altogether 8. i love tis 3 the most. yet i get the most hurt frm them as well. deres wrong in treating someone too gd?? deres wrong in loving someone too much?? somehow. watever i hav done for them r not being appreciated. i did get back in return. happy times. but i tink most of it is hurt. u all will regret mahx?? im dumb. rit. believe in pple too easily. loving tis 3 so much who ended up hurting mi.

history repeating itself. for 3 times. bcoz of tis 3 guys. issit realli bcoz deres something wrong wif mi?? issit my fault?? or the guys simply r not devoted enough. when the very 3rd time happen once again. it change my tinkin totally. i was once so damn believe in love. in watever the guys say. now no longer anymore. watever they say. i will start askin myself. is dat the truth?? will couples nowadays realli last?? i will start telling myself. watever they say r untrue. its all lies. promises r nth to them. they alwaz break it in the end. when they dun wan u anymore. when they start to lose interest in u. they juz throw u to one corner. in the dark corner. all by urself. arrow shooting towards u. so hurting. i once trusted them so much. pple tink im stupid. yet now. i lose trust in them.

the very first one. i hav to say. i miss him up till now. realli. he will nvr noe. bcoz its alwaz in my heart. he wun b able to come to tis blog. he will nvr noe wat im tinkin. he will nvr c wat i hav written. he broke my heart. but aint dat bad. juz for a short while?? at least aft dat he realise everything. but i doubt i can ever c him again.

the second one lei. i hav to say. when break i cry like hell. as if im dying. mayb bcoz of tis. 50-70% of the love is gone ba. dats y now i oni hav a little bit of feelings left. i hav to say sorie. bcoz hes realli gd. yeah. but i dun tink i can hav him. i oni hope he can b happy ba.

the last one. i dunno wat to say. i dunno how i feel at all. sometimes i feel nth. sometimes i feel a bit of pain. but i noe v well. among the 3 i treat him the best. i realli hav to say dat. dats y when break. i keep tinkin. my fault?? i seriously tink i treat him v gd le. if the way i treat him isnt gd enough. he can find a betta one. i hav nth to say. realli. if its realli a betta one i dun mind then. i noe i hav done my best. not as if im the one unfaithful. but the weird thing is he will nvr regret. i treat him the best. yet he feel nth rit now.
imagine. he sick i pei him go c doc. i buy lunch for him. i help him wif his work. i buy a notebook for him so dat he can organise his time well. i help him copy lyrics when he say he wan it. i waited for him when he got extra lesson. i dunno got wat else. still not gd??
mayb realli not gd ba. im not saying dat he dun treat mi gd la. yes. he treat mi gd too. not the best though. but contented le. i dunno wats wrong. but its juz liddat. i dunno bcoz of wat. i dun wanna noe either. it will oni make mi feel even worse. mayb he shld juz say he dun love mi enough or mayb not at all. yeah. then mayb im stupid to tink so far in the first place. if he tink got more suitable de, betta ones, he realli love one. then go ahead lo. gd luck to him then. hope he realli noe wats love lo.