loving relationships are about working together for mutual respect and support over a long period - not just about falling in love, sex and romance, which are relatively superficial ends.

true love in all its intensity does not actually last a lifetime ans it is unreasonable to sentence oneself to a lifetime of enforced fidelity to soeone with whom the spark is gone. we should not make unkeepable promises but instead acknowledge that even long-term relationships can end when the love is lost or one partner falls in love with somebody else.

sounds contradicting. but somehow i agree to tis 2. LOLx.

i hav alot of thoughts in my mind. but i dun feel like typing anymore. hais. nobody knows anithing. oni 2 pple. my sis n my di. mayb dats more than enough. all tis r juz retribution ba. i once treated someone like tis. now i get the same treatment. im sorie. i noe how u feel rit now. but its too late to realise. although it seem like a retribution. but i tink during dat period of time. somehow im doing the right thing.

i hav nightmare again. tis time abt somebody else. but when i wake up i feel like crying. end up i didnt. all the things juz run thru my mind lo. mayb bcoz i hav more than 1 person in my mind. dats y ba. hais. i cant contact u. y arent u here when i nd u. sianz. deres no way i can find u.

how i wish i can get you out of my mind. i believe what i hav been tinkin is not wat actually happen. wat actually happen is more than dat. u ignore mi. bcoz u r happier rit now. bcoz u hav someone else.

thanks. i cried once again. aft so long. i finally cry le. thanks. mayb i will feel betta aft dat.

mayb im juz too free to tink abt all tis. who ask myself to stay at home today. kns.

HAHA. i hav to admit dat im zi lian kuang ok. =x uploading photos again!!! =p
i tink my class is so cute lo. LOLx. 3e4'06.







nxt will b the zi lian mi. LOLx.











picture took in expo. mi judy n jamie.



yeah. i tink dats all. LOLx.

arghh. why r u so stupid. brb then nvr come back. are u an idiot. LOLx. qi si wo le. tml im gonna stay at home. at first is got go out de lo. at first i can choose whether to go out wif sophia germaine or him. but now. nobody at all. LOLx. mayb i will find my other fren to go out ba. i dunno. anyway. since dunno when. he tok to mi again. im so happy. bcoz i realli canot contact him lo. but then again. its juz a short while. tok tok tok. he say brb. n hes nvr back again. mayb a few more months? nxt yr?? sianz. when can i b dat happy again. i kind of miss u lo. =(

idiot. we miss one chance of going out lo. in fact more than one liao. are u an idiot. arghh. qi si wo le. LOLx. bo bian. if hes realli dat idiot. then i can oni wait wait wait n wait. dunno until when. mayb nvr again. OMG. u r seriously an idiot sia. idiot idiot idiot idiot. arghh. u alwaz drive mi crazy.

i tot i wun post for a period of time.
but i had a dream. a nightmare last nite.
its still in my mind. so clearly.
mayb its all true.
a dream which can somehow make mi cry.
a dream which i nvr wan it to happen.
i dunno y im so sad.
its juz a dream. its juz a dream.
even if its true. i shldnt cry.
arghh. if its true juz accept it.

i ask for improvement in mi.
i tell myself. i will prove to the guys.
im not wat they tink i m.
dats the reason i somehow change le ba.
im stronger now. unlike last time.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!

i feel the pain in my heart all of a sudden.
i dun dare to tink. i dun wanna noe.
something bad has happen. i noe.
hais. i tried to b happy. i did.
i let u go. so dat u could b happier.
i tot if u realli love mi.
i tot if u realli noe n understand mi.
u will noe how i feel.
u will noe the reason im doing all tis.
all tis will nvr happen.

my heart has broken into pieces.
i guess now oni u dont noe.

but i noe wat i wan.
TO BE HAPPY.

although u r so far away frm mi.
when i nd u i cant find u anywhere.
but i bring everything wif mi.
u r juz as close to my heart.
i tink of u. i smile. n i cry.
but my heart is where u will alwaz b.

arghh. who is dere to save mi frm all tis.
i lose everything. u means everything.
wats the point rit.
a guy who can live without u.
a guy who dun even care abt u rit now.
y r u crying. y r u sad.
y cant u let go of him. sobx.
m i dat weak.
arghh. y muz u do tis to mi.
u noe its terrible. u noe its terrible.
im not like u.
u hav all ur frens who can go crazy n happy wif u.
i hav frens. but i depend too much on u.
i feel weird calling them out.
i feel weird not to tok on phone everyday b4 i slp.
i go out wif frens. staring into blank space.
im sorie dat i feel tis way.
im sorie dat i didnt let u go juz liddat.
im sorie dat makes u feel irritated.
dat juz not wat i wan.
who wan to b sad. i wan my happiness.
hais. i dunno. i dunno. i dunno.
can u give it back to mi??
y take them away frm mi. WHY.

everything comes to an end.
history repeating.
im sad sad n sad.
i cry cry cry n cry.
LOLx. but oso dunno wats the use la.
dun worry. i will recover de.
but whenever i tink of him i will cry.
the fish. the duck. my acrylic heart.
y did u take it away frm mi. hais.
but c le oso cry. i dunno la.
adrian. im sorie.
i miss u alot alot alot.
realli.

all i wan is to b happy.
all i wan is to hav someone who truly love mi.
accepting who i m. treating mi gd.
issit dat difficult??

bcoz of all the guys.
i lose my worth.
i lose my happiness which i wan to get all along.
i lose every opportunity to b happy again.

wats love. if deres love.
will u still leave mi??
will u still treat mi the way u do??
will u laugh without mi??
will u enjoy without mi??
will u make mi suffer alone??

hais. sometimes love just aint enough.

i will not regret in watever i do.
i will nvr regret in making any decision.
tis include being wif u.
i hav no regret.
no matter wat will happen in the nxt few days.
in the nxt few weeks.
in the nxt few months. years n forever.
i dun wan to say anithing else here.
all i wan to say is wat we everyday say to each other.
gdnitez. love you. muackz.
since i cant say it to u anymore.

if im realli dat irritating jiu suan le.
mayb by leaving u will b happier??
i dunno. i dun wanna tink.
all tis things happen again n again.
in my life. its repeating.
im trying to find something.
which can empower mi.
to b stronger.
n to survive without u.
but it seem like deres nth.

my first time experiencing sleepless nite.

OMG. i study so hard for amaths. but i believe i do badly. i change the answer of one of the question n realise its wrong. arghh. sobx sobx. got one careless oso. hais. i shall go bang the wall. i cry over it lo. mr poh u lie to mi. sobx sobx. =( its not realli difficult la. the mistakes i made is stupid la. im so far away frm my a1 liao. anyway. im gonna make sure i wun make the same mistake again. not for o level. i will cry until i die. sobx sobx. i will continue to study hard de. LOLx. anyway. i find tis quote quite interesting.

" fate is half by expection, half by inattention. but somehow when one lose something you love, faith takes over. you have to pay attention to what you lost. you have to undo the expectation. "

study. study. STUDY.
jiayou. jiayou. JIAYOU.

LOLx. exams period now. =(
anyway. tots run thru my mind.
but i still tink its betta to keep it.
u may not noe wat im tinkin.
but i find dat i hav to b contented wif wat i hav.
things will get betta.
nth will get worse.
juz hope the feelings wun fade.

can anyone tell mi how one shld treat his or her love one??