YOYO!

LOLx... i realise my post hav been decreasing since jan nehz... dunno y... but then is ok la... im now stuck in the room... so sianz... n i realise i so long nvr zi lian le nehz... =p mayb bcoz im getting uglier n uglier... LOLx... i tink i oni left one more??? TIS ONE...



dats mi =p

anyway... is started to tink wat kind of person i can b... someone who is v quiet??? someone who is v noisy??? someone who is v independent??? someone cheerful or someone depress??? i oso dunno... sometime i choose to b those kind v dao de... sometimes it realli depend on my mood... i realli dunno wor... some pple say i fierce??? LOLx... cant b... i will oni b fierce when im v irritated by dat person... to AUGUSTINE... im juz not fierce enough... i like to care abt alot of things... sometimes confuse over frens... n when i tink too much... dunno la... continue tinkin... i shall b someone CHEERFUL but FIERCE... LOLx... bcoz i hate guys who r esp irritating... n i finally noe the truth abt jerry... it realli make mi mad... but its ok... LOLx... mayb i shldnt b dao... but i juz cant smile when im alone... it seems like im insane... yup... yup... anyway... i shall do some reflection... HEHEx... =p

- signing off -

heya... its my birthday today... lolx... so happy... can say tis yr is the first yr i got so many presents... thanks everybody... =)

i shall esp thank those who bought presents for mi... hmm... the first one to give mi present yesterday... MINGYING!!! thanks lots... i feel so bad dat i didnt give u ur present during ur birthday... i will rmb de... hehe... thanks for ur cute flower... u r like a santa claus man... everybody's birthday oso will buy one... lolx...

hmm... nxt... will b WANCHUN + JERYL!!! lolx... jeryl dun worry... i noe the present is frm wanchun's hse... lolx... anyway... is the tots dat count... thanks lots... wat they give is something like a purse??? shld b la...

then... the nxt one will b SOPHIA!!! my best fren no. 1 rit... lie to mi dat u wanna give the stars to ur other frens... still dun let mi fold... u c la... i expected de nehz... then u tell mi is for ur fren... man... i treat u as best fren then believe u de lo... but thanks for ur stars... i believe u spend time doing it... thanks alot... n i tink frm wat sophia said... LYNETTE + MINGLI oso help in folding the stars rit... thanks to both of u oso... hehe...

then... of coz canot forget... MY DARLING!!! giving mi surprise again n again... he was sick... n i tot he realli didnt buy any present bcoz of dat... but he did... lolx... n i shld realli thank him... he buy mi a crumpler bag n a wallet... n i believe the wallet is bcoz he noe my wallet is getting dirty??? not quite sure... but dats wat i tink... although the crumpler is red... i still like it alot de... dun worry... =) thanks for treating mi so gd... n planning so much for mi everytime...

aft my darling still got MEIJUN... yup... yup... thanks... i noe u alwaz like to give mi accessories like necklace or earrings... lolx... but i dun understand y... but it doesnt matter... thanks for giving mi present... yup... yup... n i noe u spend alot of time to remind urself to bring the present rit... lolx... dats wat u tell mi... wahaha... i appreciate dat...

lastly... will b CLARISSA, MINGLI, JIAYAN, ZHILEI + GERMAINE... yup... yup... thanks wor... though we r now in diff classes le... u all still give mi present... thanks lots... n is clarissa buy one rit... thanks lots... hehe... wat they give is a musical jewelry box??? shld liddat say ba... hehe... i was tinkin wat can i put inside... bcoz my room is so damn messy... mayb i shall do some tidy up for my room... lolx... but a bit lazy lei... anyway... thanks alot... mingli... dun worry... its ok to forget to bring the card... =)

oh ya... n i hav to thank those pple who wish mi happy birthday... yup... yup... esp CASSANDRA... wahaha... she may not noe... but she is the first to wish mi happy birthday nehz... shall i give u a prize??? hmm... lolx... thanks everybody for remembering my birthday...

my worst birthday present will b a fail in ss ba... its damn diff... the other advance paper... i tink still ok ba... wish mi gd luck... continue to jiayou for mid yr... yay!

heya... everybody... lolx... im so high now...

lolx... kk... guess wat... i hav make a decision... which make mi somehow excited... n somehow happy a little... yup... yup... i hav decided to bcome his 'suitor'... v weird rit... im not trying to make known to everybody... im juz tyring to take note of tis day... bcoz can say dat i nvr b a suitor b4 la... bcoz u all shld noe... tis is a job of a guy... n he say... is up to mi... juz dat i may get hurt... fine... bcoz now i juz feel like doing stuff for him... making him happy n everything... dats y till now i still tinkin whether i shld give him the 5th month card... bcoz i scare he will go crazy or something liddat... hmm... shld i or shld i not... still tinkin... still tinkin... nvm... anyway... it doesnt matter...

but i b his suitor oni bcoz i wanna love him... i wanna take care of him... i wanna make him happy... i wanna treat him gd... yup... dats all... i no nd him to accept mi... i no nd him to love mi... i realli realli hope he will b happy la... i oredi dunno whether i can b by his side anymore... everything is up to him lo... i dun tink i will get hurt la... bcoz i do things willingly... n expect no return... i oni hope he will b happy... i oni hope he wun feel frustrated... i dun nd him to forgive mi oso... yup... yup... then i hav been tinkin... if he nvr tell mi the ans even b4 june holiday... r we not going to meet each other... i mean c each other... for 1 month... u noe the diff??? to go skol for one month n to hav holiday for one month... u all shld noe la... yup... yup... we will c how ba...

haiz... i realli nd u now... but u r not dere... i noe i m v irritating n annoying... haiz... dun tell mi wats gone is realli gone... dun tell mi dere is realli no turning back... haiz... im still waiting for the ans... im still hoping dat dere is a chance... im still hoping dat u will come back to mi... issit realli a dream??? the oni solution is to give up??? the oni solution is to let go??? shld i stay or shld i go... shld i wait or shld i let go... can we still go back to the past??? i cant accept the fact dat we cant go back anymore... i hav been hoping dat we can start afresh... i hav been hoping dat u will b the one who wan to b back together again... m i being naive here??? m i still dreaming??? m i still creating my own fantasy??? i guess... i can oni wait here... dunno for who... dunno for wat... aimlessly... waiting quietly... haiz...

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sadness still appear

damnit... i spend so much time in sditing one of my blog skins... yet... i cant use it!?! qi si wo le... anyway... tis skin will juz stay here until im free... until i found somemore skins... sianz... tis week is test week... is oso PFT week... oh no... i tink i will fail tis yr... i would like to try... i would like to train... but i dun hav the determination... as long as i noe it is juz a training... i can slack throughout... n dats mi towards sports... haiz... i realli wanna train!!! but i tink it is too late to train now... how i wish we can juz fail it n nobody cares... no nd retest n everything... then at least i wun feel sad abt it... i mean go tink so much abt it... i dun wan to suffer aft the test by failing it... no way!!! my stamina is getting worst... i dunno y... i fail like skipping PE... but at the same time... telling myself... i cant... i hav to train... i dun hav time to train aft skol... i shld at least train for PE... haiz... i realli dunno... tis week realli sucks... somemore friday is sports day... sad to say dat we gonna hav sports day on a weekday... which means we still hav to study... wat a tonpid skol... sianz...

tok abt other things then... i dunno y... but somehow when nth happen... i will still tink of the sadness... whether is tinkin abt my sis... whether is all the past relationship... i will still tink of the past... most of it is sad... nvr happy...

now studying hist... o... ya... i oso hav to study lit... hehe... dats all for today...