hope to hav 2... so dat i can choose the betta one instead of takin 1 which i dun even noe whether i can score... get double sci... no triple sci... a bit too much... n oni 1 human... dun wan combine too... coz oni got 1 sci results... but i still make them as my choices... humanites i choose lit n hist... no geo... geo sucks... somemore i fail my geo tis yr... sci i finally came out the decision of bio... chem is a compul... however in my 6 choices... i hav both phy n bio de... both double sci n combine sci... both 8 subjects n 7 subjects... dere is alwaz pros n cons... 8 sub hav more chances... 7 sub hav more concentration... so i realli dunno... i tink 8 sub betta... the course which i realli wanna go is B5...

how can it b u??? sobx...

wo zhen de hao shang xin wor... i hate nobody except LIARS!!! y muz it b u... how can u lie to mi... though i noe u didnt mean to... but i juz cant accept when pple lie to mi... i m not angry... i m crying... haiz... u will nvr noe... let mi repeat it again... I WILL NVR ALLOW ANYONE TO HURT MI!!! i mean it... i realli mean it... haiz... sobx... y r u the one... i dun hate u... but... i dunno whether i gonna accept le... zhen de...

nxt topic... get back most of my paper today... omg... so damn lan... haiz... i tink i 'deprove' le... but no matter wat i dun tink i will go combine sci ba... i hope not... pray god... i wanna go double sci... haiz... my maths... even my maths canot help mi tis time... wat happen to mi man... i juz felt dat i m letting Mr Leong down... zhen de... dunno how to face him... other subjects r considered improve lo... oni maths... n is so jialat... haiz... man... i study so hard... i nvr study so hard b4 lo... end up is the same... feel so stress tis time... i dunno when hav i bcome like tis... last time is heck care type... but then anyway i oso nvr tink much la... is oredi over le ma...

nvr allow anyone to hurt mi again

i tink i getting cold-blooded liao... lolx... now in order not to let anyone hurt mi... everything has to tink carefully... hate the feeling of rejecting pple... but... i will nvr let u hurt mi de!!! dats wat i m trying to say... of coz if get hurt le i wun hate him la... is i make the choice de ma... so now everything muz hav serious tinkin de... but i realli dun like pple tok to u when they wan jio u... aft u reject they wun find u le... wats frens for man... dats y when rejecting pple i oredi noe tis will happen le... dun like... hmm... anyway yesterday went to plaza sing to watch dark water... wif HIM... lolx... but not exactly a horror movie lo... no choice... now no movie lei... actually wan go bugis... but bugis dun hav dark water... too bad lo... then plaza sing walk less than 2 hours then sianz liao... he so ke lian... i noe he wanna eat... but i dun wan... so he pei mi walk... he everything oso ask mi de... everything oso listen to mi... we go times... then he saw many books he like... but keep saying ex... i tink i will buy one for him ba... not he no $ nehz... juz dat he wanna buy wallet nia... then he go buy quik silver de wallet... lolx.. he alwaz spend more than mi de... then aft dar go his fren de hse... nth to do dere... play wif dogs n watch tv lo...

a tiring day

lolx... today went to MingLi hse... then suntan... then swim... then play pool... then lastly go out of coz... lolx... went to far east... then aft dat heeren... take one neoprint nia... actually wan two de... but too bad la... went to find jobs... shld say quite successful or not successful at all lei... i dunno... but then anyway is super tired la... sunburn!!! cant say i dun wan sunburn la... go suntan then is surely tio sunburn one ma... juz dat it is damn pain... damn red too... lolx... heck la... happy jiu hao... hmm... tis few days nvr tok to him much le... he busy ma... i believe him la... he will msg mi when he feels like de... tink he wun forget mi??? lolx... but then i dunno lei... he n my other ex r diff... how to say lei... juz gave mi a diff feeling lo... mi n him belong to a real mature relationship... i dunno is good or bad la... i dunno whether bcoz we r not suitable then liddat... or bcoz it is time for mi to settle down n go for my v last relationship... actually i realli dunno... a bit luan... sometimes a bit fan... tml nehz... actually wanna go out together de... i tink i noe wat we can do la... juz dat he today like so busy playing his soccer... till now haven msg mi... dunno is forgot or realli haven play finish... suan le... i wun blame him de... if he rmb our date tml then go out lo... dun rmb then forget it lo... it is not a muz for mi to go out too... lolx... hmm... i juz feel like tokin abt some of my ex... in fact all?? but dun wanna name them la...

first one... in primary skol de... P6... tis relationship to mi now is juz puppy love... not serious de la... cant b serious too... i dun tink he truly love mi too... though it seems like we both like each other v long le... lolx...

second one... hmm... P6 to Sec 1 de... during the holiday ba... at first like him a little nia... aft dat more le... then y break i oso forgot le... but juz a short period nia... lolx... paiseh ah...

third one... in Sec 1... n tis one we break n patch... break n patch... dunno y la... not quarrel or watever... juz he look down on himself... but now is no feeling le... mayb he did come back to mi... but i will say no... coz realli no feeling... moreover i dun tink he truly love mi... n i will nvr give him a chance to hurt mi anymore...

fourth one... oso in Sec 1... but nehz... tis is in between the third one... the period which we r separated... hmm... sad to say dat it is juz one day... he is damn good... but i dun get used to the way he treats mi... then tink not suitable then break lo... tis is the first time i wanna break... but dun tink i make the wrong choice la...

fifth one... oso in Sec 1... oso between the period which i was separated frm the third one... tis is the oldest stead i hav ever had... n oso he is much more experiences... tis period is short too... coz not suitable... n somemore i was juz a kid... lolx...

now... the latest one... Sec 2... tis one is a memorable one... coz i love him quite long ba... he oso love mi quite long le... n somehow i believe is fate which bring us together... everytime things happen juz as if fate is helping us... dun nd to explain much... go to my archive n u will noe... tis blog is actually for him... but find it troublesome to make a new one... i love him v much... zhen de... but he hurts mi too much le... not once nia... although sad... i will nvr give u the chance to hurt mi again...

u finally msg mi le... lolx... oni hope u wun tink mi dun xiang u dats y nvr msg u first... not liddat de... is i noe u will b going out ah... so wait for u to b free lo... believe u will msg mi if u r free ma... tis is call trust k... lolx... today go meet huimin... of coz do the usual thing... eat n watch tv lo.. go her hse is nth to do one... last time sad then will go her hse... actualy wo you dian fan... coz i realli dunno... anyway i dun wanna say... haiz...

things which i believe in...
1) no matter how or wat u say abt him i wun care... i believe him as the one i noe he is...
2) no matter how bad he is to any other pple i dun care... i believe he will treat mi gd which he shld...
3) past is a past... as long as i let u go i will not turn back... as long as i treat u as a memory i wun turn back... i will oni turn back if i tink u r a new beginning... pls dun say u regret in wat u hav oredi decided... wats done canot b undone...
4) love is a mature frenship... if even aft everything is over we cant b fren then let alone tokin abt love...
5) pple ard mi shld b appreciated by mi... once my kor forever my kor... once my jie forever my jie... once my fren forever my fren... once my sista forever my sista...
6) i can b a best fren than anithing else... good listener n advisor is wat i can promise to u...

last day of exam...

yay... today my last exam nehz... finally... then mon to wed no nd go skol liao... cant c u le... mayb tue??? i dunno lei... mayb shld test us for 5 days??? hmm... i feel so bad today... u hav to cancel order bcoz of mi... then jk they all say u pang seh... so sorie wor... today we go chinatown... coz my fren wan look at cd ma... then aft dat go suntec... we were looking for the pet shop dere.. but cant nehz... my fren told mi it is near the carpark on my way home... hmm... anyway quite happy la... first time going out??? then i dunno if we realli go out alone will we hav anithing to tok abt... but today get to noe each other betta... the things he buy n the things he wan r all so ex dat type de... i wonder whether my birthday present worth alot... a bit dan xin... but the thing is dat u r more of eng type... i m more of chi type... realli dun mind mahx??? lolx... anyway i realise u r so cute... caring too... good guy ya... 3 things i noe frm my sis n oso thru some thinking...

1) how ur bf treat his fren or other pple oso doesnt matter as long as he treats u gd

2) no matter how pple say abt him u dun care as long as u noe u love him

3) ur bf dun hav to treat ur fren good bcoz it is u whom he has to b good to n who realli nd his care

yay

wa... finally... aft so long... last few days cant post nehz... lolx... now my first sis go canada liao... third sis going thailand soon... aft dat she will move back to live wif us... shld i say is good or bad lei??? sometimes buey tahan her bad habit... but then nvm la... hmm... tok abt exam... man... hui si de lo... bcome more n more nerdy le... lolx... end paper ok la... actually can say all the paper sure pass de... i work so hard tis time... if fail then jump down the building liao... lolx... but maths oredi minus away ard 10 marks for paper one liao... siao one lo... i dun even hav the time to realli finish... somemore got some is careless... feel so sianz... then science... kaoz... oso careless lo... 10 marks gone too... super sianz nehz... but overall still ok la... hmm... i dun wanna tok abt anybody... wo hen kai xin jiu shi le... lolx...

i dunno y i shang xin... but the sadness is still dere... i noe who u like le... i guess correctly le... so surprise dat i m right... but then anyway i noe u will b happy de ba... since is liddat... no point holding on de ah... i mean.. though i say i let go liao... xin li hai shi fang bu xia... but i tink is realli time le ba... fang xin... i will b more happy de... i believe he can treat mi gd... i decided to accept him le... but not now... i got my plan... lolx...

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lolx... using IT lesson to update blog wor... i use my time wisely de k... hmm... nth much to tok abt la actually... nth to tok abt jx anymore... lolx... coz he is my fren... he is good la... real good... hey... happy to c dat??? haha... i hav oredi decided le... to wait for the one who love mi most... of coz muz hav feelings la... who dun wan pple to treat her good lei... lolx... but will the happiness last forever??? will he alwaz treat mi good??? dats the question... dats the prob... wat can i do nehz??? dun tink i will reject him la... he treat mi so good... lolx... but... not time yet... let mi settle down first... let mi realli tink thru le... let mi understand him more n get used to the life first... overall he is good la... anyway... end of yr exam reaching le... muz jiayou wor... jx... muz treat mi as fren nehz... i got prob will still find u de... zhen de... nvr regret knowing u... lolx...

is ok if u dun wanna ans my dat question... i juz wonder whether u hav tot thru ma... tink u hav tink thru ma... yesterday encourage mi to accept... good lo... u n him will still b v good fren ba... nth to worry abt le... i ask him abt yesterday those thingy le... he tell mi everything... so is like... everything is true... lolx... anyway.. i realli dun wanna u to tink i m happy without u... oso dun wan u to tink i got him then forget u... but it is still up to u lo... i a bit dun feel like accepting la... even if wan oso not now... i juz scare dat i will hurt him... got any ways to help??? got then tell mi... thankies... but i noe u wun help de... coz u wanna help ur fren... lolx... k la... so far so good... wo men shi yong yuan de hao peng you...

nvr get into a love when u meant to break a heart
nvr look into the eyes when u meant to lie
promise r meant to b kept
wishes r meant to b fulfilled
scars will nvr heal
hearts r not meant to b played wif
lies r oni meant to b hurt
sorie is nth but a word

loving is not how to forget but how to forgive
not how to listen but how to understand
not wat to see but how to feel
not how to let go but how to hold on

lolx...

duuno wat to say lei... i hope... realli hope... mi n jx still frens... since is oredi liddat le ah... hmm... dun wan quarrel anymore... i will treat u as fren... hen hao de fren... coz i realli tink u r good ah... but u r no more my zhu zhu of coz... lolx... mayb u r a betta fren?? anyway i dunno y i got so many prob wif ur class nehz... as in dat time eugene... then u... now dh... anyway life still goes on ah... i juz tink i m flirt if i b wif dh... i oso dunno whether he is realli good ah... though till now i tink he is good la... lolx... show the care i nd most... but dunno lei... getting more n more fan le... juz hope everybody will b happy ba...

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u can dun love mi... i dun nd u to love mi... go love whoever u wan... i cant care abt it... dong mahx... yes... i m sad... u wan mi forget u... fine... i will... but i nd time... get it... not i dun wan... i nvr say anithing... i nvr wan u to care... i nvr wan u to like mi... aft all dat had happen... i treat u totally as fren le... i juz find it weird... y u muz call n tell mi we r frens... i noe we r ah... i cant give u the present... bcoz we r frens... dun u get it... i told u it is full of love le... dats y i cant give... u say b fren... do u tink i will feel betta??? haiz... i dunno wat to say... i realli v xin ku... zhen de hen xin ku... give mi a break man... haiz... i realli feel like crying le... i tahan the whole day liao... i oredi buey tahan le... u noe mahx... zhen de hen fan... y u all juz dun understand... sobx...

haiz...

blehz... zhen de hao xin ku nehz... so depress now... sad sad... wat can i do nehz... other than sad... haiz... feel like crying... but cant... who can help mi lei...

happy birthday...

i cant let go...

but i hav no choice...

haiz...

sobx...

omg...

i feel so bad... i feel so bad... lolx... jerry ask mi go meet him but i didnt... he say he will wait but i say i cant... he suddenly call mi... he cant possibly b alone ah... weird... v weird... but end up he say nvm... coz i insist on not meeting... lolx... but... i juz wrote him a testimonial b4 he call mi nehz... i tot he call mi bcoz of the testimonial... but... is not dat... he nvr online today... he haven c my testimonial nehz... y he find mi??? y suddenly call mi... dotx... i m confuse liao... wat happen man... i wrote him testi n he call mi b4 seeing the testi... wat happen??? diaox... but i still feel bad la... he wun b able to c tis post... juz wanna say sorie to u... tink is the second time le??? dat time u ask mi go chalet i oso say no... v sorie...

fang qi ni shi ying wei wo tai ai ni... i dun wan myself to b sad... i dun wan u to stress... i dun wan u to fan... believe dat tis will make u happier... dong mahx... u will de... sometimes i realli dun understand u... u can treat mi gd... u can oso dun reply mi... u can oso dun miss mi... u can oso say u got feelings for mi... but at the same time cant give mi any promise at all... ask urself... u realli love mi mahx??? u realli care abt mi mahx??? or issit juz affection... oni u noe the ans... letting u go is wanna u happy... juz wanna u to tink ba... at the same time dun wanna stress u... take care urself ba... happy birthday in advance... dunno whether i can wish u on dat day not... good luck for end of yr exam... jiayou wor...i rmb le... lolx... 16 aug is the day i fall in love wif u nehz... juz past one month nia...

zhu zhu

abt dat zhu zhu... no... i dunno how to call u... but u r no more my zhu zhu le... not even fren??? mayb... the way u treat mi... like a fren??? ur birthday present nehz... i dunno... but u no nd find mi on ur birthday le... i wan give i will ask pple pass... u dun wan u can throw... i dun wan give i will throw... to mi... things dat make mi sad shld not exist in tis world... now then i realise i spend so much on the present lo... lolx... gonna waste it le... but then is no choice de ah... guys will nvr appreciate wat gals hav done... u will nvr appreciate wat i gave u... u will nvr cherish mi as a fren... u will nvr cherish mi as someone who like u... suan le... no point forcing... u tink u r happy jiu hao lo... anyway i shld not hav exist in ur life... it is wrong in the first place to tell u i like u... u may b more happy if i nvr say dat... mayb tis will b the last entry abt u ba... sorie if i hav offended u in any way... i m realli angry tis time... i canot tahan anymore le... i m realli sad too... i m realli heartbroken too... but i oredi prepared tis a few days b4... since the day u nvr say hi to mi in skol... which is thursday... i sucks ah... nobody will like mi... its alrite ah... i hav no choice too... suan le... i dunno wat to say anymore...

[I] [S]imply [S]ucks

[E]verything [E]nds [H]ere

[I] [L]etting [U] [G]o

[N]o [M]ore [T]urning [B]ack

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yoz... lolx... my second sis tml moving back nehz... happy ya... hmm... actually tink of my family... haiz... i last few days juz drop my tears for them... sobx... all bcoz of my third sis... she is good... juz dat sometimes a bit wat lo... but she is alwaz the one making my parents smile... all kinds of jokes n craps... but my first sis n second sis dun like her... bcoz of her bad habit... then she is left out by us... haiz... whenever we go kbox or anywhere... we nvr call her go... not mi la... coz not i pay de ma... how can i call pple lei... when my third sis noe abt it... she will juz say nvm lo... not blaming us at all... smile at us... but we noe she isnt happy at all ah... who will b happy nehz... as a family... go out oso nvr tell her... n she is oredi so 'ke lian' le... her bf dun let her work... dun let her take hp... dun let her contact wif her frens... though she oso dun feel like to contact la... but she oredi loses her freedom... juz dun understand... y she wanna b wif him lei... where got bf liddat de... sobx... my mum was oso sad abt it... we tink we left her out... but will my first n second sis tink tis way??? they wun... they r stubborn type... dun like means dun like... haiz... my third sis nvr blame us at all lo... mi mum n mi feel so bad abt it lo... tinkin abt nxt yr... wat will my family b like??? my dad is oredi not counted as the family le... dun feel like tokin abt him... nxt yr will oni left mi n my mum le... second sis going Japan... n may not b back le... third sis not living wif us... my first sis will move out in Dec... oredi married le ah... haiz...

[A] [B]roken [F]amily

[A] [B]roken [H]eart

[A] [B]roken [M]i

dotx...

lolx... perhaps i will nvr get back my comp le... so sad... so sad... but then nvm... i will survive... lolx... a... get back term 3 de report liao... got improve ah... realli... but i tink my position drop... bcoz everybody is improving ma... dats i tell myself i hav to jiayou!!! i will jiayou de... lolx.. hmm.. last post i nvr tok abt u... now gonna say something le ba... though i tink sometimes is betta not to say lo... anyway tis few days we nvr tok much le... u seems tired??? slping almost everyday... then cant msg much... in skol saw mi oso nvr say hi... suan le ba... i oso dun dare to say ma... cant blame u too... i nvr take the initiative to do so... anyway u realli dun hav to tink abt mi... juz jiayou in watever u do ba... dun wan tok to mi oso nvm ah... suan le ba... happy jiu hao... dun scold mi crazy hor... lolx... getting distant oso no choice ah... dun wan to say too much le... abt the service learning... is super super de fan lo... i m juz the treasurer man... pls do something... the CIP leaders... i dun wanna to care so much de... juz dat u all like dun care abt it... i cannot dun do anithing n c u all liddat... so end up giving myself trouble??? lolx... anyway i watched one more chance today... yay... but then not as nice as i tink lo... still not bad la... same thing... some parts i feel like crying... i realli tink my tears drop easily man... but i oredi get used to it le... hehe... muz JIAYOU for end of yr... realli...

simple sucks...

yay... finally i online!!! dotx... k la... update norh... but nth much to say today.. tink i under depression le... so sad... so damn unhappy today.. bcoz i sucks... short n sweet reason... simeon agree ya... no nd mi ask... tell mi when he saw the nick... lolx... anyway it is true la... i tink i will try to change... when one day u all c mi v quiet.. pls congrats mi... coz i hav succeeded in changing myself... my attitude sucks... my temper sucks... n everything juz sucks lo... everytime so noisy de... someone pls shut my mouth up lo... i tink i hav offended pple somehow... haiz... i m the lousiest person in the world man... k la... gonna stop myself frm scolding myself... ltr pple say mi crazy... hmm... anyway... i tink of a new name... Anthea... but tink i may not use lo... i oso dunno nehz...

[I] [S]imply [S]ucks!!!

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suckest photo of all... yucks... so damn ugly... sobx...









betta... but still not v nice... haiz...

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JiaYou!!!

yay!!! aft long day of hard work... work at nite... slp during the day... lolx... i left wif english and literature... maths de stupid drawing anyhow do de... i dun even noe wat they wan lo... english n literature can slowly la... monday no lit n eng... lit oso dunno how to do... heck la... hmm... tml going grandfather hse... celebrating his birthday... afternoon de nehz... v sianz... nite one betta... zhu zhu haven finish his homework wor... muz JIAYOU le!!! lolx... but dun work until too late... zhu zhu muz slp alot ma... though now ma yi oso wanna bcome zhu le... so paiseh... hmm... n oso EOY examination... JIAYOU!!! everybody jiayou la... i now oso dunno where i wan... double science or triple science... or even combine science??? oni noe i hav to work hard lo... hope nth will affect my studies??? i noe u die die oso dun wan give mi the ans for the dice... alwaz say up to mi... how i noe u wan anot... how i noe whether u will appreciate anot lei... say something na... u lei... v weird de... happy then treat mi so gd... not happy then find mi quarrel... actually i dun mind la... at least u still got treat mi gd ma... dun wan ask u change... coz i love de is u... not ur character or watever ma... i will get used to it de... i wun tink too much de... but if got anithing muz tell mi... MUZ nehz... hmm... i tink rit... if u dun wan mi i will listen to tis song... lolx... i say i listen le will cry de ma... but believe aft crying i will feel betta lo...

[W]ho [A]m [I] [T]o [Y]ou

[N]obody

[M]ei[N]a[M]e[A]i[T]a --> [F]an[F]an

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zhe yang jiu hao le ba... happy jiu hao le... lolx... no one is sad now... zhu zhu... yao xiang wo nehz... like wat i say... i cant online... u cant sms... we cant call... lolx... gonna hav a hard time man... u will not ya... nvm... mei guan xi... perhaps in tis way u will get ur ans soon ba... we hav no promise to each other... tis is wat stead for ba... a promise dat they will nvr leave each other... now is like u can leave mi... i oso can leave u ah... u realli tink liddat betta then liddat lo... i dun mind ah... lolx... i make sure dat u will b happy... v weird oso... u alwaz say u got feelings for mi... but whenever i ask u do u love mi... u will say dunno... wat is tis??? got feelings but dun love mi??? ha... ha... so funny... *lame* k la... tis is juz wat i m tinkin ba... realise u realli got mood-swing nehz... 5 minutes ago u may b asking mi to give up... 5 minutes ltr u will say dat u r sad if i leave... lolx... so funny ya... but then nvm la... does it matter anyway... my feelings for u wun change de ah... hope ur eye is ok le??? ownself take care ya... hmm... one suggestion for u lei... u can go online sms... then i will b the one spending $ le... lolx... go starhub then find online sms... not bad ya... mi n jy alwaz liddat de... hao la... ni yi ding yao kai xin wor...

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yuan lai wo mei na me jian qiang... i tot i can b happy... n watever i did will make him happy as well... mayb he will b happy... but i dunno i will feel so xin ku nehz... i cant online... he cant sms... i cant call him... haiz... zhe me ban... tis kind of life will die lei... i tot wo ai ta jiu hao le... i dunno will b so xin ku de nehz... if realli is dat xin ku then i hope i will survive ba... i will suffer to death lo... no choice ah... u dun wan mi... u sometimes wan mi sometimes dun wan... i tink i oso make u not happy ba... make u say 'u wan contact anot up to u'... make u say 'u dun nd care abt mi'... jialat bo... zhen de hen dui bu qi... tis is not wat i wan de... now i hav to keep the dice to myself le... quite sad de... sometimes juz nvr show out ba... i scare u wun find mi le... i oso dun dare to find u ah... end up u may dun like mi le ba... i dunno... quite fan de... but i juz wanna say... no matter wat mi is love u de... letting u go is oso love u ah... i dunno wat to say la... but wo hui xiang ni de... oni wish u to b happy...

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lolx... back frm ROM le... so sad... sis de party i cant go... nvm... she wun b back today... tink i can online whole day again le... hmm... tink aft tis ROM thingy she will b super free... which means... i cant online so often le.. mayb once a week??? or even less... pple... dun miss mi lei... lolx... so bhb... post oso will get lesser le... hmm... aft tis ROM thingy... i tink i finally can start doing my holiday homework... ZHSS is ok... quite a good skol... juz dat... they give too much homework liao lo... buey tahan... holiday alwaz not like holiday... i still left history, english, literature and maths de stupid drawing... or shld i say art??? lolx... Mr Leong say de ma... muz combine art n maths... so stupid lo... nvm... i muz jiayou... tink i can ba??? i tok to my second sis le... everytime i got any relationship prob i will find her de... she wun tell anybody i noe... someone i can believe in ba... finally make the decision... wo ai ni jiu hao... i no nd u to love mi ba... i mean.. if u realli dun oso doesnt matter ah... love u doesnt mean muz get u ma... i will msg u lesser ba??? i oso dun wan u to waste ur sms on someone u dun love.. dong mahx... dun say mi bad lei... watever i did is for u ah... if u realli wan find mi but dun wanna waste sms u juz hav to ask mi to call u??? no nd wait for mi to call ba... coz i realli scare we got nth to say... wo hui xiang ni... but i cant waste ur sms ah... dun ask mi to give up... dun ask whether i hav given u up... if u dun love mi give up is a muz... it is juz a matter of time... when it is time i will de... i dun wan give u any stress anymore... i will b happy de... zhen de... u r forever my zhu zhu ah... no matter wat we r still fren ma... perhaps good fren??? lolx... alwaz dere for u ya... hmm... another thing... u alwaz say u not good... but i tink u r not bad le... at least u try to understand mi n rmb watever i told u... dun alwaz say u r bad ya... i believe when u find someone u love u will treat her good de... n if the gal realli love u she wun mind how u treat her de... so dun worry la... make ur life happier wor... though tis is not our promise anymore... smile =)

neoprints

YuanChi... DingYao... Simeon... Aslam... JiaYan... Mi...

080905

yesterday 3 then slp nehz... 9 then wake up le... lolx... k la... 6 hours is enough for mi... went to PS wif JiaYan,DingYao,YuanChi,Aslam,Simeon.. watch Herbie!!! lolx... actually wanna watch red eye de... but the guys dun wan... so bad... one more chance oso cant watch... we r too late le... so sad... Herbie actually is not wat i wan nehz... but then ok la... turn out quite well de... so cute... so touching.. so exciting... at some parts i felt like crying nehz... lolx... aft watching movie then take Neoprint!!! nice... nice... v nice... not like last time alwaz play... lolx... got new face lei... nvr take wif YuanChi b4 ma... hope to hav more new faces nxt time lo... quite fun... but oso quite sianz... when watching the movie i realise the guys look so pervertic when looking at Lindsay Lohan... lolx... tua chio bu ya... sad la... today actually zhu zhu wan come de... not watch movie la... juz walk walk lo... still not v good dat till now we still dun tok face to face lo... but PS too sianz liao... Mi n Jy shop until 5 plus then go her hse liao... buey tahan... try to drag the time liao... but realli no choice le so go lo... reach her hse he then msg mi say he dere... so sad nehz... anyway mei guan xi la... still got other chance ba??? lolx... no matter wat... zhu zhu... i will respect ur decision de... u noe wat i tokin abt??? hmm... tml my sis de ROM lei... my second sis,third sis n mi will b wearing the same tube... i still hav to hold the bear wif rings on them nehz... lolx... highlight my didi here... joel... dun mind i write ur name here??? i realli treat u as my didi... i promise u no matter wat i will try to b happy... i thank u alot sia... forever my didi hor... lolx... k la... stop here for today...

Shi Lian Le

lolx... wo you shi lian le... i still can laugh wor... hmm... not the first time ah... get used to it le... mi n him oso haven start... juz make mi realise dat i dun love my ex anymore... zhu zhu... yes... but it's alrite... love someone doesnt mean u muz hav him de ma... kai xin jiu hao lo... but i tink we realli nd to leave each other for some time ba... let u tink thru... u r still in confuse state lo... i dun like... yesterday norh... ask mi ltr call u... i so damn happy... but u say tokin to ur cousin... so muz ltr... ard 11... wa... 11... i waited until 12... u still tokin to her... though u ask mi go n slp... but u shld noe i wun de ma... wait n wait... end up lei... u tell mi u wanna go slp wor... i tired i still wait... u tired u go slp... dere is no wrong la... u can slp... but sorie oso nvr say lo... u make mi wait nehz... dong mahx... wat can i do when i sad... cant find u... cant even let u noe ba... at dat time everybody slp liao lo... even u... haiz... i noe u dun wanna mi sad... but u r making mi sad wat... wat u wanna mi do then... make mi sad n i juz keep on laughing??? ltr pple say mi siao... it juz seems like we cant go back to last time anymore... cant even b fren... i realli dun wanna stress u... but somehow... u r stressing mi as well... u will nvr understand ba... saturday then will go home wor... suan le ba...

Hao Xiang Ni...

mei you ni de wan an sui bu zao... sianz... wonder wat u r doing now lei... nvr reply my msg... i cant slp... though i m tired... i miss u lots... but i tell myself i cant b sad... bcoz i hav to understand dat u r busy wif ur chalet... dats y i hav to b happy... still waiting for ur wan an... but i dun tink u noe wat i wan... hmm... mei guan xi ba... if u miss mi... if u r free... u will msg mi de ba??? actually i m realli scare... ni hui bu yao wo mahx??? i dun wan wat happen juz now to happen again nehz... i cant say i m not sad... but i dun wan u to leave mi bcoz u dun wanna mi sad... zhen de... hmm... mei guan xi... i will get used to it de... u muz wait for mi... n rmb our promises...

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When Will I b Happy Lei???

i tink i can juz forget it ba... actually i noe no matter wat i wun b happy de... get used to it liao... got stead no stead... got pple love or not... still sad... when will i b happy lei??? i dunno... nvr will ba... let nature take its course ba... my greatest wish-to b happy forever... seems so impossible... hmm... mei guan xi... yesterday is my first time being so jian qiang... i m realli v happy... first time i cry nvr tell anybody n keep on asking pple to cheer up... though now i oredi say out la... but i m still v happy for myself lei... mayb tis is wat we call true love??? dats y dun wan the other to noe i m sad... lolx... omg... i m in pain... siao liao la... though i say nth... deep in my heart dere is a big scar... ni shi bu hui ai wo de... dong mahx... i m afraid to lose u... but no choice de ma... tis kind of thingy... suan le ba... +HeArTbRoKeN+

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To YJ:
Dere Is Fucking Wrong To Hav Pple Like U In The Class
Who Unite The Class N At The Same Time Stop The Class Frm Uniting...
Sometimes I Kinda Hate U
Sometimes I Find Dat U r Not Bad
U Hav Changed
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_+.*.+_ Get Out Of My Life _+.*.+_

_+.*.+_ Get Out Of My Mind _+.*.+_

_+.*.+_ I Wanna Cry No More _+.*.+_

_+.*.+_ Wanna B Happy _+.*.+_

_+.*.+_ Leave Mi Alone _+.*.+_

Idiot!!!

how can u do dat to mi... haiz... idiot... ni zhen de hui accept wo mahx??? haiz... u nvr put mi in my heart b4 lo... ni hui pian wo mahx??? sometimes i realli dun understand u lo... suan le ba... if u realli nvr put mi in ur heart b4 then juz forget it lo... as if i will force u to like mi... mayb i will juz leave u liddat ba... heck la... idiot yj... he is so damn idiot... sometimes i find he is ok... but sometimes his attitude realli sucks lo... freaking ass... oops =x he change le... juz hope he will change back lo... sianz... my first common test for tis term is so damn poor lo... except for maths of coz... i muz jiayou... but till now i m still tinkin whether i shld go double science or aim for triple science??? juz work hard lo... hmm... got neoprint nehz... but tis few days cant update pic... not v free nehz... tis whole holiday is considered book... holiday not like holiday... alwaz liddat...

Finally... Hehe

lolx... crazy in love de group finally make some improvement nehz... i look forward to the day we perform... but... haiz... stupid boys... esp YONGJIE... dun wanna dance... say dun wanna wear black... eat shit lo... idiot... Si YONGJIE... WANG BA DAN!!! so wat de lo... forget it... dun tok abt him... spoil my mood... hmm... mi n xiao zhu zhu... consider ok ba... getting betta??? but we still dun tok face to face... sometimes juz feel v sad lo... how to continue if dun tok face to face nehz... fan nehz... haiz... dunno y today de mood not v good lei... wo bu xiang ai ni bi ni ai wo duo...

Sick Nehz

Kaoz... tis week all test... today more sianz... morning then noe wat we r testing on... n is nvr learn b4 de lo... bo bian... still hav to take... somemore i m sick... so xin ku norh... so sianz... luckily no homework... but still hav to study for test all dat... project queueing up lo... anyway i fall in love wif him le... the same one of coz... but abit scare norh... haiz... dunno how to say... though we r good la... dere is still problems in between... so sad... suan le... will try to solve de... juz hope tis time will succeed norh... Xiao Ma Yi Love Xiao Zhu Zhu... hehe...

OMG!!!

wo ai shang le ta... zhe me ban... JX!!! JX!!! lolx... i dunno whether my decision is rit... but i tink he will oso make mi sad de... coz he dun like mi... :( anyway i juz feel happy abt it la....

How???

sobx... dunno wat to do... haiz... y i got shi lian de gan jue... who r u to mi man... sianz... mayb juz like wat u say... is affection which make pple stead nowadays ba... i so idiot lo... so hua xin... c one like one... like shit liddat... kanasai... tis is not mi lo... i m not supposed to b liddat de... can anybody help mi??? haiz... who is the one i realli like... fan nehz... wat is love... where is the love? shld i depend on fate??? haiz... feel like scolding myself man... y i bcome like tis??? one is LF... one is YT... another one is JX... not my class de hor... sianz nehz...

Fan Si Ren Le!!!

hmm... end up i dun wan anybody... mayb oni him ba... but noe no hope liao lo... i oso dunno wat i want... b happy is still the best lo... but i feel v bad to reject pple... sometimes hav no choice de ma... tis few days v fan nehz... fan abt the Teachers' Day dance... fan abt wat i wan... haiz... juz v fan lo... dunno how to say... wat i can say is fan... hmm... yesterday went to the carnival... @ marina... quite fun la... quite sianz oso... but then reach home le then realise we oni walk half of it n tot dere is nth else... lolx... anyway Mr Quek Sang not bad... but... he alwaz sing the wrong lyric for Jay Chou An Jing... haiz... anyway overall is still good la... hmm... yesterday went to take neoprints wif junting,liming,dingyao,aslam n jiayan... cant put it up now... perhaps ltr ba...

DogGies

My Second Sis De Dog... RocCo... At SenToSa... But Not Living Wif Mi Lei...

lolx... finally can online again le... tis time wif a different feelings... happy... real happy tis time... i wanna forget him... i can forget him le... finally find a guy whom i can still believe in de... but then i cant accept... coz i still dun understand him well... n dat i hav not totally forget dat idiot him... he say he will wait de... but i tink le oso luan... aiya... heck la... i m juz happy... lolx... coz i will nvr tink of the past le... yin wei you ni wo jue ding wang ji... yin wei you ni wo hui kuai le... suo yi wo yao wang ji yi qian de ta... zao xun xin de wo... lolx... i m juz afraid dat u will hurt mi someday...

PiCs TaKeN wIf EnErJaS n HuItInG

Wat To Do???

lolx... tis it our song nehz... forever our song... haiz... wat shld i do lei... i was tinkin whether i shld give up on my way home... then suddenly i saw someone... like ur sis lo... is actually ur sis ba... if i m not wrong.. stop at ur stop too... look quite alike oso... i started to tink... issit dat i shld not give up... y let mi c her at tis time lo... to remind mi dat i cant forget him... to remind mi abt the past... to remind mi not to accept anyone else... haiz... fan nehz... wanna b happy but juz find it difficult lo... so sianz... sometimes i tink dat i juz hope u can tell mi to give up lo... by dat time i hav no choice liao lo... oni can give up... even u say so le... though ur fren ask mi to give up... i juz hope tis is wat ur fren tink lo... i realli dunno... is tis a test??? to show how much i love u... haiz... if u realli ask mi give up then i will cry until siao de lo... but then wat to do... honestly... i dun even dare to believe dat we r oredi over... everything is over n nth will b back lo... I REALLI DUNNO WAT TO DO!!!! haiz...

..Common Tests..

Kaoz... So damn sianz lo... Common tests... Common tests... went fine actually... except for history... stupid la... i dun hav enough time to do finish my last question... somemore is not i dunno lo... i can even rmb the evidence lo... then wasted so much time on the first SEQ... tink le then sianz... anyway.. recently make frens wif Jiayi,Valerie,Barbara,Eugene,Kelvin and many more la... nice to make frens man... n Jiayi ask mi b her mei... of coz i wun say no de rit... it makes no difference actually... Sometimes I realli dunno... wat for they keep mi as mei... nvr ask mi out... nvr tell mi abt their things... is like pple c le oso dun tink u all r close lo... wat for being their mei lo... but then of coz we can expect them to do anithing la... up to them lo... they wan liddat de mei oso can lo... i dun treat Shuyuan as my kor le... reason is... i oredi tell him so many time le... dun quit skol... he still go appeal... juz dun seem to b my kor... though last time he say so many times dat he treat mi as real mei... mayb juz bcoz i guai... he nvr tell mi abt anithing... nvr even ask mi out... suan le la... let it past man... they wan mi b their mei then b lo... seems no difference lo... dat day i almost cry le... i tell Huimin abt the past... as i say i wanna cry... but luckily i stop my tears from rolling down... till now actually i still cant get over it lo.. sianz... listen to the songs... go whenever we go b4... all the memories... it is good to hav memories... but i dun wanna cry when tink abt it lo... makes life so difficult... i nvr realli wanna forget him la... juz wanna b happy lo... i m actually still waiting... i dun tink our fate will end here nehz... coz is alwaz 2 yrs... every 2 yr we will stop contacting... but end up we will meet again... i m waiting for dat day... i dunno whether it will comes anot lo... mayb juz let mi sad for my whole life ba... i wanna find my true love...