i cant imagine not getting an A for maths!
something must be wrong with my mind.
something is so wrong.
i have got to start praying. =(
but i just have to move on.
a few more papers and a few more weeks.
i cant give up right now.

alright. its time to relax a little!
i was so so looking forward to friday every week.
because there is no way i can relax during the weekdays.
how sad can life be?
haha. alright. i shall not be pessimistic.
sometimes i wonder about the true meaning of life.
if someone were to ask me about the life in JC, i have no idea what i should say.
because i guess whatever that come out from my mouth wont be positive.
i dont know whether that means i regret choosing JC.
hmm. i guess not. because i dont know whether i will enjoy poly life.
of course poly life might be a little bit more relaxing and fun.
but that's not exactly what im looking for as well.

so hows life in JC now.
its really boring and stressful.
prelims starting in 3 to 4 weeks' time.
and now its kinda like revision period.
timed practice, tests and homework are piling up.
imagine having 3 timed practice of different subject in a day.
isnt that stressful?
and its not like all we have to do is to study for the timed practice.
theres homework for lecture and for tutorial for almost all subjects.
juz had bio timed prac today and im so gonna fail it.
there is not enough time for us to finish studying.
seriously i think thats not effective at all.
im glad that some teachers actually understand how we feel.
but nothing is gonna change.
and the teachers just told us today that there is another small test on tuesday.
they add on saying that we have the whole weekend to study.
why teachers just dun realise that thats not the only subject we are taking.
there is still many other homework n tests coming up.
like theres maths timed practice on wed which cover all the stats topic.
theres a million of homework actually. alright. i shall not list them.
and i have to de-stress a little only on friday.
so i have decided to makes cards and complete my SGC which has to be handed in by next week.
seriously, this kinda life is kinda crazy.

putting school and homework aside.
i brought my dog to the vet 3 weeks ago.
i shall not elaborate much on why.
i visited the vet twice and spent like $240++.
how cool is that. im so gonna earn it back.
but im glad that hes recovering.
one week has to bathe him twice n everyday have to clean him twice.
that really adds on to the amount of work i have to do each day.
anyway. thanks to MOMO for helping me and accompanying me.
heres a picture of my dog! =D



on wed we had career and scholarship fair.
i so so want to get into NTU business accountancy.
actually i have no idea why oso. i just have interest in it?
and nothing has really changed my mind before.
but of course there is a lot of other career choice.
like being a teacher or a social worker.
but thats not the main point now.
the main point is doing well in As so that i can have a choice.
and that means i have to work really really hard.
looking at my mid years results. im far from there.
my maths was really disappointing.
and my econs was like really hopeless.
but i will continue working very hard.
just want to thank Mr Seng for the encouragement he gave.
at least he make me feel that my results doesnt show my true ability for maths.
i believe that teachers are most students' motivation to study.
its the teachers' expectation for you that push you to your maximum potential.
anyway. yup. i will JIAYOU de!

after the C&S fair, stayed back in school for sports club farewell party!
at first i thought we will just gather to eat and everything.
in the end the juniors actually decorated the classroom, organise a lucky draw, made cards for everyone of us and even made a video!
im shocked by the effort put in by them and felt quite bad as we didnt do so much for our seniors last year.
but this batch of juniors are realli hyper. they always get high themselves.
sometimes they can really make a lot of noise.
but i guess they really had great fun together.
looking at the messages in the video, some of them actually say they really like and enjoy being in this CCA and im really glad to see that.
anyway. thanks juniors for the farewell party! =)

alright. i guess its time to get down to serious work.
my sis is coming back from japan during the national day period!
so looking forward to see her, her husband and my niece!
she has really big eyes. haha.
im gonna be damn busy when shes back.
oh ya. i missed a chance going japan with my eldest sis because of my exams.
and my mum has to stay with me in singapore because of me.
felt so bad. but i really dont have a choice.
and my sis came back from japan she showed us lotsa photos.
the photos are so nice!



this is one of the photos.
anyway. just a photo of my niece before i end this post.



rocco and aomi! =D

omg! i realise i didnt talk about my birthday.
how could i??

ok. so on 24th april, my family celebrated my birthday.
didnt take any photo.
my sis bought an ice cream cake and i got a shock.
LOLx. 'cause before that i just talk abt eating ice cream cake.

then on 25th april, celebrated my birthday with daredevils!
at ichibanboshi. had fried ice cream as my 'birthday cake'. LOLx.
took some pictures.

the 5 of us.

and the 4 of us.
actually there is a few more photos.
but clar haven send it to me. alright. i shall wait. LOLx.
they got me my super big pencil case. i really like it.
and also a top.

then on 26th april. MOMO came my house.
and i got oreo cheesecake as my birthday cake.
thanks a lot. 'cause i think its really nice.
not forgetting the bouquet of flowers.


ok. i know i look super pale here. but i have no idea why. LOLx.

27th april was a monday. so i went to school normally.
didnt expect much. maybe just gifts from my friends.
while i was collecting money, being a responsible loanshark huang aka treasurer.
i really get a shock when my classmates suddenly start singing birthday song and a cake appear in front of me. LOLx.
it was really a surprise. really didnt expect that.
because we said we will not buy cake for anybody's birthday to cut cost.
so the cake wasnt really from the class. it was from some classmates.
thanks for whoever that chip in for the cake.
though i dont really know who. =x
and my clique actually bought me bikini. how cool right.
i have no idea whether i will wear. but i will try not to waste their money. LOLx.
i was especially shock when casuarine pass me a present. and she said victor chip in for the present too.
i was really really shock. haha. thanks my beloved PW mates!
alright. heres some picture.

the cake! with lavi's hand =x haha.

my class. steph and clar are not in the picture.

the 5 of us. sorry. you cant see siowyun's face. haha.

me and nat.

me and joyce.

not forgetting to thank cassandra and JonTan for the esprit shirt. i like it =)
that stupid jie mei er who forgot my birthday and need cassandra to remind you on the day itself.
i will always remember that.
i dont know whether ypu chip in for the present but i dont care! =x

oh ya. to liangping if you still visit my blog.
sorry that i forget to wish you on your birthday. LOLx.
i have no idea why i didnt wish you.
and i only realise i didnt wish you late may. so im sorry!
and i forgot to wish marcus happy birthday also.
'cause was having midyears. oh no.
he will be shocked if he know i still remember though.
alright. shall post some other day.

alright. i was supposed to post yesterday.
because it's the last day of exams!
sorry to fiona. haha. in the end i didnt post.
i thought of posting whatever i didnt manage to post.
but in the end im just too lazy =x
haha. not much time also.

yesterday was finally the end of midyears!
im glad that its over.
but when i get back my results, it will be different.
there is only one word to describe my midyears.

SCREWED!

i have no idea why i dont have enough time.

but ya. i dont have enough time.

so i will say i tried my best given the time i have.

but i was especially sad over my maths.

hais. i cant imagine that im hoping for a pass.

a C or a D is the best i can expect.

JonTan! prepare to buy me my oreo ice blend. wahaha.

ok. actually i hope what you say will be true.

but unfortunately, i know i cant get a B this time round.

it's really time to start working hard.

while studying for midyears, i keep asking myself.

why do i have to give myself so much pressure?

why do i have to go through all this stress?

i seriously hope its worth it.

and i hope studying in JC could be as enjoyable as secondary school.

alright. i shall try not to be pessimistic. LOLx.

so yesterday aft our last paper, some of us went to watch Transformer 2!

haha. i didnt even watch Transformer 1 =x

but i manage to enjoy watching Transformer 2. so i was glad.

fiona was so scare down there. as if shes watching some horror movie =x

haha. and she said if nat was there, she will do the same.

aft the movie i check the time and realise that it's already 9.

kinda get a shock. didnt know it was so late already.

well. aft exams of course i slept with all the time i have.

LOLx. studying for midyears, i sleep less than 5hours a day.

spending the whole day staring at notes. its so boring! =x

but i try as much as possible to take a break aft studying the whole day.

not forgetting catching my everyday 9pm show.

and of course. every saturday boys over flower! LOLx.

ok. through this period, thanks cassandra, germaine, hongzhen and MOMO for all the encouragement and also talk to me when im so tired of studying.

liangping reminded me about being confident in the past.

was i really confident in the past?

hmm. maybe its really different now.

its really not easy to be confident with what i have been doing now.

slack a bit aft exams but is constantly reminded that i have work to complete my tuesday.

LOLx. and its really a lot of work.

but i still feel like slacking =x

having sore throat now. arghh.

alright. shall end my post here.

stagnant. stagnant. stagnant. my blog is dead!
haha. and im sorry about that.
i take note of whatever that i want to post so that i won't miss the small little things that happen in my life.
but still. i got no time to post about it.
haha. if not for the strong feelings i have for my cca, i think i won't even be posting now.

this month, aj sports club actually took part in Tchoukball A division.
and i proudly say that we have done our best and have done well.
well done sports clubber! whether you are in team or not.
well done team members for playing such a good game.
and well done non-team members for cheering throughout the game.
the boys' team got 3rd and the girls' team got 1st!
oh my god. it's so exciting!
but what's more important, is the process, not the outcome.

all thanks to our teacher-in-charge and Coach Rezal.
the teachers gave us the opportunity to actually compete and have something to fight for. something that we can look forward to.
in the past, when people ask me about my cca, i don't deny, i'm not proud of it at all.
i will just tell them "oh, we do all kinds of sports and as much as possible contribute back to the school".
some people might think that it's cool to learn all kinds of sports.
but some people might think that what's the point of having this kind of cca in school when all we do is learn, play and enjoy ourselves.
now, i will proudly tell them. we play, we have fun, we learn and we compete.
in the past, we used to play tchoukball leisurely and all we know is to pass the ball and eventually throw the ball to the net (and blah blah blah).
and we thought the game was kind of boring at first because in the game of tchoukball, no interception is allowed.
under Coach Rezal's training, we learn a lot more about the game of tchoukball
the physics, the technique and the skills.
all this we will not know without his coaching.
and the game is not as boring as we thought. it can be real interesting.

we decided to join this tchoukball competition perhaps only in about march or april.
it was a pretty last minute decision and luckily, we are able to get Coach Rezal to be our coach.
we only had maybe about a month of so of training before the competition.
so we had like training about 2 to 3 times a week?
it's pretty tough and tiring, plus the stress from all the work that we have to complete.
because of this competition and training, we have kind of put aside all our work.
that's only just the beginning.
when the team has been selected, the training become 3 to 4 times a week.
and most of the time, we had training at bedok and not in aj due to the lack of venue.
that's how hard we have actually worked to achieve what we can for this competition.

through this competition and the tough training involve, sports club has really become more bonded.
the way we encourage and cheer for each other.
the way we have survived through all this trainings.
some of us get injured. sprain ankle, sprained fingers.
but at the end of the day, ask yourself, is it worth it?
and looking at what we have got, we can gladly say yes, it is worth it.
i have never seen how bonded aj or sports club is until this competition.
of course, sports club will not become a tchoukball club.
we will still do all kinds of sports but we will also maintain or improve our tchoukball skills.

to LKW: yoy know nuts about sports club so stop making your stupid comments. this competition has proven you wrong. and even without it, you are still wrong because at least we try to contribute back to the school.

once again, JIAYOU AJ SPORTS CLUB! WE CAN DO IT!
*pictures will be uploaded as soon as i get it. IF i get it. LOLx.

i have nothing to say.
maybe all i can say is. i'm sorry.

im sorry friends, for not posting for such a long time.
it's like. hmm. more than a month. LOL.
ok. i was just feeling very tired and many things went through my mind.
so i decided to post on the blog?
the reason i dont post is because i have so many things to update about.
and i may not have the time to post everything that i want.
hmm. so let's just see what i post today ba.
hopefully as much as i can.

i didn't go to skol for more than a week le.
have been having slight fever since 7th april.
but seriously, it is only slight fever.
i felt ok in the morning and only had fever by the time i reach home.
that's why i didn't go for CCA on the 8th. yup.
so on the 10th is good friday. was supposed to go for overnight cycling with sports club.
but in the end i was at home lying on my bed. i can't go =(
and on saturday (11 april) i had kinda high fever. like 38.6? about there.
despite that, i went to buy contact lenses and make a new spectacle.
weird huh. but i realise my face was red when i was at the shop.
but nevermind, everything was ok.
after that my fever was back to slight fever again.
and i have no idea why it's not recovering.
so finally, i went to the doctor on monday thinking of getting MC and take a break.
i never expect a long break though. just expect a one-day break.
but in the end, i did blood test and have low platelets count.
was suspected to have dengue fever. though i have fever and nothing else.
ok. i have no idea. it's very complicated.
someone from NEA came to 'interview' me on tuesday. *faint*
i had my blood test on monday, tuesday, yesterday and today.
platelets count drop on tuesday but increase greatly yesterday.
i was so happy. thinking that i can soon go back to school and for my CCA.
but. my platelets count drop again today. hais. not again.
so i can't go school on monday and have to take another blood test.
hopefully the last blood test *praying*
i'm out of blood already. the nurse tried to squeeze some blood out of me today.
i guess i really didn't drink enough water ba.
but i don't feel feverish anymore. just tired. a little stress. a little sad.
and of course a little dizzy today 'cause i think i'm really out of blood.
the doctor whom i consult is the same for yesterday and today.
he just keep telling me. you are still not out of the wood.
even when he measure my temperature and it's 37.3.
he said " it's not considered fever but it's borderline ".
he just never make me feel that i will be okay.
everytime he just sound like 'don't be too happy yet'.
and i just keep asking him when i can do physical activities.
the main reason is because of my CCA. i shall elaborate on this later or next time.

during this period of time, friends and family are the most important.
thanks joyce, fiona and victor for visiting that day and pass me all my homework.
though i really feel stress after that. but i don't think i should slack during this period.
there's so many things i have to catch up on.
thanks nat for updating me on what's going on in class and in school, and of course homework.
haha. thanks for lending me your notes to copy and all.
thanks siowyun for helping to scan and everything.
thanks germaine for helping me to pass notes and homework.
thanks everyone for your concern.
i will go back to school real real real soon. most probably and hopefully tuesday.
though i know i will feel really stress after that. but it's better than staying at home everyday.
thanks to my family and MOMO for everything.
hope it will really be over soon.
i want to go back to school.
i want to have fun with my friends.
i want to go for CCA and train for tchoukball.
but all this still depend on the blood test on monday.

when i see pak during the family day carnival i was so so happy.
suddenly just have the cheerleading feel.
whenever i see/hear fiona talking about cheerleading i think it's so fun.
but looking at my schedule and everything i don't think i can join this year.
as far as i really want to join, i don't think i can.
it's like. i can't always get whatever i want.
sometimes i need to sacrifice some stuff for others.
well. looking at the fact that i didn't go school for a week and i can't do physical activities.
i'm kind of glad that i'm not in cheerleading.
'cause eventually i won't be able to join in the performance.
eventually i will miss all the practice and it doesn't make a difference from not joining at all.
JIAYOU everyone! for all the SYFs and tournaments.

im posting at a v weird timing. coz its kinda late now.
haha. but im not going to slp early today! i hope?
LOLx. hav been slping n slacking like shit la.
canot stand myself oredi.
went to run at khatib wif ger tis morning.
n realise dat the stadium is being used by MOE.
for some fitness carnival. n saw some aj teachers. LOLx.
napha is coming. n i tink im gonna screw my sit n reach.
not forgetting my inclined. n dats sad. haha.
but well. juz gonna do my best. LOLx.
mi n ger meet again in the afternoon to study!
but of coz its not v effective.
in the end i dunno wat i hav been studying.
n i wan to slp =x haha.
omg la. i hav been slping n slping.
so the first thing i do when i reach home is slp.
hence i decided not to slp early tonight!
if not im juz going to blame myself n everything.

ok. my results has been dropping n dropping.
n i failed my first maths test in my life.
how could tis happen to mi?? omg.
ok. i hav been reflecting n asking myself tis question.
n ya. was kinda sad. but i juz hav to work harder.
but as u can c. im not working v hard either. LOLx.
n i failed my bio test too. like duh. haha.
my bio teacher juz ask issit bcoz i nvr study.
alright. i kinda expect to screw both tests since the day i did it.
2 more tests coming up. n im gonna work hard for it!

A level chinese results is coming out soon!!!
its going to b out tis coming week. most prob. omg.
i juz realli hope dat i can get the A i wan.
though tis is the most screwed chinese paper i ever took.
but still. i hope i can get an A!
ok. im not going to tink too much.

hmm. i nvr tok abt the relationship seminar held in my skol.
the speaker is pretty funny.
thru the seminar i guess some of us learn some things.
n ya. it kinda make pple like mi to tink. LOLx.
but if im not going to type it out la.
its gonna b somewhere in my heart. haha.

another thing is the first few CCA session wif the J1s.
im juz too tired to type it all out now.
but i will post abt it soon! haha.
though i dunno when dat will b =x

i noe sometimes i can b quite attitude.
i noe sometimes i can b quite fierce.
i noe sometimes i can b quite straightforward.
n i noe im getting uglier each day.
but well. dats juz mi.
sorry if i hav offended u in any way.

to ONGJIAYAN (if u ever visit my blog): haha. how can u not tell mi when u change ur blog url!?!?! im so disappointed in u. ok. juz kidding. but i sense something thru ur blog. juz hope dat u r ok. =)

randoms.
you are right when you say "why do i need to tell you?"
im almost there.
what do i want for my future?

omg. juz look at the date today.
haha. i nvr post for more than a month le.
dats so cool! LOLx.
ok. sorry to those pple who visited.
but im posting now! though im still busy.
LOLx. im having chem SPA on monday which is tml.
n deres tons of homework to b completed la.
nvm. i will work v hard ltr!
but im meeting ger to run in the evening.
LOLx. PE has been rather slack n i tink i lose the momentum to run.
omg. i dun wan to screw my napha which is juz one week away.
but. haha. i tink im juz going to screw it =x
n we r getting back our A level chinese results real soon.
wat if i get a B? haha. i keep asking myself dat.
i tink i will juz retake though it doesnt make a diff in my As results.
but it matters to mi bcoz its chinese.
i hav been realli hardworking tis yr but somehow i still dun do well.
in fact i tink its worse than last year.
so i guess tis yr's work is realli tougher n more demanding?
juz look at my blog. its one month without a post!

ok. so i shall start tokin abt wat has happened earlier tis month.
hmm. 3rd feb was my father's n valerie's birthday!
ok. i noe its a bit late to say now. haha.
but actually didnt realli hav much celebration oso.
wats impt on 3rd feb is its an emo day for mi!
ok. dun ask y. haha. but its over =)
n somehow fiona drew something for mi n nat during one of the lecture.


tis is her usual garden theme for nat.

n tis is her limited edition ocean theme for mi. LOLx.
i shall not elaborate much on tis ok. juz c for urself =)

4th feb is CCA carnival! haha.
the beginning of jan is the beginning of J1s coming in.
its weird coz deres many zhonghuarian. LOLx.
but watever it is. my cca had a fun time during the carnival.
n we kinda didnt expect so many pple to b interested.
like 112 or more pple actually sign up for our cca.
LOLx. but sadly we can oni take in abt 20 or so.
so we conducted our interview n we didnt expect all of them to turn up.
in the end abt 90plus turn up for the interview.
n then from 90plus we eliminate some n left wif abt 58 to come for orientation camp.
ok. its not exactly a camp. but thru tis camp we will try to noe them betta.
n then from dere eliminate pple again.
so now we hav chosen 20 J1s!
n i get a shock. bcoz abt 8 or more out of the 20 r from zhss.
when the excos r selecting n all i realli didnt realise deres so many of them.
coz i dunno all their names. LOLx.
ok. im a failure senior. but who cares =x haha.
ya. dats abt all.
juz hope dat they wont expect too much from our club n then disappointed if they r unable to get wat they expected.
coz things dont come easy.
its not like we can get wat we wan all the time.

now move in to 5th feb - Bacteria Transformation Practical.
tis definitely sound unfamiliar to non-bio pple.
but anyway. Transformation is juz a method for bacteria to multiply/reproduce.
ok. im not here to teach bio. LOLx.
but we did tis experiment n realising its going to b our SPA. omg.
its quite fun. but its unexpected.
tis experiment is abt inserting a plasmid containing fluorescent gene into bacteria n allow the bacteria to grow n multiply.
ok. im starting to sound boring to pple who dunno abt tis.
so i shld juz upload some pics to show the results.
im taking bing's group results coz i didnt take pic of my group.


tis is the four plates dat we hav. each containing different nutrients.
only one of them is supposed to fluoresce.

tis is the one which fluoresce under UV light.

so on 8th feb. i went for National Vertical Marathon organise by NTU Sports Club.
its like a carnival dere. n we had fun. realli.
we paid 16bucks to climb 60 storeys n get NVM shirt n a lot more things.
haha. i kinda treat it as a challenge n experience ba.
not everyone can experience tis kinda thing in their life.
but watever it is. its fun! but its tiring.
LOLx. we join the inter-jc team race. in teams of 5.
n im realli sorry. bcoz i kinda pull my team down.
haha. they r v nice la. the different teams giving each other encouragement.
"we are not here to win. we are here to have fun. JIAYOU!"
dats wat they hav been shouting along the way up.
good job ajcians! haha. most of them r odacians btw.
pictures r wif JOYCE HO. haha. still waiting.

i got nth much to say abt V day actually.
haha. juz thanks to sy for the flower.
n i took pic of the flower though its dying now =(
its sad dat real flowers will nvr survive for long.
but i dun wan a fake flower even though it will nvr die.

n nvr forget to thank fiona for the bottle of M&M! LOVES.

ok. tis is a long post. n i hav almost reach the end!
haha. juz wan to tok abt how screwed my 2 common tests was on 17feb.
omg la. maths n bio common tests on the same day.
n i screw it like totally. dat makes my most screwed day!
n im so sad dat im missing all the good movies recently =(
okok. im going to hav a movie marathon once im free.
n i shall spend more time doing wat i shld do n wat i wan to do.

alright. i shall end wif some random pics.
taken during the dec holiday when meeting up wif simeon who is back from australia.
once again. mi wearing back = ugly mi. LOLx.


the four of us. without JY once again.

oh ya. forget to tok abt it. met up wif daredevils yesterday.
LOLx. celebrated mingli's n clar's birthday tgt.
took some pics. but its wif ONG JIAYAN. haha.
had fun tgt!

ok. now its time to do work again. omg.

omg. my blog almost die!
LOLx. its all bcoz of mi.
im so sorry. but i realli got no time to blog.
well. its first week of skol n its friday!
which means i got a little bit of time to blog =p
many things happened over the past 2 weeks.
juz didnt hav the time to blog.
so if i forget anithing dat happen. im realli sorry.


alrite. something happened to my family on 2jan.
or rather 1st jan. so mayb dats y i nvr post aft dat?
of coz im not gonna say wat realli happen.
but i guess it kinda affect mi n keeps mi realli busy.
n busy means i got no time for my work.
esp during dat week which is the week b4 skol reopen.
i was supposed to use dat time for my homework.
but in the end i guess im kinda short of time.
all i can say is. my 3rd sis is living wif mi right now.
wif her 2 sons which means my 2 nephews.
wif kids at my hse its super noisy n everything.
sometimes i juz hav to help out coz they r all busy.
im not someone who can realli take care of kids.
n im not someone who can realli play wif kids.
though i used to do dat when im in primary skol.
haha. well. its so long ago rit.
oso bcoz of dat my mum has to stop working.
so it kinda affect my family? deres many changes.
like now we will go to our grandparents hse on sunday instead of tue.
n i hav to try to go home asap aft skol to help my mum.
deres pros n cons wif tis thing happening.
bcoz of them staying at home i will wan to go home aft skol.
coz at least when i reach home im not alone.
u noe. staying at home alone is so boring.
n of coz. it makes mi feel dat i hav a family.
though sometimes im kinda irritated by wat the kids r doing.
alrite. i hav to accept dat they r juz kids n nd to b taught.
but im definitely not happy wif the thing dat happened.
coz i seriously nvr wan dat to happen.
sometimes i wonder y will things turn out dat way?
n who r the real victims when it happens?


ok. enough of all those crap.
on 8jan. mi jaslin sophia n cinny went to cass hse for a mahjong session.
LOLx. coz some of them wan to learn ma.
so juz go n play for fun??
relax a bit though i haven realli finish my homework at dat time.
but everyday do homework will cause my death.
n we celebrated cinny's birthday in advance.
tml they actually wanted to go out n celebrate again.
i doubt i can go. the reason will b the last part of tis post.


now come to the boring stuff which is skol reopen on 12th.
ok. its not realli boring. im actually looking forward to it.
putting aside the homeworks we hav to complete n everything.
the reason i look forward to it is of coz bcoz of my frens.
but oso bcoz i wan to study n im going to b a mugger tis year!
ok. i dunno whether dats something i shld b proud of.
but im sure dats something i will b happy abt.
LOLx. n dats more than enough =)
we r constantly reminded dat As is not v far away from us.
time flies. v soon we will hav to work hard for our As.
complete our As n wait for our results.
we got our new GP teacher. Mr Peter Herd.
LOLx. hes god damn funny wif all his lame jokes.
but i will say wif him as my GP teacher i will hav to work extra hard.
coz his expectations for work n all is higher than Ms Sabariah.
well. i noe dat its good for us.

we r having malay lessons b4 the release of our chinese As results.
i will say its quite interesting. its like learning another language.
n it gets harder aft each lesson. but overall its fun.
the indian students in my class oso had their chinese lesson.
its god damn funny when we start sharing wif each other.
i will always rmb u all tot chio bu is a chinese word for pretty. LOLx.
n Lavi. im here to remind u dat u r a joke! n super bitchy =x
(be glad dat ur name is on my blog! haha.)


sometimes its better not knowing anything at all.
so dont try to find out. just let it go.
sometimes i dont really know exactly how i feel too.
is that the right feeling?


here comes the part.
i have lost my voice!
omg. its so damn terrible.
at first it was juz sore throat.
n tis morning i kinda completely lose it.
now i hav a little bit of my voice back.
but still. i cant tok much. LOLx. dats so terrible.
i wan my voice back! =(
im like getting weaker n weaker ever since i come jc.
mayb bcoz of stress?? im not sure.
tis is not the first time i lose my voice in my jc life.
dats so so so bad. i guess i really hav to do something abt it.
stupid binghong 'scolded' mi for dunno how many times today.
i was counting n i lost track.
trying to make fun of mi n oso bcoz he noe i cant scold back.
n stupid jaryl is using the 'silence means consent' thing coz i cant tok!
n stupid jon wif his 'huh? i cant hear u. wat were u saying?'
of coz the gals r much nicer. all they did is laughing at mi.
LOLx. dats random comment ok. dun take it to heart.
thanks to whoever dat help mi when i lost my voice! LOLx.

i kinda feel distant from my frens sometimes.
but well. i guess juz nd a bit of time ba.
thanks frens who r always dere for mi.
thanks MOMO for being dere all the time n everything.

alright. i shall end my super long post! haha.
and YES! I WILL LOVE MYSELF! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! AND ITS 2009!
LOLx. sorie to those whom i nvr reply.
once again. its abt my phone bill. haha.

THANKS IAN FOR UR HOUSE!
haha. i rmb saying i hope my new year eve wont b boring.
n ian offered his house so dat some of us can gather.
so yup. meet up wif some of the 4e4 pple aft my last day of work.
oh. its my last day of work yesterday! LOLx.
alrite. i dunno whether to b happy or sad.
happy coz i can finally take a break. sad bcoz i hav to say bye to them.
n oso bcoz i hav to say hi to skol. haha.
its not dat im sad gong back to skol. juz dat i haven realli started on my homework.
well. juz pray dat i will finish by 12jan alrite. haha.
but im still slacking rit now =x
so yesterday meet up wif cass, soph, jaslin, wanzhen, val, jon, ian, justin n kahwai.
LOLx. the feeling was great. the oni thing is in the end nvr stayover.
so i reach home v early. n tis year i nvr watch any firework at all! =(
anyway. we had our gift exchange. wz n cass got their cute mickey n minnie!
i tink i kinda miss sec skol life. coz sec skol frens r funny pple.
like ian n justin. LOLx. they realli make mi laugh yesterday.
i seriously do not noe how i feel abt tis 2009. get kinda emo when i reach home.
then i start to tink of the end of 2007. i was kinda sad.
i dun rmb y. mayb bcoz im leaving zhss n going to college.
n mayb oso bcoz of him. mayb dats y i was sad.
i kinda dun feel anithing for the end of 2008.
coz tis yr i will still b seeing my frens n everything.
though its kinda weird w/o the familiar faces of the J2s.
so for tis yr. i dun c any major changes in my life.
im not going to list out the resolutions for 2009.
i juz wish dat everything will go well for my As tis year.
time flies n 2 years of JC life will soon come to an end.
i hav no time to waste so im going to study soon.
the start of 2009 is oso the start of my mugger life.

anyway. stupid jon! how could u forget abt my christmas present!?!?!
haha. tis is random. but i juz hav to say it =x

last year u called.
this year not even a messege.
what does it mean?
i don't know.
but maybe its better this way.
the start of 2009 is the start of my life totally without you.