yesterday was the last day ever.
30 MAR. i will rmb.
i dun tink i muz repeat wat realli happen la.
sianz oredi. no point saying oso.
its a day when everything goes wrong.
yet when everything seems wrong.
n i nd someone to b wif mi.
both of them ignore mi.
i dun hav to mention who.
u noe who u r.
or mayb they wun even c tis post.
but it hurts quite alot.
im not tired last nite.
but im forcing myself to slp.
juz to stop my mind frm tinkin.
juz to stop myself frm getting emo.
yes. i finally fell aslp.
hoping to c something when i wake up.
nothing...
nah. its ok.
i shld juz accept it.
though he say he wun do dat to mi.
but he still did it last nite.
i try to convince myself.
dat u r juz busy.
but how long can tis b true.

whee. tml gonna start lesson again le.
LOLx. as u all can c. im still slacking =x
i did study ok. juz dat too relax.
study halfway will use comp. HAHA.

debate is on tuesday.
we muz win. how can tagore lose.
u noe we r tagore.
n juz like b4 the lit play.
we shouted serenity.
LOLx. u noe wat dat means??
for tis debate as well.
serenity!!!
we will win de.
gd luck to the debators.
JIAYOU!

yesterday i juz realise dat guzheng SYF is on 24th april.
as usual. its near to my birthday.
unfortunately. its the same day as dunman n ngee ann.
which both hav the ability to get gold of honours.
nah. its ok. all we wan is gold.
but when the judge compare.
its obvious dat they r far more betta than us.
yup. so its like. a bit hopeless oredi.
but nvm. we juz gonna do our best no matter wat.

yesterday went nanyang girls.
watch their performance.
their CO damn nice.
got the ability to get gold wif honours lo.
but. their guzheng ok oni la.
mayb betta than us?? mayb.
their action definitely betta.
but can c dat their juniors arent dat gd as well.
arghh. we juz gonna jiayou.
dats all i can say.

anyway. i promise myself not to mention his name again.
but obviously i still did at times.
seeing him appearing in my msn friendster.
kinda sad actually.
not bcoz i still feel for him.
i juz tink hes no longer the one i noe.
i tink i noe de him v nice. v gd.
even when treating his fren.
even when we r juz fren.
but hes no longer the same.
will anyone understand how i feel rit now.
his birthday is reaching.
but no. i wun buy him anithing.
wish him?? i dunno.
aiya. watever la.

actually the one i hav been tinkin of is not him.
i dun like him. i juz sad for him.
its somebody else.

here r some of the pics.



surprising yeah. we r eating durian. LOLx.

tis r the photos taken during the prize-giving ceremony.

HAHA. so happy rit now.
we won first for lit evening.
n fangying won the best actress.
so cool...
tis learning carnival is realli meaningful.
in the sense dat at least we work tgt.
for lit evening. cheer comp.
n we won for both.
its realli worth celebrating.
anyway. i hope n realli hope.
dat our class will continue tis spirit.
cooperating whenever its needed. =)

while watching the lit movie screening.
i get so emo lo.
i watch the movie b4 le.
but i still cry. LOLx.
n im the oni one crying.
others tink dats its kinda boring??
if not its not touching at all.
weird ah.

tis weekend i wanan stay at home.
tis few days nvr study.
nvr do homework n everything.
so tis few days muz do. LOLx.
but tonite still nd go nanyang girls.
to look at their performance.
sianz. actually dun feel like going de.

learning carnival.
we took some pics using chun's cam.
HAHA. will upload soon??

a few days nvr post liao wor. LOLx.
anyway. im so happy today.
firstly we won the class cheer.
though we nvr win for the catapult.
but i still tink we do a gd job.
mayb win or lose dun realli matter ba.
the second thing is dat.
i realise our class isnt dat bad.
still can cooperate at times.
the class spirit is still dere lo.
im glad dat im in tis class. seriously.
our class tees r nice. i realli tink so.
n today lost@serangoon.
my group consists of.
wanzhen,lisa,jaslin n mi.
LOLx. kinda fun. in fact v fun.
i tink tis is the first time.
im outside wif them.
but its realli a nice experience.
n i will nvr forget.
we all like durians! LOLx.
can u imagine.
we ate durians tgt. dats call fun.

anyway. tml is the days.
hais. sianz.
im kinda worry n scare ba.
toking abt lit evening tml.
wat if we lose.
sad to say tis la.
but i cant say its impossible.
but mayb win or lose doesnt realli matter ba.
at least we get into the finals??
n we hav different pple working tgt.
juz hope dat the class wun b disappointed bcoz of tis.
hope dat it doesnt affect us.
watever it is.
we will noe wats gonna happen tml.
lets all jiayou together! =)

wa. im tired. realli tired.
juz reach home not long ago.
today went out wif daredevils =p
tis time w/o ger. LOLx.
its like everytime someone is not dere de lo.
so sianz...

went to watch pursuit of happiness.
ok la. not as touching as i tot.
actually can say dat i didnt cry lo.
but its ok. its still a nice movie.
oni mi n clar. n we wear the same top.
LOLx. so funny. then we took neos. =p
dat was at orchard.

then aft dat go meet mingli at bugis.
shop a while.
then meet jy for dinner.
damn tired la.
shop i oso dun spend money.
tis week i tink spend alot =(
dun like spending money la.
sianz. tml sure spend again de.
i dun wan!!!
its scary la. spending money. =(
its not alot. but is till feel xin tong.
yup. i muz save money!! LOLx.
watever la. damn tired. arghh.

anyway. i tink i getting more n more san ba.
though everybody say im oredi am. LOLx.
dun like lei. like tok tok tok.
dun wan stop liddat. LOLx.
sometimes will gossip.
dun like liddat de mi.
like too free liddat.
no. im going to study when im free.
HAHA. nxt week onwards. STUDY!
i tink i noe y liao la.
no bf ma. dats y will alwaz tok abt other pple.
*shake head* dats bad. LOLx.
dats y sometimes i rather b alone.
i mean isolate myself frm my frens.
so dat i wun tok so much. hehe.
watever la. tml even more busy.
go skol in the morning for lit play.
then afternoon meet huimin n my sis de fren.
wa. busy. sianz. tired.

today aft guzheng went to town. LOLx.
tis few days alwaz go out in skol u.
nvm. tml wun b wearing skol u le =p
anyway. we rush all the way down to town juz to watch STOMP THE YARD.
then WTF. tickets sold out. sianz.
then nvm lo. we watch THE MESSENGER. LOLx.
u noe wat. watching PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS tml.
yay!! finally. LOLx. i wanna watch i wanna watch.
everybody say v touching. gonna prepare tissue paper.
make sure i cry man. HAHA.
when watching the movie. im like WTF WTH %#@!%&#
LOLx. not so much la actually.
but then its like. ok la. kinda scary??
not very la. juz kinda oni la. LOLx.
but tis 3 movies i muz watch. muz watch!
now i hav to find time for STOMP THE YARD.
canot miss. nvr. LOLx.

then tis few days kinda sad lo. hais.
until no mood study n do homework oso.
sianz. wats my prob man.
oso dunno y feel like crying.
w/o guys w/o worries. shld b happy de ma.
something is not right lo.
aiya. i dunno wat la.
then last few days i cant log in blogger =((
v sad. even worst. bcoz now nobody noe im sad.
my blog will b the first to noe.
the second will b the pple viewing my blog.
n im serious. no. i cant msg anyone.
bcoz i dun wan to depend on anyone.
n like wat i say.
i dun wan to care for those who dun care for mi.
even though i do care for them. i shldnt let them noe.
i dun wan them to noe.
bcoz i dun wan n dun like pple to care for mi juz bcoz i care for them.
but they realli do wan to care for mi.
unfortunately dere isnt anyone.
but its ok. i shall depend on my own.
n dats wat makes mi sad??
but so wat. sad then sad lo.
its not the first time im sad??
by rit i shld b happy de lo. hais.
oso dunno wat im doing la.
but seriously. no one knows. no one ever knows.

the unlucky thing dat happen today.
i hav been so blur. dunno tinkin abt wat.
my alarm clock rang at 6.30am tis morning.
i was like. y m i waking up so early.
i oni hav guzheng at 10am.
so i continue slping. guess wat.
i wake up at 7.35am n realise something.
i hav bio SSP at 8am =.=lll LOLx.
so u noe wat. im late for SSP.
aft preparing everything. chiong ah.
kinda untidy. but still manage to get out of the hse at 8am.
dats funny. pple going to start lesson man. im at yishun.
so i was still tinkin whether to go.
if go sure take taxi one. late mayb get scolded.
nvr go oso liddat. i dun tink she cares?? LOLx.
yup. so anyway i call my fren n they say my cher haven reach yet.
so ok. i rush down by taking taxi.
reaching skol at abt 8.30am.
guess wat. its $9.20 + $2 extra charge.
alrite. fine. then go into skol.
guess wat. my cher is not gonna come at all.
*faint* i wasted my money man.
i can probably buy some accessories.
go eat something or watch one movie.
WTH. $11.20 lo. realli wasted sia.
hais. anyway. it has been a bad day.

today aft guzheng went to bugis wif soph n ruey.
LOLx. v fun. soph made her fake nails.
damn nice. i wanna make oso.
but i feel like DIY lei.
dunno lei. saturday then say ba.
going out wif huimin =p
i still owe her valentines' day present.
i say she can choose one.
but i tink make fake nails she will like it ba??
dunno lei. then went to dashing dive.
ahh. i fell in love wif the accessories dere.
esp the necklace. HAHA. i tink i gonna buy it??
but i v scare of spending money one lo.
hais. dunno lei. deres alot of things i wanna buy.
clothing. shoes. accessories. make up. LOLx.
but its like wasting money lo.
dats y i alwaz end up nvr buy =p
anyway. i hav my 3rd piercing on my right ear on sunday.
yup. actually got one more at the top de.
but last december holiday i oredi let it close le.
ahh. spending money is so scary lo. LOLx.

BOA- winter love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahhU2T7g2eI

oh pple. im feeling so happy rit now.
not bcoz of anithing.
WE GET IN FOR LIT EVENING!!
ahhh. so happy so happy. LOLx.
we muz work even harder.
to win?? possible?? LOLx.

its realli time for mi to realise everything.
i wan all guys to b out of my mind.
at least dat 4 to 5 guys ba.
though it seem like its gd.
im fren to all my ex oredi.
im gonna stay neutral.
dun wanna like anyone again.
i dun wanna feel for pple who dun feel for mi.
yup. so if they dun care. i dun care too.
LOLx. yeah man. dats the way.
i dun wanna care =p
im juz gonna live my life liddat.

i feel so bad. =((
im like doing the wrong thing lei.
sometimes i juz dun feel like tokin n meeting him.
whenever he ask mi tok or meet.
i will nvr reply. OMG.
dats bad. im doing something which i dun like.
if today he msg mi again.
i shall reply. yup.

cuckoo. juz admit it.
u like her. no. u love her.
LOLx. do u still hav to lie at tis point of time.
but no matter wat.
if u truly love her. realli wanna b wif her.
JIAYOU ba. gd luck to u.
stop playing wif other gals.
time to b serious yeah.
im not giving u lecture.
its all ur choice. =)

ok. its time to upload photos. LOLx.

last holiday. went to sentose wif DD. w/o jy though.
actually took quite alot of photos.
but i oni hav this 2.





ok. nxt r the chingay photo.
i oni got 2 during the practise de.
but we took some using erika's camera oso.
i dun hav it.





lastly. the photos my family took.
when my sis is back. at KTV =p











finish. =)

LOLx. yesterday was lit evening audition.
thanks justin for helping mi.
bcoz i forget one of my lines. arghh.
so scary.
but then anyway. i dunno whether we will get in.
we oni rehearse twice.
which is yesterday itself.
nvm. pple. its doesnt matter whether we get in.
at least we tried. yup.
we noe we r still gd de. =)
pple. rmb our class spirit!!

yup. n yesterday had the lit test oso.
kns la. LOLx. sure fail one tis time round.
so many pple forget wat is foil la.
so we dun understand the whole question at all.
the essay bcome like crap.
i bet ms ow will feel lke dying when marking.

watever it is. i learnt my mistake.
i will nvr msg him again.
since he oredi show mi dat he dun care.
wtf la. watever guys say r untrue.
nvr trust guys again.
rather b alone.
wats the point of making myself so xin ku.
wat they do is juz lying n hurting gals rit.
but im not saying dat all the guys r liddat.
i hope at least some r not.
sad dat those i met r liddat.
but its ok. its over.

HAHA. actually tot of posting last few days de.
but busy busy busy. LOLx.
actually today oso busy de lo.
slack a while =x
firstly the amaths test.
sianz. sure do badly tis time.
let myself down lo. =(
now im like getting back all the bad results.

anyway. muz say.
i hope the class will b betta now.
aft hearing wat mr wong n ms leow say.
seriously. i tink everybody shld cooperate.
its realli not easy to bring us altogether.
w/o the cooperation of everybody.
spare a thought for each other.
if deres something u can do for the class.
y not do it.
its sad when our class hav the ability to do it.
juz dat pple arent doing it.
its kinda disappointing ya.
pple. its the last yr.
pls hav the class spirit!!!

ok. tml is prize-giving.
JIAYOU! to myself. LOLx.
competitions coming up.
debate n lit evening.
debate. u all hav been doing well.
keep it up n continue dat way.
lit evening. we finally hav all the actors ready.
left the rehearsing n acting.
pple. lets jiayou tgt.
we can do it de.
wif gd script n gd actors. we can de.
muz believe in ourselves ya.

its sad dat he has bcome a despo.
LOLx. such a waste.
hes actually a gd guy.
if hes not dat despo.
hope one day he settles down ba.

ahhh!!! busy. busy. sianz.
posting while im busy bcoz im taking a break can.
feeling so sick lo. wanna slp.
but canot =((
tml is sis de wedding.
gonna b busy bcoz im the bridemaid.
whole day lo. frm 6am to 12am i guess.
OMG. dats crazy.
then b4 the wedding.
muz tidy up the whole hse.
sianz. all the dirts again.
hais. so many things.
make mi so sianz.
today got bio SSP.
then aft dat go j8 eat subway.
aft dat go amk for my sis de dog showhouse.
then come back home tidy up.
wa. damn tired.
revise work then slp a while.
now continue to revise.
so many tests nxt week la.
deres so many homework oso =((

anyway. abt the poly or JC thing.
i tink end up i will still go JC. yup.

hmm. wif my sister's help.
im more determine to learn jap!! =p

fcuk u nabei chee bye to my 'sis-in-law'