1-month monthsary

yay... finally... today is our 1-month monthsary... hehe... he gave mi a pink rose... i gave him a simple card... then we went to marina square... wow... the youth zone... v shiok... many things to buy... but we didnt buy... save money ma... but targetted lots of things... b4 we leave dere we bought a couple cup... romeo n juliet... lolx... somehow he like it... anyway we bought it... i used it to out the rose he gave mi... of coz i take the juliet one... then we went to plaza sing... juz for 2 reasons... one is to look at ring which he has been tokin abt... but unable to buy now... targetting nia... second reason is to TAKE NEOPRINT!!! lolx... so sad... cant scan... anyway i like it =) today was a happy day... i realli enjoy it... i dun hav to write my word of appreciation here ba... lolx... will write it somewhere...

i juz hope i wun neglect any of my frens... =)

hmm... today oni got one thing to say... abt my darling le... thing happen... i dun hav to say wat la... he tot i m angry... hav been msging mi more than 20 times perhaps... but i was actually slping... n my hp low batt... so off automatically... i feel so bad... i m sorie... darling... i m not angry... i was juz kidding n u tot i m angry... now i noe how much u love mi le...

aft tis thing then i keep tinkin... i m afraid dat i cant love him as much... sorie again... bcoz while i was tinkin i put jerry in my mind... i was tinkin whether i still like him... n whether i love him more than i love my darling... i noe i shldnt tink of tis at tis time... but the reason is dat i noe my darling love mi alot... i m afraid dat my heart still hav another person... then i was like tinkin... whether i shld choose the one i love most or the one who love mi most... seriously ev en if i choose jerry i wun b wif him... bcoz i dun tink mi n him is possible... shld juz stay as fren ba... at least for now... tis is wat i tink... i realli realli dunno whether i still love him... a little bit of the feeling is still dere ba... i like him for so long le... canot say forget then forget de ma... halfway forgotten... the oni reason is he hurts mi... nth else... is bcoz of tis dat i decided to let go... i noe my darling will c tis la... but i shldnt hide anithing frm him... tis is wat i hav been tinkin today... i realli dunno y i will tink of tis... mayb juz bcoz he love mi too much... i juz dun wanna hurt him... tink le oso feel like crying...

o... yay... i came back frm yishun ITE... i went to watch the competition le... v sad... bcoz they lost... nvm la... i hope i can say something to console them... but i tink i cant??? lolx... dunno lei... i m happy dat i m able to c them performing again... i still tink dat they r good la... i support wei yong all the way... hehe... muz thanks my darling for accompanying mi... i m oso happy dat now mi n jerry can at least b fren le... juz now i saw him... but he didnt c mi... nvm la... i m glad dat at least i hav pple who care abt mi... fortunate enough... =)

o... ya... amendment to my earlier post... my di today went oversea le... but is europe not malaysia... oso dunno y i tink is malaysia... lolx...

dats all for today...

** 2 days to 29

haiz.. i m realli sad tis time... i dunno how to describe my feelings... i juz feel like crying...

i can actually reach home late tonight... but tink le oso suan liao... actually wanna go yishun ITE dere watch jerry they all de competition... i juz cant find my way dere... though my darling say he can acc mi go... but he oso not sure abt the route... haiz... wat for... end up i hav decided not to go le... one thing is i dunno the way... another thing is i dun tink i shld go... another thing is i dun tink my darling shld go... he shld b tired.. he shld stay at home... tis thingy will end late... somemore they r the last team... he will reach home late... haiz... i feel like going bcoz i v long nvr c them performing lion dance... tis time is at yishun... not too far away frm my hse... i m able to go too... if i noe the way i will go dere by myself le... haiz... i dunno... realli dunno... sorie dat i cant b dere... haiz... T.T oredi try v hard to find my way dere le... i dunno it is so difficult...

now i will b alone at home le... spend my time crying???? dotx...

back frm chalet

weeeeee...............

harlow... i m back frm chalet =x lolx... lame...

k... let mi tok abt the chalet... first day is of coz BBQ... no teachers came... haiz... so sad... the guys keep playing PS which justin brought... at nite then watch ghost train... man... not v scary... in fact quite boring... n u all noe wat... lolx... i saw my v first ex... he didnt change too much... but somehow a little ba... anyway he find mi in the middle of the nite... tok a while then go le... so bo liao... but i m still happy to c him lo...

second day is outing liao... we went to escape... play until siao... a bit scare... but still like to play... down on luck dat we r unable to play flipper... haiz... i oni play revolution, inverter, viking, haunted hse n so on... didnt play wet n wild... didnt play go kart oso... v ps... like to say sorie to my darling... i play wat he will oso acc mi... but he play go kart... he wanna mi play but i say no... i m not sure abt myself... nvr play b4... dats y... then at nite play PS... watch tv lo... ard 11 everybody went slping le... v tired... some of them went swimming... but not mi... too bad... lolx... but yesterday something happen... jerry called mi... omg... he called n said dat number is his... liddat lo... then 1+ he call mi... i slp liao... aft dat when i saw missed call... then i msg him lo... then he tell mi abt saturday dat competition... at yishun... he oso going lei... tink compete against terry... he ask mi wan go anot... but is like i m alone... then somemore i hav to go my aunt dere... so i tell him lo... then he call mi but i dunno coz put silent mode... then he juz msg n say nvm... feel bad??? mayb ba... but i m realli shocked... anyway wish him good luck ba... his birthday reaching... if he ask mi go i will go de... as a fren i shld...

dat idiot guy who say wanna wait for mi end up oni 2 days... his birthday same as jerry nehz... kaoz... anyway dun care abt him la...

juz came back not long ago... v tired lo... wa... tink ltr gonna slp whole day le... lolx... gonna tok to didi oso... he going malaysia soon le...

** 4 more days to 29

wow... 3 hours liao wor... nvr msg wif my darling... miss him... but nvm... i wait... lolx... tml he going to our class chalet nehz... i hope 2e5 pple wun tink he v extra or wat la... he not going for BBQ... he juz going dere to stay wif until friday morning... i hope... i realli hope... i wan him pei mi... but i dun wanna u pple to tink he v wat or wat lo... i not gonna left u all out oso... he go got pay money one... so... hmm... i dunno wat to say liao...

tml going for chalet... until friday morning... gonna wear class tee... lolx... i hope no one forgets??? i dunno... i m quite afraid dat i will forget to bring something... haiz... i dunno wats troubling mi...

didi going malaysia on the 26 issit... shld b rit... i can rmb clearly... anyway take care wor... lolx... meanwhile tink abt ur problem lo... relax... come back then msg mi lo... kk...

hey everybody... i change my blogskin today... n it wasnt dat successful... the linkies option box cant b seen... i dunno y... but if u all realli wanna c the links... juz put the mouse at the linkies area... the mouse will change frm a plus to a normal mouse pointer... click on it n dat will b the link option box... i hope u all understand... sorie for the inconvenience...

nth much to tok abt today... oni dat the stupid skol... canot say i not attentive or wat ma... i didnt noe we hav to wear skol uniform to skol when BUYING BOOKS... i realli dunno abt dat... juz buying books... i not going to c any teachers or wat... oso canot... end up my mum has to go in alone... n i hav to wait at the stairs... qi si wo le... nxt yr got zhonghua socks... but i dun tink it is out lei... i gonna buy new uniform oso... bankrupt liao... lolx...

happy la.. today online then chat wif pple... finally... lolx... long time nvr chat le... gonna hav a contact time soon... wif my primary skol mates... wait for mi to organise the gathering!!!

last thing... i dunno whether i shld go for 2 nites or wat lei... the chalet... i m ablt to go... but now is realli different le ma... then wat to do... i feel like going oni 1 nite lei... ??? still in a blank...

** 8 more days to 29... lolx

9 more days to 29 nov... i was like having a count down... lolx...

hmm... felt like changing blogskin... but super lazy... not say change then change de... hav to do alot of editting de... so i muz wait till i m free... last time did a blog for mi n my darling... but too lazy... so nvr update... oso nvr tell him... oredi dun care liao...

yesterday v sad... i felt v sorie bcoz everytime go out is darling pay de... then now he sort of bankrupt... i realli tink he spend too much on mi... he say nvm... but i dun tink is nvm... quarrel for a while... sad for a while... aft dat solve the problem liao...

on the 29 he will wear the pink shirt... then i will oso wear pink lo... go n take neoprints!!! lolx... my favourite la... but he sort of being forced by mi... no choice... anyway the most is once a month... then i started an album... for putting not oni neoprints... but oso alot of memories inside... wow... i did so much for him...

dun blame mi hor... alwaz tokin abt my darling... bcoz today hav nth else to say ma... last thing... not abt darling liao... is abt the chalet de... finally i confirm dat i going... got money... dad oso allow... but... 2 nites or 1 nite lei... most pple r staying for 1 nite oni lei... dunno lei... tis time is diff frm last time le... i feel like going for oni 1 nite... dunno how to go dere oso... fan nehz...

=)

wahaha... dat guy didnt msg mi again... blehz... tink he is not happy wif mi??? bcoz i keep saying my darling is good... n betta than him... he juz say wait till my darling cheat mi then i noe... anyway i insist dat my darling is betta.. who cares abt him... is he say he wanna wait de... juz 2 days... lolx...

hmm... o ya.. yesterday's performance... music n movement concert... not bad la... actually i didnt make much mistakes... one thing i m happy wif myself is dat i noe how to act =x dats my secret oso... lolx... play wrong or forgot then juz act lo.. at least my fingers r moving.. so not dat obvious... n i finally stop shaking my head when i play the wrong note... so pple doent noe abt anithing... i m glad... anyway it was sort of a success yesterday... we took lots of picture using my senior cherlynn de cam... lolx...

i tink i gonna hav a dictionary... my v own one.. writing down watever my darling teaches mi each day... dats wat i learn frm him.. he learn frm mi chinese... i learn frm him eng... thoguh we r quite diff... he likes eng... n i like chi... but we learn something frm each other... which is good... dun u pple tink so??? lolx... enerjas hor... keep telling pple he teach u 'hong gan'... stop askin ard le la... dats not something to learn...

n... ya... thursday... went to watch just like heaven wif germaine... well... it is a comedy rit... i laugh in the beginning.. n mayb bcoz i was too tired... i almost fell aslp =x it was nice... i dunno the reason too... lolx... it was almost ok... i nvr fell aslp... my sis mag mi n i bcame awake... but near to the end i felt like crying... it was sad... but the ending was a good one... yeah... happy ending... lolx... b4 the movie we took neoprints!!! my favourite... it wasnt dat nice... i wearing skol u... n tying up my hair... i cant scan it... nobody can help mi as well... nvm then... mayb some other day ba...

o my... i cant meet my darling for 10 days... 10 days ltr is our monthsary... of coz we muz meet lo... lolx... cant meet bcoz i gonna work... then he got tuition... then i got chalet... then he got chalet too... o my... dats y... anyway it is alrit... if we wanna forever... juz 10 days... shld b alrit...

last thing... today aft work... i saw a gal... look mature.. obvious dat she is older than mi... but she was shorter than mi... not saying anithing la... i juz felt weird dat she was holding a primary skol ez-link card... cant b... she cant b a primary skol student... one of the possibilty is dat she was using her sis de card... another possibilty is dat she is a foreigner... another possibilty is dat she retained or something liddat... anyway i juz cant stop tinkin... lolx...

dats all for today... =)

ny

wahaha... funny... he say he gonna wait for mi... the guy i mention in the previous post... i dun like such guy... he tink my darling not good... trying to convince mi dat he is betta... omg... my darling is the best... at least for now...

haiz... i m not happy... i feel like crying... dunno y... e4 nxt yr... not i dun like the pple in the class... juz dat i still feel sad abt splitting... juz dun feel happy... i realli dunno y... haiz... my darling in N3 nxt yr... he is happy... but i m not... dun feel like saying the reason... it is not good to tink dat way... but i m worrying... dunno for wat... T.T

o... man... i hate dat kind of guy... those who wanna b ur fren thru ur looks... end up dun tok to u bcoz they noe u got bf... o my... such guys arent guys... it is oredi not v good to jio someone thru looks... make frens is ok... who dun start wif appearance when making frens... even if got bf i find it ok to b frens ma... dun ask for stead still can b fren de wat... dat guy ask my number frm my fren... when he noe i got stead... he blame my fren for not telling him... n say he dun wanna noe mi liao... since i got bf... o my... fine... who wanna noe him... i dun even noe him in the first place... n he juz stop replying mi aft he noe i got stead... nvm... nvm... my darling the most important... lolx... tis kind of fren dun make oso can...
so damn ke lian... v ke lian... darling seem to b grounded... his mum noe abt it... his dad sure will noe de ma... go out got restriction... v early muz go home... then many days cant go out... mi n him one week canot meet liao... all bcoz i m busy wif skol n help my aunt... nxt week got chalet... v jialat jiu dui le...
wow... terry got lion dance competition on 261105 in yishun lei... how i wish i can go... but go wif jerry they all??? not v good ba... i doubt they will ask mi go oso... c how ba... wish him good luck lo... i realli wanna go... bcoz i v long nvr c lion dance le... but how to go... hmm... nvm... nvm... now i realise something... I LOVE LION DANCE!!!

thursday we can noe the streaming results le... quite obvious dat surely go into first choice de... anyway v sianz... tml, thurs n fri still hav to go skol bcoz of the music n movement thingy... tink performing... or shld i say confirm performing... anyway... today aft guzheng... mi n darling went to junction 8 to buy his pink shirt.. he insist on pink... n is v obvious dat he dun hav many shirts... then aftr going to the different shops... he bought a shirt frm 'slurpingape'... i hope i didnt spell wrongly??? mi choose for him de lei... lolx... then go eat mos burger... hav lots of fun... everytime go where oso play... can say we childish... but we like it jiu hao... then his mum noe liao... he said she didnt say anithing... but i tink somehow his mum will do something... like today she restrict him to reach home by 5... but end up he leave my hse at 5... lolx... anyway dats all for today...

today is a v tiring day... went to aunt de shop work... first day... of coz dunno alot of things... somehow i tink i go dere is for nth... not dat i nvr do anithing... juz dat dere is enough pple to help... i try to serve... do cashier... n spend a few hours arranging all their receipts... dats the most tiring de... though i was juz sitting dere... my whole body aches... my working hour is 12 to 8... hmm... v flexible... free then go... not free then dun go lo...
jerry msg mi thru friendster today... congrats mi for finding a stead... n say dat he will b waiting... anyway i juz hope he can realli do something abt his future... he didnt even complete N level... haiz... v sad for him... how i wish i can b the one who motivates him in workin hard for his future... i m the one who stop him frm quitting skol in the beginning of 2005... aft everything happen... he quit... i hav nth to say la... by dat time... i was oredi a nobody to him... now... wat can i say...
wa... now i miss my darling v much.. lolx... gonna spend my time wif him for the rest of the day... work cant sms de wor...
my sale of music n movement de tickets... 4... one frm my darling... one frm tahjian... 2 frm my didi joel... lolx... everybody b my witness hor... i gonna pay for tahjian forst... he gonna pay mi back when he see mi... dats wat he say...

dats all for today...

wow... today was a close day... i mean... my mum almost saw us together... bcoz we r outside of my hse at abt 10... which is the time my mum reach home... we took some pic using his hp... but i ask him dun put in friendster... bcoz it is so damn ugly... then he say no choice we hav to take neoprint... he hates neoprint... dats y he say no choice... he gonna buy a pink shirt on tue... n dunno when go take neoprint... he say he shld wear pink when takin neoprint... bcoz i like pink... lolx... everytime go out is he pay de... sooner or ltr he will go bankrupt de... haiz... but wat can i do... he will nvr let mi pay... i realli shld cherish him... he realli treat mi good... dats all i nd ba... hmm... we go cineleisure watch the exorcism of emily rose... wee e weet... v nice... realli... so far... we oredi watch 4 movies... like every week watch once liddat... though today is juz the 2nd week nia... lolx... i dunno lei...

i m back frm orchard again... pei enerjas lo... my darling today cant find mi ma... haiz... somehow today is not a happy day.. sianz... nxt week tue to fri will b in skol... for guzheng... n rehearsal... i tink n quite confirm dat i wun b performing... but teacher say muz go then go lo... anyway i got nth to do at home... actually wanna go aunt de shop work de... guess hav to wait till nxt nxt week le... so long... i oredi bankrupt liao... dun wanna tok abt money... i m sick of dat... on the way home i was tinkin wat i believe in... actually wanna put in friendster de... but lazy... so put in blog jiu hao lo...

1) no one is ugly in tis world... even if pple did say dat u r ugly(which is quite impossible),u oso canot tink dat u r ugly... u muz believe in urself more than pple believe in u...

2) no one is perfect in tis world... b who u r n nvr tink of changing... u r who u r... nvr change... not even for love.. coz is not worth it.. pple shld love u for who u r...

3) go for wat u wan... when u hav got wat u wanted... cherish wat u hav... nvr regret... use ur mind b4 takin any action...

4) believe in urself is most important... nvr look down on urself n tink dat pple look down on u... those pple who look down on u r no betta than u... they may look down on u if u urself look down on urself...

i tink dats for all... liddat c nehz... wat i believe in got common thingy de... BELIEVE IN URSELF IS MOST IMPORTANT =)

back frm orchard... went to bugis wif enerjas... she bought a shoe... i bought a pants... which i realli wanna buy... but... i still wanna buy a slipper... saving up money... but tink of my hp bill i dun tink i shld anymore things lo... haiz... another unbelievable thingy... one person frm UAN de company tok to us... say dat they wan new pple to join their company... they will train them... dance... acting... or watever... to give pple the opportunity of becoming an actor,singer or watever... it seems so unbelievable... i realli like the idea... but the prob is whether i can believe... they make us believe... by giving lots of example... n even meet out parents to make them believe... bcoz she noe it is v difficult for our parents to believe in tis... it seem so real... but it seem fake too... telling pple abt tis is like telling pple abt my dream... can anybody believe in tis... but i realli hope i can do it... shld i believe??? shld i go for it??? nd money for sure de ma... haiz...

omg... i realli cant believe it... issit realli her... i noe one of the star idol... alicia yong... i realli dunno it is her until today... omg... if u all wonder who i tokin u all can go to search for star idol... if not go to my friendster... she is one of my friend... alicia... yup... i noe her when i went to orchard wif my primary skol fren... i dun tink she rmb mi la... she juz doing her job by introducing the zodiac ladies to us... i was oredi a member at dat time... bcoz pple dere r friendly... but i hav nvr been to any of the event... yup... but i m not the member now le... i was v surprised... but she is good in speakin... hav big eye... i m realli shock... ok... anyway yesterday went to woodlands wif my mum... bought a pair of earrings... pink nail polish... n a pink jacket... yay... pink... dotx... hmm... nth much to say la... i m juz realli scare of my hp bill... haiz... wat can i do lei...

yay... the opening ceremony of he buy for mi de necklace is over... lolx... its yesterday... friday he was reluctant to go... but no choice... n dat day is the 2nd time he take cab home frm mi hse... haiz... waste money... yesterday more reluctant... reaching 10 still dun wanna go home... tis time nvr take taxi... take bus... but tink reach home quite late le... yesterday was a happy day... meet mi at yishun aft his flag day then go his hse (first time n finally) change le then go plaza sing watch movie... plaza sing again... anyway we watched cello... horror movie again... aft dat went to bishan... then went back yishun... eat long john... aft dat juz walk ard yishun lo... simple... lolx... today we went to the dog show at expo... it is not a show la... juz sell alot of dogs de thingy then got some competition liddat lo... wif my second sis n some dog forum de fren... my sis comment abt him... nice guy... gentleman... betta looking than the previous one... n quite man.. lolx... anyway it is good la... at least they got tok... one more thing... i m angry wif SOMEONE... dun hav to mention who... HE is so damn super bad lo... mi as his fren wanna cheer him up n he said... it is NONE OF UR BUSINESS... wa kaoz... suan le... i dun wanna care abt him le... hmm... dat day hav a good tok wif 7hao n hanliang... wahaha... make new frens =) n i m going bankrupt soon... dun ask mi y...

yay... finally cut my hair... thinner... then fringe shorter... slight change nia ba... but to some pple is big change??? the barber shop is clar intro de... lolx... finally went dere... waited for 2 hours nehz... so many pple waiting... anyway $8 nia... quite worth it la... feel like straightening lei... the guy make my hair until so straight... forever liddat jiu hao le... haiz... but too bad la... cant even settle my hp bill... so sianz... hmm... then aft dat went to heartland mall... we 5 pple.. ger xh zl ml n mi... then take neoprint... bcoz almost all wif new hairstyle... got time upload neoprint ba... but cant c any difference frm dere lei... dunno la... anyway i oso dun tink dere is much different... wa... v sianz... tml got guzheng... will rmb to bring my spectacles de... hehe...

wahaha... enerjas... paiseh ah... u ask mi dun say de... but i still hav to say... today i went out wif my darling n enerjas... a bit lame la huh... ask mi dun say... hmm... anyway juz normal day ba... go guzheng... learn new song... hehe... then aft dat go c Ms See... not bad ah... our total profit is $472.70... got improve la... actually is $300++ de ma... then forgot to add something... man... so happy... shahila not leaving... how i wish the other 5 oso not leaving... but seems so impossible... haiz... hmm... anyway... let mi continue... aft dat pei enerjas go orchard... she going to work ma... aft she went workin he send mi home... he gave mi a necklace... =) v happy... i dunno how to thank him la... but i realli like it... last thing of the day... my second sis is back frm cruise... yay... lolx...

finally it was proven dat nth was wrong... yay!! =)

haiz... so late haven msg mi... surely haven reach home de... i dun mind u reaching home late... but i tink u all went... suan le... i cant confirm rite now... pls dun hurt mi... i juz noe i nd u rite now... but i cant find u... i realli realli dunno wat will happen... u say 8+... but till now u haven msg mi... sobx... i m realli afraid dat i cant forgive u if wat i m tinkin now is rite... wat shld i do... wat shld i do... i cant find u... zhe me ban... sobx...