oh my. i slept like pig yesterday.
LOLx. i guess got 12 hours.
hopefully i will feel energetic today.
coz i got tons of homework to do.
haha. wonder whether i will complete la.

today is supposed to b metro gathering de.
but then. i dun wanna spend money on food.
plus its at jurong east.
though v long nvr c them. but i dun feel like going =x
so met up wif soph.
LOLx. coz she tink its too far for her.
we went shopping ard at far east.
i like a top from artiris n a dress from mesh.
man. i tink its v nice. but i dun wan to try.
haha. v lazy u noe.
so i juz walk ard lo. LOLx.
saw a few nice bag n alot of things la.
but nvr realli wan to buy oso.
anyway i got no chance to use it.
v long nvr meet up wif her so we juz keep tokin,
LOLx. then go drink our favourite bubble tea!
ok la. dats abt all. nth much actually.
hav to start reading newspaper n everything oredi.
guess tml will b meeting huimin to study.
or prob she will juz come my hse ba. LOLx.

its oni 2 days away.
i realise to forget u is to nvr love u again.
i wonder whether i can realli do dat.

HAHA. its friday oredi! omg.
im feeling so tired rit now.
coz i slept at 2plus am yesterday.
which means i had abt 4 hours of slp.
LOLx. n now my eyes r closing.

yesterday went back school at 3plus.
my god. im supposed to slack at home la.
LOLx. but no choice. its exco meeting.
have to go discuss abt the camp.
i brought my lap top n clothing along.
coz aft dat im supposed to meet my class pple for pool.
LOLx. come on. pool is so fun =x
though im not realli gd at it. haha.
who were they yesterday.
gals oni got mi n fiona la.
guys got jon jaryl jj victor n bing.
aft dat i met ger. so went home tgt! =)
the minute i reach home i chiong PW la.
chiong until abt 1am. then start doing a card.
for someone whose birthday is today. LOLx.
im so nice rit. THANKS. i noe dat. haha.

today we didnt do much in school.
its all PW discussion n lecture. *faint*
the more i feel like slping =x haha.
but here comes the climax.
31/08 celebrated for the june babies today!
june babies consist of kenga, seowying and joseph.
LOLx. we v nice rit.
we bought them a big cake n individual present.
hope they like it though.
its not easy to get them present la.
LOLx. coz we dun realli noe them well.
yeah. so dats the fun part abt today in school.
n oh ya. THANKS FIONA JOYCE SIOWYUN!
LOLx. for giving mi the esprit clutch for my birthday.
though its late. but its betta than nth.
n they bought wat i like. LOLx.
though fiona. u make it quite obvious ah.
haha. but its ok. still thank u.
esp for spending the time to make the card!
i noe u were bored dat day. but still. THANKS!
haha. i realli tink i hav great frens man. =p
did i thank natalie for the bottle she bought mi dat day??
i dunno. haha. if i didnt then i shall say thanks here.

so today aft the celebration i met up wif ger.
went back to zhss tgt to collect our testimonial.
LOLx. ok la. its below my expectation. but it doesnt matter.
haha. we walk ard the skol.
n shes like reminiscing the past. haha.
i dunno y i nvr do dat. prob i went back a few times le ba.
or mayb i juz dun feel anithing anymore.
when i go back i do tink of whether i will c him.
but i noe i will nvr c him. so its ok.
the dateline is oni like 3 days ltr.
actually i noe tis time i can do it.
wif determination n everything i noe i can b happy w/o him.
its juz somethings i haven do yet.
juz dunno whether i shld do.
ok. so aft we leave zhss we went bishan.
walk walk ard then go sakae! LOLx.
man. i damn long nvr go liao can.
but then im broke now oredi. LOLx. once again.
dun say oredi. i shall b guai the nxt few days.
then i wun spend anymore money. haha.
supposed to go run wif ger one.
but im realli super tired. my eyes r closing man.
LOLx. too long nvr run n everything oredi.
now im v bad at running n doing inclined all dat.
my god. i nd to start training again oredi.
JIAYOU! SMITS! lets go run one day. haha.

WOOHOO! MID YEARS IS OVER!!!
LOLx. like finally?? haha.
tis time i nvr study much.
i dunno wat i hav been doing throughout the holidays.
but i was realli stressed last week.
coz im doing last minute study. LOLx.
which of coz is not effective at all.
im gonna fail econs for sure.
tis one is confirm de.
u pple juz hav to trust wat i say.
LOLx. fiona can b my witness =)
bio n chem. may or mayb not pass.
or mayb. it will b a sub-pass. LOLx.
watever it is. i realli cant expect much for tis mid year.
maths. confirm pass. fail i will start crying oredi.
LOLx. dat one is will pass one.
juz whether its a c or b or a.
aiya. dun tink so much. haha.
ITS OVER! n we shall juz wait n c.
i did consider abt dropping jc if i realli canot do it by the end of the year.
but dats juz consideration.
i mean. if i realli canot do it i shall not force myself.
i will continue to work v hard n try my v best.
for my promos. but shall c my results by the end of the year ba.
seriously. tis mid year is like killing almost everyone??
most pple didnt even manage to finish the paper??
time management is a prob.
or mayb we juz arent supposed to finish it. LOLx.
i dunno. but those who finish it. good for them.

now dat its over. i guess i shld get some slp.
i shld oso work extra hard for my PW.
thanks joyce! for the encouragement u hav given.
i will work extra hard n motivate them =)
all the research minutes and EoM. LOLx.
i find project work a bit sian sometimes. haha.
but nvm. since we hav to do it we shld do it well.
hopefully things will get betta ba.
n i haven complete the holiday homework. LOLx.
shit man. now its time to chiong homework again.
school work is always never-ending. haha.
yay! tml no school.
good luck for the physics paper. LOLx.
but then i tink hav to go back school anyway.
exco meeting regarding the camp...................

i got so much to say la.
but i dun hav the time!! arghh.
i sacrifice juz a bit of my time posting.
LOLx. at the same time take a break.
omg. i cant stand it anymore.
i seriously dun feel like studying.
i dunno whether i regret going jc.
but i noe the reason i go to jc.
its juz dat now. i totally hav no life!
its a little bit de stress now oni lo.
when everybody is revising. im studying.
haven even finish studying. LOLx.
n i oni hav a bt 1 to 2 more days left.
come on. i dunno wat i shld do actually.
but im tired of studying.
shld i stop studying?? LOLx.
nah. i shld juz try my best. JIAYOU!

n i cant help but tinkin.
but NO! im not supposed to tink of tis now.
coz im supposed to b studying.
n moreover. i oredi set a dateline.
ok. its difficult to get him out.
but wif determination tis time round.
i guess n hope i can. please.
though its realli a bit xin ku now.
but nvm. i can do it de!
deres actually alot of things dat i wan to do.
i realli tink thru.
wat i shld do n wat im going to do.
n i ask myself. wat i seriously wan.
i still got alot of time.
n of coz. more pple for mi to meet.

tis part is gonna sound v bad. LOLx.
hope my guy frens wun b offended.
guys r juz sucky creatures.
some juz treat gals as toys.
n its seriously difficult for them to b devoted.
n y cant guys juz do wat they say.
y muz they say something n do otherwise.
guys who tell lies r shit.
guys who dun dare to admit things dat they say or do r coward.
omg. i juz realise the description fits someone exactly.
but anyway he wont b reading my blog. LOLx.
he shld betta noe dat hes a sucky bastard. =x
im scolding like shit oredi. haha.
but of coz im not saying all guys r liddat.
n my guy frens. pls make sure u doesnt fit the description.

omg. so long nvr post oredi. LOLx.
a bit de busy oni ah.

oh ya. Mr Kelvin Tan pass away on sunday.
it was realli a v sad n shocking news.
nobody expect tis to happen at all.
alot of us r v sad.
didnt manage to go to the wake.
coz my sis gave birth on monday.
i canot go to wake b4 i c my sis.
so in the end i didnt go.
but seriously. everyone is v sad abt dat.
so anyway. i went to c my sis on monday.
got another nephew oredi. jaydius.

so tuesday deres tis studying session.
wif fiona jj jaryl victor joyce at jon's hse.
LOLx. first time going to his hse.
his dog is actually v cute la. my god.
but actually tis study session is a bit de slack.
we r seriously slacking most of the time.
im actually behind time la.
deres alot to study n complete.
we had pizza at his hse for lunch.
n his mum baked apple cake. damn nice. haha.
so at nite we went chomp chomp to hav dinner.
i didnt eat alot. coz was feeling sick oredi.
haha. then aft dat got chatting session.
overall its quite fun la.
but we didnt study much.

ok. so yesterday was supposed to go for maths consultation.
end up didnt. wake up le but feel v sian to go skol.
haha. so end up nvr go lo.
aft dat i went out. had my birthday treat.
but i shld juz say i wasted my time.
i dunno. aiya. i dun care.
from tis point onwards nobody will c dat i mention him.
i wont tok abt him ever again.
i hav set a dateline for myself. wif yj help. LOLx.
30th june. dats the dateline.
aft dat day i will put everything behind mi n say gdbye.
hopefully i can do it la hor.
BE POSITIVE! lolx.

so anyway today. im gonna mug hard.
but im going out soon to look for shoes.
haha. its gonna b fast.
i received an sms today. from jerry.
got a shock actually.
coz seriously v long nvr tok to him oredi.
dats wat i call catching up wif old fren.
realli old fren sia. LOLx.
but sorie. im not ready to go out wif any guys.
even though hes juz fren. haha.
mi n him de past ah. hmm.
i guess its long over n i dun realli rmb oredi. haha.

n dats when i realise i actually hav alot of frens.
n i hav frens who care abt mi.
thanks alot to my frens.
i will try to stop caring abt unimpt pple.
since im unimpt to them.
i shall divert my care to all my frens. =)

ok. today was the National Youth Envirolympic Challenge 2008.
LOLx. went dere to b station master.
its not dat we r too free or anithing ok.
we r juz helping jeryl. though my group kinda screwed.
we took group pics! haha.
my group consist of jonny, denise n jiaxin.
not bad ah. made frens thru tis event lei. LOLx.
hav to say sorie to cass for not saving her today =x
haha. bcoz yongjie was driving her crazy.
but i bet they had alot of fun =x
but i feel v bad today. so sorie.
i dunno. coz i noe hes dere.
so somehow my mind is filled wif him??
its v bad of mi. but ya.
ok. i shall stop tinkin n tokin abt him oredi.
we r juz frens after all =)

tis morning was kinda funny.
was supposed to meet sheryl, serene n yongjie for breakfast.
we are meeting 6.30am at the mac at hougang.
n guess wat. i receive yongjie's call in the morning.
tinkin dat. wa. hes so nice to give morning call.
n dats oso when i realise its 6.30am oredi.
im still on bed! LOLx. a bit de funny ah.
end up nvr realli eat breakfast.
was like so late?? reach at abt 8. my god.
sorie jonny! u all hav to wait for mi. haha.
im like super tired the whole day??
slept at 2plus yesterday la.
n now. im realli v tired.
i guess im gonna slp soon n wake up early tml.
coz i nvr study for like 2 days oredi??
i dun wan to freak out for mid years la. LOLx.

oh ya. yongjie has juz admitted dat hes not a man.
LOLx. finally. w/o any argument.
he say hes too tired to let mi lose.
but i guess im juz too tired to c him lose =x
haha. WATEVER!

ok. anyway. aft the event i went my grandma hse.
was late for the father's day celebration.
a bit de tired oni lo.
went dere to eat durian cake! yummy.
everybody asking mi abt my crumpler bag.
i mean my relatives.
n i dunno how to ans them. LOLx.

haha. my nephew juz say bye to mi n give mi a kiss.
LOLx. hes so damn cute la. =p

i was realli quite hurt when i c the email.
i guess my motivation is gone again.
i spent so much time doing it.
im treating it so seriously.
yet. everything has changed now.
prob bcoz i realli didnt do my job well ba.
i dunno. mayb im wrong ba.
mayb i shldnt b in exco at all.
then i will b more free than anybody else. hais.

oh. firstly. muz wish jianxiang n hongzhen HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
LOLx. its their birthday today.
but they dunno each other. too bad.
so yesterday went chinatown swensens.
to celebrate jianxiang's birthday.
at first dun wan eat de. super on budget can.
but end up canot resist the temptation. LOLx.
actually deres nth much la.
we took a photo tgt but i haven get it yet.
STUPID YONGJIE! faster send to mi. LOLx.
actually i noe i can get from jiayan lo. blehz.

today is our OG outing. LOLx.
ok la. oni abt 8 to 9 of us.
we celebrated charlie's birthday in advance.
n its v funny coz he dun even noe.
when we bring in the cake hes singing wif us.
until we sing. happy birthday to charlie. LOLx.
i tink he realise at dat time ba.
aft celebrating n eating lunch we go play pool.
as usual. OG outing is always liddat.
nth much la. many nd to go off early.
so i reach home 7plus. kinda early oso.

tml going for dat environment thing. omg.
i guess its gonna b damn sian.
7plus to 5plus. *faint*
n sheryl say she wan to eat mac breakfast b4 we go.
LOLx. which means hav to wake up damn early.
aft dat still nd to go grandma hse.
to celebrate father's day. LOLx.
yay! nxt week gonna hav study session oredi. haha.
but then they say prob postponing class outing.
i dunno. im fine wif anithing. juz feel a bit sian oni.

yesterday was too tired man. LOLx.
but oso dunno y. so nvr realli post anithing.
ok. shall tok abt yesterday.
for 4e4 gathering we watch narnia.
n then went modesto's for dinner.
ok. its not ex dere. but its not cheap too.
was kinda disappointed.
coz pple who say they will turn up end up didnt.
some juz dun wan to come. some hav their reason.
so i watched narnia oredi.
hmm. i dunno to say whether its nice or not.
i can oni say its damn exciting. LOLx.
coz its all abt fighting. n their coolness =x
haha. so ya. overall its ok la.
aft dat the guys went to play pool.
mi n cass supposed to join them one.
but end up shopping =x
i bought my Mango basics oredi. finally.
then bring them to esprit n show them my favourite clutch!
damn nice la. juz dat its not a nd for mi.
but aft yesterday i decided not to spend money anymore.
though i didnt spend realli alot.
but i tink i oredi start to feel the pain of spending oredi.
haha. so. im not gonna spend anymore!
im on budget now. save save save!
i was feeling quite sad yesterday coz im broke. haha.
but its over oredi.
we took tons of pics yesterday. its like omg.
we spend our time in the restaurant taking pics.
i guess pple in the restaurants were looking at us la.
germaine camt back from AB camp n odac trip oredi.
but i dunno y sometimes i feel distant.
prob bcoz i too long nvr tok to her n she got no time for mi??
mayb ba. but i guess things will get betta de ba.
recently juz find it difficult to hav the mood for anithing.
shall upload the photos some other days.
its alot la. nd to collect from mutiple pple. LOLx.

ok. abt today.
actually its nth much. juz went out study wif cassandra.
at novena starbuck once again. haha.
but i didnt drink tis time. im on budget yeah.
so on the way back i decided to buy my favourite.
i did. n then was on my way walking back home as usual.
i enter the lift n took out my phone.
then something v happy happen. haha.
decided not to cite the details here.
i noe wat happen can le ba.
im looking forward to nxt week.
though i noe eventually nth will happen.
though i noe i cant hope for anithing to happen oso.
but im still happy. thanks for making my day! =)
hope dat day will b happy for both of us ba.
i noe alot of my frens wun b happy abt dat.
i noe wat they will say.
but i oso hope dat they understand.
dats wat make mi happy n give mi the motivation for everything.
i can oni blame myself for being emo in the future ba.
same thing doesnt happen twice.
so i dun wan to regret in the future.
dats my decision.
dats the end for today i guess.
im gonna continue mugging man.
one day is not even enough for one subject la.
so shit man.

Tis song is damn nice!
Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core..

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

ok. yesterday was definitely a tiring day.
finally a new day has begin =)
anyway. im supposed to dedicate one post fo fiona.
haha. i give u part of the post ok? =x
SORIE FIONA. n i try my best to make sure it wont happen again.
sometimes realli hav no choice u noe.
thanks for sharing wif mi most of the time.
n i forget to tell u. dionne help u scold mi oredi. haha.
ok. so anyway. i nd to thank my frens for listening to mi.
especially cassandra yongjie jonny n mr mok. haha.
thanks thanks so much!
now dat its over. shall not tink abt it anymore.

so anyway. its 4e4 gathering today!!
woohoo. LOLx. n we ask mr poh.
though most pple can oni make it for the dinner la.
but its more than enough. realli.
n im watching narnia today!! yes yes.
finally. wahaha. but another day is gone for mi.
i haven realli study for tis few days lo.
i dunno. i will try my best.
aft yesterday i hav decided.
i nd to b decisive. i cant b fickle anymore.
muz make quick decision oso. dun hesitate.
dun drag things on.
as usual i will still tink alot. cant help mi.
dats a difficult thing to change.
but i muz do things wif determination.
since i hav to do it i will do it well.
since i wan to do it. i will do it well.

ok. im staying at home today!! LOLx.
i dunno y im so happy.
but aft i post tis im going to start work!!
mugging. mugging. MUGGING! haha.
ok. welcome back for the odacians.
n by rit. TLDDS oso back rit. hmm. haha.
they r back yesterday yeah.
ok. so these r the photos i took yesterday. =)
random pic. was at huimin's workplace.
hav been reading the newspaper the whole day. LOLx.
n was feeling damn bored so we start playing pool.
then we play black jack.
she took a loser video of mi... =( LOLx.
ok. here r the pics.


told u im bored. dats the evidence. n look! newspaper. LOLx.


my lucky number 7! =)


the winning ball. =p


pink ball!


purple ball!

last but not least.
tis is so far my favourite doughnut from doughnut factory.
DOUBLE CHOCOLATE! =p


anyway. dat day i went build-a-bear wif jiayan.
omg. they r so cute. im tempted.
but tinkin of spending so much on a bear. hmm.
a bit de not worth it ah. LOLx.
but if i got the chance. i will get it (for him).
ignore wats in the bracket. haha.

i tink i hav to blame myself for not forgetting.
coz i tink is i dun wan to forget.
it seems like when i tok abt something. his name will appear.
i went shopping. i saw tis soccer watch. i tink of buying for him.
its like. everything is abt him?? i juz cant stop myself.
so i tink its nobody's fault. its mine.
n. i reali dunno i wan to forget.
perhaps. my frens' memories wif mi will slowly replace him ba.
as the years pass. i guess our memories will fade.
though its still dere. but it wont mean anithing anymore.
one example will b the movie narnia.
it will nvr b a show dat i oni watch wif him.
i watch it wif my frens too.
n i tink i shld nvr try to keep the memories.
meaning i shldnt prevent my frens from replacing him.
dats wat i hav been doing. i guess.

ok. i nd to post abt yesterday. LOLx.
reach home v tired oredi.
lazy to come online n post =x
anyway. a new month starts!
i mean. for my phone la. haha.
n i got free msges oredi! can sms. wahaha.
ok. watever. its not v impt.
yesterday went to eat fish n co. wif jiayan.
first time going ok.
dun say i sua ku hor. haha.
but anyway. its kinda nice actually.
n we went to the glass house.
oh. i forgot to take pics of the place. LOLx.
aiya. watever lo. u all noe where rit.
the ambience dere was quite nice.
they still hire singer to sing at nite.
v enjoyable rit. LOLx.
n the food was not bad.

then aft dat went out shopping a while at ps.
LOLx. actually nth much to shop dere la.
i saw a top at esprit. simple but nice.
wanted to buy one. but. hmm.
haha. as usual i nd alot of time to tink =)
i saw a clutch at esprit oso. v nice!!
but. haha. i dun tink i realli nd it.
n my goal for the future is guess.
i tink the things damn nice lei. LOLx.
juz dat i dun tink i nd such luxury rit now. haha.
i hav a long list of things i wan to buy.
some r wans some r nd. n i wonder.
shld i realli buy them?? haha.
shld i spend now n then start saving again aft holiday??
i dunno. im juz not dat kinda dat will spend until siao one.

anyway. while shopping i met ulric.
LOLx. i wonder sia.
y do i always c him outside?? haha.
i hav to apologise for my rudeness yesterday.
then on my way home i met oswell. LOLx.
everytime sia. on my way home. aft his tuition.
i will c him either on the train or the mrt station.
LOLx. a bit de funny oni hor.
but not bad la. got pple pei mi tok until yishun. haha.

ok. i nd to prepare to go huimin's workplace soon.
im gonna pei her to work. LOLx.
n of coz study dere la.
a bit de tiring oni lo. haha.

你还爱我吗

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕
听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗

好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音

感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

haha. ok. here comes the photos.
sorie ah. its a bit late. but its still up ok =)

start wif class de photos.
on 18th may we went esplanade for ajc choir concert.
to support jonny. LOLx. mr n mrs mok were dere too =p






ok. these r the nicest few. LOLx.
i dun tink i shld put jonny's individual photo anyway.
ok. nxt. we hav cheerleading photos!
on the day itself n oso at dinner aft rollerblading at ECP.

wahaha. omg. i stay at home the whole day today.
but i tink i didnt realli exactly spend my time v wisely.
the way i study is taking a long long time man.
but still. i studied. haha. chemistry. LOLx.
n juz realise today dat deres chi homework.
omg man. but its ok. i tink we shld hav homework for dat anyway.
juz dat i dun tink i got time for it. haha.
n super sian. GPP not approve yet.
which means nd to work v hard tis few weeks oredi.
plus WR n EoM. i didnt realli do anithing abt it.
i guess its almost time. i nd to start on it oredi.
seriously. i dun realli like PW la.
its so damn super sian lo. spend so much time on it. LOLx.

juz now went out a while to get some food.
haha. i noe i hav to eat.
all my frens r telling mi dat la.
n anyway. alot of my frens r actually realli studying.
im like so lag behind. like a slacker. LOLx.
im wondering whether i can finish wat im supposed to anyway.
haha. so anyway bought yakun n old chang kee. for my mum oso.
damn long nvr eat ya kun oredi. its damn nice. LOLx.
n guess wat. when im buying yakun my order was no.7!
LOLx. lucky 7. my favourite number =)

i hav been saving money n everything.
n tml im meeting jiayan! for fish n co.
LOLx. i finally get a chance to eat dat. yay!
although its oni 2 of us. i noe we will enjoy it =)
n we r going to the glass house. haha.
ok. deres photos i wan to upload. but im too lazy le.
so mayb some other time ba.
n i realise im realli not v friendly to some pple.
so sorie abt dat. but i dun find the need to. haha.

i dunno whether im moving on.
i oni noe im gonna live happily w/o u.
but actually u r still my number 7.
the no. 7 dat will always b in my heart. =)

ok. i realli realli hav to apologise here.
SORIE. to all my frens n whoever dat work wif mi.
haha. cause i tink recently i got PMS.
plus my sms burst oredi!
so im a bit de frustrated to reply sms.
sometimes dun even reply coz dun wan to waste it =x
ya. so v sorie.
i noe i hav been v stubborn n attitude recently.
hope u pple understand yeah.
hope dat u pple c tis post anyway.
recently cant realli tink.
so sometimes i tok w/o tinkin.
im so so sorie.
ok. i say it 3 times oredi. LOLx.
its definitely not easy for mi.
unless u all dunno i pay my own phone bill.
yeah. so every end of the month will b abit stress.
i hardly had anytime to complete my work n stuff.
my mum still ask mi to go n work..............
i hav nth to say.
of coz i said no. i dun hav time for it.
n of coz. she doesnt understand at all.
im starting to worry abt my future oredi.
how m i going to pay for my uni fees??
i bet n im sure dat im gonna borrow money.
n i will hav to return when i start working.
i believe dats how my life is gonna b.
similiar to my 1st sis.
but to mi. shes slightly more fortunate than mi.
n she save even more money than mi.
i wonder how.
coz i tink i oredi save more than my frens.
n they wonder y too. LOLx.
n i tink the perfect future i hope i will get.
is going further away from mi oredi.
reality is always far from wat we realli wan.
bcoz sometimes things r beyond our control.
deres nth i can do rit??
but. i will try my v best to go towards wat i wan =)

ok. alot of my frens say my post damn emo.
LOLx. making my blog emo too.
i dunno wat to say.
but i will try my best to live it up. haha.
n as u can c. im kinda moving on oredi.
hopefully the rest of my post wun b emo anymore.
oni family n personal stuff. no more BGR. haha.

ok. its time to move on.
its time to move on. LOLx.
thanks for at least wanting to treat mi to the movie.
my favourite movie narnia.
y issit my favourite movie??
bcoz of u.
but oso thanks for being frank to mi.
dat im not worth ur time.
nah. its ok. i shld juz watch wif my frens.
the most i dun watch la.
its ok actually.
i agree to a certain extent.
dat i shld nvr go out wif him.
moreover to watch narnia wif him.
coz i will nvr b able to move on.
i will stuck dere forever.
yeah. mayb its not worth it.
coz he dun realli care anyway.
ok. i dunno.
my blog doesnt seem to b abt my life anymore.
its more abt mi n him. LOLx.
i will try to add more of my daily life thing ba.
mayb now everything doesnt seem as impt as him.
wat m i tokin abt??
haha. watever lo.
but im seriously not ready to accept anyone.
i dunno whether i wan anyway.
mayb im realli used to being on my own ba =)