ahhh!! i dun realli noe how i feel rit now.
i juz realli dun feel good.
but i dunno how to phrase it oso.
so i oso dunno who i shld tok to.
LOLx. coz eventually i wun say anithing.
but i noe im not quite happy.
i dunno y. haha.
mayb bcoz i hav nvr had so many wants b4.
i dunno whether its wants or needs.
somehow i find it a need.
but. hmm. i wun get it.
its not like i will get watever i wan yeah.
im juz not like some pple.
who juz get wat they wan.
n its oni tis yr dat i suddenly realise i nd help.
all the while i hav no prob of saving money.
n now i seriously wan to save money.
but how. when deres always class lunch n everything.
wat if i choose not to b dere??
dats v bad actually. but i dunno.
n now i realli dunno how.
whether to spend money. how to save money.
im gonna work during march holiday.
not everyday but some days.
in nd of money. n moreover its holiday.
dere shld b enough time for mi to spare yeah.
LOLx. i dun realli hav a choice though.
my dog is back home oredi!!
but its juz the beginning of his training.
at some point of time i feel kinda sad.
coz he doesnt seem to do wat hes supposed to do.
i cant blame him coz he dun do dat last time.
mayb we started to late.
n now we r struggling.
hoping one day he will get it.
i realli hope dat day will come.
hes getting it oredi.
at least hes more obedient now oredi. haha.

i realli tink deres no point in liking someone.
i mean if he dun feel anithing for u at all.
or i shld say mayb he dun like u at all.
mayb its gd dat sometimes we do feel something for some pple.
but. hmm. wats the point realli. LOLx.
will anithing happen?? mayb. but who knows.
its best not to feel anithing.
in case u r hurt when he like someone else.
in case he totally dun care abt how u feel.
wont dat make our life happier??
i tink so n i hope so.
so im trying to b neutral.
to feel nth for everyone. LOLx.
coz eventually dat doesnt belong to mi.
it belong to somewhere n someone else.
n the ending is. we r nth.
im still alone on my own. wif frens n family of coz.
LOLx. so wats the point.
hmm. its time to change my tinking!

n i come to point of cca oredi.
everytime tink of tis i dunno wat to do.
wat shld i join.
try out for sports? or juz go CO.
which i tink is quite boring =x
dats how i feel for 1st intake la.
coz everyday go dere n stare.
didnt realli learn anithing lei.
so mayb i shld juz go do something i like??
hmm. tink tink tink.
i realli dunno.
but i hope the ans will b out soon.

deres probs everyday. esp recently.
no wonder sometimes i juz feel like slping.
coz i dun wan to tink of anithing.
i am. realli am tinkin abt alot of things.
worrying abt tis n dat.
i hope i dun hav to tink anymore =)