today is 2nd day of orientation!
LOLx. damn high tis time round can.
dunno y la. juz wanna get high lo.
n the games tis time round realli more fun.
keep cheering n shouting! wahaha.
my og is my class!
though got 2nd intaker la.
but actually we still play like we noe each other.
dun realli hav the barrier dere la.
like they r the 2nd intaker. LOLx.
but im not here to tok abt orientation actually.

juz wan to type out some stuff i tot thru last few days.
since im in aj. i tell myself im gonna start a new life.
forget abt someone whom i rmb for more than 2 yrs le.
i tot of going back zhss mayb for sports day.
but i oso realise its meaningless.
coz i noe the reason im dere. juz bcoz of him.
not bcoz of the skol or the teachers.
its him. always him. i feel bad to say dat.
but teachers in zhss r leaving. so wats the point.
if i go back is to c him run. realli.
i juz keep telling myself. its time to forget him.
i was telling my fren coz he jio someone for 1 yr.
i told him. 1 yr is enough to show everything.
if the gal like him she will accept yeah.
obviously she dun realli care abt him la.
then i suddenly realise.
i waited for 2 yrs. OMG.
isnt dat stupid of mi. waiting for nth.
like as if something will happen.
now we r drifting apart. wats the point.
if anithing will happen it wun b aft 2 yrs yeah.
hard to say. mayb hes now jio-ing gals.
the gal he like la.
i noe he will completely forget mi.
its oni one-sided dat im tinkin of him.
so mayb its time to go. though i wish i could wait.

n i tink i shld juz stay neutral abt everything now.
coz i realise jealousy is killing mi.
i cant deny dat sometimes jealousy is taking over mi.
i cant let dat happen.
i dislike pple. even hate some pple. bcome critical.
all bcoz of jealousy. or mayb deres something else.
but i dunno wats dat.
i dun hav to noe wats dat.
i oni noe i hav to lead my life happily.
n the oni way is to feel neutral for everything.
no likes. no dislikes. dat makes my life alot easier.

miss ANYTHING. =)