yesterday got bio SSP in the morning.
aft bio SSP then got guzheng.
aft guzheng went amk hub wif jas.
then aft dat meet huimin n go orchard.
LOLx. yesterday's schedule.

anyway. i failed my bio test!!
sianz. i tink my results r dropping.
how can i let dat happen???
i muz buck up!!! arghh.
but im slacking everyday.
dats bad =(

anyway. went to orchard wif huimin.
aft walking ard heeren.
we went sakae sushi. LOLx.
she crazy one lo.
in one month can eat 5 times of sakae sushi.
nvm. she juz dunno how to save money.
but can say its the worse visit ever??
LOLx. i eat until i wan vomit oredi. =x
was forced to eat something which both of us tink its disgusting.
so imagine putting something disgusting into ur mouth.
yeah. n then was forced to eat wasabi.
OMG. its smelly n it taste sucky. eek.
n shes so 'gd' lo.
asking for her bdae present instead of giving mi mine =(
n the very first thing she say.
hey. i wan a gucci wallet for my bdae. LOLx.
dats her. wanting all those kinda thing.
then i told her.
she can wait for another 10 years.
yup. n shes counting down now.
she started laughing at mi yesterday.
bcoz i said im getting uglier each day.
arghh. how how. getting ugly oredi. sianz.
n i noe i realli look thin.
BUT. no matter how much i eat is the same.
n i wun eat alot unless i tink i hav saved enough money.
so. yup. i dunno. i shld continue being ugly ba. LOLx.
i guess dats the reason i dun take pics nowadays.
bcoz its so ugly!!

ok. anyway. im gonna cele my bdae early.
on monday. which is tml. LOLx.
cheesecake n steamboat. oo. yummy!
LOLx. i tink tis yr birthday will b quite fun.
wed going KBOX!!! yay. LOLx.
yeah. n dats my birthday plan oso.
unfortunately. i hav lit test on my birthday...
nvm. it will b ok =)

hmm. i shall make tis post short n sweet. LOLx.
tis few days was kinda depress la.
alot of reasons. but dun realli hav to mention ba.
but i dun tink i shld regret wat i hav done la.
it may b a bit wrong.
it may oni make mi even more depress.
but somehow i still tink its rit.
to many pple he dun care.
mayb he realli dun care.
the ans oni he noe ba.
but i dun wan make assumption.
i canot say he dun care.
but i cant say he care as well.
yup. so i shall not contradict myself.

sometimes when one is waiting for something.
for a v long period of time.
n he finally get wat he wan.
will he still cherish dat thing??
will he treasure dat thing as much??
mayb sometimes its betta to hope for something.
but dun get dat thing.
it may bring u some happiness.
n at least u will still treasure dat thing.

sometimes...
i prefer tinkin abt those happy memories.
missing all the happy moments.
to hav a future which will oni bring us sadness.
at least i noe i still can laugh n cry.
at least i still feel something.
at least im happy at times.

ok. i hav to study today.
so im gonna make it fast.
yeah man. LOLx.

SYF COMING LE!!!
ahhh.....
LOLx. but ok la.
tis few practices we make alot of improvement.
yeah. so was quite happy. JIAYOU!

i tink of something yesterday.
mayb i shld realli treat him as a fren.
frm now onwards.
i mean. nvr tink of being wif him again.
the memories r irreplacable.
but so wat.
its something i can tink of.
but not go back to.
mayb? i dunno.
i juz dun wanan tink.
n lead my happy life. yeah =)

yesterday went to jas hse.
played guzheng. HAHA.
we took some videos.
v funny. shall upload some time ltr.

i wanna change my blogskin!!

wa. finally got time to post le. LOLx.
actually dun hav de lo.
by rit i shld b studying lit now.
by left the test was postponed. WAHAHA.
i tink tis is the first n the last time.
ms ow will postponed our test. LOLx.
she said it will b more difficult.
but nvm. at least we got more time to prepare??
moreover. tml is chem SPA lo.
which one more impt.
tml is the real assignment lo. LOLx.
wan us dead?? i oredi got f9 for the 1st term lo. =x

anyway. yesterday was a bad day.
today was supposedly to b a bad day as well.
i was so depressed the whole day.
bcoz of someone. dat chio bu. LOLx.
almost cry out oredi lo.
*phew* luckily everything is over now.
n im happy again =p

band got silver for SYF.
all the band members were crying so badly la.
OMG. its bad to say im glad.
yet i cant say im sad for them as well la.
i mean. band let alot of CCA go under torture.
not oni CCAs. teachers too.
u can see how the band pple look at us.
ever since dat yr they got gold.
totally look down on us liddat lo. WTF.
tink le then angry.
but then i c them cry oso make mi v sad.
pple. pls cheer up.
juz accept it like how guzheng accept it dat yr.
tis yr i tink we gonna get something worst.
no confident to get gold at all.
so yup. we will try our best.
but we realli cant b complacent.
even the instructor dun hav the confident to say.
yes. tis is wat gold is all abt.
she juz say we still lack of something.
yeah. anyway. JIAYOU! ZHGZ! WE CAN DO IT DE!

alrite. today was the 2.4km run.
HAHA. was so scared n depressed at first lo.
but i hav made great improvement!!!
damn happy la. 15.48. not bad rit.
last yr fail lei.
come to tink of it.
i dunno how i fail last yr. LOLx.
i didnt stop for the first round.
2nd round stop a few times la. =p
nvm. tis shows dat its rit for mi to train.
HAHA. hav been training.
go to gym n hse downstair. run ok.
see. im so hardworking. =p

alot of things gonna happen tml.
first of all. tml guzheng is performing during assembly.
will miss both eng n lit lesson. LOLx.
then aft skol. got interclass netball.
im playing ok. everyone will b shocked.
yup. anyway. will juz do our best.
no matter wat the result is. juz JIAYOU ba. =)
hope tml's performance will b a success.

anyway. today is cuckoo's birthday.
shall wish him happy birthday here.
but not to forget.
im juz too nice to rmb his birthday.
bcoz he forget mine!!! LOLx.
im kind enough to forgive him =)

arghh. im gonna get out of tis.
i rather hav friendship than relationship.
i rather depend on frens than guys.
guys as in the pple i like??
not guy fren la. LOLx.
cherish friendship more than anithing else.

for now. deres no one i can depend on.
not tokin abt frens la. LOLx.
but life isnt dat bad.
although sometimes it seem meaningless.
y like pple when it oni hurt.
if the person dun like u.

no matter how sad one life is.
dere will b pple who r feeling more miserable.
nvr tink dat u got the worst life ever.
bcoz dere r realli pple.
who nd more help than u do.
so b contented wif wat u hav.
cherish watever u hav.
b truthful to ur frens.

its not easy to look at bright side of things.
yet try not to look at the dark side.
which oni make ur life miserable.

trying to b NEUTRAL.
trying to b INDEPENDENT.
trying to b STRONG.

ahh. im getting emo oredi.
hais. everyday is the same.
juz like wat ms ow says.
deres alwaz prob.
no matter how old u r.
no matter wat u r doing.

now i wan something badly.
but wat if i get dat something.
will i b realli happy??
will i b free of prob??
the ans is no.
bcoz no matter wat we do.
in order to get the thing i wan.
i hav to make sacrifices.
i hav to face a lot of prob.
juz to b happy.

ai qing bu neng mian qiang.
nobody knows who im waiting for.
nobody knows y im still waiting.
everybody tink dat its over.
wat if i realli realli wanan b wif him.
yet i cant.
wat if i realli wanna share my happiness.
as well as sadness wif him.
yet i cant.
wat if all i wan is him.
yet i cant get it.
wat if everything juz seem impossible.
i seem lost.

LOLx. im kinda lazy to post actually.
nvm. i shall juz tok a bit ba.
hmm. today guzheng seniors came back!
oni some la. but betat than nth rit.
its been long since we last chat.
n tis been long since we last met too.
yup. so its v fun. LOLx.
we juz keep tokin n tokin.
non-stop man.
until ard 9 plus. bo bian.
muz go home liao. LOLx.
anyway. guzheng SYF is coming le.
24th april. dats the day.
CO got a gold. how abt us. hmm.
no matter wat. juz jiayou ba! yup.

anyway. i did well for my most recent amaths test.
but im gonna fail my bio.
so yup. nvm.
i will juz telling myself.
its juz a test. LOLx.
its not i will b super depress de.
tis few days i keep whining lo.
dats v bad.
muz change! muz change!
i dun like to whine.
but sometimes juz being too depress le.
aiya. dunno la. feeling kinda fan now.

actually i a bit dun feel like slping today.
but i doubt anybody is gonna pei mi.
i dun tink i shld ask anybody to stay up late.
juz bcoz i dun wan slp ba.
hmm. i dunno.
but i dun tink dere will anyone to pei mi ba.

anyway. i bring back alot of books today!
ready to study tis 3 days instead of going out.
LOLx. cool rit?
but i look like some nerd today =x
HAHA.

Bowling For Soup - When We Die

Well, I know that it's early and it's too hard to think
And the broken empty bottles are a reminder in the sink
But I thought that I should tell you, if it's not too late to say
I could put back all the pieces, they just might not fit the same

Cause nothing's worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Well, I know it's been years now, and I don't look the same
And the hopes and dreams you had for me you thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty where my pictures used to be
And I can't say that I blame you, but you can't blame me

Cause nothing's worth losing especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Cause I gotta know, if I am doing this all on my own

Come over
Come over

How can I show you if you're not here

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

And we won't get it back when we die
And I know that it's early


thanks brother for sending mi tis song.
its realli nice.
n i realli like it =)

bad day was over.
it was realli a bad day.
not oni to mi. but some pple.
anyway. its over.
a brand new day has started.
wif all the troubles once again.
hais. when will tis ever end.

slept at 6.30am tis morning.
was chatting wif someone.
about 7 hours of chatting ba.
i cried. i laugh.
deres so many things in my mind.
i hav alot to say.
but i dunno how to say.
sometimes i wanna tell my frens.
abt wat happen n how i feel.
but i dunno where n how to start.

when i c pple walking pass mi.
laughing loudly.
though sometimes it seem rather irritating.
but now come to tink of it.
at least they can laugh out loud.
at least they r happy.
i envy them.
for being able to laugh.
like nobody's business.

alot of pple say.
whether u wan to laugh or cry.
its all up to u.
mayb its true??
i wan to laugh. i realli wan to.
but i dunno y i cant.
mayb i cause it to myself??
mayb i juz cant stop myself frm tinkin.
cant allow myself to do wat i wan.
which is to laugh out loud.

who will ever understand...
it feels so gd juz to laugh.

soph. get well soon =)
i believe they wun stop u frm joining SYF de.