omg. my blog almost die!
LOLx. its all bcoz of mi.
im so sorry. but i realli got no time to blog.
well. its first week of skol n its friday!
which means i got a little bit of time to blog =p
many things happened over the past 2 weeks.
juz didnt hav the time to blog.
so if i forget anithing dat happen. im realli sorry.


alrite. something happened to my family on 2jan.
or rather 1st jan. so mayb dats y i nvr post aft dat?
of coz im not gonna say wat realli happen.
but i guess it kinda affect mi n keeps mi realli busy.
n busy means i got no time for my work.
esp during dat week which is the week b4 skol reopen.
i was supposed to use dat time for my homework.
but in the end i guess im kinda short of time.
all i can say is. my 3rd sis is living wif mi right now.
wif her 2 sons which means my 2 nephews.
wif kids at my hse its super noisy n everything.
sometimes i juz hav to help out coz they r all busy.
im not someone who can realli take care of kids.
n im not someone who can realli play wif kids.
though i used to do dat when im in primary skol.
haha. well. its so long ago rit.
oso bcoz of dat my mum has to stop working.
so it kinda affect my family? deres many changes.
like now we will go to our grandparents hse on sunday instead of tue.
n i hav to try to go home asap aft skol to help my mum.
deres pros n cons wif tis thing happening.
bcoz of them staying at home i will wan to go home aft skol.
coz at least when i reach home im not alone.
u noe. staying at home alone is so boring.
n of coz. it makes mi feel dat i hav a family.
though sometimes im kinda irritated by wat the kids r doing.
alrite. i hav to accept dat they r juz kids n nd to b taught.
but im definitely not happy wif the thing dat happened.
coz i seriously nvr wan dat to happen.
sometimes i wonder y will things turn out dat way?
n who r the real victims when it happens?


ok. enough of all those crap.
on 8jan. mi jaslin sophia n cinny went to cass hse for a mahjong session.
LOLx. coz some of them wan to learn ma.
so juz go n play for fun??
relax a bit though i haven realli finish my homework at dat time.
but everyday do homework will cause my death.
n we celebrated cinny's birthday in advance.
tml they actually wanted to go out n celebrate again.
i doubt i can go. the reason will b the last part of tis post.


now come to the boring stuff which is skol reopen on 12th.
ok. its not realli boring. im actually looking forward to it.
putting aside the homeworks we hav to complete n everything.
the reason i look forward to it is of coz bcoz of my frens.
but oso bcoz i wan to study n im going to b a mugger tis year!
ok. i dunno whether dats something i shld b proud of.
but im sure dats something i will b happy abt.
LOLx. n dats more than enough =)
we r constantly reminded dat As is not v far away from us.
time flies. v soon we will hav to work hard for our As.
complete our As n wait for our results.
we got our new GP teacher. Mr Peter Herd.
LOLx. hes god damn funny wif all his lame jokes.
but i will say wif him as my GP teacher i will hav to work extra hard.
coz his expectations for work n all is higher than Ms Sabariah.
well. i noe dat its good for us.

we r having malay lessons b4 the release of our chinese As results.
i will say its quite interesting. its like learning another language.
n it gets harder aft each lesson. but overall its fun.
the indian students in my class oso had their chinese lesson.
its god damn funny when we start sharing wif each other.
i will always rmb u all tot chio bu is a chinese word for pretty. LOLx.
n Lavi. im here to remind u dat u r a joke! n super bitchy =x
(be glad dat ur name is on my blog! haha.)


sometimes its better not knowing anything at all.
so dont try to find out. just let it go.
sometimes i dont really know exactly how i feel too.
is that the right feeling?


here comes the part.
i have lost my voice!
omg. its so damn terrible.
at first it was juz sore throat.
n tis morning i kinda completely lose it.
now i hav a little bit of my voice back.
but still. i cant tok much. LOLx. dats so terrible.
i wan my voice back! =(
im like getting weaker n weaker ever since i come jc.
mayb bcoz of stress?? im not sure.
tis is not the first time i lose my voice in my jc life.
dats so so so bad. i guess i really hav to do something abt it.
stupid binghong 'scolded' mi for dunno how many times today.
i was counting n i lost track.
trying to make fun of mi n oso bcoz he noe i cant scold back.
n stupid jaryl is using the 'silence means consent' thing coz i cant tok!
n stupid jon wif his 'huh? i cant hear u. wat were u saying?'
of coz the gals r much nicer. all they did is laughing at mi.
LOLx. dats random comment ok. dun take it to heart.
thanks to whoever dat help mi when i lost my voice! LOLx.

i kinda feel distant from my frens sometimes.
but well. i guess juz nd a bit of time ba.
thanks frens who r always dere for mi.
thanks MOMO for being dere all the time n everything.

alright. i shall end my super long post! haha.
and YES! I WILL LOVE MYSELF! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! AND ITS 2009!
LOLx. sorie to those whom i nvr reply.
once again. its abt my phone bill. haha.

THANKS IAN FOR UR HOUSE!
haha. i rmb saying i hope my new year eve wont b boring.
n ian offered his house so dat some of us can gather.
so yup. meet up wif some of the 4e4 pple aft my last day of work.
oh. its my last day of work yesterday! LOLx.
alrite. i dunno whether to b happy or sad.
happy coz i can finally take a break. sad bcoz i hav to say bye to them.
n oso bcoz i hav to say hi to skol. haha.
its not dat im sad gong back to skol. juz dat i haven realli started on my homework.
well. juz pray dat i will finish by 12jan alrite. haha.
but im still slacking rit now =x
so yesterday meet up wif cass, soph, jaslin, wanzhen, val, jon, ian, justin n kahwai.
LOLx. the feeling was great. the oni thing is in the end nvr stayover.
so i reach home v early. n tis year i nvr watch any firework at all! =(
anyway. we had our gift exchange. wz n cass got their cute mickey n minnie!
i tink i kinda miss sec skol life. coz sec skol frens r funny pple.
like ian n justin. LOLx. they realli make mi laugh yesterday.
i seriously do not noe how i feel abt tis 2009. get kinda emo when i reach home.
then i start to tink of the end of 2007. i was kinda sad.
i dun rmb y. mayb bcoz im leaving zhss n going to college.
n mayb oso bcoz of him. mayb dats y i was sad.
i kinda dun feel anithing for the end of 2008.
coz tis yr i will still b seeing my frens n everything.
though its kinda weird w/o the familiar faces of the J2s.
so for tis yr. i dun c any major changes in my life.
im not going to list out the resolutions for 2009.
i juz wish dat everything will go well for my As tis year.
time flies n 2 years of JC life will soon come to an end.
i hav no time to waste so im going to study soon.
the start of 2009 is oso the start of my mugger life.

anyway. stupid jon! how could u forget abt my christmas present!?!?!
haha. tis is random. but i juz hav to say it =x

last year u called.
this year not even a messege.
what does it mean?
i don't know.
but maybe its better this way.
the start of 2009 is the start of my life totally without you.

haha. alrite. i just have to post this.
a great thanks to huimin for wat she bought from america.
abercrombie shirt n victoria's secret.
n oso for wat she bought for my mum.
now i realli realli owe her a lot. ahh. feeling so bad.
LOLx. but im happy today!
deres no exact reason y.
today went bugis wif huimin. coz she wan to walk walk.
i suggested bugis so dat i can surprise momo. LOLx.
n i succeeded! miracles do happen rit. haha.
alrite. anyway. i juz nd to post n tell everyone im happy today!
a million thanks to huimin n am realli glad to hav her as my fren.
coz watever she do she will tink of mi. so nice.
ok. i juz got reminded dat im gonna miss the lan outing tml.
n ya. im going to chiong homework soon. LOLx.

oh ya. i did a good deed today!
i was on my way out n saw tis 2 blind man.
i always c them on my way home taking bus 853.
they were asking for someone to lead them the way.
so i decided to help n bring them to where they wan to go.
well. it realli feels great to help whoever dat nd help. =)

haha. i just wake up! cool right.
LOLx. cannot blame la. had phone conference with cass and jon.
its so cool sharing stories! haha.
n we talk for almost 3 hours i think.
stop talking at abt 3am if i never remember wrongly.

anyway. thats not the main point.
the main point is i never post on christmas or anywhere near.
HAPPY BELATED CHRISTMAS to all!
haha. i know its very late. but it should be okay la.
thanks people for all the wishes and everything.
sorry to joyce and siowyun that i didnt reply your msges.
thats because my phone bill is bursting!
haha. but dont worry. i will be writing cards for you people.
LOLx. get ready to receive it on the 2nd! =D
yeah. and that means i have to start writing all the cards soon.
haha. even before i finish my homework.
come on. im never going to finish it la.
its like crazy. n come to think of it. i really have to chiong lo.
oh ya. back to the christmas thingy.
omg. walking along orchard road on christmas eve was crazy.
on christmas it was much much better.
anyway. thats after my work. so i was with linhui. LOLx.
and for the post christmas private sale. omg.
its like mad n kinda irritating.
coz everybody ask the same question.
'is this having sales?' n when u say no they will just go off.
LOLx. so everything must have sales. ok. watever!
thanks cass, cinny, clar n her fren for visiting on christmas eve.
thanks hongzhen for visiting n the shirt u bought.
thanks alan for coming down 3 days n the chocolate.
oh ya. thanks ger for the card u made. LOLx.
i will return u one soon. w/o all the history =x haha.

i think i missed out quite a lot of things during the holiday coz of my work.
the feeling is damn freaking sian. bit i guess its alrite.
i mean. when skol reopen everything shld b back to normal.
im so so sorie dat i forget to wish nella, cas, victor, jon n tsewei good luck for retest.
n i oni realise it when the tests r over. so so bad.
so i hav decided to write cards for the gals!
coz i noe guys wont take good care of my cards. LOLx.
omg. i got so many cards to write n so much homework to do. im dead.
n huimin juz came back from america not long ago.
im going to meet her today.

alrite. take note people. my phone bill is bursting.
so sorie if i nvr reply ur msg. LOLx.
n i seriously hope new year eve wont b a boring day for mi.

haha. im supposed to psot yesterday.
but end up im too tired n lazy. again. LOLx.
anyway. i was supposed to tok abt sat.
went to study wif ger n jie mei er!
LOLx. shocking? weird combi? yes it is.
first time in my life studying wif my jie mei er.
its alrite la. though its surprising dat hes quiet for more than 1 min! =x
wahaha. n he did his work! omg.
(hes gonna kill mi aft seeing tis. but well. he shld noe betta than i do)
LOLx. im like insulting him here.
haha. so at abt 7 ger nd to go home for dinner.
mi n jie mei er than stop studying.
went for dinner at yishun. first time in his life. LOLx.
n we had our emo tok. haha.
im glad he felt the way i do.
so dats abt it. we tok for abt 2hours n went home.
was like emo-ing throughout the nite la.
haha. shit. im telling pple im emo again.
but seriously. emo-ing is nth for mi. LOLx.
n i was so god damn happy when i received my bro's msg.
the same time as i took out my phone.
haha. dats realli damn cool.
n i thank him for tokin to mi when i realli nd someone to tok to.
though i didnt tell him much abt everything.
i juz nd someone to tok abt anithing.
of coz i hav to thank cass n jie mei er for tokin to mi dat day =)

yesterday fiona told mi the bad news of not having stayover on new year eve.
oh man. its gonna b so boring! LOLx.
i shall c wat else i can do =)

well. working days r tiring for mi.
esp. during christmas period.
omg. cant realli stop n rest. LOLx.
its like. busy busy n busy. even today.
a monday when deres supposed to b v little pple.
anyway. yay! linhui is oso working on christmas =p
thanks clar n fren for visiting taka today.
thanks momo n fren for finding mi today too.
n im off tml! wahaha. alright. dats abt all =)

regrets in life...

got a little bit of time to post.
coz today im gonna start work kinda late.
anyway. actually i got nth much to say.
yesterday nat asked mi hows work.
i told her work is juz work.
LOLx. wat a lame ans.
but alright la. tis time is a bit of diff.
i noe a lot of pple from my company.
i noe my seniors. i noe pple abt my age.
shelmin. ivy. venus. linhui.
well. i guess yesterday was the last day i will c ivy.
but we will keep in contact ba.
n mayb today is the last day i will c shelmin too.
i hav learnt quite a lot from her.
n we hav been going for breaks tgt.
pple from the same company arent supposed to go tgt la.
but we manage to! haha.
omg. she got a bf dat lasted for more than 3 years oredi.
nth abt it. juz tink dat its cool. haha.
i will still b seeing venus n linhui.
another thing. i will b working on christmas and eve.
come on pple. i dun like pple to tink dat its a sad thing or watever.
n no. its not a lonely christmas. or anithing.
its fine working on dat day esp. when i dunno wat else i can do.
the oni thing i dread is walking along orchard road aft my work.
dere will b so many pple.
something i dread. but it may turn out alright.
dats always the case.

yes. im not very happy right now.
but i guess i only need a few days to recover.
thanks for letting me understand.
though this time i really dont know the reason.
it just ended. without me knowing.
if thats what you want.
i dont seriously know what i want.
i dont exactly know whats best for me.
but i will be used to it. i can survive.
maybe this time i really learn a lesson.

i was back to work on monday!
wahaha. was trying to take a risk.
c whether i can survive the 8hours.
monday was a v rush day.
coz had exco meeting in skol at 9am.
so i asked to work at a ltr time instead.
so start work at oni 2.
sunday i oni slp for abt 3hours.
coz of my queasy stomach. i cant take it.
n monday i almost reach my limit.
but it was ok la. i still manage to work until 10.
wif my blocked ear. LOLx. sian lo.
i seriously cant hear v clearly now.
i hope hope hope it will recover soon.
the meeting end at abt 12pm n the original plan was to go cass hse.
but shes slping! LOLx. n i cant wake her up.
its alrite cass. dun apologise again. haha.
so i faster rush home n grab some bite.
coz im pretty hungry n everything.
n i manage to reach my work place on the dot.

today had my off day. LOLx.
they actually ask mi to work today.
but i realli tink i shld rest n im meeting daredevils.
went shopping wif ger n clar today.
but i nvr buy anithing. coz i nvr c many nice things.
haha. then aft dat meet mingli for dinner.
daredevils meeting w/o ong jiayan again. LOLx.
well. busy wif ur blog shop huh.
shall forgive u for ur absence. haha. =x
actually nth much la huh.
hope nxt time i go shopping can c something i like.
aft dat all of them rushing home to watch little nonya.
but still. they miss quite a bit i guess.
oh. thanks hongzhen for going to taka today.
sorie dat im not dere. but u saw liangping! LOLx.

sometimes i really really want to talk to you.
sometimes i really really dont know how i feel.
im really sorry for whatever that has happen the past few days.
i have no idea whats happening too.

you are still the best and the right one after all.