haha. alrite. i just have to post this.
a great thanks to huimin for wat she bought from america.
abercrombie shirt n victoria's secret.
n oso for wat she bought for my mum.
now i realli realli owe her a lot. ahh. feeling so bad.
LOLx. but im happy today!
deres no exact reason y.
today went bugis wif huimin. coz she wan to walk walk.
i suggested bugis so dat i can surprise momo. LOLx.
n i succeeded! miracles do happen rit. haha.
alrite. anyway. i juz nd to post n tell everyone im happy today!
a million thanks to huimin n am realli glad to hav her as my fren.
coz watever she do she will tink of mi. so nice.
ok. i juz got reminded dat im gonna miss the lan outing tml.
n ya. im going to chiong homework soon. LOLx.

oh ya. i did a good deed today!
i was on my way out n saw tis 2 blind man.
i always c them on my way home taking bus 853.
they were asking for someone to lead them the way.
so i decided to help n bring them to where they wan to go.
well. it realli feels great to help whoever dat nd help. =)

haha. i just wake up! cool right.
LOLx. cannot blame la. had phone conference with cass and jon.
its so cool sharing stories! haha.
n we talk for almost 3 hours i think.
stop talking at abt 3am if i never remember wrongly.

anyway. thats not the main point.
the main point is i never post on christmas or anywhere near.
HAPPY BELATED CHRISTMAS to all!
haha. i know its very late. but it should be okay la.
thanks people for all the wishes and everything.
sorry to joyce and siowyun that i didnt reply your msges.
thats because my phone bill is bursting!
haha. but dont worry. i will be writing cards for you people.
LOLx. get ready to receive it on the 2nd! =D
yeah. and that means i have to start writing all the cards soon.
haha. even before i finish my homework.
come on. im never going to finish it la.
its like crazy. n come to think of it. i really have to chiong lo.
oh ya. back to the christmas thingy.
omg. walking along orchard road on christmas eve was crazy.
on christmas it was much much better.
anyway. thats after my work. so i was with linhui. LOLx.
and for the post christmas private sale. omg.
its like mad n kinda irritating.
coz everybody ask the same question.
'is this having sales?' n when u say no they will just go off.
LOLx. so everything must have sales. ok. watever!
thanks cass, cinny, clar n her fren for visiting on christmas eve.
thanks hongzhen for visiting n the shirt u bought.
thanks alan for coming down 3 days n the chocolate.
oh ya. thanks ger for the card u made. LOLx.
i will return u one soon. w/o all the history =x haha.

i think i missed out quite a lot of things during the holiday coz of my work.
the feeling is damn freaking sian. bit i guess its alrite.
i mean. when skol reopen everything shld b back to normal.
im so so sorie dat i forget to wish nella, cas, victor, jon n tsewei good luck for retest.
n i oni realise it when the tests r over. so so bad.
so i hav decided to write cards for the gals!
coz i noe guys wont take good care of my cards. LOLx.
omg. i got so many cards to write n so much homework to do. im dead.
n huimin juz came back from america not long ago.
im going to meet her today.

alrite. take note people. my phone bill is bursting.
so sorie if i nvr reply ur msg. LOLx.
n i seriously hope new year eve wont b a boring day for mi.

haha. im supposed to psot yesterday.
but end up im too tired n lazy. again. LOLx.
anyway. i was supposed to tok abt sat.
went to study wif ger n jie mei er!
LOLx. shocking? weird combi? yes it is.
first time in my life studying wif my jie mei er.
its alrite la. though its surprising dat hes quiet for more than 1 min! =x
wahaha. n he did his work! omg.
(hes gonna kill mi aft seeing tis. but well. he shld noe betta than i do)
LOLx. im like insulting him here.
haha. so at abt 7 ger nd to go home for dinner.
mi n jie mei er than stop studying.
went for dinner at yishun. first time in his life. LOLx.
n we had our emo tok. haha.
im glad he felt the way i do.
so dats abt it. we tok for abt 2hours n went home.
was like emo-ing throughout the nite la.
haha. shit. im telling pple im emo again.
but seriously. emo-ing is nth for mi. LOLx.
n i was so god damn happy when i received my bro's msg.
the same time as i took out my phone.
haha. dats realli damn cool.
n i thank him for tokin to mi when i realli nd someone to tok to.
though i didnt tell him much abt everything.
i juz nd someone to tok abt anithing.
of coz i hav to thank cass n jie mei er for tokin to mi dat day =)

yesterday fiona told mi the bad news of not having stayover on new year eve.
oh man. its gonna b so boring! LOLx.
i shall c wat else i can do =)

well. working days r tiring for mi.
esp. during christmas period.
omg. cant realli stop n rest. LOLx.
its like. busy busy n busy. even today.
a monday when deres supposed to b v little pple.
anyway. yay! linhui is oso working on christmas =p
thanks clar n fren for visiting taka today.
thanks momo n fren for finding mi today too.
n im off tml! wahaha. alright. dats abt all =)

regrets in life...

got a little bit of time to post.
coz today im gonna start work kinda late.
anyway. actually i got nth much to say.
yesterday nat asked mi hows work.
i told her work is juz work.
LOLx. wat a lame ans.
but alright la. tis time is a bit of diff.
i noe a lot of pple from my company.
i noe my seniors. i noe pple abt my age.
shelmin. ivy. venus. linhui.
well. i guess yesterday was the last day i will c ivy.
but we will keep in contact ba.
n mayb today is the last day i will c shelmin too.
i hav learnt quite a lot from her.
n we hav been going for breaks tgt.
pple from the same company arent supposed to go tgt la.
but we manage to! haha.
omg. she got a bf dat lasted for more than 3 years oredi.
nth abt it. juz tink dat its cool. haha.
i will still b seeing venus n linhui.
another thing. i will b working on christmas and eve.
come on pple. i dun like pple to tink dat its a sad thing or watever.
n no. its not a lonely christmas. or anithing.
its fine working on dat day esp. when i dunno wat else i can do.
the oni thing i dread is walking along orchard road aft my work.
dere will b so many pple.
something i dread. but it may turn out alright.
dats always the case.

yes. im not very happy right now.
but i guess i only need a few days to recover.
thanks for letting me understand.
though this time i really dont know the reason.
it just ended. without me knowing.
if thats what you want.
i dont seriously know what i want.
i dont exactly know whats best for me.
but i will be used to it. i can survive.
maybe this time i really learn a lesson.

i was back to work on monday!
wahaha. was trying to take a risk.
c whether i can survive the 8hours.
monday was a v rush day.
coz had exco meeting in skol at 9am.
so i asked to work at a ltr time instead.
so start work at oni 2.
sunday i oni slp for abt 3hours.
coz of my queasy stomach. i cant take it.
n monday i almost reach my limit.
but it was ok la. i still manage to work until 10.
wif my blocked ear. LOLx. sian lo.
i seriously cant hear v clearly now.
i hope hope hope it will recover soon.
the meeting end at abt 12pm n the original plan was to go cass hse.
but shes slping! LOLx. n i cant wake her up.
its alrite cass. dun apologise again. haha.
so i faster rush home n grab some bite.
coz im pretty hungry n everything.
n i manage to reach my work place on the dot.

today had my off day. LOLx.
they actually ask mi to work today.
but i realli tink i shld rest n im meeting daredevils.
went shopping wif ger n clar today.
but i nvr buy anithing. coz i nvr c many nice things.
haha. then aft dat meet mingli for dinner.
daredevils meeting w/o ong jiayan again. LOLx.
well. busy wif ur blog shop huh.
shall forgive u for ur absence. haha. =x
actually nth much la huh.
hope nxt time i go shopping can c something i like.
aft dat all of them rushing home to watch little nonya.
but still. they miss quite a bit i guess.
oh. thanks hongzhen for going to taka today.
sorie dat im not dere. but u saw liangping! LOLx.

sometimes i really really want to talk to you.
sometimes i really really dont know how i feel.
im really sorry for whatever that has happen the past few days.
i have no idea whats happening too.

you are still the best and the right one after all.

tis song is damn sweet! =p
now i noe where jiahong n cass get their quotes from.

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 - CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked to mine
And let the music be your guide

[Troy:]
Won't you promise me
[Gabriella:]
Now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget
[Troy:]
We'll keep dancing
[Gabriella:]
To keep dancing
[Both:]
Wherever we go next

[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

[Troy:]
And you can't keep us apart
[Gabriella:]
Even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart
[Troy:]
Cause my heart is
[Gabriella:]
Cause my heart is
[Both:]
Wherever you are

[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Both:]
Oh, no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

[Both:]
It's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feelin' the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on gettin' better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

oh man. im having fever for days again.
hais. weak to the max la. omg.
for dat im gonna miss 3 days of work.
n 2 off days. makes up a total of 5 days.
not like im having some free days or watever.
im staying at home feeling kinda terrible.
y do i always get sick n take so long to recover =(
n yesterday the fever was so so bad.
from 37.6 straight up to 39.4
no matter wat i hav to go c a doc.
so i dragged myself out of bed to c a doc.
had ear infection oso. dats not the first time.
n sometimes its pain to the max. cant even slp.
well. aft i c the doc is much much betta.
but still. i hav not recover. hais.
having no appetite for days.
its either porridge or bread. no fish!
anyway. will feel like vomiting aft eating too much.
too much meaning the normal portion.
which means i eat realli v little.
n dat oni means im gonna get more n more thin.
alright. dats not something to b happy abt.
i nd more time to get fat =(
n fiona will call mi something else instead of ms slender.

alright. im here to apologise too.
sorie to pple whom i nvr reply on msn coz im slping.
n for those who ask mi whether i hav recovered.
the ans is obvious. not yet. but hopefully soon.
oh ya. n v sorie to ONG JIAYAN.
coz she came my hse yesterday.
supposedly to study. but end up c mi slping.
so in the end she oni come for less then 4 hours.
realli v sorie abt dat.
hope u visit my blog soon to c tis la huh.
nxt time i will nvr ask my fren to come my hse.
when im sick n tired. coz i will b slping.

oh ya. THANKS ONG JIAYAN.
for the clothes dat u bought. haha.

sometimes i wonder who i am to you.
i cant help but to think that im not the girl.
and im sorry that im being too serious.

alrite. i was supposed to post yesterday.
but end up im v tired n everything.
most importnatly, im lazy. watever.

a warning to everyone dat im in a v bad mood now.
so i will juz b pissed by everything.
dun ask mi y. i guess deres no particular reason.
hais. but when im pissed i will feel like crying.
so the feeling is like shit.
anyway. the main point is. dont bother.

yesterday was my mum's birthday.
actually i cant realli post abt tis rit now.
coz im not in the right mood.
but i hav to. since im oredi here.
so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUM!
belated bcoz i post it today n not yesterday.
celebrated her birthday on monday.
well. din tai fung again. im so sick of the food dere now.
but dat day i end work at 6.30pm. omg. early for the first time.
n went to find my 3rd sis wif her hubby n my nephew.
god. hes so damn playful n hyper.
i cant imagine having a kid like him in future.
well. mayb i wont hav any kid anyway.

alrite. so now i shall tok abt yesterday.
some of us meet up wif simeon who is back from australia.
sad la. come back for NS.
but well. he shld b happy to c us!
i oni meet them aft my work which is like abt 9pm?
feel so bad to keep them waiting.
in the end we nvr realli do much things.
juz play, laugh n tok then aft dat we go home.
they went for movie n dinner b4 dat.
unfortunately, i cant join them.
but its alrite man! deres always the nxt time.
we took pics though. mi wif the ugly black shirt.
anyway. will upload it once i get it.
n i tink its realli cool dat we meet up once in a while.
we still tok n everything.

anyway. i made new frens yesterday.
at my workplace. n i went for break wif one of them.
we went to 7-eleven n suddenly i tink of someone.
dat someone whom nobody will ever believe dat i tink of.
i suddenly rmb how well he treat mi last time.
buying stuff for mi when he go oversea.
buying my favourite chocolates for mi.
printing all the good n impt notes for mi.
n even buying assessment book for mi.
all of these i nvr ask from him. but he did it.
some pple may find tis v familiar.
n i guess its pretty obvious who im tokin abt.
i juz realli realli wan to say thanks n oso v sorie.
though we didnt realli tok tis yr n not anymore.
i dunno whether u still visit my blog like u always do.
juz wan to thank you for watever u hav done.
im sorie dat i forgot ur birthday tis yr.
but ya. realli didnt mean to.

anyway. sorie frens if i nvr reply ur msg.
coz sometimes my phone cant receive msg or reply.

alrite. a few pics dat we took when we go nat's hse.
of coz deres more. oni upload selected few. LOLx.


tis is wat fiona made for us. we oni rmb to take a pic of it when its almost finished. LOLx.




tis is us! natalie. mi. fiona.




haha. spastic! xD




our star! =p



of course deres more pics. but im not going to upload all. haha.


maybe its better this way 'cause i know you don't care.

oh man. im tired tired n tired. LOLx.
yesterday or mayb shld say tis morning.
went to liangping's hse for overnite mahjong.
its crazy! play all the way from abt 4 to nearly 12.
*faint* by abt 9plus or ever earlier my body oredi aching.
mi n ping manage to catch up a bit while waiting for kimwei.
i tink its realli cool. haha.
but hey man. dun worry abt mi. coz im alrite =)
i realli feel glad dat i hav frens like u pple.
can meet up laugh, tok n everything.
mayb we shld realli meet up during christmas??
its gonna b cool having primary skol gathering again.
LOLx. dun tok abt winning or losing.
zhang liangping will nvr take money from mi!
so in the end i nvr even pay for my 'dinner' yesterday.
thanks ah. i noe i owe u 2 meals. haha.
nvr let it bcome 3 pls.
its been long since i met kimwei.
so im realli happy to c him =)

in the end i reach home at abt 1 n im supposed to meet ger.
but im too tired to move n everything.
so i suggested her to come my hse instead.
the original plan was to study n run.
but running was cancelled coz i cant run w/o slp.
study plan wasnt cancelled but in the end i juz slp =x
wahaha. ok la. not v long wat. 2hours plus?
n so sorie to spoil ger's study plan.
haha. coz she cant seem to study too.
its alright to slack once in a while yeah.
but i will b going to study real soon!
though im still feeling kinda tired. LOLx.
n tml nd to go back to work!
oh man. i kinda dread working now?
aft work tml then going to cele my mum's birthday =)

it's friends who make me see my worth.
it's friends who really care for me.
it's friends who I can really depend on.
THANKS FRIENDS! =D

alrite. i shall post now since im free.
but i dont think it will b a happy post.
in fact i tink it will b quite boring. LOLx.

its all abt working tis week.
have been working at taka from mon to fri.
n today. i broke my record.
working for 11 hours. cool? haha.
the seniors r kinda irritating in the beginning.
but well. aft dat i tink they r ok =)
ok. actually nth much abt work.
its juz busy busy n busy.
n now my legs r realli tired.

i question myself abt being online.
y m i on msn at tis time?
deres oni one simple reason.
well. im not going to say.
i expected something yesterday n i got my disappointment.
u will never believe i cry over it.
u will never know how it feels to come online wif hope.
n in the end. deres nth. forget it.
frens. dun bother asking mi wat happen.
dun bother asking mi whether im ok.
i will juz tell u im fine. so no point asking.

oh man. indo ocip pple r back.
welcome back to singapore! LOLx.
i noe u all hav realli enjoyed the trip.
bon voyage to huimin n jiayan.
huimin is going america wif her bf. 3 weeks!
n jy. i tink going wif her family to malaysia?
not v sure abt dat.
but anyway. i will miss them =)
n simeon is coming back to singapore!

oh ya. thanks yj n jy for toking to mi dat day.
i noe my attitude was quite bad.
n i didnt reallise absorb much bcoz of my mood.
sorie dat i didnt bother to tell the whole story.
coz anyway. deres no story. deres nth to tell.

to nat: haha. ya. i realise aft i post it. but then nvm la huh. u juz added something to the post! haha. n oh ya. thanks for the msg dat day =)

ok. dats all. told u its gonna b a boring post.

oh my. its crazy. i cant take it anymore.
i guess i nd to complain!! dats y im blogging. LOLx.
im not someone who complains a lot.
mayb juz bcoz im tired n dun feel v well?
i was so tired yesterday when i reach home at 12.45am.
wash up n everything then went to bed.
today when i wake up i realise its almost 1pm.
i got a shock man. coz dat means im realli tired.
faster rush to prepare for taka interview.
the worse thing is i got stomach upset.
i dun feel like eating though i feel hungry.
i got no time n i juz rush out of my hse.
finally reach n the interview was long.
a lot of information n realli v strict.
b4 i start work i tink i nd to spend.
for all the attire stuff. cant realli take it.
n i feel weak all over.
dere was another gal having interview wif mi.
n omg. she look like someone whom i nvr tok to anymore.
for a moment i was tinkin whether they r related.
same face. same hair. same eyes. its similar.
i wonder abt her age too. i tink im going to work wif her.
but anyway. juz when i was tinkin abt her.
i saw dat someone whom i nvr tok to on my way home.
LOLx. omg. the world is too small.
n i seriously hope they r not related.
watever, by dat time im oredi dying of thirst.
n i feel like fainting anytime soon.
seriously cant take it.
dats y i chiong all the way home.

f*** those pple outside taka. if i got the energy i will stare at u.

ok. so what happen yesterday. i was out more than 12hours.
afternoon went to meet ger at orchard for lunch.
had random tok n everything.
we dun feel like shopping so end up go swensens eat ice cream.
the tot of spending so much i dun wan to eat my dinner.
haha. but i dun realli hav a choice.
in the evening went to meet my 1st og pple.
its always the few of us.
ziyan charlie zhenhong yongjie fiona lawson.
dionne, junda n sheryl cant b dere.
so the plan was to meet up n oso cele yj's birthday.
went to din tai fung for dinner.
god. i told them we will hav indigestion la.
they juz keep joking, lying n laughing.
so in the end we cant catch chihuahua 8pm show.
sad. i wan to watch la! n now i dunno whether i got the time to.
LOLx. end up watching cape no.7. *faint*
seriously. its not v nice lo. i feel like slping =x
but i manage to survive. n it lasted for 2 hours!
god. we got a shock when we realise its 11.30!
hate it. bcoz its reaching the time of no train no bus.
at 12am we were still at orchard.
deres no more bus n we miss the last train to jurong east.
but luckily. deres still one last train to kranji.
n dat saves our life. LOLx.
if not we will hav to take taxi wif surcharge aft 12am. *faint*
so aft i reach home i get online n i was disappointed.
dun ask mi y im disappointed.
mayb its juz the end of everything.

this is a random post.

nth much to say.
juz wan to say i got no mood to study! LOLx.
i bet many will b happy to c tis. haha.
having arius outing ltr on.
oni 7 of us though. LOLx.
alrite la. we r one small group of great frens! =)
n im dragging them to watch chihuahua! =x
haha. i always drag them to movie.
ok la. they oso nvr realli object to the idea. haha.
if not i will juz go watch alone.
n some pple gonna say dat im emo!
im not alrite. LOLx.

oh ya. forget to say.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DENISE LIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADRIAN WONG.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHENYING.
LOLx. though i tink none of them will c it =x

this few days i have been really happy.
but i'm definitely not ready to give it a try.
not sure about the future. just not now.
i dont want to hav choices.
'cause i dont want to make any decision.

someday, someone will.

here r some pics. in case the blog is too boring. LOLx.

photos of AJ150! my PW group. =)

formal.

crazy.

ok. now is CDP'08.

cute right. LOLx.


our names.

Cheetah! =)

one photo from study session. i oni went for one so far. haha.

fiona the kid! god. shes gonna kill mi. LOLx.


ok. tis is random. aft one of the last few chinese lesson.
SMITS! xinyi fiona natalie joyce siowyun. LOLx.


another random one. aft one of the make-up lecture. LOLx.
we were playing merry go round. nth to do.

ok. nxt will b SL at the zoo!

tis is everybody wif the kids. though i tink some of the 0408 pple are not here.

tis is my group! w/o binghong. LOLx.


tis is mi hasif n seowying. hasif is quite a well-behave boy actually. sometimes like to play. but overall i tink hes ok.

tis is 31/08! LOLx.

travelling to sy's hse for BBQ.

tis is cool. LOLx. the cards we wrote n made by mummy ho!

alrite. will upload the pics at nat's hse soon.

cant stand my mum's nagging. watever!

alrite. i shall post. hav been lazy n kinda busy too. LOLx.
im spending a little bit of my time. coz i shld b studying.
but. im not in the mood to. haha.

so mayb shld tok abt thurs to sun when im working.
actually nth much. i dun realli dread it.
coz its oni 4 days n im used to working alone.
haha. n tis time is not so bad coz got pple to tok to.
n oso bcoz the business was quite ok.
deres always things to do.
anyway was selling men's brief.
i find it quite interesting. LOLx.
i hope i dun sound like im a pervert.
but seriously. i didnt noe deres so many different design n cutting.
now i noe. LOLx. cant imagine guys wearing g-string.
but deres realli pple buying. haha.
n i made a new fren on sunday!
nice making new fren. though im like a dao kia. =)

anyway. sunday was a great day.
i kinda forget all the trouble n laugh throughout the day.
mayb bcoz im tokin to someone who dunno my past.
or mayb bcoz im msging wif someone who is v positive.
dat kinda make mi positive too. LOLx.

yesterday was oso a good day. haha.
had fun wif fiona and nat! =)
fiona cooked some food to nat's hse. LOLx.
ok la. its not bad alrite. but deres always improvement.
n suddenly i tink cooking is fun.
mayb i shld cook someday. haha. when im free.
oh ya. anyway. we found our way to nat's hse!
great accomplishment. LOLx.
n i told fiona. she will nvr get lose when shes wif mi. wahaha.
n she kinda insist dat its bcoz of her! haha.
so at nat's hse we were looking at her wardrobe.
finding combination of clothes dat she can wear for our nxt outing!
LOLx. but she kinda rejected it =( haha.
aft having the food n everything we went to swim!
i shall not elaborate on the swimming part.
coz its nth much la huh. swim for more than an hour lo.
decided to add some stuff in our blog we took pics!
quite a few. but nat is not free to upload tis few days.
soon la huh. will upload it soon. =)

so many frens r going overseas. so sian.
sy oredi in china. cass n joyce oredi in indo.
n today jy juz went batam. LOLx.
its so boring! n when i start working in dec i cant meet them up anymore.
dats oso the reason y i hav to do my work now.
coz i dun tink i got time in dec if im realli working.

im sorie dat i didnt go for sports club's chalet.
i noe its a great time for bonding.
but im too lazy to travel all the way to pasir ris.
n oso bcoz deres a lot of things to consider. not juz abt fun.
alrite. hope u all had fun!
im going my grandma hse today anyway.

haha. jie mei er. how dare u forget my blog url!?!?!
anyway. i wont let u sink wif mi. LOLx.
from now on. my post will b happy happy happy. haha.
but i tink u wont dare to visit since yesterday. haha.
emo elmo's blog scare pple off. =p

sunday. i almost had to miss the mahjong session.
haha. thanks eddie for brightening up my day.
not by singing n tokin crap during the mahjong session.
but by saying ok to playing 3-player mahjong. LOLx.
its fun. meeting up wif old frens.
though its oni like the 3 of us. without kim.
but im glad dat even up till now we r in contact.
n we r good frens =)
at first i was winning like shit. guess my luck was ok?
my mind wasnt working v well n it seems like i forgot how to play it.
haha. but in the end its like no win no lose.
i noe dat will b the ending man. its always liddat.
so we played from 10pm to 7.30am? abt dere la huh.
other than mahjong we played blackjack too.
having breaks in b/w. tired of mahjong sometimes.
well. had mac during the midnight. sure gonna get fat.
in the morning eat mac breakfast.
not much of a choice coz its too early for anithing else.
LOLx. anyway. thanks ping for the breakfast.
do u realli tink i believe dat its FOC? haha. crazy.
i dun realli accept treats from frens. esp guy frens.
haha. but i will treat it as a treat b4 u start working.

right. so today actually supposed to hav study session.
but i was realli not in the mood to go anywhere.
im too lazy =x haha. n oso i hav to go grandma hse.
though i can actually go a few hours of study session.
n at first. yami yoghurt was my motivation to go bishan.
but in the end. i still dun feel like going. haha.
actually intended to stay at home n go grandma hse wif my mum.
end up i was too pissed dat i ask germaine out for lunch n ice cream.
i cant take it anymore! n i almost cried.
its like shit. but well. its over.

of coz. i will hav some thinking session here n dere.
mi tinkin doesnt mean dat im emo.
though most of the time i may end up crying.
but well. my tears juz come out too easily. LOLx.
cant b help sometimes.
mi tinkin is juz a way of solving problem.
coz i dun like to juz put it aside n expect it to b gone.
i nd an ans. i nd to tink thru it n get the ans.
so. i muz tink.
n im still tinkin. though i tink im almost dere.

n tis thurs to sun i will b working at bugis.
temp juz to help n i cant stand not working. LOLx.

was watching 不凡的爱.
n i realli tink the title is meaningful.
if u go tink abt it, it means alot of things.
n i start to wonder. is AIDS realli dat scary?
y everybody juz avoid AIDS victim?
i dun realli get it.
n i wonder whether i will do the same.
though i realli hope im not dat kinda person.
but seriously sometimes. nobody knows until it happens.
sometimes my frens will tell mi they will nvr do dat.
but i always tink dat when things happen it will b different.
who knows.

i always believe dat the one whom u realli love.
is the one u will nvr forget even before ur death.
so always ask urself. who do u wan to c b4 u die.
n who is the one u cant stop worrying abt even when u r on ur deathbed.
i guess dat will b the ans.
but yet again. sometimes u will oni noe the ans when u r in dat situation.
dats y. pple always live in regret by not tinkin b4 it happens.

TO MUMMY HO AND CASUARINE: BOTH OF YOU! PLAYING WITH MY TAGBOARD HUH. I THOUGHT YOU ALL ARE SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING!?!?! anyway. Joyce. don't be too violent. n Casuarine. i know you miss mi! =) LOLx.

to guesswho: i seriously don't know who you are but i know you are my friend. and i don't see why you hav to remain anonymous. i will want to thank you as a friend for saying whatever you have said.

maybe like what Ms Lam once said.
the one you love will never be your life-partner.
if we ever have a chance to meet again, i wish we have a heart to heart talk.
but if we never have the chance to, maybe we should never ever talk again.
sometimes its just too complicated to make a decision.
we will only know it when things happen.
i may be too serious in some stuff, but i never thought that you are not.

alrite. i shall post. LOLx.
my blog readers were asking mi abt my blog.
as in. y i nvr post. haha.
at first i juz dun wan tis blog to b emo elmo.
but aft dat im juz lazy to blog =x haha.

i tink its thursday.
i talked to nat n at first i didnt intend to say wat im tinkin.
but aft dat. everything juz came out naturally.
watever i hav tink of the past few days.
well. i cant deny dat it feels kinda great.
but initially i nvr wan anybody to noe.
nat. dun feel bad for knowing alright. haha.
no nd apologise to mi. coz its nth.
at least i feel betta yeah.
n now i no longer tink as much i guess.

so anyway. i met huimin on fri.
v long nvr meet her n i wan to find jobs.
LOLx. so ask her acc mi lo.
shes realli enjoying her life la.
n went to eat gelare. pepperlunch for dinner.
haha. she has been a nice fren i tink.
sometimes i feel bad coz i nvr treat her as nice.
n she bought mi a rose on dat day.
haha. shes crazy. she juz buy it for fun.
but though its for fun. i still feel happy dat i hav her as my fren.
n we walked from suntect to bugis.
quite a short walk actually.

ok. now come sat! haha.
its a damn fun n tiring day.
we went to zoo for SL wif the kids!
n i will say some of them r realli cute.
some r kinda naughty n mischievous.
but overall. i find it fun n meaningful.
took some pics n will upload it as long as i got it.
haha. n aft SL we had ben&jerry.
n then we had BBQ at sy hse! its cool.
Mr Mok, Mr Chua n Mr Seng were dere.
we were glad dat they came esp. Mr Seng.
because dats the first time he meet the class outside skol.
deres lotsa BBQ food left but we were all damn full.
n during the BBQ we had guitar n singing session.
LOLx. a few of them take turn to play wif guitar while others sing.
n its kinda the first time i heard jon singing.
right. no wonder u joined choir tis yr.
its shocking. but u can realli sing. not bad.
haha. so we had fun yesterday. realli.
sorie abt the prob when settling the money issue.
thank goodness dat its over n settled.
we made cards for the 4 pple who got retest n 1 dat retain.
i tink they will all like the cards?
a relatively big card indeed. all thanks to mummy ho.
haha. alrite. JOYCE HO then.
by the time i reach home i was tired n smelly.
but i watch one tree hill until 4.30 am!
cool rit. thanks. LOLx. it muz b crazy.
but i would say its quite nice la huh.
n im juz at the beginning. haha.

so today. i was looking forward to the overnite mahjong session.
but. i guess im gonna face the disappointment soon.
haha. kim suddenly got fever n might not make it.
sad. n eddie wont wan to play 3players mahjong.
alrite. im juz not fated to touch tiles tis yr. LOLx.
or mayb its juz u dat stop mi from playing. i will always rmb.
well. i guess we hav to miss it today though i hope we wont hav to.
its gonna b boring today once again!
mayb i shld juz do some work or read a book instead. haha.

to hz: alright. i dun tink i shld put ur full name here. its weird. LOLx. n its the first time u r on my blog =x anyway. i juz wan to say dat im glad dat u r always dere. not all the time but most of the time. so i juz wanna say thanks. =) it makes mi feel betta sometimes. realli.

because it will never happen again.
you are gone. now and forever.
though deep inside me, theres still a little bit of hope.
that bit shouldn't even be there.
maybe it's just not meant to be.
no matter how hard i try, it needs two hands to clap.
nothing will ever happen with me alone.

yesterday went to raffles city wif jaryl n fiona.
accompany them to collect some sponsor stuff.
i totally hav no intention to realli go out.
its juz dat. i guess i nd a place to sit down tink n tok.
so aft collecting the stuff mi n fiona went to mac.
we ate ice cream. something dat can always brighten up her day.
we were sitting n chatting dere.
yes. jaryl too. gals can tok for hours.
as long as we hav the time.
n i guess we spend more than one hour tokin.
its nvr ending. girls talk.
so on the way home i decided to give myself more time.
to sit down n tink.
tis few days. i guess i realli tink a lot. a lot.

today had CCA. played captains ball for like more than an hour.
it was damn fun. sweat like mad.
juz like wat cass say. our cca is like.
gather n hav fun!
n i still dunno whether im going to the chalet.

tis sat 3108 having BBQ at sy hse.
n on sunday. i dunno whether to play overnite mahjong.
i realli realli wan to play mahjong.
but deres a lot to tink abt if i wan to stay over.
n rit now. i realli realli wan to work.
bcoz i hate staying at home doing nth except work.
n i will rather earn money than to go out n spend it.

aft cca mi n cass went to bishan n had my favourite!
alright. though its my fave, im still afraid dat i will get sick.
i tink i might get flu or fever anytime soon.
n we talked for v long. at least 2 hours i tink.
i suggested eating yami yoghurt. its damn nice.
its yummy. LOLx.
though its a short journey going home.
i will nvr forget to tink.

sometimes mayb life is realli too tiring.
if i were to tink every single day. every single min.

i wan to buy the DMK platform!

yes. nobody will ever believe it.
because its more than two years already.
i can't believe myself too.
but i seriously do not know what's the reason.
i think that this is like a blade.
the longer you hold it the more it hurts.
until finally you will feel numb.
and you will no longer feel anything.
i don't know whether i'm at the numb stage.
for a period of time i thought i am.
but recently i just realise it still hurt somehow.
and i don't want to feel the sharpness of the blade anymore.
i know i should let it go before it hurts even more.

believe me when i say its not going to happen.

i just hope that you know how much this friendship matters to me.
thanks for letting me know that our friendship is never gone.
of course. i will be happy for you.
no matter what. i will always be there.
because. i'm your friend. =)

if i'm part of your life, i will gladly face every setbacks and share every joy with you.
but sadly, i'm not.
那是过去,不是未来.

im gonna post! im gonna post!
LOLx. coz today is the last day for PW!
woohoo. finally its over!
the journey has come to an end. =)

have to say sorie to jj's group.
sorie for the technical error.
LOLx. i didnt noe the batt is abt to die.
hope dat doesnt affect anithing yeah.

overall. i tink the presentation was quite okay.
well. we hav all done our best n everything.
all we can do now is to wait for the results.

AJ150! =)
i will put up our pics soon!
i believe everyone in our group learn something from each other.
n we noe dat encouragement within the group is impt.
now dat it has come to an end.
though we r no longer as a group now.
but we will still b v good frens yeah.
i noe throughout tis journey deres some unhappiness n everything.
its juz parts n parcel of it la huh.
everybody has their own attitude.
n i cant deny dat i do hav it as well.
sometimes it can b realli irritating.
thanks for bearing wif it.
but i oso cant deny dat tis PW journey has bring ur closer.
w/o tis journey. i dont tink i will b close to u pple.
i mean. coz we dun hav the chance to communicate?
Lavi. Cas. Kelvin. Victor.
n oso. we dun hav to eat mac breakfast anymore! LOLx.
ok. enough of all tis.
now. Cas n Victor. pls study real hard for ur retest.
we look forward to c u pple in 31/08 nxt yr.
same for tsewei n nella.
for shih yu. cheer up man!
of coz we may not truly understand how u feel.
but we will nvr forget u being part of 31/08.
so if we got any outing. pls b dere!
all the best for everything. =)
(i doubt shih yu will c tis anyway)

alright. deres something i muz post here abt yesterday.
i muz thank everybody who were dere yesterday.
lavi. joyce. nella. jon. shihyu. binghong.
i lost my wallet yesterday once again.
but i got it back once again.
i was unlucky. yet lucky. contradicting?
yes. its the same wallet.
n it happened twice tis yr.
its my lucky wallet.
so now i shall to abt wat happen yesterday.
its not the whole story. coz its way too long.
we went shih yu hse for OP practice.
it was somewhere at bukit batok or choa chu kang.
so we decided to hav lunch tgt n pool aft dat at CSC.
when we reach deres no table for us.
so we decided to go arcade first n booked 2 tables.
went to the arcade n played. dats the last time i saw my wallet.
aft dat we went back to play pool for 2 hours.
so when its time to go i realise my wallet is gone.
i got a shock but i tried to stay calm.
lavi ask mi where i put it n i recall.
i told her i tink its at the arcade. n she faster run to dat place.
n i run aft her. the others tot we were playing =.=
then aft dat they realise i lost my wallet.
we spent some time looking for it. walking ard.
n i even reported to the office.
we were at the arcade n we oni c 2 little malay kids.
aft reporting n everything we realise deres nth else we can do.
so we decided to juz go home.
we were waiting for the lift then suddenly bing n jon disappear.
n we tot they juz wanted to take stairs.
we tok the lift and waited for them.
then we saw the 2 kids walking out. n bing walking out wif them.
we were still wondering wat they were doing.
until bing said they suspect they stole my wallet.
coz they got one big wallet in their pocket.
n we decided to go aft them to ask for the truth.
we followed them n saw dat 2 of them stop halfway.
i cant c wat they were doing so i keep asking the gals.
but from far we cant c anithing.
b4 dat we were all hesitating whether to ask them.
coz its like. wat if they didnt steal?
but shih yu said the most we apologise if we r realli wrong.
at least deres a chance.
so he walk all the way in front.
aft we all realise dat its a wallet in their hand.
shih yu went to snatch the wallet from the 2 kids.
n we all run towards them.
its my wallet. n at first deres no money inside.
n the 2 kids deny dat they took the money.
even lied dat they wanted to return.
watever they say its like a lie.
one of them panic n aft dat started crying.
the other one doesnt seem repentful at all.
omg la. he did something wrong but hes like not guilty at all.
aft we threaten to call the police or their parents.
they finally admit.
n bcoz i use my money n folded into double heart.
they unfold the note. but tis obvious dat its mine.
they return mi the money n everything.
but. i tink. i lost at least 20bucks.
n i oni realise it when i tink thru at home.
we lectured them abt wat they hav done.
but i guess we did something wrong by letting them go.
mayb we shld at least call their parents.
well. regarding how we argue n lecture dont hav to talk abt it in detail.
but im lucky to get back my wallet aft losing it for 2 hours.
the 2 malay primary skol kid almost throw it into the drain.
i regret not scolding them at all.
im partly at fault too. but losing my own stuff.
yup. i will take v good care of it from now on.

oh ya. today aft OP had pepperlunch!
its quite nice! =p

omg. life has been terrible these days.
sometimes i feel dat i cant take it anymore.
i dunno wat happen to mi.
but i tink i got PMS. terrible PMS indeed.
my attitude is like shit tis few days.
n i cant help but to scold pple =x
dats bad. its terribly bad.
n i cant stand it.

i guess im kinda stress tis few days too.
mind bursting over I&R. coz i got no GI.
i cant tink. so everything is like so screwed.
n i tink im gonna suffer emotional breakdown soon.
its not dat i wan to describe how pathetic i m rit now.
in fact. i dun like tis description of mi.
deres ups n downs in life.
its juz whether u wan to make known to pple.
n im juz being opened abt it.
so dun say dat im emo!
its juz dat i dun mind sharing.

oh. n my phone bill is gonna burst tis month.
im so damn dead.

tokin abt yesterday. had OP in the morning as usual.
aft dat had study session. maths session in fact.
juz hope whoever is taking retest realli do their best.
dun regret when u fail it once more n hav to retain.
u pple r given a chance. so make full use of it.
it was held at Nella's hse.
aft dat went chomp chomp to eat.
the food dere is not super nice. its juz food.
but the ambience dere n everything.
so overall its enjoyable. =)

today. met fiona n went my grandma hse.
we were doing I&R n planning games for sat's SL.
aft the discussion went to swim.
sadly we oni swam for an hour.
coz it starts raining.
the worse thing is it stop aft we bathe.
its damn shit. wanted to swim a bit longer.
nvm. we can swim some other day.
n i come to a conclusion dat i shld visit my grandma more often.
coz shes like quite lonely at home with the maid.

eddie saw mi at the bus stop i met fiona once again.
alright. actually i tink i did c him.
coz i saw tis presby guy like quite familiar.
but dont realli look like anyone i noe.
i check the bus number dat he alight from.
its 853. at dat time realli did tink its him.
but doesnt look like him. so i didnt say anithing.
he oso nvr say anithing!
until i reach home then he tok to mi on msn.
say he saw mi again n i cant recognise him.
well. i guess he realli change a lot.

im sorry that my feelings control my actions.
i dont think i will ever talk to you again.

i was so damn pissed today.
come on. i waited for my PW group members for 1hour.
supposed to meet at 9.45.
i was on time.
n 9.45 victor msg mi n say he will oni reach at 10.30.
alright. at abt 9.50 i still didnt c the other 3.
i msg them n oni kelvin replied mi.
n guess wat. he juz left his hse n will oni reach at 11.30!
lavi n cas nvr reply mi at all. so i called them.
both of them didnt ans my call.
n at 10am. they msged mi n say they juz wake up!
i was so damn freaking pissed la.
if tis is gonna happen all the time we shld juz die.
come on la. its oredi the last week of OP!


ok. now i shall tok abt happier stuff.
abt my niece! shes cute. LOLx.
her name is aomi yamazaki.
jap character is 山﨑蒼水.
its so damn different rit.
n my sis tell mi something she find v funny but she tink is true.
study in english is written as 勉强 in jap character. LOLx.
anyway. tis is pic of my niece! =)


sometimes i dun feel like sharing things wif frens.
bcoz i feel dat he/she doesnt realli care much.
dere listening. but not dere to help u.
sometimes not even listening.
i dunno. sometimes i will feel dat way.
but i will juz tell myself to depend on myself.

i dunno why lao da will wan to keep things to herself.
no matter how much we ask. she wont say.
mayb she feel the same way as i do?
but i seriously hope. at least share it.
if not. dun let us noe u r sad.
coz i tink its quite torturing.
to c u sad. yet not noe anithing.
the worse thing is u dun say even when we ask.

i may just give up on this friendship.
coz i got a feeling i cant salvage it.
how should i even start a conversation?
will you even tell me anithing?
through your pm. i guess i noe wats happening.
but even if i tok to u, will u tell mi?
but whether u tell mi or not.
i guess i will juz b sad.

alright alright. i shall post now.
LOLx. hav been wanting to post.
but im too lazy =x
so many fun things to mention! LOLx.
but i guess now its realli time to focus on OP.
I&R. and holiday homework.
i hav to finish it in nov.
so dat i can work in dec =)

ok. on 29oct i forget to mention.
its a good day! haha.
dats all im gonna say.

on 30th nov. man. its chinese A level.
n i hav nvr done such s sucky paper.
almost everyone agrees dat its a difficult paper.
i dunno. i juz dun c the hope of getting A anymore.
tinkin of having re-exam nxt yr. sian.
i nvr wan re-exam for chinese la.
nvr expect dat to happen too.
but well. its gonna happen tis time round.
alright. shall b optimistic. hope for dat A!
anyway. its over oredi.
but im pretty sure my oral will b merit.
n its sucks. coz i nvr wan to get merit too.
watever dat has not been happening.
its gonna happen. LOLx.

so aft chinese exam. we hav all decided to enjot ourselves.
i tink my class 31/08 always go for enjoyment. haha.
cas got the chance to take retest. but shih yu. not sure abt dat.
n now our class got 4 pple taking retest. we will help them!
grab the chance given to u. esp for cas.
u r realli damn lucky la.
alright. anyway so on thursday.
some of them went lan first n some of us went home to change.
LOLx. then aft dat i meet them for pool!
n it sucks. coz i gave them 4 to 5 free balls.
arghhh. i was like almost screaming down dere.
well. 3o oct. its not a good dat to play pool. LOLx.
we played for abt 3 hours n decided to go vivo for dinner n slack!
haha. its kinda fun n enjoyable seriously.
we went figs n olive for dinner.
but. its not seriously v nice though. kinda disappointing.
aft dinner we went to 3rd floor the amphitheatre dere.
n we were sitting on the grass. tinkin its fun.
but its damn sharp n pricky! LOLx.
when i lie down the immediate reaction is jump up.
haha. b4 my back got any holes =x
then at abt 10pm. they start to water the grass.
some of them run off. some of us tot it was quite cool.
tinkin dat it will juz b some watever sprinkle on u.
well. it looks realli cool.
haha. but we were wrong! its like a splash la.
so some of us get a bit wet. juz a bit la.
coz manage to run away. haha.
n dat means dat. we shld go home. n we did.
slacking n having fun outside tgt. is realli cool.

so now move on to yesterday. LOLx.
morning had PW meeting.
aft dat meet cass clement n soph for lunch n pizza hut.
then jon and cinny join us.
i hav nvr realli like pizza hut.
n yesterday. i realli tink its not v nice.
except for the ice cream =x haha.
carrying the laptop ard is super crazy. LOLx.
aft dat we got nth to do.
n we decided to watch a movie at psgv.
n we feel so cheated. we shld hav gone cathay.
coz its 10bucks for a ticket.
n we r watching some random movie.
bcoz we got nth betta to do. haha.
n we watch rec. its not nice!
we were wondering y we pay 10bucks to watch tis show.
throughout the show. mi n soph were screaming n laughing at the same time.
its not scary. its juz damn disgusting. we laugh bcoz we keep screaming.
its so bloody n everything. it sucks. the show is totally lame.
n aft dat we went to eat again. haha. food court la.
coz we hav been spending money like shit tis few days.
alright. i hav to stop spending tis few days.
but im gonna do online shopping! coz i dun feel like going out =x
haha. at least im spending my own money rit.
shall c la huh.

anyway. i was so damn pissed yesterday.
i tot u finally grow up n everything.
n wanted to tok to mi as a fren.
but well. im wrong.
whether its u or ur fren who feel like playing.
those pple r juz too childish.
i so damn feel like slapping u pple.
n i hope i nvr wan to c u again.
i was still so nice down dere.
treating u like my fren. u suck man.
u pple r juz sick.

when things liddat happen. i juz wish u were here.

i dunno whether i shld start tokin to u first.
yes. its a misundnerstanding.
but u dont seem to care to mi.
n yes. no doubt dat i will tink y m i the one doing it.
y didnt u tok to mi first?

ok. i shall post now. n then study chinese ltr!
LOLx. today is another tiring n boring day.
dun feel like doing anithing. juz feel like slacking.

early in the morning go yck swim. LOLx.
ok. its like a failure for mi. as usual =x
haha. but then. ok la. slight improvement.
i will continue to jiayou de!
forget to mention dat i went wif fiona. LOLx.
sorie. coz i tink i stop u from enjoying ur swim!
mayb thurs aft chinese A level go swim again.
but im burnt once again! worse than ever.
LOLx. my face. my arm. my shoulder. my back!
i dunno how im gonna survive man. haha.
so aft swimming. went lan lo.
once again. i oni play CS!
n when i reach they r playing CS oredi. haha.
ok. i noe i hav to try loving dota.
but. its not easy to master it u noe. LOLx.
alright. i will try my best =)
ok. muz rmb to get my kayaking form n progress report signed!

i tink i nvr mention tis in my previous post.
i hope the 3 of them. Nella Victor n TseWei.
will work v hard for tis yr end retest n get promoted!
abt Cas n Shihyu leaving. wat can i say.
but i cried dat day! coz the feeling of separation. hais.
31/08 will nvr b complete anymore.

welcome my niece to the world today! LOLx.
cant c her anyway. shes at taipei. 27 oct.
not bad la huh. same date as mi! though different month.
i was telling my sis its damn weird.
coz i cant imagine myself having jap niece. LOLx.
i bet the nxt time she come to spore she wont noe who i m la.
dats quite sad yeah. haha.

juz like wat nat say.
juz like wat i hav always tink.
i may be insignificant to u.
but significant to others.
the sad thing is. u r significant to mi.

fish leong's song is nice. LOLx.
while waiting for fiona i tried listening to the song's lyrics.
n its meaningful. =)
tis is part of the chorus n the ending part.

梁静如-我们就到这

对的错的做了选择
故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻
要多久才能够褪色
爱的恨的做了选择
我们就到这
就让我曾爱过的记忆深刻
其他的(才能够褪色)
就此放手微笑得带过

ok. since im so so bored right now.
LOLx. let mi juz post abt some lame stuff.
firstly. i hav to say something.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAVI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINLING!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him. haha.

ok. im very very tired now.
i tink im weak ttm now. LOLx.
anyway. ttm means to the max.
taught by mummy ho =x LOLx.
the whole day im behaving like a pig. haha.
wake up play eat study a bit of chinese.
the last thing to do of coz is slp la! LOLx.
wake up meet ger go run.
run from my hse dere to khatib.
piang. at first steady. then end up cant take it oredi.
walk home from khatib. reaching home then run again.
then climb stairs. 8 storey to my hse. haha.
by the time. my legs r oredi damn weak.
weak ttm la. sian. LOLx.
tis means i nd more training.
too long nvr run liao la.
then aft running of coz feel like eating rit.
go northpoint. buy all the rubbish to eat.
haha. totally like a pig.
juz dat pig wont like running i guess.
n now im tired. dunno wat to do!
its boring staying at home.

then fiona say tml either swim or lan.
anithing la huh. as long as not at home. haha.
staying at home is boring ttm!
i noe i shld b studying.
but seriously. not in the mood at all. LOLx.
ok. i guess dats it for today.
its too boring until i got nth to say! haha.

everyday is the same.
so does tomorrow.
i shouldnt be afraid.
though i'm gonna be home alone.
i will be okay.
'cause i can't run away forever.

haha. i finally got a bit of time to post!
omg. im so happy. happy coz i hav the time. LOLx.
i got so much to say la. it accummulates.
but somehow its impossible to say everything right now.
coz some oredi bcome the past.

finish WR oredi! the feeling is shiok. LOLx.
finally my OP is much betta.
but can improve a lot more.
n dats wat im going to do.
overall group effectiveness can definitely improve.
i dunno whether my group members will c tis.
but i will tell all of them tis sooner or ltr.
now its time to give encourgament more than nth else.
we shldnt demoralise any fellow members nor look down.
we should try v hard to help each other.
progressing as a whole group.
n dats y we nd to all work hard together.
whether its oni for one or two person or the whole group.
dats the teamwork we nd to hav.
n once again. i hav to remind everyone the importance of responsibility.
responsibility in life. dats v impt.
JIAYOU everyone! =)

though i believe everyone tink dat PW is shit.
juz like wat i used to believe.
part of mi still feel so. sorie mr mok.
but. wat u hav said today realli struck mi.
coz i believe we all learn from tis PW journey.
how to deal wif pple n how to b responsible.
how to work wif pple n how to improve urself.
n of coz. learning abt the project dat we r doing.
tink abt it. do u noe abt the project u r doing b4 u start the journey?
i believe the ans is no.
wat im trying to say is.
we do noe abt it in the past.
but issit as much as wat we noe now? definitely not.
n PW allows us to tink in different perspectives n scales.
its like critical tinkin. essential in our life.
yes. the journey is tough n everything.
but we can nvr deny the fact dat it teach us something somehow.

soon. we will hav A Level chinese.
n soon aft dat. OP. the end of PW journey.
i realli wan dat day to come.
but to tink of it, its scary.

i guess i nd to work a little harder for my future.
to get into the faculty i wan to.
its not easy. at least 3 or 4 As.
but. i will try my best.

bcoz i hav to work during the holidays.
im going to sacrifice a lot of things.
n no matter how busy i m.
i hav to take good care of my dog.
snowy. i will try my best.

yes. i msged him.
coz i cant help but to worry for him.
i nvr wan to c him flunk his exams.
the day is reaching soon.
but i dont even noe whether i will wish him.

im sorie nat. n fiona. LOLx. i haven exactly move on.
i dunno whether i will.
though i noe dats wat im supposed to do.
ok. dont worry abt mi.
coz even if i stuck dere forever i will still b happy. haha.

once again, i have to emphasise dat i hate liars.
i seriously hope you didnt lie to me.
but wat if u did? deres nth i can do.
it juz shows how insignificant i m to u.
i realli tot we were close fren.
but ur actions tell mi otherwise.
mayb like wat ger say.
its all juz wat i tink. n u dun feel the same way.
but i guess the thing dat affect mi the most.
is u lied and refuse to tell mi a single thing.
so wats the point of showing mi attitude?
im not going to force u if u dun wan to say.
i ask. bcoz dats wat i wan to noe.
but u hav every right to not answering.
the thing is. nvr lie to mi. coz i hate it.
im disappointed. im affected.
not bcoz of the truth dat i found out.
but bcoz i didnt noe dats wat our friendship is all abt.
coz to mi. the thing dat matters to mi.
is the many years of friendship dat we shared.
n i guess im wrong to tink dat its strong enough.
whether its a truth its still a mystery.
u r the oni one with the ans.
n the sad thing is. we r not dat close aft all.
dats wat i hav realise.
but i guess i hav no right to noe the truth anyway.

just like wat i hav told fiona.
i will always b in ur life.
but u will nvr notice mi.
but wat i care now. is realli the friendship.

moved on? i realli don't know.

yeah man. today is friday! LOLx.
finally can relax a bit. but still.
the journey of PW cant seem to hav a pause.
now everyday is about PW.
and my OP rehearsal. haha. it sucks.
dun remind mi of dat but i will work v hard.
its less than a month to the end!
lets just JIAYOU all the way ba.



the day is getting nearer.
but i seriously dunno wat i shld do.


i finally saw it with my own eyes today.
n thats when i realise watever i tink is not true.
wat i see is true.
im disappointed. but dats juz the fact.

so sorie cass! cant go out wif u all today.
bcoz of PW, PW n PW. boring.
tml morning gonna hav PW meeting oredi.

i always believe that one shld tink of the pple ard them before doing anithing.
wats the point of doing something and in the end cause trouble to pple.
pointless.

of all pple. i didnt ever tink dat its her.
its so unpredictable.
anybody seem possible.
although its sad dat we no longer tok.
but i believe its better coz i hav to get u out of mi.
glad dat u hav found someone u love.
i juz dun wan to care abt someone who dun care abt mi.

oh man. its friday! haha.
today we had farewell assembly for the J2s.
n i guess many schools hav their graduation ceremony too.
the feeling of separation again. 离别. LOLx.
its sad la. though not super close wif the seniors oso.
oni got some which are quite close. esp cheetah cheerleading.
hopefully we will meet up some time soon? not sure too.

anyway. the day is finally over.
thursday is the day when everyone noe whether they live or die.
haha. no la. not so scary.
but seriously. everyone is afraid of retaining.
its true dat its not toally a waste to spend another yr to get the concept right.
n succeed in the future.
but the feeling of retaining n the feeling of not being wif ur fren nxt yr.
its definitely terrible.
as far as we wan the whole class to promote tgt.
sometimes it doesnt seem possible.
now dat all of us hav got back our results.
some pple r sad some r happy. but most r not happy.
even if u r happy wif ur own results u r sad to c pple cry.
u will b sad to c pple worrying abt retaining.
n of coz worry for them as well.
n all shih-yu say is. its nice to meet u pple.
i seriously hope everyone will promote n we will stay tgt as a class.
whoever it is. we dun wan to leave anyone behind.
pray hard dat they will b given a 2nd chance.

for mi. i was realli disappointed wif most of my results.
i would say dat i realli did improve from mid years.
but it has not reach my expectation.
maths is a B again. sian. percentage pass is abt 58%.
i noe i shld b glad la. coz i noe i cant get A.
n b4 thurs i was praying dat i will get a B.
coz i tink i will cry if i get a C.
nvr in my life i did so badly for maths la.
so although B is good enough i still hope one day i can get my A.
bcoz its maths.
bio is a B again. LOLx. %AB is abt 60%.
its hard to imagine coz i always fail bio in sec skol.
but i noe i can do a lot betta.
i dun tink its v difficult. getting A is not difficult.
but for bio. im kinda contented dat its a B la.
econs. im kinda glad dat at least i pass.
but i realli do not noe whether dats all i can get.
i got an E. %pass is oni abt 33%. but i tink got moderation.
i will continue to work hard for it.
chem is totally a disappointment. im so sorie Mrs Wong.
she said the same thing as wat she told mi during mid years.
xinyi. since the beginning of the year u hav been underperforming.
i noe u got the potential but dunno y u nvr do well.
mayb u nd more practice.
i did practice tis time ah! n i dun tink i dunno my concept lo.
but i believe i can. i believe i can do well for chem.
tis time oni got a D. realli disappointing.
GP. i finally improve in my essay. by a bit oni la.
but. my compre totally pull mi down. my god.
i dunno wat to say. all i can say is i will work harder.
most of us did worse than our mid years.
chinese is the oni subject im quite happy abt. LOLx.
juz as wat i hav tot. my essay is totally crap.
i write halfway i dunno wat i writing oredi.
dats y the front part is good but the middle part is crap.
luckily in the end still got my A.
n im v happy wif my paper 2.
though the first compre did quite badly.
but overall i did a lot betta than my mid years.
so overall i got ABBDEE. no C again.
i tink its quite ugly lei. wif 2Es. LOLx.
nvm. i will work harder nxt time. JIAYOU! =)

since we all get back our results le.
i tink we shldnt b sad over whats oredi over.
but focus on wats in front of us n our future.
like PW. boring. LOLx.
hav been doing PW n PW n PW. everyday. *faint*

but dat day still went to LAN wif the class.
once again. class means the few pple.
its always the same pple going out la. LOLx.
spending so much on playing. bankrupt oredi.
i like to play CS seriously. i dun like dota! =x
haha. coz i dunno how to play.
thanks jj n jaryl for teaching mi dat day.
improve my skill for CS n at least i attempted dota.
but i dunno how to kill! totally suck at it.
we shall c how nxt time.

i dont know how im feeling right now.
sad? happy? neutral?
but seriously. i didnt lie when i say im perfectly fine.
im feeling quite neutral.
perhaps bcoz things hav never change? its still the same.

im glad that u hav found ur motivation.
at least u wont b the way u r anymore.
though i hav been lecturing u the whole day.
i noe her words mean much more to u than mine.
well. i tink i shld b happy for u.
coz i realli hope u wont b the same anymore.
whoever dat change u.
whether its dat girl or u urself. i will still b happy.

finding someone u love is good.
so im realli glad to c u happy. =)

i finally found someone more emo than mi.
WONG SIOWYUN! LOLx.

PHOTOS! =p

ok. im going to post photos dat i didnt post like super long ago. not gonna post super long ago one. shall post from going back zhss on teachers' day celebration. =)

they hav tis board, dedicating to the teachers. so we reach dere n start writing all over the board. c how much we miss zhss. n how much we love our class. 4e4'07!





mainly done by pakmeng n sophia. LOLx.

aft dat we went to glasshosue fish n co. took some pics.



LOVES!

ok. now back to 31/08! LOLx. we celebrated our class birthday dat day. mr n mrs mok was dere too!


see what stupid jaryl n jon r doing. LOLx.

mi n clar. =)

mi n sy. =)

lastly. dat day SMITS went out! juz b4 we meet the class for dinner. aft promos. LOLx. n we decided to take neos. yeah. shall show some of them n not all ba.





the end!

its weekends! n im gonna stay at home.
LOLx. bcoz. hav been going out on weekdays.
its damn weird rit. haha.
but anyway. had great fun tis whole week.
since im so free now shall tok a little abt it.

wednesday. had OP practice in the morning.
aft dat went to meet the class again. LOLx.
n they decided to go LAN. i didnt play much.
coz i tink playing w/o understanding is no point.
so i decided to juz watch n learn.
n i tink. dota is realli not easy.
when u juz started its difficult to master it.
it realli takes time.
mr chua. u dun hav to apologise to mi!
wat u hav said is true. juz dat its 2 years ago. LOLx.

thursday. my god. its our OP day.
we r supposed to practice our OP in front of the class.
ok la. its juz in front of classmate. so still ok.
but. haha. i tink i screw it.
n the whole group didnt do v well oso.
nvm! we can continue to jiayou! =)
tis few days nvr realli do anithing abt PW la.
was like slacking throughout. LOLx.
but nono. we will start to work on it soon!
it will b over in 1 month's time.
we need to tink far to hav a happier life. LOLx.
bcoz of OP i slept at 3am in the morning. piang.
aft the OP which ends at abt 1.
i actually wanted to go home n slp. haha.
but aft dat i realise slping is a v boring thing to do.
n my class 31/08! juz like to go out n hav fun.
haha. end up we go AMK hub to eat lunch.
eat fish n co. LOLx. my god. like enjoying our life.
aft dat we went jaryl's hse to play rock band!
aft playing a while i fell aslp at his hse. LOlx.
was so tired la can. n the guys were practicing for their 5 stars.
nth to do then slp lo. haha.
but had great fun realli.
i tink aft promo we keep tinkin of slacking n having fun la.
which can b good n bad lo.
everyday aft skol we will juz start tokin abt where to go.
w/o prior planning. coz we juz dun feel like going home. LOLx.
so i shld say we go out as a class. its always the usual pple.
can we say dat we r like a 'clique'?
when going out its always us. but its more than 10 of us la.
but we had great fun all the time.
its bcoz of their presence dat i feel i can live happily w/o him.
dats y im glad dat i hav them. =)
come to tink of it. since im so free i shall write friendship card!

now can tok abt yesterday. was realli a fun n tiring day.
in the morning we did sandcastle building!
its like our post promo activity.
its v fun n realli learn a lot. patience. perserverence.
my god. its realli not as easy as wat we tink la.
to do a realli good one hav to put in lotsa effort.
im waiting for the pics on wat we hav built.
we didnt build a castle. we build other things.
i shall tok abt it oni aft i get the pics. haha.
but bcoz of dat. i got sunburn!
not oni mi la. like everybody? LOLx.
n aft dat its supposed to a class outing at ECP.
but in the end. as usual. its the few of us again.
its v disappointing. but wat can we do?
luckily. we still had fun though we dun hav the whole class.
we went cycling n inline skating. LOLx.
i chose to skate. bcoz v long nvr skate oredi.
i dun wan to forget everything the nxt time i skate.
but. i tink i kinda suck at it. n i did forget some of the things.
n i fell once! w/o realising though.
as in. i juz turn to look at aj pple n fell.
kinda bad i feel. coz its a bit pain. LOLx.
but its ok! we had fun. mi nat n clar were skating!
aft dat some of them went home left 10 of us.
n we went to LAN. LOLx. played CS.
kinda shiok. we oni play like 2 hours n it passed realli fast.
haha. juz like wat clar say. our class is realli cool.
we can even go LAN tgt. even the gals r playing.
yesterday was 5 gals n 5 guys. haha.
dota. i tink dat needs a bit more time to learn.
so nxt time c how la huh. LOLx.
like wat nat says. we go out as a class more than we go out as a clique.
as in. SMITS. the 5 of us. its a bit weird la.
coz i tink most pple used to go out wif a small group of pple?
instead of 10 over pple most of the time. haha.
but its realli fun. =)
31/08 rocks to the max! i tink we love our class a lot.
sorie joyce. i cant eat dinner wif u all yesterday.
hav to rush home la. sometimes got no choice.
hope u all had great fun! =p

n today im gonna stay at home. mayb tml oso.
haha. i finish hana yori dango today!
n now i feel kinda bored. dunno wat to watch.
mayb gossip girls? mayb sy will recommend other jap show oso.
haha. nvm. i shall wait.
i noe i shld go finish my twilight. i will do dat ltr!
monday we gonna hav another volleyball session! yes. haha.

thanks jaryl. dat conversation is quite random.
though u didnt exactly ans dat chim question.
but we u hav said struck mi.
yes. u r right. erase dat hope.
but mayb deres no hope in mi.
juz dat i wish n wan dat to happen. dumb mi as usual.
but no. things gonna change. it wont b the same.
i will no longer b the same.
i will get both of them out of my mind. =)

luckily its all over.
i manage to calm myself down n now i feel much betta.
n dats the reason y deres nth abt PW.
if not. #$%&@#$. yeah.

yesterday went to play volleyball at bishan ACTIVE.
mi n fiona hav been trying hard. realli.
n we will continue to jiayou!
jarly too! u betta not run away.
u r supposed to coach us!
n now my left hand is realli weak.
if u pple do not noe.
i write wif my right hand but play wif my left hand.
bcoz im actually a left-hander.
aft dat went into cat high.
fiona is v proud of it =x
anyway. we played in the rain n had fun.

i realise the reason im living is for my frens.
bcoz i wan to b dere for them.
my greatest hope now is to hav the trust of pple.
listen n understand them when they nd mi.
always b dere.
trust. the thing dat keeps mi going.

maybe you are right.
we will never forget. but it has become a past.
i dont know what makes it a past.
should i be glad that it once happened?
or should i be sad 'cause it should not happen in the first place?
i dont even know whether i can treat you as my friend.
i should move on. i can do it right.
我们之间剩下的只有回忆。

i dont know whether i should ask.
but so what if i know who the person is.
as long as i know it wont be me.

brought my dog to the vet dat day.
n it realli cost a bomb.
i realli shld work so dat i wont feel bad asking my parents to pay for it.
n 2 weeks ltr i hav to bring him back to the vet.
now every morning n nite i hav to wash his leg n everything.
so i guess. on normal skol days i nd to wake up at 5.30?
i tink abt dere ba. to wash his legs.

i believe problems make one grow.
n as one grow he has more responsibility in life.

yesterday went shopping wif ger.
bought a high waist skirt. LOLx.
ok. it hurts to spend money.
but i dun do dat all the time.

dat day SMITS went out n we took neos!
LOLx. coz we juz noe each other tis year.
nvr had chance to take any neo. so yeah.
i scan all of them but im so lazy to upload =x

when u said no offense i realli feel offended.

u will b out of my heart coz i noe u dun care.

WOOHOO! haha. exams' finally over.
how can i not post today!?!?!
i nvr post for quite some time oredi.
sorie abt dat.
but the worse thing dat can happen to mi tis period of time is.
im sick during promos! god.
fever dat goes off n back again. sucks to the max.
imagine taking exams when u r having fever!
n im coughing like shit. non-stop la. hais.
n ya. now dat exams' over. my fever is gone.
BUT. my cough is still dere. *faint*
nvm. at least now can relax a bit =)
sorie to the pple whom my cough disturbed during the exam.
i tink i wun fail any paper tis time?
coz i realli did studied =)
i wont say i will do well la. but i tink the most fail one paper ba.
seriously hope so. LOLx.

thanks yongjie for the crap the last few days =x
haha. coz i hav been tinkin dat i will die.
as in. i tink i will fail my promos la.
coz i cant study n aft eating medicine feel like slping oredi.
then i cant tink. in my mind deres oni crap.
damn depress dat few days seriously.
so hav to thank him for making mi laugh.
n thank all my frens for their care. =)
thanks Mr Mok for finding classroom for mi jj n bh.
LOLx. we r all sick n having fever.
n our exams venue all in aircon room.
so we had our exams in a separate classroom.
sorie for troubling u but realli thank u for wat u hav done for us. =)
thanks my mum for taking care of mi.
buying medicine. trying all ways to cure my sickness.
its realli quite irritating to cough w/o stopping.
n i tink i finish abt 3 to 4 bottles of cough medicine oredi.
yet. the cough is still dere.
n i c like 2 to 3 docs?? LOLx. total waste of money =x
now dat exams' over. i shall start reading twilight! haha.
see how long i will take la hor =x
mayb i will surprise u pple. haha.

ok. im gonna relax. im gonna enjoy.
b4 i start working on PW again.
be positive. its gonna b over soon! LOLx.

in kinda shock dat i dun feel anithing for u anymore.
or mayb bcoz i noe u like someone else.
or mayb bcoz i hav someone else. LOLx.
but seriously. dat day. i realli tink it thru oredi.
n let it b ba. even if one day we lose contact.
coz eventually we will lead our own life.
i hope tis feeling will last.
coz i nvr wan to b back again.
i dun wan to stuck dere like forever.

i cant deny dat i did feel something.
but. i dun dare to feel it.

im truly affected by it.
did u realli do do dat on mi??
wats the reason of doing so??
questions here and dere.
and hes the oni one who can give mi the ans.
but. im not going to tok to him.
wat m i supposed to do??
juz ignore him??
hais. i nd to noe the true definition of 'moving on'.

when im quiet, it doesnt mean that im happy.
when i didnt talk about anithing, it doesnt mean that nothing has happened.
in fact, everything is just there.

im not happy :(

i didnt go to school today. LOLx.
going to c doc soon. to get MC.
ok la. i dun realli noe wat exactly happen yesterday.
but i didnt set my alarm clock.
i dunno y. mayb coz i was too tired?
i was sick tis few days.
cough sore throat n a bit of flu.
but yesterday i felt betta n went to school.
i find a nd to go skol recently coz promos is coming.
dun wan miss any impt concept.
but anyway. yesterday i realli feel ok.
but when i reach home i start to hav sore throat n everything again.
LOLx. fiona heard my voice la hor.
stop saying i sound man! coz i noe.
haha. n now i almost cant tok at all.
realli no voice oredi. i swear.
luckily oral is over man. if not i will die. LOLx.
n i wake up at 7plus. which is like totally late?
so my mum ask mi stay at home to rest n go c doc.
i tink i shld oso. take one day of break go back skol tml.
juz dat today is thursday. im missing a lot of lesson.
so i tink im going skol ltr to copy today's notes.
n oso coz i cant study bio at home. LOLx. will fell aslp.
so i tink its betta if i go skol n study.

anyway. got a few pple nd to thank.
thanks huimin for being a nice fren.
thanks jonny for being a nice fren n thanks for the cake.
LOLx. i realli got a shock dat day.
coz seriously. i no nd a cake for apology. haha.
moreover. u r oredi forgiven!
but still. thanks for waking up early to bake the cake.
sorie abt dat oso. LOLx.
thanks cass for sharing wif mi.
thanks jiayan for listening to mi most of the time.
thanks all my frens la hor. =)
thanks Mr Tan. nat told mi oredi. haha.
sorie if dat para disturbs u.
but im seriously alrite. its juz some reflection.
i mean in some point of time sure a bit emo??
type a bit here nvm one rit. LOLx.
but still. thanks for ur concern.
n thanks for visiting my blog n tagged!
unlike some pple. visit le nvr tag. =x LOLx.
juz kidding ok. pple. dun take it to heart. haha.

ok. i nd to study nd to study nd to study.
LOLx. im convincing myself.
will upload photos soon! =)

oh man. im such a slacker. LOLx.
i nvr study for days??
but ok la. i promise myself to chiong aft dat.
i have been watching 命中注定我爱你.
come on. its v nice. once u start it u cant stop it.
LOLx. ok. so i chiong finish dat show.
finish the last ep today! haha.
then i tell myself i muz realli start studying oredi.
i tink im dead la. nvm. 加油，黄欣怡。
ok. i tink im crazy over dat show. LOLx.
n i went to find the soundtrack today. found it!

anyway. i went out to explore today!
LOLx. i went to exchange my cable for the external hard disk.
the reason y i say i explore.
bcoz i dunno where issit. haha.
but i manage to find my way dere! cool rit.
finding an unknown place on ur own can b fun. haha.
reach home then study abit. but im tired oredi.

its holiday tis week!
but no feel of holiday at all. LOLx.
tue n wed go to skol. until so late.
the rest of the days like studying?
but ok. im not realli studying.
but realli no holiday mood la! LOLx.
n its coming to an end soon.
tml going to cele grandfather's birthday.
shld i go for the ktv? i dun tink i shld.
i shld go home n study!

LOLx. i realise i v long nvr post oredi. omg.
i didnt even wish my class happy birthday.
nvm la hor. anyway oni abt 14 of us went??
the usual pple. kinda disappointing but yeah.
mr n mrs mok was dere too.
LOLx. we went to eat at cafe cartel.
aft dat both of them left.
so we go marina square. pool n arcade.
LOLx. pool is so fun!
ok. took some ugly pics. might upload soon.
deres a lot of photos to upload. but im lazy =x haha.

im too lazy to type out the maluating GP make-up lesson.
mayb tok abt dat when im realli free ba. LOLx.

had our last inline skating lesson on wed.
the last lesson was realli fun.
coz we had our lesson in a carpark due to wet weather.
but i believe all of us had great fun. realli.
though albert was not dere.
LOLx. i haven realli thank the instructor.
esp. albert n jon. coz they taught mi! haha.
albert. hes now in china. beijing i tink? dun rmb. LOLx.
mayb tok to him when hes back ba.
jon. bandana man. 华文老师. bcoz his chi v good.
haha. the one who call mi 呱呱妹.
LOLx. he like to give pple nickname la.
but anyway. he stop calling mi dat oredi. so nvm.
mike didnt realli teach mi. so ya.
its over oredi. juz hope dat if i go skating again i will c them. LOLx.
fun instructors realli.

yesterday huimin suddenly tell mi she will drop by my hse.
n she say shes gonna bring mooncake for mi n mum.
my god. so sweet rit. LOLx.
i realli wan to thank her.
but i dont know how to express my gratitude.
i feel bad dat i nvr hav time to meet her up.
no matter wat. u will b my BFF! =)

i tink everybody is busy wif their own things.
w/o realising dat they lose something.
neglecting pple they shldnt hav.
sometimes i ask myself.
wats the point of studying when in the end all u hav is a proper job?
in the end u might juz lose ur family frens etc.
wats the point of earning lotsa money in the future when u dun hav the chance to take good care of ur family, repay them for wat they hav done for u.

we are the same.
living in denial when we noe the truth.
why.

我相信上天的安排，
遇见你是我一生中最快乐的事。
就算我们不再联络，不再见面，
你永远会在我心里深处的一个角落。
也许我这辈子都不会忘记你，
但我会把你当作我生命背后的故事。
我不会活在自己的梦境里。
在这现实生活里，我会变得更坚强
命中注定我爱你。