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laogaong... haha... now change le... no more dear liao... hmm... tis few days v happy... we sms for v long... then we every morning will meet lo... so gd... finally i realise he realli love mi... thanks lots wor... we r getting closer n closer le... i realli hope i wun get hurt again... hope everything will remain like tis... we may quarrel... but we muz oso reconcile... realli... hmm... dunno wat to post liao... post nxt time ba... juz wanna u noe... i realli love u nehz...

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hmm... saturday was v happy... dear msg mi using his mum hp... we chat for quite long ba... altogether ard 6 hours ba... dat was the happiest day le... coz we make the promise... n we tell each other how we feel... haiz... but today... v sad... dear did not go to skol... n when he msg mi i was so happy... actually he wanna mi acc him go c doctor de... but end up he go wif terry... actually he say i can oso go de... but when i was on my way to dere he msg mi again... say i betta dun go... he has to cut his hair scare no time to send mi home... haiz... he can dun meet mi bcoz he wan to cut his hair... y cant he meet mi n go cut his hair ltr... he realli love mi mahx??? though he say he do... but i m still tinking... did he ever do anithing to make mi real happy... did he ever sacrifice his time to meet mi or wait for mi?? i tink i sacrifice more than he do... realli... dun he noe i wanna meet him... we hav 2 weeks nvr meet le... n he juz throw the chance of meeting bcoz of his hair cut... i hope he call... at least he noe i m sad... but i doubt he will... i hate pple who give mi hope but upset mi in the end... he alwaz say he will meet mi de... but end up canot... everytime liddat de... dun he noe it is v diff for us to meet... y cant he juz cherish the chance of meeting... y will he make mi sad when he say he love mi... y cant he treat mi betta... haiz... supe duper sad...

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wa... today dear nvr go skol wor... who ask u to go home late lo... still nvr call mi somemore... u gd lo... aiya... anyway i m now more mature le... i wun stop u frm breaking wif mi... bcoz since u noe how to say break means u dun love mi le... no point to continue le... u may stop loving mi le... but i tink i wun ba... is everytime liddat de... if one day i realli 4get u le i oni hope when i find someone else he will love mi truly... n he will realli treasure mi... u r gd... but i noe u dun love mi dat much... i cried alot... realli.. but when i m in a relationship, i m not scare of crying... i oni scare dat my stead dun love mi as much as i do... n dat is u ba... u can dun call mi for two days... wan call then call... dun wan call then dun call... wan meet then meet... dun wan meet then dun meet... but i cant... if i dun meet i will realli feel like dying... if u dun call i will feel like crying... do u noe dat??? all tis i noe v clearly... realli... ur love n care has been decreasing... sometimes i m juz going to ask myself to fang de kai... so dat i will not b so sad... nothing gold can stay... all gd things will come to an end... so pls cherish those moments while u still hav the chance... wanna compare to last time... watever i hav say in tis blog... is all wat u say to mi last time... last time is u say u will fall sick if u dun meet mi... now is not le... yesterday u at js hse n u dun even bother to call mi... i read ur testi n i was so happy dat ur frens ask u to treasure ur stead... pls do... n i hope u realli do... haiz... do u realli love mi??? everything is opposite now... at the beginning... i was so happy dat i hav u bcoz u realli show dat u love mi n care for mi alot... but now... no more... i was sad dat i cant catch ur heart... i was sad dat i let u go... i was sad dat u love mi no more... haiz...

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dear... realli miss u wor... haiz... ard 2 weeks canot meet nehz... u like dun mind liddat... do u realli care??? today saw u in skol... we juz wave to each other n u look so cold... not happy to c mi at all... u dun love mi le mahx??? u yesterday nvr call mi wor... so sianz... then at nite i was too stress again le... i realli wish to ask u tis... when u noe i go to skol alone y didnt u acc mi go lei??? u dun show any care at all... u hav nvr ask to wait for mi aft skol to go home together... i noe i shld not mind abt dat... but tis is a way to meet... if not how r we going to meet??? telling pple dat we r in the same skol but seldom meet is ridiculous lo... but u juz dun care... i doubt saturday we can meet too... coz whenever u say we can meet end up we sure cant meet de... is alwaz liddat... dats y i dun tink i m happy b4... i realli dun believe u love mi dat much... compared to last time... u oredi treating mi bad le... do u noe dat??? u nvr even call mi dear le... i dunno wat to say... but the distance is getting bigger... now i hav u in my heart... dunno whether u hav mi in the heart... but the relationship is juz liddat... in the heart... nobody noes abt anithing... do u realli tink tis is gd??? do u understand wat i wan n how i feel??? y m i alwaz the one tinkin n sad lei... i dunno whether u hav tink abt it... but u hav oredi show mi le... wat if today u nvr call again??? wat m i going to do??? nth ba... until u find dat dere is some prob ba... but if u dun call is oredi showing dat u dun miss mi n u dun care... i hav been telling myself u still care n love mi de... n i realli hope the truth wun disappoint me... everything is shown in watever u do... realli... i noe it... dun regret aft u lose something...

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haiz... life is meaningless sia... i hav been waiting... to meet u today... one week oredi... n u say we will meet today de... but u didnt... u end up going to shuyuan's birthday... damn sad lo... dun u noe??? i was so scare u wun call mi today le... but i realli wan to tok to u... i realli wan u to noe how sad i m... canot... u nvr call mi... i m still waiting... dun u miss mi??? i cried for almost 3 hours le... cant even tok to u... doubt u will call mi too... i realli dunno wat to do... i hate u for making mi feeling liddat... i hate u to make mi sad everytime... i realli hate u... i truly hate u... y dun u noe how i feel??? y muz u make mi sad... it is reaching the second month but i dun feel happy at all... how cum... i juz noe i v sad... dunno wat to do... v sianz... v fan... he dun even hav the time to tok to mi... i realli love him... but he dun love mi... how can he treat mi tis way... he can even 4get to call mi... does he realli love mi??? does he realli miss mi??? i hate him to core n he sucks to core... realli... i dunno when i will b happy again... i juz noe i gonna b dead soon... i m realli super duper tired... will my life b more happy without him??? he juz dun understand n i realli dun hav the chance to make him understand... mayb i realli hav to do dat... haiz... sobx...

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dear... miss u so much... but u say today dun meet... then tml tink i cant go... friday mayb can meet... mayb canot... c how... but dunno lei... shld i b happy??? u say sat meet is the easiest... does tis mean real gd or u dun care for mi lei??? dun wanna tink... anyway today we tok quite long de... i v happy le... at least we settle everything... not like last time... as long as u call mi n we settle everything... we got meet anot doesnt matter at all... realli... though i will miss u... but nvm la... we will still meet no matter wat de ma... so dess nehz... u dun online is not bcoz u r realli slping... is bcoz u r moving soon... nvm la... as long as u show dat u care... i will b conteneted easily... juz like today... even though u say dun meet... but at least we tok quite long de... so i m not angry at all... hehe... hmm... u say u will call mi tml... i hope u realli will... if not then i sad le... :( update the information... hope saturday i can go jiayan's relative bbq... at least no nd go home so early... hope he will go wif mi too... kaoz... everything nd $ lei... my sportsleader shirt cost twenty to thirty dollars... guzheng dress cost almost ninty... then still got maths olymiad book ard four... then still hav to buy ticket for the ngee ann sec concert... eight nehz... mi mum wan scold mi le... everything nd $... but i oredi try to keep it little by paying some... still so ex... haiz... then tue v busy... got perform during assembly... then aft dat go old folks home... then at nite hav to go watch ngee ann pple perform... sianz... no choice...

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no matter wat happen my love for u will nvr change... realli... everytime when i m angry wif u... is not bcoz i dun love u... is bcoz i love u too much... u keep disappointing mi... u keep letting mi down... whenever u say u will meet mi i was so happy... but end up will b sad... u either tell mi u cant make it or u r still slping... i dun dare to believe in u anymore... scaring to get hurt again... sometimes i realli tot of giving up... i may b happy aft dat... but i cant... bcoz i love too much... hoping the situation will get betta... but everytime dere is juz disappointment... haiz... n u juz dunno... u will b nagry wif mi... sometimes i find it realli sad... u can if u dun wanna find mi... i cant... when i wan to find u i canot find u... wat shld i do... u may b angry... but i cant u... i may b sad... i oso cant find u... u oso wun bother to find mi... can u juz ask urself... do u still love mi??? ans mi frankly... the love is gone... realli... i can feel it... the way u treat is oredi canot b compared frm last time le... do u noe dat??? no matter how hard i try to find n tok to u,it bcome nth in the end... i dunno wat i hav done to make things like tis... but now is realli terrible... i realli feel terrible too... i wan to c u... i wan u to acc mi go watch movie today... but was unable to tell u... bcoz u nvr call mi... u oni make mi sad n angry... dun tell mi u dunno... end up i m the one giving in... y... bcoz i love u too much... dun wanna u angry... dun wanna u liddat... i hate myself for being so soft... i hate myself to give in everytime... i hate myself to let go ur love...

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dear... miss u v much wor... u haven call mi today lei... was unable to tell u abt my program... r u sick??? so worried for u nehz... is ur pc spoilt or watever?? haven seen u online v long le... waiting for ur call nehz... i hav to admit something... u dun love mi like the way u does last time... realli... i dunno y... i realli scare we cant carry on... but i dun wanna break... i juz wanna u to treat mi betta... bcoz i love u... but if u tink u cant treat mi betta le then of coz dere is no choice le... if u realli love mi then pls treat mi betta n not breaking up wif mi... u shld noe wat i wan ba... haiz... hav been studying science... so tiring... still nd to do project...then tml hav to go skol b4 7... to do project n study... so ke lian... muz stay at skol until 6 something... is more than 12 hours lo... how ar... i realli dunno how... can u love mi more n not less??? can u tink of mi more n not less??? i dun wan our memories to end here... i wan us to last... not forcing u oso la... but u r the oni one whom i tink dere is future... n realli treat mi gd... realli... now oni left u... n u r going further n further... haiz... wat m i suppose to do then??? pls dun leave mi... pls treat mi like wat u did last time... pls show care... pls find mi when u r free n not one day a five mins call... pls let mi noe dat u still love mi...

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dear... today is ok la... we went to watch terry perform lion dance... so cool... n a little scary... quite happy... coz we hav not meet abt 3 to 4 days le... finally... haha... at the beginning u haven wake up i tot we will not meet de... but then when u called mi i was so happy... hehe... we did nth today... but was oredi v happy to c u le... hmm... u look sick wor... muz take care of urself nehz... last time mayb is i ask for too much ba... now i find dat i hav to take it easy le... so if u nvr call mi i wun b angry de.. i can oni hope u got tink of mi ba... today ur mood oso not v gd hor... u hav to go early bcoz of mi... so ps... realli v sorie nehz... aft i show u dat msg u like more sad liddat... aiyo... muz b happy ok... i everything listen to u... realli... i scare i will miss u again wor... coz is holiday le... u dun even noe when i hav to go skol or watever... nvm la... now oni ask for a simple life... we cant meet everyday... u dun hav to noe wat i hav each day... but i oso wish u wun b sad or angry if i cant meet u lo... but i believe u will b happy even without mi ba... tink nxt week will oni meet one day lo... tink so ba... i juz scare u will call mi when i m in skol... tink i hav to realli tell u le... if not i will b sad... dun wish to miss any of ur call...

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dear... today... same thing again... u nvr find mi... v sad nehz... but tink i canot alwaz stick to u lo... sometimes i juz find dat i m such a failure... i dun even noe whether u r in skol today... dunno where u go... does tis look like stead... if u tink it is fine to b liddat then i got nth to say la... yesterday v stress... cant slp... then cry... i dun like u to call mi everytime n nvr tok... i mean we tok things which r v boring... make mi even more fan n sad lo... n u say it is alrit if i dun go... make mi realli dun feel like going le... can we realli continue liddat??? when then u will find mi lei... v sianz nehz... everyday wait for u... sometimes u nvr even call mi... say u overslept... wat does tis show... u love mi or u dun love mi... u care abt mi or dun... pls ask urself... realli... if u say u treat mi liddat bcoz u love mi then i got nth to say... u realli alwaz slp lo... wun even spend time wif mi... u will oni tell mi dat u r v tired... seeing pple aft skol meet n go home together... i was so envious... but... ai qing bu neng zuo bi jiao... though i envy but as long as u love mi, wat else can i say... but i dun feel it... one day tok once... or even nvr c each other at all... i dun tink i m v stick to u... we r oredi diff frm others in the way of contacting... i cant find u... oni u can find mi... i felt so terrible whenever i cant find u... but tis is no choice de... i love u... dats y i will wait for u... tis is oso the reason y i say i love u more than u love mi... coz i find dat u r alwaz not happy wif mi... i can oni say sorie n hope u fogive... when then i can hear u saying sorie n begging for my forgiveness... is not dat i wan dat to happen... but juz find dat u did nth to realli show dat u love mi... wat shld i do???

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dear... today 4got to bring handphone to skol lei... tink i mayb wun bring to skol le... find it easier to concentrate... but i oso noe u wun find mi de... today can say quite sad ba... yesterday u nvr call mi... u say u will de... end up u didnt... tis morning oso nvr come n find mi... during my art lesson u oso nvr find mi... i actually tot u nvr cum to skol n was worried... but when i heard my frens say they saw u then i felt relax... dun u noe how much i care for u??? haiz... today i go home alone nehz... u oso nvr find mi... dunno lei... u dun love mi as much le... did u realise??? i noe i shldnt tink liddat coz i dunno how u feel... but i realli cant feel it... though sometimes i noe u realli love mi... but i find dat i m trying to tink dat way... n when one day u realli dun love mi le i will still dunno... coz i tot u love mi... n suddenly i felt myself so ugly lo... not compatible for u at all lo... suddenly find dat i hav to keep a distance wif u... haiz... dunno lei... my holiday time is confirm le... haha... i can go tis sat but hav to go home b4 9... thursday lei... i tink no high hopes la... i oso not v free ma... v sianz... v fan... when then u will noe how i feel??? if we continue liddat r we realli going to last??? i tot as stead, we muz alwaz or rather we shld alwaz noe where is each other each time... i dun tink u noe i hav guzheng today... i dun tink u noe wat time i go home today... n u nvr even ask... dun even bother to find mi... all u do is slp... haiz... nvr tink of mi at all... u found mi le... but then wat i heard is disappointment... instead of persuading mi to go, u tell mi dat if i dun go oso nvm... though u may tink tis may ease mi... but now realli damn sad le... waiting for ur call... finally u called... no... finally i found u... wat u tell mi is tis... i sad until dun wish to say anithing... u may hav no choice bcoz u r using fren's hp... end up u hang up... left mi to b sad alone... i realli dunno... suddenly feel so xin ku... mayb i shld take some rest ba... haiz...

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dear... today is sad or happy lei... i wonder y nehz... the first u do when u reach home is to slp... other than dat u hav nth else to do... y cant u online n tok to mi lei??? mi find dat as time pass, u treat mi not as gd le... i mean... last time u will everyday online n c if i online... but aft being wif u 4 sometimes u may get used to it le... n find dat i will not leave u... so instead of onlining,u simply juz call mi once everyday... life has bcum so boring... though sometimes u r real gd... treat mi gd n u realli care... today is such a coincidence dat i met u at the bus stop... i tot u will not send mi home... coz i rmb u did dat once... but u sent mi home... i was so happy... haha... can say dat i m contented ba... even if u oni call mi once a day... at least u did call mi... everytime i meet u,u will surely say dat u r tired... so sianz rit... everytime hear u say dat... dunno when then u not tired de... but then tis few days u oso nvr check ur hp le... so i oso nvr msg u le... dat is oso y u dun even noe wat time i going to release today... u wun noe unless i tell u n u dun even ask... tml sure cant meet de... u dunno wat time i release... v difficult... anyway tis sat rit... i realli wan to go... i hav nvr seen b4... realli wish i can go... will try no matter wat lo... nxt thursday lei then i dunno le... not i dun wan to go... is u oso noe i like almost everyday will go to skol... then holiday sure got homework de ma... unless i can finish my homework b4 thurs lo... n somemore bbq nehz... it is not going to end late... n it is going to start late... even if u send mi home... wat u expect mi to tell my parents??? cant possibly tell them my stead send mi home ba... muz tink of a reason... n a valid one... n if i nvr even finish my homework, dun tink i will spend my time going the bbq lei... skol is so stress lo... so sianz... then june holiday got camp lei... more sianz... 9 to 11 june... wun u miss mi??? still say it will b fun... hmm... if u realli move hse then gd le... can go skol wif mi everyday... so convenient... hehe... find mi oso convenient... so happy nehz... is tis call fate??? even ur mum wan us to b together... haha...

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haiz... today is a v sad day... i went to do my project in the morning... happy dat he called mi... happy dat i can meet him... bcoz of him,i went to my fren's hse early... hoping to c him as soon as possible... but he was not dere... he is still wif his another fren... cutting hair... it doesnt realli matter at all... coz he did call mi aft dat... i went to funland to meet him... happy though... i can c him... aft dat he go to his brother dere... mi n my fren then go find her stead... i actually tot today will end liddat... i wun b able to meet him... i hav to go home n wait for his call... when i receive his call again,i was so happy... i was able to meet him again... so damn happy at dat time... i even make 2 hearts... ready to give him... but end up i was unable to... he alwaz make mi wait... he alwaz make mi walk a long way... he alwaz wan mi to find him instead of him finding mi... is not dat i mind he alwaz hang up wif his fren n leave mi alone... is juz dat i tink we juz cant tok when we r in front of them... end up he nvr send mi home too... he is alwaz angry wif mi... i dunno y... act angry or watever... sometimes i juz find dat i shld b the one angry n not him... he shld b the one who cheer mi up... n not mi... y muz i do those kind of things... i hav no choice... coz i dun like him to b sad or angry... bcoz i love him... does tis show dat i love him more than he love mi??? i dunno... i realli dunno... i wan to tok to him... but i cant... he wan mi to laugh... i canot... i rmb dat time... we almost break... he say he v tired... now can i say i m tired too??? does he tink dat it is fun to b angry wif mi??? he even treat dat as a joke... is dat funny??? when he say he was tired n feel like breaking,i actually stop him... now i find dat i m stupid to do so... bcoz if he love mi he will continue no matter how hard it is... but he chose to give up... i realli wish to ask him... do u realli love mi??? hav u ever tink of dat??? i tell myself when he say break again i will not stop anymore... realli... bcoz i believe i m not a gd stead... n dat if he realli wan to give up,it is his choice... he now might b tinkin abt breaking ba... whenever i m sad he is liddat... sometimes i tink dat he shld console mi n cheer mi up instead of tinkin to break... m i rit??? who will wan their stead to say break when u r truly sad... if dat day realli comes,i dunno the memories will b sad or happy...

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o... i cant post everyday wor... but then tink i still can tell wat happen each day... they r all in my organizer... haha... yesterday was so happy... aft skol i meet him... take bus go my hse dere... unfortunately my sis had oredi reach home... nvm la... at hse downstair oso the same ma... haha... then we go the pond dere n throw stone... is at nite... so happy... we hold hand nehz... not the first time of coz... but then rarely la... then aft dat we go the park dere... play 4 a while oni... he help mi carry my bag then keep saying my bag is v heavy... haha... went home at ard 8.30... hmm... we hugz of coz... tis is wat we alwaz did ba... everytime cant bear him to go unless we hugz... haha... then today he v weird lei... he meet mi aft skol oso... but tis time at my hse dere... pass mi the cd, send mi home le... stay a while then go le... again wif his frens... but then alrit la... i oredi get used n find it ok le... then he smoke ma... b4 he go actually wan hugz de... but tink i say abt him smoking then he walk away le... mayb he tink i dun wanna hugz him ba... but is not liddat de... he borrow poker frm mi n i dun expect him to go so early de... miss a hugz... but then tink still got chance ba... i m sure we appreciate each hugz we gave each other... wun take it for granted de... i find dat we r getting closer n closer... oso wish dat we will last... realli... tink dat is abt all ba... hope i dun miss out anithing... haha...

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miss my dear nehz... he dunno go where le... nvr online... nvr call mi... i make tis blog oso dun dare to tell him... hehe... scare if i write anithing then let him c... ltr he nt happy or wat then i die le... he muz realli thank his frens le... if nt for his frens,i may still b sad till now... i realli cant feel the love... but aft hearing wat his frens say,i finally realise how much he love mi... we started on the 23 january... hmm... 1 month plus oni... but then ok la... happy dat i hav him as my dear... he is gd... real gd... but dunno y he likes to b angry wif mi... make mi v sad... then aft dat he treat dat nth has happen... i noe he feel v terrible when he noe i sad... but then sometimes i realli felt terrible too... when i cant find him... whenever he make mi sad... tis is no choice de ba... but then i realli love him... realli hope he wun b sad bcoz of mi again... thanks god dat he has those frens... when he is wif them,i can ensure dat he will b happy... tis few days dunno wat happen... we 2 alwaz like nt happy liddat... sometimes i oso dunno how to cheer him up lo... feel so bad... anyway i oni hope we can last... i dun wan dat day to come wor... no matter how difficult it is... no matter how sad i will b... i will hold on... even if i cant find him i will still wait 4 him... believe dat he will not juz 4get mi liddat... today nvr meet... so sad nehz... tis week i oso like everyday booked lo... so sianz... anyway we will meet one day de ba... if not go skol meet oso can... but then tis morning he cum n find mi i m nt happy at all lo... sometimes i juz find dat i will rather nt to meet him lo... coz he like tok a while then go le... so meaningless... then make mi v sad... tok less than 5 minutes nehz... then he like wan to go liddat... haiz... anyway i juz hope we can meet n tok one day ba...