AHHHHHHH.
AHHHHHHH.
AHHHHHHH.
how can i not post today.
such a terrible thing happen to mi.
n now i realli dunno wat i can do.
was troubling abt my family prob yesterday nite.
n chatted wif my sis until midnite 3plus.
of coz i wan to slp. but it doesnt mean dat i dun care.
so i wake up kinda late today n rush to skol.
i realli didnt expect such thing will ever happen to mi.
i was oredi late n tidying up my wallet on the mrt platform.
n my wallet juz slip off my hand.
i saw it wif my v own eyes.
a man ard 30-40 picked it up!
n at dat time i realli tot he will return it to mi.
i ran down the escalator. but i cant find him.
dat goes my wallet. dats it.
my ez-link card. my IC. my POSB card.
great loss to mi. n the wallet.
i bought it wif my own money n i seriously like it.
juz bought it tis yr n tot dat i could use it for at least a yr.
wow. i used it for less than half a yr.
i seriously couldnt believe it.
deres nth in my wallet dat he could use.
except the cash inside. he can hav it.
i find it super troublesome now dat i hav to make everything again.
n of coz paying for my IC. which is not worth it at all.
im seriously hoping dat he will return to mi.
even if the money is gone.
i wan the wallet. i wan my cards!
i reported to the control station.
i reached the skol n i was almost late.
approach a teacher n told him wat happen n everything.
finally decided to juz report to the police station.
went to the office n took an early leave form.
get approval frm the vp n go to the police station.
but my teacher keep telling mi the chances of getting back is 0.
its like. OMG! i wan it back. hais.
i feel kinda lost now. coz i hav to make everything again.
i seriously hope dat guy will return mi.
my frens said. y didnt i shout.
then everybody will look at him n he wun dare to take it.
mayb they r right. i shld hav shout.
but the gullible n naive mi actually tot dat he will return mi.
i realli nvr tot of shouting. juz keep asking myself to stay calm.
AHHHHHH. cant he juz return mi. hais.
come on. give mi some hope so dat i can trust singaporeans.
i tot i will cry. but up till now i haven.
i dunno y. mayb bcoz i noe crying doesnt help.
mayb it makes mi feel betta.
i will cry bcoz i didnt noe im so unlucky.
n nvr in my life i find myself fortunate at all.
mayb 'nvr' is a too strong word to use.
but seriously. i always tink dat my life is kinda terrible.
though i will try to console myself by tinkin dat im not the worst.
i dunno. i can oni wait n hope. pray hard.

oh yes! finally weekend oredi.
but then weekends oso not v relax for mi lo.
LOLx. i hav decided not to go out tis weekend.
coz got so much homework.
n i intend to save money la.
then my frens ask mi whether wan go ktv.
omg!! i realli wan to.
aft much consideration i decided not to go.
save money plus spend the time on homework!
sound sad yeah. LOLx.
but im still going orchard today.
no choice. i hav to go change my bill plan.
my sis insist on going orchard anyway.
LOLx. hav to queue 3 hours again.
n i will b dere alone until she come.
nvm. its ok. im independent! haha.

tis few days was quite screwed.
thurs got bio prac. omg.
its like so rush n everything.
end up i didnt even ans all the question.
juz tis prac screwed my thursday. LOLx.
n i hav so many things to complete on dat day.
reach home at ard 7. so tired oredi.
still hav to do homework.
ahh. canot tahan end up i go slp wif incomplete work.
LOLx. n the nxt day i wake up at 6.30am!?!
which means im late. as in i nd to rush.
LOLx. dats when i feel even more screwed.
im so glad dat everything is over.
n the test on wed. oh ya!
dat screwed my wed. LOLx.
coz i noe im gonna get 6/12. sian.
nvm! i will work harder. LOLx.
n i didnt fail my bio test.
i got D which is not v gd.
but at least i pass. no re-test.

anyway. yesterday went out wif daredevils again!
LOLx. im glad dat at least we got common interest.
can shop tgt. can play tgt.
now in jc. i dun tink i can find.
so mayb its true. dat jc cant find super close fren??
i dunno. but i hope dats not the case.
nvm. i shall juz c wats in front of mi.

juz like wat i hav said.
kinda disappointed n dun wanna continue.
i dun wan it to b juz one-sided.

ok. i shall not give up.
im going to try again. LOLx.
juz keep trying.
until everyone can make it to the outing.
organising another nxt sat.
but. hmm. it doesnt seem like the gals can make it.

actually deres nth much to post today.
im so so bored staying at home.
but at the same time lazy to go out.
stayed at home doing homework.
but im feeling quite aimless.
coz i dunno wat to do wif all my homeworks.
LOLx. n alot is half done.
coz i dunno how to complete it.
n the feeling is weird.

yesterday went to eat prata wif jy yj jx n jason.
ok la. though not many pple we had great fun.
particularly bcoz of yj. hes too extreme.
hes either to noisy or too quiet. LOLx.
n watever he says make pple laugh.
though sometimes quite irritating =x haha.
n we tooks pictures! =p



mi jy yj jc n jason =)

thinking wheres yj?? LOLx. stupid him. took a picture cutting himself off.

anyway. i realise i hav been mentioning him.
ger say bcoz im using him as my example.
then i ask her. y do i use him as my example.
she say bcoz hes the best example.
yes. indeed hes the best example.
but dats bcoz i haven met any betta.
believe dat i will.
coz i realise. the guys i noe nowadays.
they r so different frm the guys i knew.
n the guys i noe now r much betta.
at least i can c dat they realli do care.
n when they jio gals they show dat they realli like the gal.
n i believe they r devoted as well.






ever since dat incident.
i realise watever u hav been doing is not serious at all.
kinda disappointing.
i shld nvr hav treat watever u say n do so seriously.

im getting emo. LOLx.
dat day i was actually tinkin.
its been long since i stay up late.
study or do anithing. LOLx.
though now is holiday. it makes no diff.
perhaps afraid of getting emo ba.
even if i stay up late deres no one i can tok to.
so i will juz end up crying n getting emo.
no point rit. might as well go slp.
im sorie dat i didnt forget aft 2 yrs.
realli sorie. but i realli dunno.
i dunno y i didnt forget.
initially i tot we were made for each other.
everything seems so perfect.
mayb im the one who end the perfection ba.
mayb everything is juz one-sided in the first place.
omg. i noe i shldnt tink anymore.
coz its been 2 yrs.
n u hav been telling mi.
i noe its time to forget.
hmm. but its easy to say. not easy to do it.
im realli trying hard.
for a moment i tot i moved on n say gdbye.
i realli dun wanna b the last to noe.
arghh. sorie. forgive mi for being stupid.

ok. put dat aside. since its holiday.
i shall post something abt holiday! LOLx.
its easy to change mood yeah. haha.
start on monday ba. went to ECP.
cycling for 2 hours!! LOLx.
met quite alot of aj-zh. haha.
aft dat go marina square eat dinner.
everything is wif daredevils ok. LOLx.
which means. ger yan fwah n clar. haha.
tuesday i stayed at home. tink kinda emo oso.
then wed. sadly cant go to ECP.
end up stay in aj for sports club.
it has been raining for days. omg.
almost spoil the 4e4 BBQ on wed. LOLx.
luckily it stop a while n we manage to cook almost everything.
reach home at ard 12.45am dat day.
last to go home ok. packing up n stuff.
took taxi home wif paky soph n cass. haha.
thurs n fri(today) r mugging days!! LOLx.
hav been going to lib to study.
wif xy vic jj bh nat n fi.
at first wanted to eat sakae wif ger de.
end up nvr. sian la. no money oredi.
im happy bcoz i manage to save money! haha.
i hav decided to go sakae for my birthday oredi.
dunno lei. juz tink its a reward for mi =p
v long nvr eat sakae le. hmm.
tml gonna stay at home. LOLx. v guai de.
sunday mayb huimin ba. i dunno.
but i haven finish all my tutorials!?! LOLx.
can one la. no stress =)

anyway. hav been wahjong-ing recently.
LOLx. damn fun la.
at least i tink deres a common topic for my class.
n its something i do to relax myself. haha.
thanks pple for bringing mi out of my sadness sometimes.

oh ya. something happen to my last finger.
i dunno wats dat. a sprain?? or mayb not so major.
haha. but its swollen n has blood clot.
scary sia. pple c le oso scare. haha.
but ok la. its getting betta oredi. =)

ok. tis part is for someone who muz not b named.
since u nvr name mi i shall not name u as well.
LOLx. but i doubt u will c tis post?? hmm.
anyway. thanks for dedicating dat post to mi.
i dunno wat i shld say actually.
dats y i didnt sms u n sadly u got no tagboard as well.
i noe v well wat kind of person i am.
n i dun deny watever i hav say.
but i oso hav to say dat deres misunderstanding.
i did say dat wat u tink n do is wrong.
at least dats wat i tink.
n i believe im not the oni one who tink dat way.
but i didnt say u canot do watever u wanna do.
if u tink u r happy then go do it.
u can c dat i didnt stop u?? LOLx.
n deres a reason y i stop u frm saying wat u wanna say.
sometimes la. its to avoid arguement.
i didnt even say we cant b frens bcoz of the diff tinkin.
i juz say its difficult to b v gd frens.
bcoz we will always argue bcoz of diff views n opinions.
im straightforward. im direct. i noe dat n u noe dat.
so i wun hide things frm u.
mayb im not gd in phrasing my words.
but its ok. however u wanna tink.
i guess dats all i wanna say??
u make mi sound like i hurt u.
n make mi feel dat im hurting my frens.
LOLx. coz u r not the oni one.
mayb im realli not gd as a fren ba.






its time to forget...

haha. today muz post. =)
coz yesterday was so fun!! LOLx.
yesterday went sentosa wif 29/08 31/08 n OG29.
HAHA. the first time i realli play at sentosa la.
normally go dere n waste time oni =x
yesterday was so fun!! n exciting =p
when we reach the guys start playing in the water.
then the gals were eating! haha.
aft dat the guys join us for eating.
they cant resist man.
they r hungry ghost. cant live w/o food one =x
so aft finish eating we decided to play!!
some gals play wif the sand.
all the guys n some gals r playing in the water!
ok. no nd b so detailed la hor.
so end up we all play in the water.
LOLx. captains ball. we r all wet. =)
aft dat it drizzle a bit.
then the guys were playing among themselves.
when everybody is ready we start playing again!
haha. we started playing volleyball.
but we realise its a failure. haha.
then we change it to captains ball.
it was so freaking fun.
n i was so sorie dat i mention the F word while playing.
muz apologise. so sorie! LOLx.
then aft dat we play soccer!! haha.
by the time some gals oredi go off le.
as usual. im the goalkeeper. LOLx.
more n more gals go off then left oni 2 gals.
but its still fun ok!
LOLx. im a guy-gal. so i wont mind =)
aft everything we go vivo.
LOLx. anyhow walk then ended up in adidas.
haha. playing table soccer.
i dun realli noe how to play. juz anyhow play =x
haha. but its fun la.
end up kana scolded for shouting. LOLx.
aiya. watever la. its a realli fun day =)
thanks pple for giving mi such an enjoyable day.
tio a bit of sunburn. for sure de la.

now dat u r gone.
i juz wanna say.
i'll miss u.
though liking one who dun like u at all is difficult.

ok. dun hav much to day actually.
LOLx. hmm. shall juz post a bit.
i get into sports club btw! haha.
at least i hav a cca to go to yeah.
n today is the last day of skol for term 1.
tml is the start of the holiday!
though its oni one week. haha.
but betta than nth la hor.
tis week will study. n of coz play la.
tml 29/08 OG29 n 31/08 will go sentosa.
LOLx. its a mixture la. total 19 pple oni.
but its a big group ok.
i dun realli noe wat we can do dere.
but i hope we will all enjoy ourselves.
though i got tis feeling we might not.
haha. but nvm. as long as im dere =x
sunday will stay at home ba. study!
LOLx. mon meeting daredevils.
tue going to do bio project.
wed got sports club thingy n 4e4 BBQ!!
haha. exciting yeah.
others haven decide yeah. but soon la.
i was emo for a period of time.
but now. i realise i hav frens!!
fun pple. gals n guys.
n they realli make my day.
make each day of my life more meaningful.
coz i no longer spend days crying.
i spend days laughing! haha.
i realise life still goes on n im happy!
thanks to all my frens! haha.
i watched the leap years n i cried.
but im not affected! wahaha. im glad.
everything is abt 29 feb.
n 29 is significant to mi in the past.
mayb not anymore. LOLx.
its not damn nice la. its juz sad lo.

actually till now i still dunno whether i like him.
mayb yes mayb no. but i dunno whether its true.
i believe deres someone else in his heart.
shld i or shld i not msg him b4 he leave.

haha. its time to upload photos!
these r photos of 1st intaker.
PDG 29/08!! haha =p

quite retarded. LOLx.


haha. we r all wearing the bracelet frm jazreel! for V day.


i admit dat im ugly in here. haha.







tis is. xinyi n joyce =)


tis is. shuyan n xinyi =)



tis is. xinyi jazreel n fiona! LOLx.


n tis is mi alone.

ok. done. still got somemore.