OMG!!! i 'deprove'!!!

man... man.. 'deprove' liao... 'deprove' liao... everybody tink i m sad ba... for my maths... the v first time in Zhonghua i get 70+... lolx... sad la... v sad... but then over liao ma... wat can i do lei... i used to b a person who v bo chup in results de... but tis time i chup a little... coz i work v hard... which i dunno y too... can say dat pple who noe how hard i hav been studying for tis time will b shocked... coz i nvr study dat hard b4... yet i did not manage to improve or get wat u wan... i 'deprove'!!! omg... omg... class position drop frm 7 to 21... level position frm 38 to 90!!! omg... omg... so damn sad... but then ok la... still top 100... my class is too wat liao la... 21 in class can get 90 in skol... lolx... first in class get first in skol nehz... buey tahan... still quite sad de... n i v fan abt which course n subject to choose... for humanities... i hope to hav 2... so dat i can choose the betta one instead of takin 1 which i dun even noe whether i can score... get double sci... no triple sci... a bit too much... n oni 1 human... dun wan combine too... coz oni got 1 sci results... but i still make them as my choices... humanites i choose lit n hist... no geo... geo sucks... somemore i fail my geo tis yr... sci i finally came out the decision of bio... chem is a compul... however in my 6 choices... i hav both phy n bio de... both double sci n combine sci... both 8 subjects n 7 subjects... dere is alwaz pros n cons... 8 sub hav more chances... 7 sub hav more concentration... so i realli dunno... i tink 8 sub betta... the course which i realli wanna go is B5...

how can it b u??? sobx...

wo zhen de hao shang xin wor... i hate nobody except LIARS!!! y muz it b u... how can u lie to mi... though i noe u didnt mean to... but i juz cant accept when pple lie to mi... i m not angry... i m crying... haiz... u will nvr noe... let mi repeat it again... I WILL NVR ALLOW ANYONE TO HURT MI!!! i mean it... i realli mean it... haiz... sobx... y r u the one... i dun hate u... but... i dunno whether i gonna accept le... zhen de...

nxt topic... get back most of my paper today... omg... so damn lan... haiz... i tink i 'deprove' le... but no matter wat i dun tink i will go combine sci ba... i hope not... pray god... i wanna go double sci... haiz... my maths... even my maths canot help mi tis time... wat happen to mi man... i juz felt dat i m letting Mr Leong down... zhen de... dunno how to face him... other subjects r considered improve lo... oni maths... n is so jialat... haiz... man... i study so hard... i nvr study so hard b4 lo... end up is the same... feel so stress tis time... i dunno when hav i bcome like tis... last time is heck care type... but then anyway i oso nvr tink much la... is oredi over le ma...

nvr allow anyone to hurt mi again

i tink i getting cold-blooded liao... lolx... now in order not to let anyone hurt mi... everything has to tink carefully... hate the feeling of rejecting pple... but... i will nvr let u hurt mi de!!! dats wat i m trying to say... of coz if get hurt le i wun hate him la... is i make the choice de ma... so now everything muz hav serious tinkin de... but i realli dun like pple tok to u when they wan jio u... aft u reject they wun find u le... wats frens for man... dats y when rejecting pple i oredi noe tis will happen le... dun like... hmm... anyway yesterday went to plaza sing to watch dark water... wif HIM... lolx... but not exactly a horror movie lo... no choice... now no movie lei... actually wan go bugis... but bugis dun hav dark water... too bad lo... then plaza sing walk less than 2 hours then sianz liao... he so ke lian... i noe he wanna eat... but i dun wan... so he pei mi walk... he everything oso ask mi de... everything oso listen to mi... we go times... then he saw many books he like... but keep saying ex... i tink i will buy one for him ba... not he no $ nehz... juz dat he wanna buy wallet nia... then he go buy quik silver de wallet... lolx.. he alwaz spend more than mi de... then aft dar go his fren de hse... nth to do dere... play wif dogs n watch tv lo...

a tiring day

lolx... today went to MingLi hse... then suntan... then swim... then play pool... then lastly go out of coz... lolx... went to far east... then aft dat heeren... take one neoprint nia... actually wan two de... but too bad la... went to find jobs... shld say quite successful or not successful at all lei... i dunno... but then anyway is super tired la... sunburn!!! cant say i dun wan sunburn la... go suntan then is surely tio sunburn one ma... juz dat it is damn pain... damn red too... lolx... heck la... happy jiu hao... hmm... tis few days nvr tok to him much le... he busy ma... i believe him la... he will msg mi when he feels like de... tink he wun forget mi??? lolx... but then i dunno lei... he n my other ex r diff... how to say lei... juz gave mi a diff feeling lo... mi n him belong to a real mature relationship... i dunno is good or bad la... i dunno whether bcoz we r not suitable then liddat... or bcoz it is time for mi to settle down n go for my v last relationship... actually i realli dunno... a bit luan... sometimes a bit fan... tml nehz... actually wanna go out together de... i tink i noe wat we can do la... juz dat he today like so busy playing his soccer... till now haven msg mi... dunno is forgot or realli haven play finish... suan le... i wun blame him de... if he rmb our date tml then go out lo... dun rmb then forget it lo... it is not a muz for mi to go out too... lolx... hmm... i juz feel like tokin abt some of my ex... in fact all?? but dun wanna name them la...

first one... in primary skol de... P6... tis relationship to mi now is juz puppy love... not serious de la... cant b serious too... i dun tink he truly love mi too... though it seems like we both like each other v long le... lolx...

second one... hmm... P6 to Sec 1 de... during the holiday ba... at first like him a little nia... aft dat more le... then y break i oso forgot le... but juz a short period nia... lolx... paiseh ah...

third one... in Sec 1... n tis one we break n patch... break n patch... dunno y la... not quarrel or watever... juz he look down on himself... but now is no feeling le... mayb he did come back to mi... but i will say no... coz realli no feeling... moreover i dun tink he truly love mi... n i will nvr give him a chance to hurt mi anymore...

fourth one... oso in Sec 1... but nehz... tis is in between the third one... the period which we r separated... hmm... sad to say dat it is juz one day... he is damn good... but i dun get used to the way he treats mi... then tink not suitable then break lo... tis is the first time i wanna break... but dun tink i make the wrong choice la...

fifth one... oso in Sec 1... oso between the period which i was separated frm the third one... tis is the oldest stead i hav ever had... n oso he is much more experiences... tis period is short too... coz not suitable... n somemore i was juz a kid... lolx...

now... the latest one... Sec 2... tis one is a memorable one... coz i love him quite long ba... he oso love mi quite long le... n somehow i believe is fate which bring us together... everytime things happen juz as if fate is helping us... dun nd to explain much... go to my archive n u will noe... tis blog is actually for him... but find it troublesome to make a new one... i love him v much... zhen de... but he hurts mi too much le... not once nia... although sad... i will nvr give u the chance to hurt mi again...

u finally msg mi le... lolx... oni hope u wun tink mi dun xiang u dats y nvr msg u first... not liddat de... is i noe u will b going out ah... so wait for u to b free lo... believe u will msg mi if u r free ma... tis is call trust k... lolx... today go meet huimin... of coz do the usual thing... eat n watch tv lo.. go her hse is nth to do one... last time sad then will go her hse... actualy wo you dian fan... coz i realli dunno... anyway i dun wanna say... haiz...

things which i believe in...
1) no matter how or wat u say abt him i wun care... i believe him as the one i noe he is...
2) no matter how bad he is to any other pple i dun care... i believe he will treat mi gd which he shld...
3) past is a past... as long as i let u go i will not turn back... as long as i treat u as a memory i wun turn back... i will oni turn back if i tink u r a new beginning... pls dun say u regret in wat u hav oredi decided... wats done canot b undone...
4) love is a mature frenship... if even aft everything is over we cant b fren then let alone tokin abt love...
5) pple ard mi shld b appreciated by mi... once my kor forever my kor... once my jie forever my jie... once my fren forever my fren... once my sista forever my sista...
6) i can b a best fren than anithing else... good listener n advisor is wat i can promise to u...

last day of exam...

yay... today my last exam nehz... finally... then mon to wed no nd go skol liao... cant c u le... mayb tue??? i dunno lei... mayb shld test us for 5 days??? hmm... i feel so bad today... u hav to cancel order bcoz of mi... then jk they all say u pang seh... so sorie wor... today we go chinatown... coz my fren wan look at cd ma... then aft dat go suntec... we were looking for the pet shop dere.. but cant nehz... my fren told mi it is near the carpark on my way home... hmm... anyway quite happy la... first time going out??? then i dunno if we realli go out alone will we hav anithing to tok abt... but today get to noe each other betta... the things he buy n the things he wan r all so ex dat type de... i wonder whether my birthday present worth alot... a bit dan xin... but the thing is dat u r more of eng type... i m more of chi type... realli dun mind mahx??? lolx... anyway i realise u r so cute... caring too... good guy ya... 3 things i noe frm my sis n oso thru some thinking...

1) how ur bf treat his fren or other pple oso doesnt matter as long as he treats u gd

2) no matter how pple say abt him u dun care as long as u noe u love him

3) ur bf dun hav to treat ur fren good bcoz it is u whom he has to b good to n who realli nd his care

yay

wa... finally... aft so long... last few days cant post nehz... lolx... now my first sis go canada liao... third sis going thailand soon... aft dat she will move back to live wif us... shld i say is good or bad lei??? sometimes buey tahan her bad habit... but then nvm la... hmm... tok abt exam... man... hui si de lo... bcome more n more nerdy le... lolx... end paper ok la... actually can say all the paper sure pass de... i work so hard tis time... if fail then jump down the building liao... lolx... but maths oredi minus away ard 10 marks for paper one liao... siao one lo... i dun even hav the time to realli finish... somemore got some is careless... feel so sianz... then science... kaoz... oso careless lo... 10 marks gone too... super sianz nehz... but overall still ok la... hmm... i dun wanna tok abt anybody... wo hen kai xin jiu shi le... lolx...