i dunno y i shang xin... but the sadness is still dere... i noe who u like le... i guess correctly le... so surprise dat i m right... but then anyway i noe u will b happy de ba... since is liddat... no point holding on de ah... i mean.. though i say i let go liao... xin li hai shi fang bu xia... but i tink is realli time le ba... fang xin... i will b more happy de... i believe he can treat mi gd... i decided to accept him le... but not now... i got my plan... lolx...

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lolx... using IT lesson to update blog wor... i use my time wisely de k... hmm... nth much to tok abt la actually... nth to tok abt jx anymore... lolx... coz he is my fren... he is good la... real good... hey... happy to c dat??? haha... i hav oredi decided le... to wait for the one who love mi most... of coz muz hav feelings la... who dun wan pple to treat her good lei... lolx... but will the happiness last forever??? will he alwaz treat mi good??? dats the question... dats the prob... wat can i do nehz??? dun tink i will reject him la... he treat mi so good... lolx... but... not time yet... let mi settle down first... let mi realli tink thru le... let mi understand him more n get used to the life first... overall he is good la... anyway... end of yr exam reaching le... muz jiayou wor... jx... muz treat mi as fren nehz... i got prob will still find u de... zhen de... nvr regret knowing u... lolx...

is ok if u dun wanna ans my dat question... i juz wonder whether u hav tot thru ma... tink u hav tink thru ma... yesterday encourage mi to accept... good lo... u n him will still b v good fren ba... nth to worry abt le... i ask him abt yesterday those thingy le... he tell mi everything... so is like... everything is true... lolx... anyway.. i realli dun wanna u to tink i m happy without u... oso dun wan u to tink i got him then forget u... but it is still up to u lo... i a bit dun feel like accepting la... even if wan oso not now... i juz scare dat i will hurt him... got any ways to help??? got then tell mi... thankies... but i noe u wun help de... coz u wanna help ur fren... lolx... k la... so far so good... wo men shi yong yuan de hao peng you...

nvr get into a love when u meant to break a heart
nvr look into the eyes when u meant to lie
promise r meant to b kept
wishes r meant to b fulfilled
scars will nvr heal
hearts r not meant to b played wif
lies r oni meant to b hurt
sorie is nth but a word

loving is not how to forget but how to forgive
not how to listen but how to understand
not wat to see but how to feel
not how to let go but how to hold on

lolx...

duuno wat to say lei... i hope... realli hope... mi n jx still frens... since is oredi liddat le ah... hmm... dun wan quarrel anymore... i will treat u as fren... hen hao de fren... coz i realli tink u r good ah... but u r no more my zhu zhu of coz... lolx... mayb u r a betta fren?? anyway i dunno y i got so many prob wif ur class nehz... as in dat time eugene... then u... now dh... anyway life still goes on ah... i juz tink i m flirt if i b wif dh... i oso dunno whether he is realli good ah... though till now i tink he is good la... lolx... show the care i nd most... but dunno lei... getting more n more fan le... juz hope everybody will b happy ba...

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u can dun love mi... i dun nd u to love mi... go love whoever u wan... i cant care abt it... dong mahx... yes... i m sad... u wan mi forget u... fine... i will... but i nd time... get it... not i dun wan... i nvr say anithing... i nvr wan u to care... i nvr wan u to like mi... aft all dat had happen... i treat u totally as fren le... i juz find it weird... y u muz call n tell mi we r frens... i noe we r ah... i cant give u the present... bcoz we r frens... dun u get it... i told u it is full of love le... dats y i cant give... u say b fren... do u tink i will feel betta??? haiz... i dunno wat to say... i realli v xin ku... zhen de hen xin ku... give mi a break man... haiz... i realli feel like crying le... i tahan the whole day liao... i oredi buey tahan le... u noe mahx... zhen de hen fan... y u all juz dun understand... sobx...

haiz...

blehz... zhen de hao xin ku nehz... so depress now... sad sad... wat can i do nehz... other than sad... haiz... feel like crying... but cant... who can help mi lei...

happy birthday...

i cant let go...

but i hav no choice...

haiz...

sobx...

omg...

i feel so bad... i feel so bad... lolx... jerry ask mi go meet him but i didnt... he say he will wait but i say i cant... he suddenly call mi... he cant possibly b alone ah... weird... v weird... but end up he say nvm... coz i insist on not meeting... lolx... but... i juz wrote him a testimonial b4 he call mi nehz... i tot he call mi bcoz of the testimonial... but... is not dat... he nvr online today... he haven c my testimonial nehz... y he find mi??? y suddenly call mi... dotx... i m confuse liao... wat happen man... i wrote him testi n he call mi b4 seeing the testi... wat happen??? diaox... but i still feel bad la... he wun b able to c tis post... juz wanna say sorie to u... tink is the second time le??? dat time u ask mi go chalet i oso say no... v sorie...

fang qi ni shi ying wei wo tai ai ni... i dun wan myself to b sad... i dun wan u to stress... i dun wan u to fan... believe dat tis will make u happier... dong mahx... u will de... sometimes i realli dun understand u... u can treat mi gd... u can oso dun reply mi... u can oso dun miss mi... u can oso say u got feelings for mi... but at the same time cant give mi any promise at all... ask urself... u realli love mi mahx??? u realli care abt mi mahx??? or issit juz affection... oni u noe the ans... letting u go is wanna u happy... juz wanna u to tink ba... at the same time dun wanna stress u... take care urself ba... happy birthday in advance... dunno whether i can wish u on dat day not... good luck for end of yr exam... jiayou wor...i rmb le... lolx... 16 aug is the day i fall in love wif u nehz... juz past one month nia...

zhu zhu

abt dat zhu zhu... no... i dunno how to call u... but u r no more my zhu zhu le... not even fren??? mayb... the way u treat mi... like a fren??? ur birthday present nehz... i dunno... but u no nd find mi on ur birthday le... i wan give i will ask pple pass... u dun wan u can throw... i dun wan give i will throw... to mi... things dat make mi sad shld not exist in tis world... now then i realise i spend so much on the present lo... lolx... gonna waste it le... but then is no choice de ah... guys will nvr appreciate wat gals hav done... u will nvr appreciate wat i gave u... u will nvr cherish mi as a fren... u will nvr cherish mi as someone who like u... suan le... no point forcing... u tink u r happy jiu hao lo... anyway i shld not hav exist in ur life... it is wrong in the first place to tell u i like u... u may b more happy if i nvr say dat... mayb tis will b the last entry abt u ba... sorie if i hav offended u in any way... i m realli angry tis time... i canot tahan anymore le... i m realli sad too... i m realli heartbroken too... but i oredi prepared tis a few days b4... since the day u nvr say hi to mi in skol... which is thursday... i sucks ah... nobody will like mi... its alrite ah... i hav no choice too... suan le... i dunno wat to say anymore...

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yoz... lolx... my second sis tml moving back nehz... happy ya... hmm... actually tink of my family... haiz... i last few days juz drop my tears for them... sobx... all bcoz of my third sis... she is good... juz dat sometimes a bit wat lo... but she is alwaz the one making my parents smile... all kinds of jokes n craps... but my first sis n second sis dun like her... bcoz of her bad habit... then she is left out by us... haiz... whenever we go kbox or anywhere... we nvr call her go... not mi la... coz not i pay de ma... how can i call pple lei... when my third sis noe abt it... she will juz say nvm lo... not blaming us at all... smile at us... but we noe she isnt happy at all ah... who will b happy nehz... as a family... go out oso nvr tell her... n she is oredi so 'ke lian' le... her bf dun let her work... dun let her take hp... dun let her contact wif her frens... though she oso dun feel like to contact la... but she oredi loses her freedom... juz dun understand... y she wanna b wif him lei... where got bf liddat de... sobx... my mum was oso sad abt it... we tink we left her out... but will my first n second sis tink tis way??? they wun... they r stubborn type... dun like means dun like... haiz... my third sis nvr blame us at all lo... mi mum n mi feel so bad abt it lo... tinkin abt nxt yr... wat will my family b like??? my dad is oredi not counted as the family le... dun feel like tokin abt him... nxt yr will oni left mi n my mum le... second sis going Japan... n may not b back le... third sis not living wif us... my first sis will move out in Dec... oredi married le ah... haiz...

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dotx...

lolx... perhaps i will nvr get back my comp le... so sad... so sad... but then nvm... i will survive... lolx... a... get back term 3 de report liao... got improve ah... realli... but i tink my position drop... bcoz everybody is improving ma... dats i tell myself i hav to jiayou!!! i will jiayou de... lolx.. hmm.. last post i nvr tok abt u... now gonna say something le ba... though i tink sometimes is betta not to say lo... anyway tis few days we nvr tok much le... u seems tired??? slping almost everyday... then cant msg much... in skol saw mi oso nvr say hi... suan le ba... i oso dun dare to say ma... cant blame u too... i nvr take the initiative to do so... anyway u realli dun hav to tink abt mi... juz jiayou in watever u do ba... dun wan tok to mi oso nvm ah... suan le ba... happy jiu hao... dun scold mi crazy hor... lolx... getting distant oso no choice ah... dun wan to say too much le... abt the service learning... is super super de fan lo... i m juz the treasurer man... pls do something... the CIP leaders... i dun wanna to care so much de... juz dat u all like dun care abt it... i cannot dun do anithing n c u all liddat... so end up giving myself trouble??? lolx... anyway i watched one more chance today... yay... but then not as nice as i tink lo... still not bad la... same thing... some parts i feel like crying... i realli tink my tears drop easily man... but i oredi get used to it le... hehe... muz JIAYOU for end of yr... realli...

simple sucks...

yay... finally i online!!! dotx... k la... update norh... but nth much to say today.. tink i under depression le... so sad... so damn unhappy today.. bcoz i sucks... short n sweet reason... simeon agree ya... no nd mi ask... tell mi when he saw the nick... lolx... anyway it is true la... i tink i will try to change... when one day u all c mi v quiet.. pls congrats mi... coz i hav succeeded in changing myself... my attitude sucks... my temper sucks... n everything juz sucks lo... everytime so noisy de... someone pls shut my mouth up lo... i tink i hav offended pple somehow... haiz... i m the lousiest person in the world man... k la... gonna stop myself frm scolding myself... ltr pple say mi crazy... hmm... anyway... i tink of a new name... Anthea... but tink i may not use lo... i oso dunno nehz...

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betta... but still not v nice... haiz...

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JiaYou!!!

yay!!! aft long day of hard work... work at nite... slp during the day... lolx... i left wif english and literature... maths de stupid drawing anyhow do de... i dun even noe wat they wan lo... english n literature can slowly la... monday no lit n eng... lit oso dunno how to do... heck la... hmm... tml going grandfather hse... celebrating his birthday... afternoon de nehz... v sianz... nite one betta... zhu zhu haven finish his homework wor... muz JIAYOU le!!! lolx... but dun work until too late... zhu zhu muz slp alot ma... though now ma yi oso wanna bcome zhu le... so paiseh... hmm... n oso EOY examination... JIAYOU!!! everybody jiayou la... i now oso dunno where i wan... double science or triple science... or even combine science??? oni noe i hav to work hard lo... hope nth will affect my studies??? i noe u die die oso dun wan give mi the ans for the dice... alwaz say up to mi... how i noe u wan anot... how i noe whether u will appreciate anot lei... say something na... u lei... v weird de... happy then treat mi so gd... not happy then find mi quarrel... actually i dun mind la... at least u still got treat mi gd ma... dun wan ask u change... coz i love de is u... not ur character or watever ma... i will get used to it de... i wun tink too much de... but if got anithing muz tell mi... MUZ nehz... hmm... i tink rit... if u dun wan mi i will listen to tis song... lolx... i say i listen le will cry de ma... but believe aft crying i will feel betta lo...

[W]ho [A]m [I] [T]o [Y]ou

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[M]ei[N]a[M]e[A]i[T]a --> [F]an[F]an

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zhe yang jiu hao le ba... happy jiu hao le... lolx... no one is sad now... zhu zhu... yao xiang wo nehz... like wat i say... i cant online... u cant sms... we cant call... lolx... gonna hav a hard time man... u will not ya... nvm... mei guan xi... perhaps in tis way u will get ur ans soon ba... we hav no promise to each other... tis is wat stead for ba... a promise dat they will nvr leave each other... now is like u can leave mi... i oso can leave u ah... u realli tink liddat betta then liddat lo... i dun mind ah... lolx... i make sure dat u will b happy... v weird oso... u alwaz say u got feelings for mi... but whenever i ask u do u love mi... u will say dunno... wat is tis??? got feelings but dun love mi??? ha... ha... so funny... *lame* k la... tis is juz wat i m tinkin ba... realise u realli got mood-swing nehz... 5 minutes ago u may b asking mi to give up... 5 minutes ltr u will say dat u r sad if i leave... lolx... so funny ya... but then nvm la... does it matter anyway... my feelings for u wun change de ah... hope ur eye is ok le??? ownself take care ya... hmm... one suggestion for u lei... u can go online sms... then i will b the one spending $ le... lolx... go starhub then find online sms... not bad ya... mi n jy alwaz liddat de... hao la... ni yi ding yao kai xin wor...

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yuan lai wo mei na me jian qiang... i tot i can b happy... n watever i did will make him happy as well... mayb he will b happy... but i dunno i will feel so xin ku nehz... i cant online... he cant sms... i cant call him... haiz... zhe me ban... tis kind of life will die lei... i tot wo ai ta jiu hao le... i dunno will b so xin ku de nehz... if realli is dat xin ku then i hope i will survive ba... i will suffer to death lo... no choice ah... u dun wan mi... u sometimes wan mi sometimes dun wan... i tink i oso make u not happy ba... make u say 'u wan contact anot up to u'... make u say 'u dun nd care abt mi'... jialat bo... zhen de hen dui bu qi... tis is not wat i wan de... now i hav to keep the dice to myself le... quite sad de... sometimes juz nvr show out ba... i scare u wun find mi le... i oso dun dare to find u ah... end up u may dun like mi le ba... i dunno... quite fan de... but i juz wanna say... no matter wat mi is love u de... letting u go is oso love u ah... i dunno wat to say la... but wo hui xiang ni de... oni wish u to b happy...

Back Frm ROM

lolx... back frm ROM le... so sad... sis de party i cant go... nvm... she wun b back today... tink i can online whole day again le... hmm... tink aft tis ROM thingy she will b super free... which means... i cant online so often le.. mayb once a week??? or even less... pple... dun miss mi lei... lolx... so bhb... post oso will get lesser le... hmm... aft tis ROM thingy... i tink i finally can start doing my holiday homework... ZHSS is ok... quite a good skol... juz dat... they give too much homework liao lo... buey tahan... holiday alwaz not like holiday... i still left history, english, literature and maths de stupid drawing... or shld i say art??? lolx... Mr Leong say de ma... muz combine art n maths... so stupid lo... nvm... i muz jiayou... tink i can ba??? i tok to my second sis le... everytime i got any relationship prob i will find her de... she wun tell anybody i noe... someone i can believe in ba... finally make the decision... wo ai ni jiu hao... i no nd u to love mi ba... i mean.. if u realli dun oso doesnt matter ah... love u doesnt mean muz get u ma... i will msg u lesser ba??? i oso dun wan u to waste ur sms on someone u dun love.. dong mahx... dun say mi bad lei... watever i did is for u ah... if u realli wan find mi but dun wanna waste sms u juz hav to ask mi to call u??? no nd wait for mi to call ba... coz i realli scare we got nth to say... wo hui xiang ni... but i cant waste ur sms ah... dun ask mi to give up... dun ask whether i hav given u up... if u dun love mi give up is a muz... it is juz a matter of time... when it is time i will de... i dun wan give u any stress anymore... i will b happy de... zhen de... u r forever my zhu zhu ah... no matter wat we r still fren ma... perhaps good fren??? lolx... alwaz dere for u ya... hmm... another thing... u alwaz say u not good... but i tink u r not bad le... at least u try to understand mi n rmb watever i told u... dun alwaz say u r bad ya... i believe when u find someone u love u will treat her good de... n if the gal realli love u she wun mind how u treat her de... so dun worry la... make ur life happier wor... though tis is not our promise anymore... smile =)

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yesterday 3 then slp nehz... 9 then wake up le... lolx... k la... 6 hours is enough for mi... went to PS wif JiaYan,DingYao,YuanChi,Aslam,Simeon.. watch Herbie!!! lolx... actually wanna watch red eye de... but the guys dun wan... so bad... one more chance oso cant watch... we r too late le... so sad... Herbie actually is not wat i wan nehz... but then ok la... turn out quite well de... so cute... so touching.. so exciting... at some parts i felt like crying nehz... lolx... aft watching movie then take Neoprint!!! nice... nice... v nice... not like last time alwaz play... lolx... got new face lei... nvr take wif YuanChi b4 ma... hope to hav more new faces nxt time lo... quite fun... but oso quite sianz... when watching the movie i realise the guys look so pervertic when looking at Lindsay Lohan... lolx... tua chio bu ya... sad la... today actually zhu zhu wan come de... not watch movie la... juz walk walk lo... still not v good dat till now we still dun tok face to face lo... but PS too sianz liao... Mi n Jy shop until 5 plus then go her hse liao... buey tahan... try to drag the time liao... but realli no choice le so go lo... reach her hse he then msg mi say he dere... so sad nehz... anyway mei guan xi la... still got other chance ba??? lolx... no matter wat... zhu zhu... i will respect ur decision de... u noe wat i tokin abt??? hmm... tml my sis de ROM lei... my second sis,third sis n mi will b wearing the same tube... i still hav to hold the bear wif rings on them nehz... lolx... highlight my didi here... joel... dun mind i write ur name here??? i realli treat u as my didi... i promise u no matter wat i will try to b happy... i thank u alot sia... forever my didi hor... lolx... k la... stop here for today...

Shi Lian Le

lolx... wo you shi lian le... i still can laugh wor... hmm... not the first time ah... get used to it le... mi n him oso haven start... juz make mi realise dat i dun love my ex anymore... zhu zhu... yes... but it's alrite... love someone doesnt mean u muz hav him de ma... kai xin jiu hao lo... but i tink we realli nd to leave each other for some time ba... let u tink thru... u r still in confuse state lo... i dun like... yesterday norh... ask mi ltr call u... i so damn happy... but u say tokin to ur cousin... so muz ltr... ard 11... wa... 11... i waited until 12... u still tokin to her... though u ask mi go n slp... but u shld noe i wun de ma... wait n wait... end up lei... u tell mi u wanna go slp wor... i tired i still wait... u tired u go slp... dere is no wrong la... u can slp... but sorie oso nvr say lo... u make mi wait nehz... dong mahx... wat can i do when i sad... cant find u... cant even let u noe ba... at dat time everybody slp liao lo... even u... haiz... i noe u dun wanna mi sad... but u r making mi sad wat... wat u wanna mi do then... make mi sad n i juz keep on laughing??? ltr pple say mi siao... it juz seems like we cant go back to last time anymore... cant even b fren... i realli dun wanna stress u... but somehow... u r stressing mi as well... u will nvr understand ba... saturday then will go home wor... suan le ba...

Hao Xiang Ni...

mei you ni de wan an sui bu zao... sianz... wonder wat u r doing now lei... nvr reply my msg... i cant slp... though i m tired... i miss u lots... but i tell myself i cant b sad... bcoz i hav to understand dat u r busy wif ur chalet... dats y i hav to b happy... still waiting for ur wan an... but i dun tink u noe wat i wan... hmm... mei guan xi ba... if u miss mi... if u r free... u will msg mi de ba??? actually i m realli scare... ni hui bu yao wo mahx??? i dun wan wat happen juz now to happen again nehz... i cant say i m not sad... but i dun wan u to leave mi bcoz u dun wanna mi sad... zhen de... hmm... mei guan xi... i will get used to it de... u muz wait for mi... n rmb our promises...

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When Will I b Happy Lei???

i tink i can juz forget it ba... actually i noe no matter wat i wun b happy de... get used to it liao... got stead no stead... got pple love or not... still sad... when will i b happy lei??? i dunno... nvr will ba... let nature take its course ba... my greatest wish-to b happy forever... seems so impossible... hmm... mei guan xi... yesterday is my first time being so jian qiang... i m realli v happy... first time i cry nvr tell anybody n keep on asking pple to cheer up... though now i oredi say out la... but i m still v happy for myself lei... mayb tis is wat we call true love??? dats y dun wan the other to noe i m sad... lolx... omg... i m in pain... siao liao la... though i say nth... deep in my heart dere is a big scar... ni shi bu hui ai wo de... dong mahx... i m afraid to lose u... but no choice de ma... tis kind of thingy... suan le ba... +HeArTbRoKeN+

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Idiot!!!

how can u do dat to mi... haiz... idiot... ni zhen de hui accept wo mahx??? haiz... u nvr put mi in my heart b4 lo... ni hui pian wo mahx??? sometimes i realli dun understand u lo... suan le ba... if u realli nvr put mi in ur heart b4 then juz forget it lo... as if i will force u to like mi... mayb i will juz leave u liddat ba... heck la... idiot yj... he is so damn idiot... sometimes i find he is ok... but sometimes his attitude realli sucks lo... freaking ass... oops =x he change le... juz hope he will change back lo... sianz... my first common test for tis term is so damn poor lo... except for maths of coz... i muz jiayou... but till now i m still tinkin whether i shld go double science or aim for triple science??? juz work hard lo... hmm... got neoprint nehz... but tis few days cant update pic... not v free nehz... tis whole holiday is considered book... holiday not like holiday... alwaz liddat...