ok. i shall post now. n then study chinese ltr!
LOLx. today is another tiring n boring day.
dun feel like doing anithing. juz feel like slacking.

early in the morning go yck swim. LOLx.
ok. its like a failure for mi. as usual =x
haha. but then. ok la. slight improvement.
i will continue to jiayou de!
forget to mention dat i went wif fiona. LOLx.
sorie. coz i tink i stop u from enjoying ur swim!
mayb thurs aft chinese A level go swim again.
but im burnt once again! worse than ever.
LOLx. my face. my arm. my shoulder. my back!
i dunno how im gonna survive man. haha.
so aft swimming. went lan lo.
once again. i oni play CS!
n when i reach they r playing CS oredi. haha.
ok. i noe i hav to try loving dota.
but. its not easy to master it u noe. LOLx.
alright. i will try my best =)
ok. muz rmb to get my kayaking form n progress report signed!

i tink i nvr mention tis in my previous post.
i hope the 3 of them. Nella Victor n TseWei.
will work v hard for tis yr end retest n get promoted!
abt Cas n Shihyu leaving. wat can i say.
but i cried dat day! coz the feeling of separation. hais.
31/08 will nvr b complete anymore.

welcome my niece to the world today! LOLx.
cant c her anyway. shes at taipei. 27 oct.
not bad la huh. same date as mi! though different month.
i was telling my sis its damn weird.
coz i cant imagine myself having jap niece. LOLx.
i bet the nxt time she come to spore she wont noe who i m la.
dats quite sad yeah. haha.

juz like wat nat say.
juz like wat i hav always tink.
i may be insignificant to u.
but significant to others.
the sad thing is. u r significant to mi.

fish leong's song is nice. LOLx.
while waiting for fiona i tried listening to the song's lyrics.
n its meaningful. =)
tis is part of the chorus n the ending part.

梁静如-我们就到这

对的错的做了选择
故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻
要多久才能够褪色
爱的恨的做了选择
我们就到这
就让我曾爱过的记忆深刻
其他的(才能够褪色)
就此放手微笑得带过

ok. since im so so bored right now.
LOLx. let mi juz post abt some lame stuff.
firstly. i hav to say something.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LAVI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINLING!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him. haha.

ok. im very very tired now.
i tink im weak ttm now. LOLx.
anyway. ttm means to the max.
taught by mummy ho =x LOLx.
the whole day im behaving like a pig. haha.
wake up play eat study a bit of chinese.
the last thing to do of coz is slp la! LOLx.
wake up meet ger go run.
run from my hse dere to khatib.
piang. at first steady. then end up cant take it oredi.
walk home from khatib. reaching home then run again.
then climb stairs. 8 storey to my hse. haha.
by the time. my legs r oredi damn weak.
weak ttm la. sian. LOLx.
tis means i nd more training.
too long nvr run liao la.
then aft running of coz feel like eating rit.
go northpoint. buy all the rubbish to eat.
haha. totally like a pig.
juz dat pig wont like running i guess.
n now im tired. dunno wat to do!
its boring staying at home.

then fiona say tml either swim or lan.
anithing la huh. as long as not at home. haha.
staying at home is boring ttm!
i noe i shld b studying.
but seriously. not in the mood at all. LOLx.
ok. i guess dats it for today.
its too boring until i got nth to say! haha.

everyday is the same.
so does tomorrow.
i shouldnt be afraid.
though i'm gonna be home alone.
i will be okay.
'cause i can't run away forever.

haha. i finally got a bit of time to post!
omg. im so happy. happy coz i hav the time. LOLx.
i got so much to say la. it accummulates.
but somehow its impossible to say everything right now.
coz some oredi bcome the past.

finish WR oredi! the feeling is shiok. LOLx.
finally my OP is much betta.
but can improve a lot more.
n dats wat im going to do.
overall group effectiveness can definitely improve.
i dunno whether my group members will c tis.
but i will tell all of them tis sooner or ltr.
now its time to give encourgament more than nth else.
we shldnt demoralise any fellow members nor look down.
we should try v hard to help each other.
progressing as a whole group.
n dats y we nd to all work hard together.
whether its oni for one or two person or the whole group.
dats the teamwork we nd to hav.
n once again. i hav to remind everyone the importance of responsibility.
responsibility in life. dats v impt.
JIAYOU everyone! =)

though i believe everyone tink dat PW is shit.
juz like wat i used to believe.
part of mi still feel so. sorie mr mok.
but. wat u hav said today realli struck mi.
coz i believe we all learn from tis PW journey.
how to deal wif pple n how to b responsible.
how to work wif pple n how to improve urself.
n of coz. learning abt the project dat we r doing.
tink abt it. do u noe abt the project u r doing b4 u start the journey?
i believe the ans is no.
wat im trying to say is.
we do noe abt it in the past.
but issit as much as wat we noe now? definitely not.
n PW allows us to tink in different perspectives n scales.
its like critical tinkin. essential in our life.
yes. the journey is tough n everything.
but we can nvr deny the fact dat it teach us something somehow.

soon. we will hav A Level chinese.
n soon aft dat. OP. the end of PW journey.
i realli wan dat day to come.
but to tink of it, its scary.

i guess i nd to work a little harder for my future.
to get into the faculty i wan to.
its not easy. at least 3 or 4 As.
but. i will try my best.

bcoz i hav to work during the holidays.
im going to sacrifice a lot of things.
n no matter how busy i m.
i hav to take good care of my dog.
snowy. i will try my best.

yes. i msged him.
coz i cant help but to worry for him.
i nvr wan to c him flunk his exams.
the day is reaching soon.
but i dont even noe whether i will wish him.

im sorie nat. n fiona. LOLx. i haven exactly move on.
i dunno whether i will.
though i noe dats wat im supposed to do.
ok. dont worry abt mi.
coz even if i stuck dere forever i will still b happy. haha.

once again, i have to emphasise dat i hate liars.
i seriously hope you didnt lie to me.
but wat if u did? deres nth i can do.
it juz shows how insignificant i m to u.
i realli tot we were close fren.
but ur actions tell mi otherwise.
mayb like wat ger say.
its all juz wat i tink. n u dun feel the same way.
but i guess the thing dat affect mi the most.
is u lied and refuse to tell mi a single thing.
so wats the point of showing mi attitude?
im not going to force u if u dun wan to say.
i ask. bcoz dats wat i wan to noe.
but u hav every right to not answering.
the thing is. nvr lie to mi. coz i hate it.
im disappointed. im affected.
not bcoz of the truth dat i found out.
but bcoz i didnt noe dats wat our friendship is all abt.
coz to mi. the thing dat matters to mi.
is the many years of friendship dat we shared.
n i guess im wrong to tink dat its strong enough.
whether its a truth its still a mystery.
u r the oni one with the ans.
n the sad thing is. we r not dat close aft all.
dats wat i hav realise.
but i guess i hav no right to noe the truth anyway.

just like wat i hav told fiona.
i will always b in ur life.
but u will nvr notice mi.
but wat i care now. is realli the friendship.

moved on? i realli don't know.

yeah man. today is friday! LOLx.
finally can relax a bit. but still.
the journey of PW cant seem to hav a pause.
now everyday is about PW.
and my OP rehearsal. haha. it sucks.
dun remind mi of dat but i will work v hard.
its less than a month to the end!
lets just JIAYOU all the way ba.



the day is getting nearer.
but i seriously dunno wat i shld do.


i finally saw it with my own eyes today.
n thats when i realise watever i tink is not true.
wat i see is true.
im disappointed. but dats juz the fact.

so sorie cass! cant go out wif u all today.
bcoz of PW, PW n PW. boring.
tml morning gonna hav PW meeting oredi.

i always believe that one shld tink of the pple ard them before doing anithing.
wats the point of doing something and in the end cause trouble to pple.
pointless.

of all pple. i didnt ever tink dat its her.
its so unpredictable.
anybody seem possible.
although its sad dat we no longer tok.
but i believe its better coz i hav to get u out of mi.
glad dat u hav found someone u love.
i juz dun wan to care abt someone who dun care abt mi.

oh man. its friday! haha.
today we had farewell assembly for the J2s.
n i guess many schools hav their graduation ceremony too.
the feeling of separation again. 离别. LOLx.
its sad la. though not super close wif the seniors oso.
oni got some which are quite close. esp cheetah cheerleading.
hopefully we will meet up some time soon? not sure too.

anyway. the day is finally over.
thursday is the day when everyone noe whether they live or die.
haha. no la. not so scary.
but seriously. everyone is afraid of retaining.
its true dat its not toally a waste to spend another yr to get the concept right.
n succeed in the future.
but the feeling of retaining n the feeling of not being wif ur fren nxt yr.
its definitely terrible.
as far as we wan the whole class to promote tgt.
sometimes it doesnt seem possible.
now dat all of us hav got back our results.
some pple r sad some r happy. but most r not happy.
even if u r happy wif ur own results u r sad to c pple cry.
u will b sad to c pple worrying abt retaining.
n of coz worry for them as well.
n all shih-yu say is. its nice to meet u pple.
i seriously hope everyone will promote n we will stay tgt as a class.
whoever it is. we dun wan to leave anyone behind.
pray hard dat they will b given a 2nd chance.

for mi. i was realli disappointed wif most of my results.
i would say dat i realli did improve from mid years.
but it has not reach my expectation.
maths is a B again. sian. percentage pass is abt 58%.
i noe i shld b glad la. coz i noe i cant get A.
n b4 thurs i was praying dat i will get a B.
coz i tink i will cry if i get a C.
nvr in my life i did so badly for maths la.
so although B is good enough i still hope one day i can get my A.
bcoz its maths.
bio is a B again. LOLx. %AB is abt 60%.
its hard to imagine coz i always fail bio in sec skol.
but i noe i can do a lot betta.
i dun tink its v difficult. getting A is not difficult.
but for bio. im kinda contented dat its a B la.
econs. im kinda glad dat at least i pass.
but i realli do not noe whether dats all i can get.
i got an E. %pass is oni abt 33%. but i tink got moderation.
i will continue to work hard for it.
chem is totally a disappointment. im so sorie Mrs Wong.
she said the same thing as wat she told mi during mid years.
xinyi. since the beginning of the year u hav been underperforming.
i noe u got the potential but dunno y u nvr do well.
mayb u nd more practice.
i did practice tis time ah! n i dun tink i dunno my concept lo.
but i believe i can. i believe i can do well for chem.
tis time oni got a D. realli disappointing.
GP. i finally improve in my essay. by a bit oni la.
but. my compre totally pull mi down. my god.
i dunno wat to say. all i can say is i will work harder.
most of us did worse than our mid years.
chinese is the oni subject im quite happy abt. LOLx.
juz as wat i hav tot. my essay is totally crap.
i write halfway i dunno wat i writing oredi.
dats y the front part is good but the middle part is crap.
luckily in the end still got my A.
n im v happy wif my paper 2.
though the first compre did quite badly.
but overall i did a lot betta than my mid years.
so overall i got ABBDEE. no C again.
i tink its quite ugly lei. wif 2Es. LOLx.
nvm. i will work harder nxt time. JIAYOU! =)

since we all get back our results le.
i tink we shldnt b sad over whats oredi over.
but focus on wats in front of us n our future.
like PW. boring. LOLx.
hav been doing PW n PW n PW. everyday. *faint*

but dat day still went to LAN wif the class.
once again. class means the few pple.
its always the same pple going out la. LOLx.
spending so much on playing. bankrupt oredi.
i like to play CS seriously. i dun like dota! =x
haha. coz i dunno how to play.
thanks jj n jaryl for teaching mi dat day.
improve my skill for CS n at least i attempted dota.
but i dunno how to kill! totally suck at it.
we shall c how nxt time.

i dont know how im feeling right now.
sad? happy? neutral?
but seriously. i didnt lie when i say im perfectly fine.
im feeling quite neutral.
perhaps bcoz things hav never change? its still the same.

im glad that u hav found ur motivation.
at least u wont b the way u r anymore.
though i hav been lecturing u the whole day.
i noe her words mean much more to u than mine.
well. i tink i shld b happy for u.
coz i realli hope u wont b the same anymore.
whoever dat change u.
whether its dat girl or u urself. i will still b happy.

finding someone u love is good.
so im realli glad to c u happy. =)

i finally found someone more emo than mi.
WONG SIOWYUN! LOLx.

PHOTOS! =p

ok. im going to post photos dat i didnt post like super long ago. not gonna post super long ago one. shall post from going back zhss on teachers' day celebration. =)

they hav tis board, dedicating to the teachers. so we reach dere n start writing all over the board. c how much we miss zhss. n how much we love our class. 4e4'07!





mainly done by pakmeng n sophia. LOLx.

aft dat we went to glasshosue fish n co. took some pics.



LOVES!

ok. now back to 31/08! LOLx. we celebrated our class birthday dat day. mr n mrs mok was dere too!


see what stupid jaryl n jon r doing. LOLx.

mi n clar. =)

mi n sy. =)

lastly. dat day SMITS went out! juz b4 we meet the class for dinner. aft promos. LOLx. n we decided to take neos. yeah. shall show some of them n not all ba.





the end!

its weekends! n im gonna stay at home.
LOLx. bcoz. hav been going out on weekdays.
its damn weird rit. haha.
but anyway. had great fun tis whole week.
since im so free now shall tok a little abt it.

wednesday. had OP practice in the morning.
aft dat went to meet the class again. LOLx.
n they decided to go LAN. i didnt play much.
coz i tink playing w/o understanding is no point.
so i decided to juz watch n learn.
n i tink. dota is realli not easy.
when u juz started its difficult to master it.
it realli takes time.
mr chua. u dun hav to apologise to mi!
wat u hav said is true. juz dat its 2 years ago. LOLx.

thursday. my god. its our OP day.
we r supposed to practice our OP in front of the class.
ok la. its juz in front of classmate. so still ok.
but. haha. i tink i screw it.
n the whole group didnt do v well oso.
nvm! we can continue to jiayou! =)
tis few days nvr realli do anithing abt PW la.
was like slacking throughout. LOLx.
but nono. we will start to work on it soon!
it will b over in 1 month's time.
we need to tink far to hav a happier life. LOLx.
bcoz of OP i slept at 3am in the morning. piang.
aft the OP which ends at abt 1.
i actually wanted to go home n slp. haha.
but aft dat i realise slping is a v boring thing to do.
n my class 31/08! juz like to go out n hav fun.
haha. end up we go AMK hub to eat lunch.
eat fish n co. LOLx. my god. like enjoying our life.
aft dat we went jaryl's hse to play rock band!
aft playing a while i fell aslp at his hse. LOlx.
was so tired la can. n the guys were practicing for their 5 stars.
nth to do then slp lo. haha.
but had great fun realli.
i tink aft promo we keep tinkin of slacking n having fun la.
which can b good n bad lo.
everyday aft skol we will juz start tokin abt where to go.
w/o prior planning. coz we juz dun feel like going home. LOLx.
so i shld say we go out as a class. its always the usual pple.
can we say dat we r like a 'clique'?
when going out its always us. but its more than 10 of us la.
but we had great fun all the time.
its bcoz of their presence dat i feel i can live happily w/o him.
dats y im glad dat i hav them. =)
come to tink of it. since im so free i shall write friendship card!

now can tok abt yesterday. was realli a fun n tiring day.
in the morning we did sandcastle building!
its like our post promo activity.
its v fun n realli learn a lot. patience. perserverence.
my god. its realli not as easy as wat we tink la.
to do a realli good one hav to put in lotsa effort.
im waiting for the pics on wat we hav built.
we didnt build a castle. we build other things.
i shall tok abt it oni aft i get the pics. haha.
but bcoz of dat. i got sunburn!
not oni mi la. like everybody? LOLx.
n aft dat its supposed to a class outing at ECP.
but in the end. as usual. its the few of us again.
its v disappointing. but wat can we do?
luckily. we still had fun though we dun hav the whole class.
we went cycling n inline skating. LOLx.
i chose to skate. bcoz v long nvr skate oredi.
i dun wan to forget everything the nxt time i skate.
but. i tink i kinda suck at it. n i did forget some of the things.
n i fell once! w/o realising though.
as in. i juz turn to look at aj pple n fell.
kinda bad i feel. coz its a bit pain. LOLx.
but its ok! we had fun. mi nat n clar were skating!
aft dat some of them went home left 10 of us.
n we went to LAN. LOLx. played CS.
kinda shiok. we oni play like 2 hours n it passed realli fast.
haha. juz like wat clar say. our class is realli cool.
we can even go LAN tgt. even the gals r playing.
yesterday was 5 gals n 5 guys. haha.
dota. i tink dat needs a bit more time to learn.
so nxt time c how la huh. LOLx.
like wat nat says. we go out as a class more than we go out as a clique.
as in. SMITS. the 5 of us. its a bit weird la.
coz i tink most pple used to go out wif a small group of pple?
instead of 10 over pple most of the time. haha.
but its realli fun. =)
31/08 rocks to the max! i tink we love our class a lot.
sorie joyce. i cant eat dinner wif u all yesterday.
hav to rush home la. sometimes got no choice.
hope u all had great fun! =p

n today im gonna stay at home. mayb tml oso.
haha. i finish hana yori dango today!
n now i feel kinda bored. dunno wat to watch.
mayb gossip girls? mayb sy will recommend other jap show oso.
haha. nvm. i shall wait.
i noe i shld go finish my twilight. i will do dat ltr!
monday we gonna hav another volleyball session! yes. haha.

thanks jaryl. dat conversation is quite random.
though u didnt exactly ans dat chim question.
but we u hav said struck mi.
yes. u r right. erase dat hope.
but mayb deres no hope in mi.
juz dat i wish n wan dat to happen. dumb mi as usual.
but no. things gonna change. it wont b the same.
i will no longer b the same.
i will get both of them out of my mind. =)

luckily its all over.
i manage to calm myself down n now i feel much betta.
n dats the reason y deres nth abt PW.
if not. #$%&@#$. yeah.

yesterday went to play volleyball at bishan ACTIVE.
mi n fiona hav been trying hard. realli.
n we will continue to jiayou!
jarly too! u betta not run away.
u r supposed to coach us!
n now my left hand is realli weak.
if u pple do not noe.
i write wif my right hand but play wif my left hand.
bcoz im actually a left-hander.
aft dat went into cat high.
fiona is v proud of it =x
anyway. we played in the rain n had fun.

i realise the reason im living is for my frens.
bcoz i wan to b dere for them.
my greatest hope now is to hav the trust of pple.
listen n understand them when they nd mi.
always b dere.
trust. the thing dat keeps mi going.

maybe you are right.
we will never forget. but it has become a past.
i dont know what makes it a past.
should i be glad that it once happened?
or should i be sad 'cause it should not happen in the first place?
i dont even know whether i can treat you as my friend.
i should move on. i can do it right.
我们之间剩下的只有回忆。

i dont know whether i should ask.
but so what if i know who the person is.
as long as i know it wont be me.