haha. spend my time answering all those question.
LOLx. anyway. im just back from long beach.
as in the seafood restaurant. yeah.
will upload the photo if i get it. LOLx.

my god. fiona. u can nvr believe it.
i was crying when u r tokin to mi on msn. haha.
but no la. its nth much. i dunno y i cry oso.
just a bit oni. LOLx.

i was wondering whether i shld b happy wif my life now.
mayb i shld. mayb i shldnt.
i dunno whether im truly happy though i laugh everyday.
n yeah. everytime i laugh the whole world will noe.
coz its super loud. LOLx.
wat will happen if the xinyi who is always so on wif outing n everything end up bcoming not on at all??
i realli wonder. cause im afraid i canot b who i wan to b.
i cant enjoy my life as much bcoz of the problems i hav.
shit. tis is getting emo. haha.
but i believe in some point of our life we will look back.
or mayb tink far? like wats gonna happen in the future.
n the scariest thing is u cant do wat u wan n nvr get anithing u wan.
i nvr tink dat my life is terrible. but i noe it can b betta.
i just wan to be happy.
yes. i noe im pessimistic.

i have to do this because im tagged by CASSANDRA. LOLx. n instruction B.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
as usual, the very first thing i will do is cry. HAHA. bcoz dats mi! =x then i will curse him like crazy (just to make myself feel betta) and once again confirm dat GUYS SUCK.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
not thinking of all the problems i hav, lead a really happy life without any trouble and laugh throughout my life.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
hmm. if i ever get married? LOLx. not going to ask for much. just hope that the guy standing beside me will be someone i really love.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
hmm. yeah.

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
since it's ideal lover, i guess he does not exist. HAHA. but anyway. i like guy who has a mind of his own and able to decide for himself. he does not hav to be very handsome. average will do. but definitely must hav fashion sense =x (sound superficial). but someone i mind about it. i dont know why. HAHA. he must be able to take care of himself and of course take very good care of me. thoughtful, caring and definitely not a flirt. last but not least, i dont know why i'm attracted to sporty guys. yeah. i guess thats about it. quite realistic actually.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
a dumb girl like me will wait for someone i really love like forever? (dont start scolding me)HAHA. if i really love him, i believe he worth everything to me. so i will never think that he is not worth waiting. but of course, when it is pointless to continue to wait and when there is someone better out there waiting for me, i will stop waiting.

#8.If you love each other yet your can't get together?
actually i don't believe things such as i love you but i can't be with you. i always believe that if we really love each other, we should be able to go through everything together. that's what relationship and true love is all about. (at least i believe so)

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
hmm. yeah i guess. impossible to list out all.

#10.Who makes your day?
hmm. my dog? HAHA. as long as he is at home i guess i will be happy ba. and of course, family and friends. more of friends i guess. SMITS! JIAYAN (though very long never talk to you already). GERMAINE! CASSANDRA (dont say i never mention you. haha). sad to say. yongjie. haha. he makes me laugh when i'm sad. basically all my friends =)

#11. Is being tagged fun?
hmm. yeah i guess.

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
hmm. still single i guess. LOLx. cause i dont think i will find a suitable guy =x a career woman! i always think so. and driving my own car! HAHA. hope hope hope that day will come. I DONT NEED A MAN!

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family and friends. my dog?? HAHA.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
HAHA. a very nice and caring friend. nice person to talk to.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single and rich. HAHA. cause i must prove that I DONT NEED A MAN! =x LOLx. want to be rich not because i think money is important. i just dont want money to be part of the problem in my life (like now) and i don't want to restrict myself from enjoying my life because of money.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
looking at my phone to check the time and whether there is any message. i dont know why also. HAHA.

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
YES of course. LOLx. this is crap. if you are my friend you should know what kind of person i am la. i might just give too much.

#18. What is one thing you wish to do most now?
slacking and sleeping! LOLx. enjoying my life out somewhere.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
someone who will always be there for me (impossible to be there forever though) and listen to whatever i want to say. someone who is friendly and caring. probably crazy friend like JOYCE =X HAHA. cause they definitely brighten my day by making me laugh all the time.

#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
pangseh kia! =x LOLx. i dont like people who always pangseh. as in seriously last minute pangseh. and people who are only think of themselves and not for others. cant think of any other thing right now. HAHA.

ok. im going to tag.
1. NATALIE
2. YVONNE
actually got more people to tag one. but they dont hav tagboard! my god. ok. JIAYAN n JOYCE. if u all ever visit my blog. HAHA. =)

some photos taken during modesto's dinner wif 4e4 pple.
LOLx. not alot of pple went yeah.
still waiting for valerie's photo! haha.


these are the pple who went for the dinner =)


the girls! haha.



mi n ger. editted by her. =)


haha. mi n jonny. i tink first time taking photo wif him. LOLx.

Better In Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Go in, come in, thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one, thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

How could I turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me?
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming, don't wanna let, hurt my feelings
But that's the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you
Yes, I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to, yes, I do
(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

oh yes! LOLx. finally can post again le.
its friday! my god. nowadays can oni look forward to friday.
LOLx. i tink today im v happy lei. i dunno y.
did i say i get back my maths paper oredi??
OMG. 9 marks careless la. i keep reminding myself.
haha. mayb i shldnt. doesnt make my life any betta.
i didnt get an A unfortunately. but at least got a B la.
not so bad. if i get C i tink i will be damn sad la. LOLx.

just now my PW group had an interview wif Ms Leong.
my god. i so feel like dying juz now. LOLx.
not bcoz of Ms Leong la.
its just dat my CCA got AGM yet im gonna b late.
being one of the exco i shldnt b la. ya.
so i faster finish the interview then chiong to AGM.
LOLx. ok la. the interview i feel quite ok.
im satisfied. n i tink Ms Leong provide us a lot of useful information.
thank her so much. i tink shes quite nice. haha.
aft the AGM was farewell buffet for the seniors n Mr Tan.
the food quite ok la i tink. haha. im full!
i realli did grow fat ok. a little bit oso call grow wat.
haha. come on pple. juz believe mi. LOLx.
aft the buffet we play captains ball!
my god. its so fun n shiok la. haha.
we playing the whole AJ square.
its like big?? LOLx. we had great fun.
though my face n mouth kana hit by ball.
aiya. as usual la. its always liddat. haha.

i got my new shoe oredi. YES! like finally?
haha. but i dunno whether i will be used to it.
watever. it is not v impt.

tml is my nephew first month!
i tink we are going to eat seafood for dinner ba.
actually i cant eat seafood one. haha.
i dun even noe whether im realli allergic to it la.
coz sometimes can eat sometimes canot.
but i tink. juz eat lo. my parents always ask mi eat.
haha. but i dun hav any special liking for seafood.
its not a muz for mi to eat seafood.
i dun mind not having it =) haha.
i bought a damn cute shirt for him!
LOLx. i nvr buy for my first nephew. feel v bad.
haha. buy for my second nephew lo.
im gonna hav a niece tis end of year.
but i will oni c her nxt yr CNY.
coz second sis in taiwan now yeah. LOLx.
will b back for CNY nxt yr. juz to let us c the baby.
now my first sis in taiwan oso. shopping.
this is the shirt.

damn cute rit!?!? LOLx. juz say yes.

if i got the time i shall post some stuff in my class blog.
muz motivate the class to do well! haha.
i tink my class is having fun tgt. realli.
but some pple. always disappoint the teachers n everything.
ok. shall tok abt tis more in my class blog. haha.

i dunno whether i truly forget.
i just never realli tink abt it.
or mayb i just dun hav the time to tink.

its weekends! i got juz a bit of time to post.
LOLx. im motivated to study!
sound so mugger. but its ok la.
today went to study wif huimin.
did chem energetics n graphing techniques.
my god. my mind almost burst la.
im tinkin so hard for graphing techniques.
dats when i noe im dead. haha.
the topics r getting harder n harder.
which means. we hav to work harder n harder as well.
its ok. we shall JIAYOU ba. LOLx.
i dunno whether i shld go out tml.
i feel like relaxing. but deres alot to do oso.
besides going out too much is kinda sian =x

huimin now got a rich bf.
i noe i shld b happy for her.
but i dun realli agree wif her way of life now.
i shall not say it out here.
but i guess i hav difficulty telling her wat i meant.
u noe. to save money n not waste it.

oh ya. we went to amk dat mac again. LOLx.
suddenly i tink of HL. hmm. kinda random.
but im seriously glad dat hes different now.
n hes realli doing well now.
its been long since he visited my blog.
i guess he wun b able to c tis anyway. haha.

anyway. i reach home today n saw my another thermometer.
LOLx. i realise the one i tot spoilt is my super old one.
n now i found my thermometer. its still working!
i dun hav to spend $4 buying it la.
a reminder to nat. rmb ur thermometer! LOLx.
dat is if she c it la.

i wan to write friendship card!
but i dunno whether i got enough paper.
mayb nd to go buy oredi. LOLx.
for alot of pple ok. SMITS cass ger mayb huimin jon.
my god. its a total of 9 pple. haha.

i guess i nd to send a little bit more time wif my dog.

oh man. its super early now. LOLx.
guess y im awake. coz i slp at 9plus yesterday =x
sorie to those who tok to mi on msn.
i didnt reply coz i was slping! LOLx.
cant blame la. i was quite sick n tired yesterday.
it was a bad day. coz i get back 2 lousy papers.
LOLx. econs n chem. my god.
totally disappointed wif chem.
its a pass. but its a shit pass. totaly unacceptable.
as expected. im gonna fail econs badly. n i did.
LOLx. told u pple to trust mi dat i will fail.
when i say im gonna fail im gonna fail.
coz im the one taking the paper.
n i noe how badly or well i hav done.
i will nvr say i fail n end up get a C. Lolx.
my god. jc life is too busy man.
i oni hav time to post like once a week?? haha.
but betta than nth la.
i hav so much to say lo.

ok. lets tok abt the other betta papers dat i got back tis week.
LOLx. not exactly v good. but im satisfied.
for GP. D is definitely not good. but im glad dat i pass.
in fact my whole class pass! LOLx. great job man.
then for bio. i totally got a shocked.
its juz like my O level.
i leave blanks n feel like dying whne doing the paper.
i manage to get a B. totally shocked. but im happy =)
then chinese. LOLx. i kinda forget wat i expect for it aft the paper.
but all along i wanted an A. so yeah. got an A. =p
ok. oni left maths now. die lo. no hope oredi.
my class oni one got A. LOLx.
which means i can oni hope for B now.
not alot get B oso. oh man. i hav to pray hard.
i hav v high expectation for maths la.
wat if i got a C?? i tink i will b v sad.
but no la. not to the extent of crying la. LOLx.
i nvr cry ove results b4. although im disappointed sometimes.
im always disappointed wif chem. same for O.
how can my bio ever b betta than my chem tis time??
LOLx. i realli wonder.
im more confident wif chem la.
cant believe it. but nvm. im gonna buck up!
mug for promos!!!! LOLx.
pple who fail papers like mi or worse than mi.
muz jiayou tgt n do well during promos! haha.
yes. i hav the motivation again =)

oh ya. hav to thanks huimin for buying things for mi from australia.
n cassandra. for giving mi my belated birthday present. haha.
dun mean to suan u ok. but ya. thanks for the bracelet.
not bad ah. till now still can get birthday present.
LOLx. who wan to b nxt?? =x kidding!

oh ya. today's binghong's birthday! LOLx.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BIONG!
but then he wun c it i guess. haha.
hmm. i tink its time to write friendship card.
i wanted to do it since mid years is over.
till now. i nvr had the time to write.
since tis week got a longer weekends. shall write it. haha.

today prob meeting huimin to study.
but i wonder wat time she will wake up again.
LOLx. always slp at midnight 2.
like she can wake up early the nxt day?? haha.
or mayb i will b meeting my sec 2 class pple.
simeon is back in spore again.
but i dunno. like not many gals going.

sometimes its realli difficult for mi.
coz i hav different cliques.
i mean. sec 2 clique. daredevils.
sec 4 cliques wif cass they all.
now in jc oso. SMITS. LOLx.
ok. shall not put too personal things here.
i will write dat in the friendship card =) haha.

i hav to tok abt some pple.
not realli pointing to a particular person.
but juz anyone who tink dat their life is terrible??
who tink dat he/she is the oni one suffering in the world.
he/she shld start reflecting.
dun say until ur life is so miserable.
seriously. u r not the oni one.
but u choose to tink dat u r the oni one.
stop complaining all the time like everyone owes u.
stop saying u r the oni one doing work n others r not.
coz the fact is. we are.
but i guess u cant stop tokin abt how much u hav suffered.
watever. pple who r reading tis sure tink dat im tokin abt someone.
actually i am. but dat someone will nvr read my blog.
she dun even noe abt it. LOLx.
so pple who r reading. u noe im not tokin abt u. haha.
i guess nat n sy noe who im tokin abt.
if u all rmb wat i say dat day.

cats r cute.
too bad dat they r not as faithful as dogs.