... Thanks For Telling Mi Dat ...

o... man... when can i ever b happy... pls... god... let mi b happy... i oni wanna b happy... is dat so diff??? thanks to js... ur one sentence... drop my whole heart... give up fa ba... juz tis sentence... n the reason of saying tis... sure no hope le... omg... my heart realli like bursting man... but aft i heard tis sentence... i realise it is realli time to give up le... even his fren oso liddat say liao... wats more can i do... hold on dere??? waiting for nth??? waiting for something which oredi dun hav hope le??? haiz... pray god... i juz wanna b happy... i dunno whether i still wanna love him... i dunno whether i wanna give up... but realli v xin ku nehz... realli dunno wat to do... pls let mi drop my tears for the v last day of loving him... sobx...

... It Was Like A Dream ...

It Was Like A Dream (The Story Of U n Mi)

It All Begin When I First Saw U
In Primary Skol
When I Was In Primary Three
You May Not Noe
But U r Oredi In My Heart

It Begin For The Second Time
When I Saw U In Secondary Skol
In Secondary One
The Familiar Look
The Familiar Feeling
I Noe U r The One

It Begin The Third N Mayb The Last Time
Aft A Long Missing Of U
In Secondary Two
When U Wanted To Quit Skol
In The First Two Weeks Of January
You Added Mi In Friendster N Msn
Aft A Long Search Of U
I Was Overjoyed

From Then On
We Chat Almost Everyday
Until The Day U r Finally Mine [230105]

I Tot We Will Nvr B Separated Again
I Tot Tis Is Wat We Call Fate
To Hav The Chance To Meet Again
And Noe Each Other Betta
I Tot We Will Last Forever

Am I Naive To Tink Dat Way
I Dun Tink So
Dun Ask Mi Whether I Hav Regretted
To Hav U In My Life
I Nvr Regret In Doing Anithing
I m Not Supposed To
N I Noe Wat U Hav Done For Mi
Is Enough To Heal Most Of My Wound
U Gave To Mi

It All Ended On Dat Day [180405]
Aft Contacting For One Week
Aft We Stop Meeting For One Month
Finally U Call Mi One Day
I Tot We Could At Least Meet
But We Didnt
The Nxt Day Was The Day
U Told Mi U Love Someone Else
I Hav No Choice But To Let U Go

One Day When I Pluck Out My Courage
N c Ur Profile
I Noe U r Wif Her
Juz The Nxt Day Of Our Ending
U Noe How Hurt It Is

The Days Without U r Meaningless
N The Tot Of U n Her
Makes My Heart Aches
I Hav No Choice
But To Drop My Tears
At Dat Time
I Juz Hope Someone Will B By My Side
But Dere Wasnt

Finally One Day U Call Mi Again
Aft A Long Waiting For U
U Ask Mi Out
N Dat Day Was Wonderful [220505]

I Tot Everything Can B Back
But U Told Mi U Wanna B Alone
I Was Tinkin
R u Trying To Play Wif Mi
Again I Hav No Choice
But To Let U Go

Dat Nite I Cry Like Hell
I Lost U Again
N Mayb Forever

Frm The Day U End All Tis
N Stop Finding Mi
I Noe Wat U Wanted
I Will Juz Give U Wat U Want
As Long As U Happy
Or Shld I Say
Wat Else Can I Do

Life Is Still Sad As Usual
Tears R Still Rolling Down My Cheek
But I Nvr Regret

Whether I Still Love U
Doesnt Matter Anymore
As Long As I Noe U r Doing Fine
All My Tears R Worthwhile
Now I Juz Wanna B Someone
Who Brighten Up The Days Of Everyone
I Noe I m Fortunate Enough
To Get Wat I Hav Got
I Juz Hope U Can Find Mi
When Having Trouble
So Dat I Can At Least B The One
Who Can Stay By Ur Side
I Will Support U
No Matter Wat

Dun Worry
B Happy
My One N Oni
It Was Like A Dream

... Finally Can Post Le ...

tok abt yesterday ba... aft glazing my plate... acc lynette go buy things at serangoon central... aft dat meet meijun... go plaza sing eat... my favourite... LONG JOHN SILVER... lolx... then suddenly receive a msg... Guzheng Cancel!!! a bit sad la... actually... coz wanna realli work hard... gonna get gold in the nxt SYF... aft dat call pple out lo... Meijun call her primary skol mates... Edwin... my primary skol fren de fren... Marcus de fren lo... so we go out together... Sophia came aft dat... we watch batman... not i wan de... the guys wanna watch then watch lo... quite sianz... i was half aslp... b4 we watched the movie i get shocked... i tot i saw him... almost cry nehz... dunno y i will tink dat way lei... haiz... my mood changed aft dat lo... suddenly i keep tinkin... how i will react if i realli c him... i tink i will hide n cry aft dat ba... cant imagine... like i say... can soon forget him le... but whenever i tink of the special feelings... i dun tink i can hav dat feeling again le... suan le ba... tink so much oso no use... abt shuyuan... hmm... sometimes i tink he treat mi realli like his own sis... sometimes i tink he totally forget mi as his sis liao... realli dunno wor... but then he treat mi good enough le ba... dun tink i shld ask for more... juz wanna everybody happy... back to today ba... guzheng cancel again... sad sad... then go do project... blehz... still quite ok de... some changes in tis holiday... pierce my second earhole on the right ear... new hairstyle... tinkin oso change le ba... sometimes even tink i got attitude prob lo... mood swing oso... quite sianz wif myself... k la... stop here for today...

... Our Cheer ...

E5 Cheer... We Rawks Man...

5 In The Air, Let's Do It Together
5 To The Side, We Muz B United
5 To The Floor, The Fun's At Our Place
5 To The Front, The Smile On Our Face
E E E E5 Together
A B C D E5
A B C D E5
A B C D E5
Oh...................
5 In The Air Let's Do It Together...
E5!!!

...Blehz...

So long nvr post liao wor... life is still the same... got time then tok more... Sec 2 camp... a nice one... not bad la... not realli dat fun... but betta than staying at home... sianz nehz... use tears to cele our second month of breaking... i wrote something... a touching story... a real life story... will update tis during the nxt post... n we hav our own E5 cheer... cool hor... skol reopening nehz... sianz... dunno how to do homework... who can help mi man... realli dun feel like doing lo... n i hav my new haircut... hmm... quite nice de... but nd alot of care ba... suddenlt dunno wat to say... too much le ba... cant say it all at once... will stop here ba.. nxt time will post our cheer n the touching story...

Today damn happy...

wa... today damn happy nehz... get back my results le... though i fail my geography... i still get seventh in class... omg... haha... i oni aim for top twenty nehz... feel like screaming nehz... hmm... he msg mi on thursday nehz... actually i realli wanna ask him nehz... u realli treat mi as fren le mahx??? u realli forget mi le mahx??? forget everything n our memories??? he is cruel nehz... he left everything wif mi... all the memories... he say he will help mi to forget... how to??? u realli tink it is so easy??? i now decide dat i will wait... until end of yr... to c whether i realli cant forget u... let fate decides everything lo... liddat then enough le ba... actually i now v happy le... but i dunno when then u will hurt mi again... i noe when u love someone n dat someone dun love u... get hurt is a muz... if i nvr get hurt means i oredi dun love him le... but realli v xin ku nehz... who noe how it feel lei... haiz... i juz hope we wun lose contact ba... frenz forever i noe i will sure forget abt last time de... once u lose contact wif mi... i will sure cry n tink of all the things... i dun wan liddat nehz... rmb wat i say lo... u wanna help... but dun ever make mi hate u... dun ever hurt mi... n dun ever make mi cry... u dunno how hurt it is de... actually the oni way is to treat mi as fren n keep in touch lo... realli...

Wa!!! Dying Le!!!

sianz to death le... cried last nite... we went to watch lion dance ma... at first v happy de... he sung to mi... all the songs... bring back all the memories... but when we r watching the lion dance we bcome distant le... at first sitting together... aft dat he moved... haiz... frm then on he seems turning back again... damn sad lo... then is like we r going out as fren ma... canot alwaz follow him here n dere lo... he is not my stead ma... not i dun wan... is canot lo... aft dat we didnt tok much le... i tot i can ask alot of things when he sending mi home... he did send mi home... oni we two... but we didnt tok much... i dare not ask anithing... though i hav lots of question marks in my head... finally... i reaching home le... i ask him whether he got anithing to say... i tot i can at least hear him say something... but he didnt... haiz... he didnt... the one n the last chance... juz slip past liddat... damn sad lo... though i cant realli believe dat he still love mi... but if he say... i will sure believe de... y didnt he say... yesterday was full of regrets lo... cant control my tears when i reach home lo... sianz... he brought all the memories back n put them back again... y cant he juz do something... i find myself so stupid to wait... is he going to do something??? i m afraid dat we wun hav the chance anymore... will he call mi again??? will meet mi up again??? he juz dun wan to take back his cd lo... i dunno y... is oredi wif mi... n he is juz beside mi... he still say nxt time... y he like to leave everything wif mi... all the memories r wif mi... no more chance le... haiz... shld i wait??? or shld i go aft him??? or shld i juz let go??? who can tell mi the ans... i realli love him nehz... n tis is wat i can promise him lo... though i noe we r not realli dat suitable... but we cant control our feelings ma... trying to make a decision... dun wanna regret lo... wa... i so terribly sad lo... still wanna mi stay at home... wan mi die??? but i dunno y... juz feel like going to jy de hse... mayb bcoz go le still can online ba... go other places then cant online... cant wait for him... today is the last day i can online le... i tink i hav to wait for a week ltr to online again lo... too bad dat we didnt grab the last chance... now is fan to death... sianz to death... sad to death... haiz... [aNn_jErRy][230105]-[180405]