Wa!!! Dying Le!!!

sianz to death le... cried last nite... we went to watch lion dance ma... at first v happy de... he sung to mi... all the songs... bring back all the memories... but when we r watching the lion dance we bcome distant le... at first sitting together... aft dat he moved... haiz... frm then on he seems turning back again... damn sad lo... then is like we r going out as fren ma... canot alwaz follow him here n dere lo... he is not my stead ma... not i dun wan... is canot lo... aft dat we didnt tok much le... i tot i can ask alot of things when he sending mi home... he did send mi home... oni we two... but we didnt tok much... i dare not ask anithing... though i hav lots of question marks in my head... finally... i reaching home le... i ask him whether he got anithing to say... i tot i can at least hear him say something... but he didnt... haiz... he didnt... the one n the last chance... juz slip past liddat... damn sad lo... though i cant realli believe dat he still love mi... but if he say... i will sure believe de... y didnt he say... yesterday was full of regrets lo... cant control my tears when i reach home lo... sianz... he brought all the memories back n put them back again... y cant he juz do something... i find myself so stupid to wait... is he going to do something??? i m afraid dat we wun hav the chance anymore... will he call mi again??? will meet mi up again??? he juz dun wan to take back his cd lo... i dunno y... is oredi wif mi... n he is juz beside mi... he still say nxt time... y he like to leave everything wif mi... all the memories r wif mi... no more chance le... haiz... shld i wait??? or shld i go aft him??? or shld i juz let go??? who can tell mi the ans... i realli love him nehz... n tis is wat i can promise him lo... though i noe we r not realli dat suitable... but we cant control our feelings ma... trying to make a decision... dun wanna regret lo... wa... i so terribly sad lo... still wanna mi stay at home... wan mi die??? but i dunno y... juz feel like going to jy de hse... mayb bcoz go le still can online ba... go other places then cant online... cant wait for him... today is the last day i can online le... i tink i hav to wait for a week ltr to online again lo... too bad dat we didnt grab the last chance... now is fan to death... sianz to death... sad to death... haiz... [aNn_jErRy][230105]-[180405]