today is Teachers' Day celebration!
aj aces was realli lame. LOLx. c no point in it.
but the performance was ok. haha.
jonny performed! though its kinda short.
12 lotus actors came n sang too. quite surprising.
yesterday we went sy hse to bake cake n cookies.
reaching 12 then reach home.
everytime go home aft 11 i will wonder how i shld walk home.
to walk a longer way or the shorter. which one is safer.
coz met quite a few incident.
i tink i hav to learn to b strong.
i shldnt b afraid of such things.
in fact deres nth to b afraid of.
but anyway. thanks jj for sending mi home yesterday.
LOLx. n i realise mayb its not dat dangerous aft all.

so anyway. went back to zhss today.
its quite bad coz i saw dat particular group of pple.
i realli dun wan to c them.
they r simply juz too sucky.
so i juz ignore them n walk pass. it kinda spoil my day.
anyway. saw a few teachers today.
though i didnt c pple whom i wish to c.
i dunno whether to b happy or sad.
coz mayb it realli means dat its time to forget.
we stay in zhss until abt 12plus.
aft dat we went the glass house fish n co.
LOLx. im glad dat it was quite successful.
abt 19 of us including poh poh. LOLx.
ok. its always the usual pple. but we still had fun! =)
tis kinda gathering is good enough seriously.
n i noe. most of us miss each other somehow.
though we r not super close.
many of us do miss the life in zhss. realli.
anyway. met joyce n jazreel dere! LOLx. quite cool.
aft dat some of them went to watch 4bia.
i was quite reluctant to go off but i hav to.
coz hav to cele ziyan's birthday. LOLx.
ziyan was my OGL for the 1st intake.
so. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIYAN!
lolx. another surprise birthday.
bcoz i realli realli wan to watch 4bia.
i ask all of them to watch wif mi! haha.
ok la. actually oni a few of us.
its nice la. ok la. not bad. its quite scary.
i tink i realli did scream. LOLx. feel quite sucky though.
aft the movie. we went home. im damn tired la.
yesterday slept at 2am to do SC teachers' day card.
wake up early in the morning at 5plus 6. LOLx.

i realli dunno whether i shld b happy or sad.
mayb its mixed feeling ba.
sometimes i dunno wat im tinkin oso.
i noe it doesnt matter to him anymore.
i noe im nth to him now.
i noe im no longer in his heart.

i realli do feel disappointed.
how i wish u could tell mi.
at least dat will make mi feel betta.

i feel like tokin to somebody.
but i dunno wat to tok abt.
i dunno who to tok to as well.

confession of the day

im sorie that i didnt do my job well enough.
i promise that the same thing wont happen again.
i will do my job well.

blaming myself for not being able to keep my mouth shut.
im sorie that i once let it out. or probably a few times.
i know i lost the trust you have once given to me.
maybe sometimes its better to know nothing at all.
though i wish i could always be the one.
im disappointed if you are never gonna tell me.
but i have no right to know in the first place.

im emotionally unstable. im attitude. im rude.
im sorie and please forgive me.
i know i need to learn to control myself.

i know you are suffering as well.
i know you are more hurt than i do.
i know among us all you are the one who deserve our comfort.
i know the way i treat you is wrong.
i dont mean to treat you the way i do.
but have you seriously think of me?? how i actually feel.
how i feel after all that has happened.
how i feel when things remain as bad as it is.
i dont know what i should do.
smiling at him is wrong. frowning at him is wrong too.
yet i cant treat that i dont know him at all.
i cant treat that he doesnt exist.
what am i supposed to do?
i realli do not know.

a dream spoils the day.
why will i even dream of that??
a dream that will NEVER come true.
an unforgettable dream.
just like you to me.
always there. forever.

HAHA. its been long since i last post man.
i decided to relax a bit today coz had 2 tests tis week.
but of coz i will still do a bit of PW.
aft the econs test today was realli shiok.
ok. anyway. i shall recall wat happen last week.

the reason i nvr post is bcoz i was realli busy.
not dat im v free now. LOLx.
anyway. last friday was realli a v exciting day.
its good to c aj pple staying behind aft skol.
for wat? to watch table tennis team semi-finals!
LOLx. n i realli got a shock when i walk out of the lecture hall.
everybody is like cheering? everywhere in the skol.
nexus. outside LTs. outside GO. in the canteen.
oh. come on. the canteen was full. wif pple sitting n standing.
its like. omg. so interesting! LOLx.
n everybody was like cheering everytime spore score a point!
n while mi n cas was tokin to mr mok at the umbrella area.
we were so hoping dat we could watch the match.
but we noe the results when we hear pple cheering.
LOLx. it juz means dat spore score a point! haha.
it was realli cool. like seriously.
spore won the semi-finals but lost to china during the finals.
but its ok! i mean china is realli strong? LOLx.
many of us was impressed by feng tianwei. realli.
ok. other than tis i dun rmb a thing. haha.

back to tis week!
juz finish watching the table tennis singles finals n semi-finals.
wang yuegu was out during the third round.
sad for her when shes world ranking no. 6.
she shldnt hav lose seriously.
watever the reason is. its over.
feng tianwei realli played well tis time.
but shes realli unlucky. met zhang yining n couldnt get into semi-finals.
i find the competition quite unfair actually.
juz bcoz she met the word ranking no. 1.
who knows. mayb she can win wangnan or guoyue?
i mean. y not. we will nvr noe until they compete.
feng tianwei definitely has the ability to go into the top 5.
her scores wif zhang yining was close.
in the semi-finals li jiawei played wif zhang yining.
she lost the game but i believe she did her best.
i shld say she did well. her scores r close too.
eventually she still get fourth aft losing to guoyue.
i tink she realli perform well tis time.
sad. coz tis shld b the last time shes playing in olympics.
i was impressed by wangnan when she was playing wif zhang yining.
esp the first few games when shes winning.
i tink she realli played well. n she always smile. LOLx.
dat was good. i like her.
i was hoping dat she will beat zhang yining.
why? bcoz someone beat world ranking no. 1!
she has been winning every game?
if wangnan were to win zhang yining, she will b famous.
anyway. all the way to spore! u all hav done well tis time =)
mi n sy was excited over it n we couldnt concentrate during chem lesson today.
LOLx. n i msg sy aft every game during the bronze-medal match.
she was unable to watch. n i hav to announce the results.
i spend abt 2 hours watching? but i tink its worth it.
though we always come to tis controversial issue dat they r from china.
i mean ya they r from china. but they willingly represent spore.
n spore is not the oni country having china players representing them.
they hav the right to choose which country to represent.
when opportunity was given to them. y not do it?
though i dun quite understand y singaporeans cant play as well.
i hope. nxt time we could c singaporeans playing n winning.
LOLx. dat will b the biggest achievement.

anyway. for tis week. deres alot of work to do. as usual.
LOLx. we can nvr run away from all the work.
n tml im going to the lib early in the morning wif ger. to study.
JIAYOU! we can do it!
had 2 tests tis week. econs n maths.
econs. hopefully i can pass? i realli did study tis time.
though i didnt write everything dat i studied down.
but at least i tink the points r dere? haha.
i dun ask for much. juz a pass n i mean D.
for maths. i didnt realli finish.
but hopefully i can get abt 23 or 24 over 30?
LOLx. shall not aim too high. coz didnt realli do well.
nd to work hard for PW oredi.
though our efforts r not wasted. WR draft 1 was ok.
of coz deres more things to do. but at least its ok.
JIAYOU! work hard for promos.

i just reached home!!! LOLx.
yesterday was a very fun day. haha.

ok. yesterday we celebrated national day.
whole day no lesson! haha. dats the best thing man.
then we had a concert. n its realli nice.
i tink jeryl dance v well la. my god. LOLx.
ok. anyway. the performance was cool! realli.
then we had the connect singapore thingy.
at first tot if will b quite fun.
but end up i tink its a failure la.
we didnt noe when it started n when it ended.
suddenly teacher juz say ok. go back aj. LOLx.
we dun even noe dat it has ended. so ya.
but as a class we had quite a lot of fun.
took some pics n video! shall upload if i hav the chance.

aft dat we went sentosa! LOlx. siloso beach.
we had great fun dere realli.
although its quite disappointing dat not the whole class was dere.
but its still v fun! Mr. Chua was dere too! LOLx.
for guys oni jaryl victor jonny jiajin n shih-yu went.
for gals we have nat fiona joyce siowyun clar lavi cas n mi! haha.
its like so fun la. we played beach volleyball soccer captains ball.
we r so determine to learn beach volleyball la. LOLx.
jaryl is out coach. haha. its damn fun.
ever Mr. Chua played wif us! its damn cool.
for those who dunno who is Mr. Chua.
i shall give a short intro n prob upload photos some time ltr.
LOLx. actually we didnt take alot of pic at sentosa lo.
anyway. Mr. Chua is a v cool teacher.
hes not realli a teacher la. hes gonna start skol at NUS soon.
graduated from Hwa Chong. but hes damn funny.
he like to say 'WATEVER'. lolx.
n he plays dota soccer n everything.
hes juz take our class for bio abt 2 to 3 weeks.
but hes realli damn funny.
he teach bio concept by using dota terms n everything.
making the whole class laugh all the time.
n he like to say dat hes busy. bcoz hes batman. he nd to save pple.
haha. n he nd to teach n do research during the day.
ok la. hav to admit dat hes realli kinda busy la.
but he still went sontosa wif us yesterday! haha.
hes well-liked by many classes la.
n i will always rmb. u muz hav PASSION for bio! haha.
its hard to imagine dat yesterday might b the last day we c him.
but hopefully we can c him like aft our promos? hmm.
ok. anyway. we leave siloso beach at abt 8.
had our dinner n went to jaryl's hse!
haha. we r staying over at his hse. my god. its damn fun la.

who went his hse. ok. some came late some went home early.
but in general. gals we hav steph siowyun fiona joyce clarissa n mi!
then guys got jiajin tsewei joseph binghong shih-yu victor n of coz jaryl.
LOLx. my god. when we reach his hse we started playing.
his hse like got everything? haha.
we played cards. we played PS.
then we watched movie! i took a short nap during the movie =x
haha. some pple couldnt take it n almost everybody slept at 4plus?
about dat la. then at 5plus oni left mi n jaryl. LOLx.
we played DDR from 5plus to 7plus. haha. so fun!
i was laughing so hilariously n he tink dat im crazy.
esp when he say im worse than yongjie.
omg. how can that b. LOLx. but dat was initially.
its like so fun n im determine to master it. like seriously.
ok la. deres improvement ok.
jaryl is realli gd at it la. but i will impove one! haha.
he juz couldnt slp. if not i will b the survivor! LOLx.
hes competing wif mi la. keep asking mi to stop playing n go slp.
haha. no way! im not gonna slp.
he did slp a while lo. but he claim dat he didnt. LOLx.
watever! anyway, we had great fun! haha.
n then when everybody woke up they all say the same thing.
wa. xinyi still playing DDR ar. LOLx. haha. fun wat.
i was perspiring like mad in the air-con room. LOLx.
if i got DDR at home i guess i will juz keep playing la.
but when everybody woke up i went to slp =x haha.
slept from abt 8 to 10.30. LOLx.
aft i woke up i realise they r playing rock band.
LOLX. another game of jaryl's. it damn fun.
but i simply juz suck at it. LOLx.
basically deres a drummer. 2 guitarist and a singer. haha.
i suck at drum la. though its damn cool la. LOLx.
guitar still ok. juz nd more practice.
i dun care! if i ever had the chance again i will train till siao. haha.
ya. so we played had our lunch n here i am. HOME!
LOLx. the feeling is like back from a chalet?
coz i believe everybody did enjoy themselves. juz a bit tired oni.
n come to tink of it. deres alot of work nd to b done.

i did tink of some stuff for a moment at sentosa.
thanks nat for sharing n listening. LOLx.
sometimes having such tok can b good as well =)
but in the end. everything remains as it is.

last but not least.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIOWYUN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAJIN!
though i dun realli hav the feeling of national day.
anyway. i will b staying at home today. LOLx.
not going to watch firework tis yr. hmm.
perhaps end of yr countdown?? hopefully ba.
it feel kinda weird to stay at home.
at the same time tired n dun feel like finding pple to go out.
so yeah. stay at home ba.
mayb i shld slp more instead.

i dun tink its true n i dun wan it to b true.

dats so much to say.
i guess i shld juz say it some other day.

i must be crazy.
how can that be.
what am i thinking.
i dont know why i cry.
girl. its gonna be okay.

im not supposed to post at tis time.
but well. im posting. haha.
today's mass civic we had band performance!
cool. haha. its nice. its fun.
suddenly wish my life partner is someone talented.
LOLx. dream on! deres nvr such a gd guy.
sometimes will juz start imagine the perfect guy ever.
n of coz. he doesnt exist. haha.
anyway. forget abt it.
im not gona tink abt guys anymore.
so wat if i still tink abt him.
hopefully i wun tok abt him again ba.
who dun wish to b a talented person?
like gd in everything? learning watever dere is.
wanting something doesnt mean u can do it.
prob nxt time ba.
unlimited wants + limited supply = scarcity!
anyway. yes yes. im laggin behind.
like realli. LOlx. but its ok!
i will catch up one =)
im motivated to study v hard oredi!
n we took class photo today!
i bet its gonna b damn ugly. haha.
anyway. yixiang n nella going cambridge oredi.
bon voyage! take care. =)

yes. its v long oredi.
n it seem like dat im gonna stuck dere forever.
how stupid can i get.
juz let it remain as it is ba.
its hard to accept the fact that you are gone forever.

shld i post?? haha. i keep asking myself sia.
coz. im tired. n i tink i shld study. LOLx.
but nvm la. mayb i shld post.
WISH ONG JIAYAN A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
LOLx. i tink she shld b happy la.
coz she got consecutive celebrations.
its difficult to arrange for the surprise ok!
LOLx. though she somehow guess it oredi.
anyway. im supposed to meet jiayan to study today.
haha. then aft dat go hav dinner.
bit in the end we nvr study. we went shopping.
LOLx. then we drag for so long.
bcoz germaine mingli n clarissa were late.
my god. jiayan keep asking mi to go eat dinner.
n i was dere dragging the time. haha.
finally they reached n jiayan got a shock.
she saw them n ask mi. did u ask them to come?
LOLx. then she beat mi. scold mi asshole. haha.
ong jiayan. i will rmb dat. haha.
i made her birthday card. mi n clar went to fancl to buy her present.
shall show some pics ltr. LOLx.
i wan to buy a charles n keith bag! LOLx.
shop wif jiayan today. at first we wanted to buy the same wallet.
but then end up i tell her. do u tink i will buy?
haha. i haven even buy the bag i like la.
end up yongjie they all oso come. LOLx.
i keep asking yongjie to faster! haha.
make us drag the time for so long la.
today got ndp preview. its super irritating!
LOLx. so many pple wearing red walking ard.
making the place so crowded.
then block so many places. so boring! LOLx.
i reach home n got a shock!
my sis went for ndp n she didnt tell mi!??!
my god. i reach home then call her. haha.
today is not a good day to take photos.
so all the photos r not nice. LOLx.
juz say dta im getting uglier. haha.


mi n jiayan. LOLx. the birthday girl.

we keep laughing when taking tis pic la. dun look down on tis pic. it spend us quite some time. haha.

its dark. my god. anyway. its daredevils! =)

the pple who join aft dat. LOLx.


the card i make! =)

mingli say i look v guai now.
but then she say she dun tink its mi. haha.
actually. i dun wan look guai oso.
im juz too guai. no choice! haha =x
i rmb nat say i look nicer wif black hair.
actually somehow i still miss my hair last time.
somehow i dun look dat guai.
perhaps dats the diff ba. haha.
getting uglier n uglier each day! LOLx.
man. i nvr study for 2 days oredi.
though i did study a bit tis morning. haha.
well. im gonna start studying. EoM. my god.

ok. pictures pictures n more pictures. haha.
oh ya. forget to wish victor happy birthday! LOLx.
hes damn funny la! sing birthday song for himself.
but then ok la. his birthday we feel quite high.
hes my fellow PW mate. haha.
we did a AVC card for him. LOLx.
if i were him i will b v happy.
coz the msges in the card r realli meaningful.
its not like juz happy birthday n some cliche msg.
its realli msg dat comes from all of our heart. haha.
anyway. AVC = anti-victor club. LOLx.
its not bcoz we dun like him la. juz hes damn funny.
sometimes irritating yeah. so we form tis club to make fun of him.
LOLx. n hes happy dat deres tis club. coz he treat it as fan club.
oh ya. y m i tokint abt tis.
yeah. last week went ocs. tis week we went zoo! haha.
now im gonna upload the pictures.
but its pictures of pple n not pictures of animals. sorie!
mayb during the nxt visit when we got more time to walk ard ba.
ok. oni hav a few ocs photos.


ok. tis is the tower dat we climb. its so fun! haha.

this is the bottom of the tower.

view from the top. deres actually 3 views. but oni got pic of one. haha.

a pic we took when we r upstairs. oni the gals. coz the guys have to wait for us to go down. canot hav too many pple up dere. LOLx. ok. look at my 'ultimate hair'. quote from fiona. im juz too irritated by my fringe. so i dun realli care. haha. but the photos taken at the zoo will b different. haha. dun b surprise.


before we go to the zoo at amk hub. LOLx. its mi kenga n lavi. lavi is my fellow PW mate.

mi n kenga.

lavi joyce mi n kenga.

on the bus. mi n natalie. guess whose finger is dat? its lavi's. she like to bully mi. haha. kidding.

one more. haha. she is still pointing at mi.

we reached the zoo! haha. class pic.

its the gals. we r advertising for ben&jerry. =x kidding! LOLx.


the class.




look at wat the guys hav done. LOLx. my god.

its mi natalie n fiona. look at my tired eyes. it juz means dat i nd to slp. haha.

ok. if u pple are wondering who are SMITS. its actually the 5 of us from the left. siowyun mi natalie fiona n joyce. LOLx. beside joyce is nella n steph. ignore the irritating jonny! =x haha.

dats all.

oh yay! its friday. haha.
a day to slack =x LOLx.
i tink i slack too much oredi.
so many pple are actually chionging la.
my god. nvm. i've got my own plan. haha.
yay! my class is going out on 8th august.
to celebrate sy n jj birthday. mayb for cas oso la.
it will b so fun la! LOLx. im looking forward to it.
yes. went out to shop today! haha. wif clar.
my god. damn long nvr shop oredi.
i bought a shoe! haha. n i tink i like it =)
i tried alot of dresses. but i like tis particular one.
i hav been seeing it for quite long oredi.
but till now i haven buy. haha.
n the person tell mi. its the last piece!
but still. i nvr buy. haha. i dunno la.
hate spending money sia.
then i saw bags! my god. i feel like buying.
but again. dun feel like spending n wasting money =x
i realli dunno man. if anyone could provide mi wif all the cash??
haha. im juz kidding! i dun anyhow spend money anyway.
though i tink its a nd sometimes.

ok. wats dere to say tis week.
actually nth much la. or mayb i dun realli rmb.
i got chance to shop today bcoz we release at 1.15!
wahaha. rare chance sia.
im so happy im so glad. haha. crap.
today's PE we play soccer! fun!
but i choose to b goalkeeper as always. haha.
i realise its damn boring to b goalkeeper.
n the goalpost is so big compared to mi. LOLx.
i hav decided. to b out on the field n play the nxt PE!
i wan run n score a goal! haha.
dun look down on mi. its possible. haha.