Today damn happy...

wa... today damn happy nehz... get back my results le... though i fail my geography... i still get seventh in class... omg... haha... i oni aim for top twenty nehz... feel like screaming nehz... hmm... he msg mi on thursday nehz... actually i realli wanna ask him nehz... u realli treat mi as fren le mahx??? u realli forget mi le mahx??? forget everything n our memories??? he is cruel nehz... he left everything wif mi... all the memories... he say he will help mi to forget... how to??? u realli tink it is so easy??? i now decide dat i will wait... until end of yr... to c whether i realli cant forget u... let fate decides everything lo... liddat then enough le ba... actually i now v happy le... but i dunno when then u will hurt mi again... i noe when u love someone n dat someone dun love u... get hurt is a muz... if i nvr get hurt means i oredi dun love him le... but realli v xin ku nehz... who noe how it feel lei... haiz... i juz hope we wun lose contact ba... frenz forever i noe i will sure forget abt last time de... once u lose contact wif mi... i will sure cry n tink of all the things... i dun wan liddat nehz... rmb wat i say lo... u wanna help... but dun ever make mi hate u... dun ever hurt mi... n dun ever make mi cry... u dunno how hurt it is de... actually the oni way is to treat mi as fren n keep in touch lo... realli...

Wa!!! Dying Le!!!

sianz to death le... cried last nite... we went to watch lion dance ma... at first v happy de... he sung to mi... all the songs... bring back all the memories... but when we r watching the lion dance we bcome distant le... at first sitting together... aft dat he moved... haiz... frm then on he seems turning back again... damn sad lo... then is like we r going out as fren ma... canot alwaz follow him here n dere lo... he is not my stead ma... not i dun wan... is canot lo... aft dat we didnt tok much le... i tot i can ask alot of things when he sending mi home... he did send mi home... oni we two... but we didnt tok much... i dare not ask anithing... though i hav lots of question marks in my head... finally... i reaching home le... i ask him whether he got anithing to say... i tot i can at least hear him say something... but he didnt... haiz... he didnt... the one n the last chance... juz slip past liddat... damn sad lo... though i cant realli believe dat he still love mi... but if he say... i will sure believe de... y didnt he say... yesterday was full of regrets lo... cant control my tears when i reach home lo... sianz... he brought all the memories back n put them back again... y cant he juz do something... i find myself so stupid to wait... is he going to do something??? i m afraid dat we wun hav the chance anymore... will he call mi again??? will meet mi up again??? he juz dun wan to take back his cd lo... i dunno y... is oredi wif mi... n he is juz beside mi... he still say nxt time... y he like to leave everything wif mi... all the memories r wif mi... no more chance le... haiz... shld i wait??? or shld i go aft him??? or shld i juz let go??? who can tell mi the ans... i realli love him nehz... n tis is wat i can promise him lo... though i noe we r not realli dat suitable... but we cant control our feelings ma... trying to make a decision... dun wanna regret lo... wa... i so terribly sad lo... still wanna mi stay at home... wan mi die??? but i dunno y... juz feel like going to jy de hse... mayb bcoz go le still can online ba... go other places then cant online... cant wait for him... today is the last day i can online le... i tink i hav to wait for a week ltr to online again lo... too bad dat we didnt grab the last chance... now is fan to death... sianz to death... sad to death... haiz... [aNn_jErRy][230105]-[180405]

...E5 Still Rawks...

our guys lost in the first match to E6... for bball interclass... but the score is close... so guys... we r still good u noe... but u all de defend muz b betta... anyway it is juz a game... lose or win doesnt matter... gals interclass bball... we won the first match against E6... but lost in the match against E2... they r real gd u noe... we r not as gd... but we oso did our best le... we still rawks ya... haha... hmm... then the soccer interclass... our boys played well actually... they played 3 matches... won 2 n lost 1 to T1... they r real pro... cant blame... but end up they cant go to the final bcoz their group oredi got 2 go to semi liao... dunno semi or final la... but they played well... Keep it up! guys.. haha... i did something bad today... i didnt go to do my duty at punggol park... i pray hard dat they nvr mark attendance lo... hmm... tml i can go n c terry de performance lei... but then i dunno how to go... it seems weird to go out wif them as their frens... the feeling is weird lo... then where to meet them i oso dunno... now i a bit blur blur liao... haha... but anyway can go then go lo... canot then nvm ba... dat guy oso wun mind de ba... i kept my promise... i once said dat my love for him nvr change... it realli didnt change... though 1 month oredi past... he nehz.. though break wif her le... but dunno who he like... if he felt the same as mi then gd le... we seperate for 1 month plus n did not forget each other... liddat i oredi v happy le... but i hope he not finding mi to replace her... gonna kill him if he realli did dat... nvr forgive him lo... appreciate the one u love ba... tis is for everyone... grab the chance well oso... Jiayou!!! Guys!!!

Blehz... So Long Liao Wor...

haha... i so long nvr post liao nehz... surely many things happen... hmm... play bball then get sunburn lo... n i swam yesterday... i so long nvr swim liao wor... yesterday is the first time aft so long lo... but then still ok la... haha... sianz... i still cant forget him... if oni i forget him.. if oni i give up on him... then i can b happy... coz i noe he dun love mi le... wat for waiting... sometimes i m juz being naive lo... tinkin dat i may still stand a chance... but i shld noe lo... no chance liao lo... sometimes juz hope someone will scold mi until i wake up n decide to give up lo... i juz scare i regret... pple alwaz say he tis kind of guy dun wan oso nvm... but then they not mi... if they were mi they wun tink tis way de ma... haiz... i m juz glad dat i didnt cry so much lo... he got contact mi tis few days nehz... mayb bcoz he tink we can still b frens ba... dunno i shld say i m happy or sad lo... sometimes he realli hurt mi... he dunno... suan le... no point toking abt it anymore... i juz hope one day i can realli give up him lo... if he love mi he wun hurt mi liddat ba... he is realli good lo... mayb i shld juz hope he get his happiness lo... since i cant b the one beside him anymore le... jiayou ba... tml is cross-country... i no nd run nehz... haha... so happy... i hav cramp all over lo... super tired... then tink tuesday got inter-class bball ba... muz jiayou le... hope we can win... though the chances r not high... wednesday hav to go book chalet le... E5 b united lo... i dun wan anybody to complain or wat lo... if dere is a chalet then everybody shld b dere lo... k la... stop here.. will post again...

...Back Again Wif A New Mi...

tis few days r realli a big change for mi... i hav been doing wat i will not do last time... realli... i wonder y... coming week is exam le... muz jiayou liao wor.. haha... i last dropped my tears on thursday i tink... haha... but then i finally realise everything... i shld depend on fate... he has been coming in n out of my world... if we r realli fated we will b together... i m realli happy when i saw u two r ok... i mean happy dat u finally find one u tink is suitable for u... if realli it is so... muz appreciate ba... tis kinda thingy cant force rit... cant force u to love mi again... depend on fate ba... some changes on mi shld b... i cut my hair... i draw eyeliner.. wear big eye rings... seems so gothic... play bball... get sunburnt today... haha... get a fall too... simply a new mi lo... sometimes i oso dun understand myself... frankly... i dun tink she is realli betta than mi... sometimes juz tink how u two get along... however,if u two r ok then alrite ba... as long as u tink u two can last then so be it lo... love her then dun let her go lo... realli... not easy to find someone u love... sometimes i juz dun dare to ask ur frens how r u le... is like i dun dare to face it... scare i will b sad all dat... anyway all the best to u ba...

sianz

sianz diaoz... pc spoil liao wor... but then nvm la... i oso dun wan myself to spend the whole day onlining... gd way to stop myself frm using the pc... haha... hmm... today went for bball training... preparing for interclass bball... muz hav confident... but then oso noe we got super gd opponents... we still hav to work for it lo... no matter wat... lose or win.. as long as the effort is shown ba... muz stop myself frm going out le... spend so much money... now bankrupt liao wor... anyway... finally tot thru everything... i dunno whether i still can hold on... but i cant cry... i wun force myself to forget... everything juz nature takes its course lo... juz dun wanna myself to b sad lo... i cant hate him... he is juz too gd le... i cant love him... he is oredi not mine le... tink of the past... sure will sad de... but muz overcome it... in order to get the rainbow we muz endure the rain... shld b liddat ba... haha... but then still wonder y... he can juz forget mi liddat... sometimes tink le oso dun tink i shld forgive him lo... do i still stand a chance??? or shld i juz give up... all tis i realli dunno... my godbro say... watever decision i made is ok... juz dun regret anithing in my life... tinkin quite hard... juz dun wan myself to regret lo... v xin ku de... i realli wish i can b happy again lo... at least now is betta than last time le... wif frens ard mi... my seniors n my godsibling... sometimes i juz wanna say i hate guys... hurting mi again n again... when i m going into the well they r climbing out... n when they reach the top i m oredi stuck... n they juz walk away liddat... i m still stuck... n the journey to climb alone is realli tough... when will tis end... i juz hope it is as soon as possible lo... but then if the relationship is realli dat fragile dat juz one person can break everything then wat can i still ask for... cant blame anybody for dat too... n if he can realli juz forget everything liddat then so be it lo... i lead my own life... he walk his own way...